這一晚,我們弄了四道菜──蒸倉魚、蒸雞翅、白灼蝦、髮菜冬菇炆蠔豉。這跟以前的團年飯有點不同,以前是蒸石斑、原隻蒸雞、還有咕嚕蝦球──石斑絕種了、少了一個大胃王的食量,兩個人吃不下整隻雞、咕嚕蝦球太複雜,沒人懂得做,因此只剩髮菜冬菇炆蠔豉這道菜能保持原汁原味,不過整體份量似乎比當年減了一半以上,因此菜放到餐桌上的氣勢比以前遜多了。除了人手不足,一來老媽年紀大,已經吃不了那麼多,二來我亦很久未試過認真下廚弄一頓節慶飯。自我離家以來,弄下肚的不是外面的餿水飯就是泡麵,充其量閒時炒個飯或者炒即食麵,是與某四足動物同住之後,才會去吃壽司跟自助火鍋──啊......還有海鮮。436Please respect copyright.PENANAhJkPOKtGrD
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晚飯時候,氣溫更進一步下降,我們連吃飯都穿著羽絨大衣,菜尚未吃就已開始涼了。幸好家中有暖風機,還有電鍋,最後我們索性把幾道菜統統倒進電鍋內邊加熱邊吃,原來的四道菜,就這樣變成了一道雜煮。我們一邊吃、一邊看著電視,看來是綜藝節目之類的東西,節目內的人我都沒多少印象了,因此有點淡而無味;倒是老媽看得興高采烈、邊看邊笑,令我驀然回想起老媽從小就是個電視迷,每日三餐都要有電視機這道菜式,難怪家中始終保留著那部電視機。436Please respect copyright.PENANAwtBS35q5PS
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吃飯期間,我問了老媽不少往事。老爸在我離開後,表面上還是裝作一副亳不在意的樣子,不過日子一長,似乎還是心軟下來想把我找回來,不過那時我大概已經將電話號碼更換了,所以想找也找不著。老爸亦似乎明白到原來自己到底有多無知,看來他不是存心惹我,而是真的完全不清楚我在想啥。至於老媽,這段日子當然有嘗試找我,她問過學校跟同學,不過當然無功而還,毫無頭緒之下最終亦只能放棄。看來我還真的不孝耶......而自老爸失蹤後,老媽就一直獨守空房,幸好她尚算人面廣、茶客朋友又多,因此這段日子總算撐得下去,萬幸的是她還守的住原先的工作,因此還不至於無以為生。雖然我跟老爸倆都不在,但家媽每年這段時間還是會準備年糕跟魚,要是我們萬一突然回來,至少還有一點準備,就算最後我們沒有回來,她也能自己吃掉而不浪費。436Please respect copyright.PENANAC9y42Bpzd7
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至於我,我能夠說的,都盡量跟老媽說了。不論是一開始幾年的生活,還是跟豬頭相遇的事,都簡略憶述了,當然會讓人擔心的部份大都被我刪掉就是。「我的媳婦茶就這樣被打翻囉......」老媽果然一下子就扯到那麼遠了,不過無論如何,一切都已經無法回頭了,可能這就是我的宿命吧。436Please respect copyright.PENANA82CiiOBDZD
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晚飯過後,我幫老媽洗碗,然後陪她看完那個綜藝節目才離開。原本我就打算獨自踏出門就走的,因為戶外冷極了,不過老媽堅持要送我到公寓外為止,似乎是「有些話」還未說完。436Please respect copyright.PENANAf3YIqwimAI
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我們倆全副武裝的站在大閘旁的一角,燈光一閃一閃的戶外看不見任何人影,大概都因為嚴寒瑟縮在家了,只有我們倆不怕死走出去。436Please respect copyright.PENANABT17VYxF6p
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「你還是快點回去吧,你抖得像奶凍了。」老媽雖然已經從頭裹到腳跟,但我還是隱約察覺到厚裝下的她冷得在打顫,我怕她會感冒。436Please respect copyright.PENANA0G33ofUu8r
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「不要緊......沒事。」老媽寧可捱著冷也要跟我說,似乎是非說不可的話吧。436Please respect copyright.PENANAmaTqT2UOnq
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「你這次回來,是要跟我告別吧?」436Please respect copyright.PENANAg1Fi5Oruf7
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老媽這句話,像是透穿我的心臟一樣,使我的心兀然悸動了一下。436Please respect copyright.PENANAqorlagsTfG
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「咦?我是回來探望你啊,怎麼變成告別了?」此刻,我仍然堅持死撐下去,但似乎已經不管用了。436Please respect copyright.PENANAcddAD9nKgt
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「你這麼多年來,既無來電亦無回家,今年卻突然無聲無色的回來,還不是在特別日子,肯定是有某些原因吧。要是你真的生活順境、或者升職,我相信你早就回來一趟了。以你的脾性,特地回來向你老爸示威也不奇怪。」436Please respect copyright.PENANA23Bh4zBJ6F
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「............」老媽似乎從一開始就看穿了我的想法。理智上,反駁的說話何患無辭;但我頓時丟失了反駁的意志。436Please respect copyright.PENANAFK3QiLi5PB
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「你是我生的,你老爸粗枝大葉不了解你,但你瞞不過我。最初開門的時候,我真的驚呆了,心中只在想到底自己是否在做夢、還是年紀大看到幻覺。只不過,當你說是為了跟你老爸道歉而回來的時候,我就開始想,從小到大疏遠老爸、打老爸不手軟、罵老爸不心軟的你,怎麼可能無事無幹的突然轉性。你明明當時就說你老爸一日在生,你就不會回來,現在竟然特意回來為了跟老爸道歉。自你離家到你老爸被抓之前,你們都完全沒再接觸過,根本沒可能毫無因由的就和好了。」436Please respect copyright.PENANA56h3uRg2lY
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老媽,你教我如何向你說出事實......?直至今日我才知道,原來我將要做的事,就是當年老爸要做的事。我知道,就算我現在臨陣退縮,從此窩回老家讓你照顧,你大概也無任歡迎;但要是我臨陣失蹤,一定會引起注意,最後可能只會將當時逃出生天的你,再次捲進那個深淵之中。抱歉......但我從一開始就已經無路可選,是命運牽著我一步一步的走到如今的位置。436Please respect copyright.PENANA1goDNyD5mN
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「......抱歉啊......我的確是有些事不能說。」436Please respect copyright.PENANA0ttPz7Owfi
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「是會有危險的事吧?」老媽明明就知道,但她仍處之泰然,絲毫沒有阻止我的意思,「縱使我不讓你去,也是沒意義的,你還是小鬼的時候就已經說走就走,現在更加不可能管的住你吧,對不?......雖然,你遺傳了老媽我的優點,樣子還是跟以前沒多大分別,只不過,你的確已經不再是那個時候的泰了。」436Please respect copyright.PENANAEDndX6D0x4
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「......」我沒有回答,是根本沒有回答的必要,還是不敢將答案說出口?事到如今,我已經沒甚麼能夠給老媽了,我已經是兩手空空見老媽,不想還要為她送麻煩。436Please respect copyright.PENANAyiRI9FFDnv
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「待我處理完那件事之後,我答應你,我一定會回來照顧你。」這可能是我人生最大的一個謊言。436Please respect copyright.PENANAG9v8gKolxO
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突然一陣寒風從耳邊刮過,冷得連我都不禁瑟縮了一下。436Please respect copyright.PENANANPMGBtFZdm
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「你剛剛在說甚麼?」436Please respect copyright.PENANAPbQyiuA2fT
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「......沒、我沒說話,你聽錯了!我說我一定會等你回來,我會等你帶我去吃自助餐!」436Please respect copyright.PENANAZJUKnQQjGg
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隨著黑夜漸深,冷風亦漸漸加強,使得身體溫感比實際溫度還要冷得多,不應該讓老媽繼續在戶外逗留了。436Please respect copyright.PENANAp0o8OJRgHC
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「風很大──你快回家吧!!夜深了,我要趕公車回家。」我朝近在我面前的老媽大喊。436Please respect copyright.PENANAVslqRW4Fbd
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再見────!!436Please respect copyright.PENANAZWyH1PjvSg
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雖然距離大閘其實只有幾呎,但老媽仍要攝手攝腳、步履蹣跚的才得以回到室內。436Please respect copyright.PENANAeqHZLC4U01
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我望了望手機,已經十點了,到公園的木架內避寒就好,要是讓老媽知道我在街上躺的話,又要讓她多擔心一件事了,希望天亮之前我還未變成冰雕。
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5. and the end - Part 5
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