arrow_back
業渚
more_vert
-
info_outline 資料
-
toc 目錄
-
share 分享
-
format_color_text 介面設置
-
exposure_plus_1 推薦
-
report_problem 檢舉
-
account_circle 登入
X
業渚
作者:
竺蓁

篇 #8
[業渚]夢中的情話
75Please respect copyright.PENANAs4XDEFdQbC
75Please respect copyright.PENANA7xVRHXfyL1
75Please respect copyright.PENANA6xpuvC1eWO
0175Please respect copyright.PENANAYBHrBM6DWR
75Please respect copyright.PENANAY8v13imo77
75Please respect copyright.PENANA6n2qOHVjio
75Please respect copyright.PENANAtjbbNOhVeJ
赤羽業一如往常的沖泡咖啡加奶精加糖,他慣於在這時候放空腦袋休息,即便是在這時候,他依然如此。75Please respect copyright.PENANAatAslFTp2v
75Please respect copyright.PENANAPieaKsLVx0
攪拌咖啡時他看見自己的倒影迴轉在波紋中,意外的竟可以清晰反射出他面部的表情,是一個相當平靜的情緒,他本以為自己會是一副靜靜發著怒火的神情,然而,事實並非如此。75Please respect copyright.PENANAdEoMnKH9q6
75Please respect copyright.PENANANcZm8KWeUv
和表情同樣,他的內心此刻也靜謐的像火種熄滅似的,只有一縷青煙騰空散去。75Please respect copyright.PENANAU0jQFYYbLA
75Please respect copyright.PENANAs3tMZqVvjB
他不禁想,自己比起中學時候確實是成熟了些——尤其在看到娛樂版頭條醒目的標語之後,還能做些和普通日常無異的行為,而不是在那裡懊惱與憤恨——自己單戀了十幾年的人和當紅女明星傳出緋聞,作為證據,報導還放上兩人前往某溫泉旅館時的同遊照片。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJxCpzxWoYM
75Please respect copyright.PENANA0cpGnMcQiS
75Please respect copyright.PENANAaeYbGwmS6F
75Please respect copyright.PENANAT6INRsYS1i
赤羽業啜飲著咖啡醒腦,明天他有一場重要的議會質詢,為了這場質詢,他能掌握的資料都已經準備妥當,務必成功達陣。75Please respect copyright.PENANACzbFMm5YQ0
75Please respect copyright.PENANAEVEfVDwBcp
在迅速打著資料重點時,赤羽業想起以前看過的動畫,裡面一句台詞就是在說明成熟與不成熟的差異,成熟的人接受事實不再反抗,不成熟的人則繼續頑強抵抗。75Please respect copyright.PENANA3N1nVLRioi
75Please respect copyright.PENANARNOf4aDeez
若然是以前的自己,肯定是會選擇反抗吧,然而自己並沒有選擇那樣幼稚的作法,大概就是成熟。75Please respect copyright.PENANAtRRAQXLrLw
75Please respect copyright.PENANAlYFVIVjYIJ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAtOVBPbg6Zb
75Please respect copyright.PENANAgQh6Bbs84A
身後傳來同事們閱讀報紙之後的各種驚呼,他聞所未聞,繼續著自己的工作。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVyZhEgRj2X
75Please respect copyright.PENANAbRn60FdQDg
75Please respect copyright.PENANA4893ULC3FQ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAX5tRuO5ZiV
0275Please respect copyright.PENANAFfs7IxVczW
75Please respect copyright.PENANAUA8MCBdDhh
75Please respect copyright.PENANAdI8sB7bIo2
75Please respect copyright.PENANAwekCmObXlU
過了二十五歲之後,除了工作,赤羽業經常回想的就是一些有關於潮田渚的相處片段。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzJEuapVWLw
75Please respect copyright.PENANAyUBTqonIRE
75Please respect copyright.PENANA2S1cJJCsvd
75Please respect copyright.PENANATAXsIA4x3w
最初只是一個留著長髮、綁著馬尾、笑起來有些虛幻的少年,放眼望去很容易在眾人中淹沒的稀薄存在感,卻因那時的偶然,令他目光全然留在他身上。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJeUqidQOTP
75Please respect copyright.PENANA0rZaFghfIc
赤羽業從來沒有對潮田渚說過,他對他最初的印象來自於某個放學後的黃昏教室,當時他出了校門憶起遺漏了作業本,便趕緊回教室欲拿取,剛好教室大門尚未關上,他正要踏入之時卻被眼前景緻停住腳步——逢魔時刻的色彩渲染整間教室,在他目光所及之處的人,綁著馬尾,藍色髮絲裡滲透著金黃色,背對著他。75Please respect copyright.PENANAIysjuIbaKG
75Please respect copyright.PENANALwCPZcEIhx
彷彿愛麗絲的兔子洞,誘惑著好奇的孩子一探究竟。75Please respect copyright.PENANAe5Dj0t56sY
75Please respect copyright.PENANAgSLdutbWRl
日後,他經常回想的就是那樣的場景,靜謐的時刻裡,看著遠方夕陽沈落的少年。75Please respect copyright.PENANA59Q0sVO7Ea
75Please respect copyright.PENANAxbfH4oQ7y0
假如那時候,更靠近些,或許便能得知少年那時在思考的事情了吧。 75Please respect copyright.PENANA952jNrmmnc
75Please respect copyright.PENANA7LD8Nw6sdC
赤羽業不只一次地這麼揣想。75Please respect copyright.PENANAL7M4xCSe7w
75Please respect copyright.PENANAM7TOxlE64i
更靠近些,也就更能了解少年了,或者,讓少年想靠近自己,這份從那時便持續的單戀或許就能劃下結果——無論是否如願,至少不用懷抱揣想,一驚一顫地。75Please respect copyright.PENANAdWfKWPZl5f
75Please respect copyright.PENANAhGYEWj5gvD
75Please respect copyright.PENANAGWdF2O2jjs
75Please respect copyright.PENANArHpQxeDCG2
0375Please respect copyright.PENANAJSfl5wypu8
75Please respect copyright.PENANAXwYKCG52BJ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAT5x8Bij80i
75Please respect copyright.PENANADGvhdZfJZf
結束了一整天的工作,赤羽業走出辦公室時已滿天星斗。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJdWzoh8YpM
75Please respect copyright.PENANAapD8y9TYVl
冷咧的風吹來,寒的讓人哆嗦,迎風而行的他卻忽然笑了,抑不可止的笑了,剝落了從早上就武裝的情緒笑了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAABojNfX7II
75Please respect copyright.PENANARqDAqRPVUJ
隨著緊繃情緒忽然的潰堤,他感覺到溫熱的液體從自己的臉龐滑落。75Please respect copyright.PENANAqGkRv5tV0x
75Please respect copyright.PENANAT6dx4l0eiJ
他想自己的確是很難受,不然一向不輕易落淚的他怎會突然無法阻止地不斷掉淚,弔詭是自己臉上還是一副笑容,而他知道自己是真心地露出笑容的。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5gZMPqUkYv
75Please respect copyright.PENANA1aa165WsUC
75Please respect copyright.PENANAmXfBRVHA0K
75Please respect copyright.PENANAUzFa27AYLy
原來,再怎麼了解自己,終究還是會有無法理解的地方——就像小說角色因各種情緒的混雜那樣,他又笑又哭。75Please respect copyright.PENANAiUGTVh5gm9
75Please respect copyright.PENANAgSGh7UzhvY
而他以為自己不會。75Please respect copyright.PENANApbjJjcs522
75Please respect copyright.PENANA6YG38780i6
他本來以為自己不會的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAdYMwzhsz7W
75Please respect copyright.PENANA1zE1VhgxTO
75Please respect copyright.PENANAVQ7q1VkhME
75Please respect copyright.PENANAvDR1w1IcnA
不過就是喜歡的人似乎有了喜歡的對象,而那個對象偏偏不是自己罷了,沒什麼大不了的。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4QehoTBXGh
75Please respect copyright.PENANAAz8ttXltdW
沒什麼大不了的,不是嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANAStLJDsGHze
75Please respect copyright.PENANA3uKG27lv5f
不是嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANA2CEGADxjqd
75Please respect copyright.PENANA1D66VXsbic
75Please respect copyright.PENANA6NiQHgR72Y
75Please respect copyright.PENANALbQHS8CoVT
0475Please respect copyright.PENANAn2lZfQXqiN
75Please respect copyright.PENANAFySNsPgphE
75Please respect copyright.PENANAFX7fwNEPdR
75Please respect copyright.PENANA2ifeisjcV1
赤羽業中學之後常常會夢到潮田渚。75Please respect copyright.PENANAnnbHukId1z
75Please respect copyright.PENANAuPmWngujd5
綁著馬尾的他,升上中學三年級之後的他,留著短髮的他。75Please respect copyright.PENANAIHRgWJkj5u
75Please respect copyright.PENANAUdMMMyKSPW
無論哪一個他,只要看到他,潮田渚都會露出笑容往他而來,並說著美妙的話語,是只能在夢裡聽見的情話。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8WfNnwpbmf
75Please respect copyright.PENANAo9KjJrH9Ys
75Please respect copyright.PENANAu47oJBzoFL
75Please respect copyright.PENANAOVQF9MfwJP
所以,在住家周圍見到早上才在報紙裡看到的人出現的時候,赤羽業恍惚還以為自己疲累到走著睡著了——尤其,對方還一臉笑容的往自己走過來時,簡直重現了夢境場景。75Please respect copyright.PENANAf1Zposou2D
75Please respect copyright.PENANAFmywrWMdZU
75Please respect copyright.PENANAi1mNXxUJLA
75Please respect copyright.PENANAOb8B960GOp
「業,你今天好晚回來啊。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAZKdfICkwcr
75Please respect copyright.PENANAVgAj83Byix
雖然擺著一張笑容,然而赤羽業敏銳感覺到那笑顏下潛藏著的疲憊。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwI2nO84VeF
75Please respect copyright.PENANA4E0T8HwG5V
啊啊,是這麼回事嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANAPDvEcrTEa4
75Please respect copyright.PENANAXKxZViMger
難得的,赤羽業對自己洞悉人性這一點感到厭惡。75Please respect copyright.PENANA779X28kMgP
75Please respect copyright.PENANAcDRWiCHOtX
「明天有重要的質詢,所以剛剛還在處理。」他頓了頓,並沒想戳破什麼地裝傻「渚,這麼晚了,你怎麼會來呢?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA1OX19r2sgb
75Please respect copyright.PENANAbFvQnZYQGn
「……原來,業沒有看到報紙嗎?」不知道是放心還是懊惱,潮田渚呼了口氣「今天我下班回家時,發現家裡附近躲著好幾個記者,大概是想來打聽些事情吧」言至此,赤羽業難得見到潮田渚露出苦笑「而我的父母貌似也被騷擾了,便傳簡訊讓我今天別回家去別處躲著,等過個幾天就會沒事了。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAs7xuJkcKu0
75Please respect copyright.PENANAm57MxxehjS
75Please respect copyright.PENANA3RFexRwtaz
75Please respect copyright.PENANAiTjKX3hE3h
潮田渚的言詞閃爍,大概是有些顧慮吧。75Please respect copyright.PENANA62a9PvaWUj
75Please respect copyright.PENANAExTiDDXMea
他並沒有興致去讓自己受傷,因此潮田渚言詞隱蔽的那些內容,儘管他猜得出來,他也不想直接聽到當事人直接說出。75Please respect copyright.PENANADG5sD7ZK4F
75Please respect copyright.PENANA7zg01CDtrJ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAU5Wg8kqCPn
75Please respect copyright.PENANARhSKHUVRVn
「所以,你想在我這裡待個幾天,是這樣的意思嗎?」他直接點出結論。確實自己之前經常拖著潮田渚灌酒,家裡是有一些渚的換洗衣物跟被子。要是他是渚也會選擇一樣的事情,一來不用花錢住在酒店裡,二來也比較方便。75Please respect copyright.PENANAD2kkVugG84
75Please respect copyright.PENANAINVh1Bybdq
「對,畢竟,我沒有其他可以拜託的人了。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAC2yDzyOtRn
75Please respect copyright.PENANAfSJfyMDnwj
赤羽業聽了之後直覺渚在說謊,然而卻找不出任何感覺奇怪的地方。75Please respect copyright.PENANA8T1XGEI7fv
75Please respect copyright.PENANAhn4KF9EFjx
要論交情,自己的確是可以勝任的,然而說找不到人可以拜託?E班的感情在共經患難之後,是非常堅實的,除了自己之外,渚還有很多人可以拜託,想必他們也會十分樂意的(當然,肯定包含看戲的成份)。75Please respect copyright.PENANA9wpupUlT58
75Please respect copyright.PENANAnzAHn461SA
只是,渚的為難似乎也是真的,他似乎是真的找不到其他可以拜託的人——是以,才會沒有任何告知,就跑來他家外面等他,而他甚至不知道他會幾點回來地在寒風中等著。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJAhIuROazJ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAauEccspimM
75Please respect copyright.PENANA4Pk5qqecyz
75Please respect copyright.PENANAWtlhguPsDu
「我知道了,你就在我這裡躲個幾天吧。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAMyomwrNZil
75Please respect copyright.PENANAkxIknnz3vi
75Please respect copyright.PENANAkosb8wHo3U
75Please respect copyright.PENANAL7RL3kFKL3
赤羽業有時會想,假如記憶可以回放,那麼潮田渚在他應允之後的那個畫面,他肯定會重溫數次——潮田渚喜出望外地抱住他,透過衣服傳來的溫熱,他曉得渚十分高興,雖然他還感覺到更深層次的欣喜,而那個欣喜在之後才能明白。75Please respect copyright.PENANASlInnVl2Sq
75Please respect copyright.PENANAe4rMgoHe5Q
75Please respect copyright.PENANAYa5NMESwYB
75Please respect copyright.PENANA8kA3lAZ1Y2
當時的他僅僅是以為渚對於他讓他躲在他家裡這件事情感謝而已,直到後來發現誤會一場,他聽見和夢裡一樣的話語時,他才明白那時感覺到的謊言與欣喜的意義。75Please respect copyright.PENANAfPme6Y7vPR
75Please respect copyright.PENANAaJt8Tuairc
75Please respect copyright.PENANAYv1ePjdXQS
75Please respect copyright.PENANAE1FM2PyU1X
75Please respect copyright.PENANAn3Js8vPmlR
75Please respect copyright.PENANAbjitnBzgLk
75Please respect copyright.PENANAEnI8TyhotQ
75Please respect copyright.PENANAEeoG3OYV0Q
75Please respect copyright.PENANApTnnLAGdiL
75Please respect copyright.PENANAwDnX4Vqthi
75Please respect copyright.PENANAjub5XMBwcw
75Please respect copyright.PENANAnjRapBIJtx
75Please respect copyright.PENANAcgRWOKm7pa
75Please respect copyright.PENANAS0BH3qnyn2
75Please respect copyright.PENANAHeuZj9iWzN
75Please respect copyright.PENANAnEZmKME72L
75Please respect copyright.PENANAHQVpWBIPAD
75Please respect copyright.PENANAtfZWYJMSH6
75Please respect copyright.PENANA5pXy1sxofe
75Please respect copyright.PENANAcuAg424vjL
75Please respect copyright.PENANAX9rLHhR2wT
75Please respect copyright.PENANAWgchIQJxHG
75Please respect copyright.PENANAAlinFloMXA
75Please respect copyright.PENANA5TzB9H5DJF
75Please respect copyright.PENANA0AO7QaLmXe
75Please respect copyright.PENANAqJSuh4GoSI
75Please respect copyright.PENANAiuJw3TI3v7
75Please respect copyright.PENANAa354L614tc
***75Please respect copyright.PENANA3u6AfiVTDb
75Please respect copyright.PENANAJihgHetMFn
75Please respect copyright.PENANAAOnGGSRHA6
75Please respect copyright.PENANADwYcIohEbm
「二十五歲時,赤羽業看見了自己單戀的人出現在報紙的版面上,那是一個和女明星緋聞的版面。從十三歲和少年相遇的時候,他這一份單戀就開始了。直到年老,他從來也沒說出口。沒有人知道的戀情不存在,所以他只是陪在潮田渚的身邊,他陪了多久,這份單戀就多久。六十五歲時,赤羽業還是陪在喜歡的人身邊。直到老死前,他都沒有說出口。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAynyX23tcsa
75Please respect copyright.PENANAA3akioIy6q
以上是我寫文的最初動機與結構。以業的角度出發的單戀,只是,業對於這份戀情並沒有想放手一搏,以致於他和渚的關係始終在非常奇妙的情況。原設定中的渚也並沒有結婚,從業的角度無法知道渚的內心,所以並不能明白渚不結婚的原因。75Please respect copyright.PENANAqaN2ctYLBH
75Please respect copyright.PENANAzlYFgVIqsv
不過寫文寫著就會出現慣性,所以最後還是回到不太遺憾的層面。75Please respect copyright.PENANATlnDdpShjL
75Please respect copyright.PENANAEBMreyNh1C
以前跟徘徊討論過,對於業渚,業必須處於主動才能得到好結果,假如兩個都沒有意識到,儘管遺憾但也不太虐,然而一方清醒一方迴避,那就有趣了。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4Rb8sGCwXW
75Please respect copyright.PENANA8zKT1j5Q5X
這文章大概有涉及到這一層面的討論。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4pDXC1RFiu
75Please respect copyright.PENANAKk9cYIs3Nq
謝謝觀賞與指教!ns216.73.216.224da2
喜歡 0
閱讀 71
書籤 0

按此加載下一章
×
寫下你喜歡這個故事的地方
×
對此喜歡的人