也許是因為太專注於此,他沒有注意到門外有人悄悄靠近,然後就站在門前駐足了一陣子才輕巧離去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAW5oeO7sk5y
41Please respect copyright.PENANAoxsqTik5O8
細小的光粒子從門縫中溜入,在不被發現的情況下貼服神田的墨黑衣擺、亞連攤在枕上的潔白髮梢,光澤暗去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcAJ04R2bRP
41Please respect copyright.PENANAIvOirocr9V
……41Please respect copyright.PENANAaIzoJbfla0
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAwNY4ATfab
41Please respect copyright.PENANAQECl9nmOde
41Please respect copyright.PENANAUP3IdXwnAi
從來沒有看過如此乾淨的色彩和清澈的眸子──41Please respect copyright.PENANA9dCueWrHct
41Please respect copyright.PENANAKdGyze2Xch
他記起第一次見到白髮少年的那一刻,先是為他純白的髮色驚疑然後是驚艷,接著誤以為是惡魔打了一場,才被趕來的少女阻止。41Please respect copyright.PENANAeQQHfqY3OH
41Please respect copyright.PENANACD4b7F86rf
這似乎註定了,之後他們將吵吵鬧鬧的度過每次見面、相處。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcH4mLlWDD8
41Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1P8iKxqEm
尤其每次刻意惹惱白髮少年,明知道自己的個性被人所詬病反而變本加厲,幾次對著槓接著還為他取了一個綽號──「豆芽菜」。41Please respect copyright.PENANALxaBNnk0Na
41Please respect copyright.PENANAGz8Py1JXCC
很久很久他都是這麼叫著,除了在前方加上一些有的沒的沒營養形容詞,例如白癡、笨蛋……諸如此類。41Please respect copyright.PENANAe7DzwphTzA
41Please respect copyright.PENANAQawbbacph8
……現在回想起來突然覺得自己很幼稚、很愚蠢。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvnjq0uNTmA
41Please respect copyright.PENANATtviuqcA3L
──不過這不是重點,擺一邊先略過、略過。41Please respect copyright.PENANAs3cIfLPUrM
41Please respect copyright.PENANArCIvmp5fc7
然後一起出了幾次任務。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmoFJqzbK7b
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmIq3fEfiGT
第一次一起回收聖潔又因為理念不同暴發衝突,他承認自己個性極差可以見人就吵,但……從沒有哪個人能一再引起他情緒波動,更沒想到少年的眼淚會讓他心悸,雖然當時只是微微睜大雙眼,可是無法忽視心裡的一陣騷動。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPtOcH17uC2
41Please respect copyright.PENANAol96FDVfRx
雖然很快又因為惡魔復起大戰一場,將事情給忽略過去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzTmXPDbswA
41Please respect copyright.PENANAquhc4QtGTB
可是……41Please respect copyright.PENANAn5YiRP3c1x
41Please respect copyright.PENANAe9dihDI3NZ
「神田,如果可以,我還是想當一個可以救人的破壞者。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA91nzrRVkdK
41Please respect copyright.PENANAp4pX7tmxox
一句話,不知為何如此動人、聽著心都痛了,不得不刻進腦海最深處。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3YJGPAqn0j
41Please respect copyright.PENANA8mZK90cFLZ
那時的他也許發現了什麼,但只是沉默看著當作什麼也不曉得。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2fk4oh6Yr
41Please respect copyright.PENANA2fIZxDXB6t
一別之後再見面是很久之後,他這才知道白髮少年「幾乎死過一回」,那時因為忙於和惡魔群對戰,且隨後被捲入亂七八糟的方舟「闖關」旅程,連自己也差點掛上一輪,何況據說曾經掛點的傢伙不時活蹦亂跳的指責他不是。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZYIZOXjuat
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9zZOVzplmF
假裝遺忘了,每一次聽到對方消息的刺痛感受。41Please respect copyright.PENANAL3OH4DC7Zq
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmmUB2LYgcg
一回又一回,他忽略或當作看到自己的心。41Please respect copyright.PENANARc8bc5B9oI
41Please respect copyright.PENANAB1JCMZd5x0
那樣的記憶後來回想起來會有心被撕裂的感受,一個差點成真的消息就能使他如此在乎,如果這是真的呢?他……不敢去想。41Please respect copyright.PENANARpbuou9Kor
41Please respect copyright.PENANAwrJtjve6Ku
原來自己也會逃避。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFZXxBqeqZ9
41Please respect copyright.PENANALSfEUCubIQ
後來、又是後來……他更認識「亞連」這個人,原來也有不輸給自己悲傷過往,他們都不能弄清楚自己到底是誰、到底該定位成怎樣的一個存在?41Please respect copyright.PENANArGfCTLbOsC
41Please respect copyright.PENANASiYl1ISXlk
一起走過更多時光、一起經歷更多事件,雖然仍然吵吵鬧鬧,但如果有人問他是否討厭那名白髮少年……41Please respect copyright.PENANABuG2gYxX1v
41Please respect copyright.PENANAJHlbCA3tWV
如果回答了打從心底厭惡,他無法不心虛。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwWW36hJen1
41Please respect copyright.PENANAexWxOV3ppv
……41Please respect copyright.PENANAOq5LxN5APw
41Please respect copyright.PENANA80Oojqq1oa
這是為什麼?明明那人的個性就是他最厭煩的那種,容易心軟、容易同情,對所有人寬容只對自己殘酷,身上還有惡魔的痕跡……41Please respect copyright.PENANAw7O4sITPMT
41Please respect copyright.PENANATKufIQ1pdH
心底根本一點也不快樂,為什麼要笑?41Please respect copyright.PENANAwT5fUXTFDY
41Please respect copyright.PENANAYex9EWueKO
既然懂得哭泣,為什麼淚水都是為他人而流?41Please respect copyright.PENANAbJJWfTMQsg
41Please respect copyright.PENANAja4CKrk7rc
就算是敵人,只要有任何理由他就要為對方傷心,為什麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAmEtU67BKMj
41Please respect copyright.PENANASofU5AGXr1
反而在自己悲痛欲絕時留不下一滴淚水……總是對所有人微笑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWmyLl5keIt
41Please respect copyright.PENANACztVCFHg9n
這到底是為什麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAoZFNU41RJ6
41Please respect copyright.PENANAcj9AeB2cdh
這樣看不清自己的人他最輕蔑了不是嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAWmXSh02MBk
41Please respect copyright.PENANAOuHa6AGu3R
可是……是不是自己也同樣看不清自己?41Please respect copyright.PENANAp15q5HpMEk
41Please respect copyright.PENANAybOy5tGvqY
過去的傷痛把黑色的瞳孔蒙上一層紗幕,尋尋覓覓他發誓在沒找到「那人」之前決不能死……這樣的自己到底又活得像什麼了?41Please respect copyright.PENANAtYQ8HQSVB5
41Please respect copyright.PENANA44GhS6KJVO
並不完全是那記憶的主人,只能說是那記憶的主人促成他的存在,其實他應該是個完整的個體,卻被午夜夢迴驚醒,背負著不是自己所有的記憶活著,在每人面前建築不需要的牆。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6xjmA0jWN6
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmgw6b2MybI
個性可能真的很冷漠很孤僻,但他做的事卻沒能用這些理由解釋。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmopc4V9TKB
41Please respect copyright.PENANAW4Ekn1hl37
……也該問問自己為什麼了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYbUuhYiPtx
41Please respect copyright.PENANA5e9JvLy2UQ
可不是?41Please respect copyright.PENANAxEWuDNUrve
41Please respect copyright.PENANA034BQ6Fy3v
終於知道自己為什麼討厭他卻說不出隻字片語。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2NTD9TytsR
41Please respect copyright.PENANAGCzGAIQnaZ
原來他討厭別人跟他一樣傻,他們這兩人……真是蠢斃了!41Please respect copyright.PENANAq44vGm7kMV
41Please respect copyright.PENANAt2jMaw0i6S
蠢得讓人不敢相信,而自己莫名在此刻認清。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFsUUnN4fGF
41Please respect copyright.PENANANgm4vS27UJ
過往的畫面一次一次浮現腦海,閉起眼睛不用費力也能看得更清楚,有些刻意忽視的如今想起來清楚的像什麼一樣,雖然不懂……可是心頭幾番掙扎後決定靜下心去體會。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEtlMmdOue7
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9RBi0yKfIN
到底剛剛始終無法靜下心是為了什麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAWjOLkrjUFL
41Please respect copyright.PENANANpgjrZ8Vnc
畫面轉向下一幕,亞連開心的笑容……41Please respect copyright.PENANAEf3nYOuNdb
41Please respect copyright.PENANA2kLAUbYHJA
他喜歡、很喜歡那乾淨清澈、如果可以再更少去一點隱隱不安會更好的……笑容。41Please respect copyright.PENANAURzwmgERRv
41Please respect copyright.PENANA1GeEJnqodG
這就是答案。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEILptZvWOa
41Please respect copyright.PENANA3V09rKUUlz
「……」墨黑的眼在此時睜開,此刻起帶上了過去沒有的神采。41Please respect copyright.PENANAW01dwjCQZ4
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9oPQNojRXD
…………41Please respect copyright.PENANA3v4jD1bVsz
41Please respect copyright.PENANA6Bkasun2XD
……41Please respect copyright.PENANAmPLiuA9kwh
41Please respect copyright.PENANAghcr8MGmUk
41Please respect copyright.PENANATIpVqS39jp
41Please respect copyright.PENANA704wsI3yq5
ns216.73.216.235da241Please respect copyright.PENANAoxsqTik5O8
細小的光粒子從門縫中溜入,在不被發現的情況下貼服神田的墨黑衣擺、亞連攤在枕上的潔白髮梢,光澤暗去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcAJ04R2bRP
41Please respect copyright.PENANAIvOirocr9V
……41Please respect copyright.PENANAaIzoJbfla0
41Please respect copyright.PENANAAwNY4ATfab
41Please respect copyright.PENANAQECl9nmOde
41Please respect copyright.PENANAUP3IdXwnAi
從來沒有看過如此乾淨的色彩和清澈的眸子──41Please respect copyright.PENANA9dCueWrHct
41Please respect copyright.PENANAKdGyze2Xch
他記起第一次見到白髮少年的那一刻,先是為他純白的髮色驚疑然後是驚艷,接著誤以為是惡魔打了一場,才被趕來的少女阻止。41Please respect copyright.PENANAeQQHfqY3OH
41Please respect copyright.PENANACD4b7F86rf
這似乎註定了,之後他們將吵吵鬧鬧的度過每次見面、相處。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcH4mLlWDD8
41Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1P8iKxqEm
尤其每次刻意惹惱白髮少年,明知道自己的個性被人所詬病反而變本加厲,幾次對著槓接著還為他取了一個綽號──「豆芽菜」。41Please respect copyright.PENANALxaBNnk0Na
41Please respect copyright.PENANAGz8Py1JXCC
很久很久他都是這麼叫著,除了在前方加上一些有的沒的沒營養形容詞,例如白癡、笨蛋……諸如此類。41Please respect copyright.PENANAe7DzwphTzA
41Please respect copyright.PENANAQawbbacph8
……現在回想起來突然覺得自己很幼稚、很愚蠢。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvnjq0uNTmA
41Please respect copyright.PENANATtviuqcA3L
──不過這不是重點,擺一邊先略過、略過。41Please respect copyright.PENANAs3cIfLPUrM
41Please respect copyright.PENANArCIvmp5fc7
然後一起出了幾次任務。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmoFJqzbK7b
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmIq3fEfiGT
第一次一起回收聖潔又因為理念不同暴發衝突,他承認自己個性極差可以見人就吵,但……從沒有哪個人能一再引起他情緒波動,更沒想到少年的眼淚會讓他心悸,雖然當時只是微微睜大雙眼,可是無法忽視心裡的一陣騷動。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPtOcH17uC2
41Please respect copyright.PENANAol96FDVfRx
雖然很快又因為惡魔復起大戰一場,將事情給忽略過去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzTmXPDbswA
41Please respect copyright.PENANAquhc4QtGTB
可是……41Please respect copyright.PENANAn5YiRP3c1x
41Please respect copyright.PENANAe9dihDI3NZ
「神田,如果可以,我還是想當一個可以救人的破壞者。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA91nzrRVkdK
41Please respect copyright.PENANAp4pX7tmxox
一句話,不知為何如此動人、聽著心都痛了,不得不刻進腦海最深處。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3YJGPAqn0j
41Please respect copyright.PENANA8mZK90cFLZ
那時的他也許發現了什麼,但只是沉默看著當作什麼也不曉得。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2fk4oh6Yr
41Please respect copyright.PENANA2fIZxDXB6t
一別之後再見面是很久之後,他這才知道白髮少年「幾乎死過一回」,那時因為忙於和惡魔群對戰,且隨後被捲入亂七八糟的方舟「闖關」旅程,連自己也差點掛上一輪,何況據說曾經掛點的傢伙不時活蹦亂跳的指責他不是。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZYIZOXjuat
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9zZOVzplmF
假裝遺忘了,每一次聽到對方消息的刺痛感受。41Please respect copyright.PENANAL3OH4DC7Zq
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmmUB2LYgcg
一回又一回,他忽略或當作看到自己的心。41Please respect copyright.PENANARc8bc5B9oI
41Please respect copyright.PENANAB1JCMZd5x0
那樣的記憶後來回想起來會有心被撕裂的感受,一個差點成真的消息就能使他如此在乎,如果這是真的呢?他……不敢去想。41Please respect copyright.PENANARpbuou9Kor
41Please respect copyright.PENANAwrJtjve6Ku
原來自己也會逃避。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFZXxBqeqZ9
41Please respect copyright.PENANALSfEUCubIQ
後來、又是後來……他更認識「亞連」這個人,原來也有不輸給自己悲傷過往,他們都不能弄清楚自己到底是誰、到底該定位成怎樣的一個存在?41Please respect copyright.PENANArGfCTLbOsC
41Please respect copyright.PENANASiYl1ISXlk
一起走過更多時光、一起經歷更多事件,雖然仍然吵吵鬧鬧,但如果有人問他是否討厭那名白髮少年……41Please respect copyright.PENANABuG2gYxX1v
41Please respect copyright.PENANAJHlbCA3tWV
如果回答了打從心底厭惡,他無法不心虛。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwWW36hJen1
41Please respect copyright.PENANAexWxOV3ppv
……41Please respect copyright.PENANAOq5LxN5APw
41Please respect copyright.PENANA80Oojqq1oa
這是為什麼?明明那人的個性就是他最厭煩的那種,容易心軟、容易同情,對所有人寬容只對自己殘酷,身上還有惡魔的痕跡……41Please respect copyright.PENANAw7O4sITPMT
41Please respect copyright.PENANATKufIQ1pdH
心底根本一點也不快樂,為什麼要笑?41Please respect copyright.PENANAwT5fUXTFDY
41Please respect copyright.PENANAYex9EWueKO
既然懂得哭泣,為什麼淚水都是為他人而流?41Please respect copyright.PENANAbJJWfTMQsg
41Please respect copyright.PENANAja4CKrk7rc
就算是敵人,只要有任何理由他就要為對方傷心,為什麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAmEtU67BKMj
41Please respect copyright.PENANASofU5AGXr1
反而在自己悲痛欲絕時留不下一滴淚水……總是對所有人微笑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWmyLl5keIt
41Please respect copyright.PENANACztVCFHg9n
這到底是為什麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAoZFNU41RJ6
41Please respect copyright.PENANAcj9AeB2cdh
這樣看不清自己的人他最輕蔑了不是嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAWmXSh02MBk
41Please respect copyright.PENANAOuHa6AGu3R
可是……是不是自己也同樣看不清自己?41Please respect copyright.PENANAp15q5HpMEk
41Please respect copyright.PENANAybOy5tGvqY
過去的傷痛把黑色的瞳孔蒙上一層紗幕,尋尋覓覓他發誓在沒找到「那人」之前決不能死……這樣的自己到底又活得像什麼了?41Please respect copyright.PENANAtYQ8HQSVB5
41Please respect copyright.PENANA44GhS6KJVO
並不完全是那記憶的主人,只能說是那記憶的主人促成他的存在,其實他應該是個完整的個體,卻被午夜夢迴驚醒,背負著不是自己所有的記憶活著,在每人面前建築不需要的牆。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6xjmA0jWN6
41Please respect copyright.PENANAmgw6b2MybI
個性可能真的很冷漠很孤僻,但他做的事卻沒能用這些理由解釋。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmopc4V9TKB
41Please respect copyright.PENANAW4Ekn1hl37
……也該問問自己為什麼了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYbUuhYiPtx
41Please respect copyright.PENANA5e9JvLy2UQ
可不是?41Please respect copyright.PENANAxEWuDNUrve
41Please respect copyright.PENANA034BQ6Fy3v
終於知道自己為什麼討厭他卻說不出隻字片語。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2NTD9TytsR
41Please respect copyright.PENANAGCzGAIQnaZ
原來他討厭別人跟他一樣傻,他們這兩人……真是蠢斃了!41Please respect copyright.PENANAq44vGm7kMV
41Please respect copyright.PENANAt2jMaw0i6S
蠢得讓人不敢相信,而自己莫名在此刻認清。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFsUUnN4fGF
41Please respect copyright.PENANANgm4vS27UJ
過往的畫面一次一次浮現腦海,閉起眼睛不用費力也能看得更清楚,有些刻意忽視的如今想起來清楚的像什麼一樣,雖然不懂……可是心頭幾番掙扎後決定靜下心去體會。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEtlMmdOue7
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9RBi0yKfIN
到底剛剛始終無法靜下心是為了什麼?41Please respect copyright.PENANAWjOLkrjUFL
41Please respect copyright.PENANANpgjrZ8Vnc
畫面轉向下一幕,亞連開心的笑容……41Please respect copyright.PENANAEf3nYOuNdb
41Please respect copyright.PENANA2kLAUbYHJA
他喜歡、很喜歡那乾淨清澈、如果可以再更少去一點隱隱不安會更好的……笑容。41Please respect copyright.PENANAURzwmgERRv
41Please respect copyright.PENANA1GeEJnqodG
這就是答案。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEILptZvWOa
41Please respect copyright.PENANA3V09rKUUlz
「……」墨黑的眼在此時睜開,此刻起帶上了過去沒有的神采。41Please respect copyright.PENANAW01dwjCQZ4
41Please respect copyright.PENANA9oPQNojRXD
…………41Please respect copyright.PENANA3v4jD1bVsz
41Please respect copyright.PENANA6Bkasun2XD
……41Please respect copyright.PENANAmPLiuA9kwh
41Please respect copyright.PENANAghcr8MGmUk
41Please respect copyright.PENANATIpVqS39jp
41Please respect copyright.PENANA704wsI3yq5