也許是因為太專注於此,他沒有注意到門外有人悄悄靠近,然後就站在門前駐足了一陣子才輕巧離去。40Please respect copyright.PENANAYL4nKDZg7L
40Please respect copyright.PENANAwQlwiUbTqI
細小的光粒子從門縫中溜入,在不被發現的情況下貼服神田的墨黑衣擺、亞連攤在枕上的潔白髮梢,光澤暗去。40Please respect copyright.PENANA0Gtw3Rq4uL
40Please respect copyright.PENANAY3Kk1TqyHX
……40Please respect copyright.PENANAoFUo2Q1p3Y
40Please respect copyright.PENANA9JCphjlNbG
40Please respect copyright.PENANA4nc0J8eM8Y
40Please respect copyright.PENANAVrvm9hKU23
從來沒有看過如此乾淨的色彩和清澈的眸子──40Please respect copyright.PENANAc7kg2IKWf6
40Please respect copyright.PENANANUehoEAnHZ
他記起第一次見到白髮少年的那一刻,先是為他純白的髮色驚疑然後是驚艷,接著誤以為是惡魔打了一場,才被趕來的少女阻止。40Please respect copyright.PENANAG4yzBz5nxk
40Please respect copyright.PENANATtRz1HAIv9
這似乎註定了,之後他們將吵吵鬧鬧的度過每次見面、相處。40Please respect copyright.PENANAyJP5Fy0rYI
40Please respect copyright.PENANAfkLmVOi1Xm
尤其每次刻意惹惱白髮少年,明知道自己的個性被人所詬病反而變本加厲,幾次對著槓接著還為他取了一個綽號──「豆芽菜」。40Please respect copyright.PENANA6COIvXhhXE
40Please respect copyright.PENANA09WuERKwmF
很久很久他都是這麼叫著,除了在前方加上一些有的沒的沒營養形容詞,例如白癡、笨蛋……諸如此類。40Please respect copyright.PENANArXCS3KWj0v
40Please respect copyright.PENANAmUIPoDPf6p
……現在回想起來突然覺得自己很幼稚、很愚蠢。40Please respect copyright.PENANAaSC1MUejRd
40Please respect copyright.PENANAAPDNyrgGdi
──不過這不是重點,擺一邊先略過、略過。40Please respect copyright.PENANAzdgQvZRocd
40Please respect copyright.PENANA0FoCBdiLAC
然後一起出了幾次任務。40Please respect copyright.PENANADBDSLrqV2p
40Please respect copyright.PENANABT3wK3I0JP
第一次一起回收聖潔又因為理念不同暴發衝突,他承認自己個性極差可以見人就吵,但……從沒有哪個人能一再引起他情緒波動,更沒想到少年的眼淚會讓他心悸,雖然當時只是微微睜大雙眼,可是無法忽視心裡的一陣騷動。40Please respect copyright.PENANAOHQ1ax0Rr9
40Please respect copyright.PENANAsYp9pxz9pk
雖然很快又因為惡魔復起大戰一場,將事情給忽略過去。40Please respect copyright.PENANAoMKnVpKcgm
40Please respect copyright.PENANA1FAt6WWtCH
可是……40Please respect copyright.PENANAG73e8kEFbO
40Please respect copyright.PENANAHzMP2P7TJ4
「神田,如果可以,我還是想當一個可以救人的破壞者。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAFzzqDUs6uK
40Please respect copyright.PENANAbbvAzDjjlD
一句話,不知為何如此動人、聽著心都痛了,不得不刻進腦海最深處。40Please respect copyright.PENANAyAEyWsmehs
40Please respect copyright.PENANAn8qmz5bQdb
那時的他也許發現了什麼,但只是沉默看著當作什麼也不曉得。40Please respect copyright.PENANA813c0o28z5
40Please respect copyright.PENANAzpwjGDL7My
一別之後再見面是很久之後,他這才知道白髮少年「幾乎死過一回」,那時因為忙於和惡魔群對戰,且隨後被捲入亂七八糟的方舟「闖關」旅程,連自己也差點掛上一輪,何況據說曾經掛點的傢伙不時活蹦亂跳的指責他不是。40Please respect copyright.PENANATLa67UTfTN
40Please respect copyright.PENANAsdYPjwt2yx
假裝遺忘了,每一次聽到對方消息的刺痛感受。40Please respect copyright.PENANAB0vnIMePY4
40Please respect copyright.PENANAya8eSMnv30
一回又一回,他忽略或當作看到自己的心。40Please respect copyright.PENANAhd3bFcLzqg
40Please respect copyright.PENANAhjtFRGvkju
那樣的記憶後來回想起來會有心被撕裂的感受,一個差點成真的消息就能使他如此在乎,如果這是真的呢?他……不敢去想。40Please respect copyright.PENANAhjrkoN5Xah
40Please respect copyright.PENANAL5QJtVqZbC
原來自己也會逃避。40Please respect copyright.PENANAlMFwOR1lPE
40Please respect copyright.PENANAT99lbsiAqJ
後來、又是後來……他更認識「亞連」這個人,原來也有不輸給自己悲傷過往,他們都不能弄清楚自己到底是誰、到底該定位成怎樣的一個存在?40Please respect copyright.PENANApQo3owtIjc
40Please respect copyright.PENANAxGlrkg5eZ5
一起走過更多時光、一起經歷更多事件,雖然仍然吵吵鬧鬧,但如果有人問他是否討厭那名白髮少年……40Please respect copyright.PENANAatkycPozDs
40Please respect copyright.PENANAlKqLCE1vmL
如果回答了打從心底厭惡,他無法不心虛。40Please respect copyright.PENANAKRrjyZd4ux
40Please respect copyright.PENANAXsBWtCRrJ9
……40Please respect copyright.PENANAiRCMqaMQcZ
40Please respect copyright.PENANAn9X2q3VFaI
這是為什麼?明明那人的個性就是他最厭煩的那種,容易心軟、容易同情,對所有人寬容只對自己殘酷,身上還有惡魔的痕跡……40Please respect copyright.PENANAy380vB2mBk
40Please respect copyright.PENANAfQYDm59e4H
心底根本一點也不快樂,為什麼要笑?40Please respect copyright.PENANAxyaOvHPA1l
40Please respect copyright.PENANABgU4r1F2Uc
既然懂得哭泣,為什麼淚水都是為他人而流?40Please respect copyright.PENANA56eJvmjQKy
40Please respect copyright.PENANAVCW7pEZo78
就算是敵人,只要有任何理由他就要為對方傷心,為什麼?40Please respect copyright.PENANAcJbyjAHRO7
40Please respect copyright.PENANArw0OSaSioJ
反而在自己悲痛欲絕時留不下一滴淚水……總是對所有人微笑。40Please respect copyright.PENANAAt5BAvP3Xe
40Please respect copyright.PENANAOQk0bJxE8j
這到底是為什麼?40Please respect copyright.PENANAqXR9L1gqd4
40Please respect copyright.PENANAhoLkDrea5T
這樣看不清自己的人他最輕蔑了不是嗎?40Please respect copyright.PENANAWQiRyQeyZz
40Please respect copyright.PENANAvWcokHb5v8
可是……是不是自己也同樣看不清自己?40Please respect copyright.PENANAOq2jE7dCc0
40Please respect copyright.PENANAehN0hIDRAl
過去的傷痛把黑色的瞳孔蒙上一層紗幕,尋尋覓覓他發誓在沒找到「那人」之前決不能死……這樣的自己到底又活得像什麼了?40Please respect copyright.PENANA5OSaZd2G17
40Please respect copyright.PENANAWYSRN0xlpM
並不完全是那記憶的主人,只能說是那記憶的主人促成他的存在,其實他應該是個完整的個體,卻被午夜夢迴驚醒,背負著不是自己所有的記憶活著,在每人面前建築不需要的牆。40Please respect copyright.PENANAQZT2ZKzGnp
40Please respect copyright.PENANAL0kFxbFfYf
個性可能真的很冷漠很孤僻,但他做的事卻沒能用這些理由解釋。40Please respect copyright.PENANATWNoZdGiXb
40Please respect copyright.PENANAMGJan6d6Dj
……也該問問自己為什麼了。40Please respect copyright.PENANAdG8jmFnxKq
40Please respect copyright.PENANAmWSrBNYYl4
可不是?40Please respect copyright.PENANAVe45yFlELQ
40Please respect copyright.PENANA07qKY2rqhN
終於知道自己為什麼討厭他卻說不出隻字片語。40Please respect copyright.PENANArNsOSZPX6m
40Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1gK3YQKHq
原來他討厭別人跟他一樣傻,他們這兩人……真是蠢斃了!40Please respect copyright.PENANAILn0afFoxU
40Please respect copyright.PENANA3WpXoHiIsb
蠢得讓人不敢相信,而自己莫名在此刻認清。40Please respect copyright.PENANAlzlJfLEj07
40Please respect copyright.PENANA2R8HY8VG8z
過往的畫面一次一次浮現腦海,閉起眼睛不用費力也能看得更清楚,有些刻意忽視的如今想起來清楚的像什麼一樣,雖然不懂……可是心頭幾番掙扎後決定靜下心去體會。40Please respect copyright.PENANAeTMXM6tWEh
40Please respect copyright.PENANASQ7tp9ik7l
到底剛剛始終無法靜下心是為了什麼?40Please respect copyright.PENANAT90wNRKw4m
40Please respect copyright.PENANAsgGgs20g2d
畫面轉向下一幕,亞連開心的笑容……40Please respect copyright.PENANAP9kqB2cdzT
40Please respect copyright.PENANAFkUP7Ku77m
他喜歡、很喜歡那乾淨清澈、如果可以再更少去一點隱隱不安會更好的……笑容。40Please respect copyright.PENANAm0HGNUZSQ0
40Please respect copyright.PENANAJrCOkfcEiv
這就是答案。40Please respect copyright.PENANAiQQwhtcmXZ
40Please respect copyright.PENANAAvvIp07txB
「……」墨黑的眼在此時睜開,此刻起帶上了過去沒有的神采。40Please respect copyright.PENANAfaskLcTAoc
40Please respect copyright.PENANAS8mwG6U1mk
…………40Please respect copyright.PENANABNZX2ZIOgn
40Please respect copyright.PENANAE4Gxr8MQCm
……40Please respect copyright.PENANADkHscsAAMk
40Please respect copyright.PENANAPqyo5pVaSg
40Please respect copyright.PENANA9gHS1bsM2X
40Please respect copyright.PENANAUvckT6nCfq
ns216.73.216.95da240Please respect copyright.PENANAwQlwiUbTqI
細小的光粒子從門縫中溜入,在不被發現的情況下貼服神田的墨黑衣擺、亞連攤在枕上的潔白髮梢,光澤暗去。40Please respect copyright.PENANA0Gtw3Rq4uL
40Please respect copyright.PENANAY3Kk1TqyHX
……40Please respect copyright.PENANAoFUo2Q1p3Y
40Please respect copyright.PENANA9JCphjlNbG
40Please respect copyright.PENANA4nc0J8eM8Y
40Please respect copyright.PENANAVrvm9hKU23
從來沒有看過如此乾淨的色彩和清澈的眸子──40Please respect copyright.PENANAc7kg2IKWf6
40Please respect copyright.PENANANUehoEAnHZ
他記起第一次見到白髮少年的那一刻,先是為他純白的髮色驚疑然後是驚艷,接著誤以為是惡魔打了一場,才被趕來的少女阻止。40Please respect copyright.PENANAG4yzBz5nxk
40Please respect copyright.PENANATtRz1HAIv9
這似乎註定了,之後他們將吵吵鬧鬧的度過每次見面、相處。40Please respect copyright.PENANAyJP5Fy0rYI
40Please respect copyright.PENANAfkLmVOi1Xm
尤其每次刻意惹惱白髮少年,明知道自己的個性被人所詬病反而變本加厲,幾次對著槓接著還為他取了一個綽號──「豆芽菜」。40Please respect copyright.PENANA6COIvXhhXE
40Please respect copyright.PENANA09WuERKwmF
很久很久他都是這麼叫著,除了在前方加上一些有的沒的沒營養形容詞,例如白癡、笨蛋……諸如此類。40Please respect copyright.PENANArXCS3KWj0v
40Please respect copyright.PENANAmUIPoDPf6p
……現在回想起來突然覺得自己很幼稚、很愚蠢。40Please respect copyright.PENANAaSC1MUejRd
40Please respect copyright.PENANAAPDNyrgGdi
──不過這不是重點,擺一邊先略過、略過。40Please respect copyright.PENANAzdgQvZRocd
40Please respect copyright.PENANA0FoCBdiLAC
然後一起出了幾次任務。40Please respect copyright.PENANADBDSLrqV2p
40Please respect copyright.PENANABT3wK3I0JP
第一次一起回收聖潔又因為理念不同暴發衝突,他承認自己個性極差可以見人就吵,但……從沒有哪個人能一再引起他情緒波動,更沒想到少年的眼淚會讓他心悸,雖然當時只是微微睜大雙眼,可是無法忽視心裡的一陣騷動。40Please respect copyright.PENANAOHQ1ax0Rr9
40Please respect copyright.PENANAsYp9pxz9pk
雖然很快又因為惡魔復起大戰一場,將事情給忽略過去。40Please respect copyright.PENANAoMKnVpKcgm
40Please respect copyright.PENANA1FAt6WWtCH
可是……40Please respect copyright.PENANAG73e8kEFbO
40Please respect copyright.PENANAHzMP2P7TJ4
「神田,如果可以,我還是想當一個可以救人的破壞者。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAFzzqDUs6uK
40Please respect copyright.PENANAbbvAzDjjlD
一句話,不知為何如此動人、聽著心都痛了,不得不刻進腦海最深處。40Please respect copyright.PENANAyAEyWsmehs
40Please respect copyright.PENANAn8qmz5bQdb
那時的他也許發現了什麼,但只是沉默看著當作什麼也不曉得。40Please respect copyright.PENANA813c0o28z5
40Please respect copyright.PENANAzpwjGDL7My
一別之後再見面是很久之後,他這才知道白髮少年「幾乎死過一回」,那時因為忙於和惡魔群對戰,且隨後被捲入亂七八糟的方舟「闖關」旅程,連自己也差點掛上一輪,何況據說曾經掛點的傢伙不時活蹦亂跳的指責他不是。40Please respect copyright.PENANATLa67UTfTN
40Please respect copyright.PENANAsdYPjwt2yx
假裝遺忘了,每一次聽到對方消息的刺痛感受。40Please respect copyright.PENANAB0vnIMePY4
40Please respect copyright.PENANAya8eSMnv30
一回又一回,他忽略或當作看到自己的心。40Please respect copyright.PENANAhd3bFcLzqg
40Please respect copyright.PENANAhjtFRGvkju
那樣的記憶後來回想起來會有心被撕裂的感受,一個差點成真的消息就能使他如此在乎,如果這是真的呢?他……不敢去想。40Please respect copyright.PENANAhjrkoN5Xah
40Please respect copyright.PENANAL5QJtVqZbC
原來自己也會逃避。40Please respect copyright.PENANAlMFwOR1lPE
40Please respect copyright.PENANAT99lbsiAqJ
後來、又是後來……他更認識「亞連」這個人,原來也有不輸給自己悲傷過往,他們都不能弄清楚自己到底是誰、到底該定位成怎樣的一個存在?40Please respect copyright.PENANApQo3owtIjc
40Please respect copyright.PENANAxGlrkg5eZ5
一起走過更多時光、一起經歷更多事件,雖然仍然吵吵鬧鬧,但如果有人問他是否討厭那名白髮少年……40Please respect copyright.PENANAatkycPozDs
40Please respect copyright.PENANAlKqLCE1vmL
如果回答了打從心底厭惡,他無法不心虛。40Please respect copyright.PENANAKRrjyZd4ux
40Please respect copyright.PENANAXsBWtCRrJ9
……40Please respect copyright.PENANAiRCMqaMQcZ
40Please respect copyright.PENANAn9X2q3VFaI
這是為什麼?明明那人的個性就是他最厭煩的那種,容易心軟、容易同情,對所有人寬容只對自己殘酷,身上還有惡魔的痕跡……40Please respect copyright.PENANAy380vB2mBk
40Please respect copyright.PENANAfQYDm59e4H
心底根本一點也不快樂,為什麼要笑?40Please respect copyright.PENANAxyaOvHPA1l
40Please respect copyright.PENANABgU4r1F2Uc
既然懂得哭泣,為什麼淚水都是為他人而流?40Please respect copyright.PENANA56eJvmjQKy
40Please respect copyright.PENANAVCW7pEZo78
就算是敵人,只要有任何理由他就要為對方傷心,為什麼?40Please respect copyright.PENANAcJbyjAHRO7
40Please respect copyright.PENANArw0OSaSioJ
反而在自己悲痛欲絕時留不下一滴淚水……總是對所有人微笑。40Please respect copyright.PENANAAt5BAvP3Xe
40Please respect copyright.PENANAOQk0bJxE8j
這到底是為什麼?40Please respect copyright.PENANAqXR9L1gqd4
40Please respect copyright.PENANAhoLkDrea5T
這樣看不清自己的人他最輕蔑了不是嗎?40Please respect copyright.PENANAWQiRyQeyZz
40Please respect copyright.PENANAvWcokHb5v8
可是……是不是自己也同樣看不清自己?40Please respect copyright.PENANAOq2jE7dCc0
40Please respect copyright.PENANAehN0hIDRAl
過去的傷痛把黑色的瞳孔蒙上一層紗幕,尋尋覓覓他發誓在沒找到「那人」之前決不能死……這樣的自己到底又活得像什麼了?40Please respect copyright.PENANA5OSaZd2G17
40Please respect copyright.PENANAWYSRN0xlpM
並不完全是那記憶的主人,只能說是那記憶的主人促成他的存在,其實他應該是個完整的個體,卻被午夜夢迴驚醒,背負著不是自己所有的記憶活著,在每人面前建築不需要的牆。40Please respect copyright.PENANAQZT2ZKzGnp
40Please respect copyright.PENANAL0kFxbFfYf
個性可能真的很冷漠很孤僻,但他做的事卻沒能用這些理由解釋。40Please respect copyright.PENANATWNoZdGiXb
40Please respect copyright.PENANAMGJan6d6Dj
……也該問問自己為什麼了。40Please respect copyright.PENANAdG8jmFnxKq
40Please respect copyright.PENANAmWSrBNYYl4
可不是?40Please respect copyright.PENANAVe45yFlELQ
40Please respect copyright.PENANA07qKY2rqhN
終於知道自己為什麼討厭他卻說不出隻字片語。40Please respect copyright.PENANArNsOSZPX6m
40Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1gK3YQKHq
原來他討厭別人跟他一樣傻,他們這兩人……真是蠢斃了!40Please respect copyright.PENANAILn0afFoxU
40Please respect copyright.PENANA3WpXoHiIsb
蠢得讓人不敢相信,而自己莫名在此刻認清。40Please respect copyright.PENANAlzlJfLEj07
40Please respect copyright.PENANA2R8HY8VG8z
過往的畫面一次一次浮現腦海,閉起眼睛不用費力也能看得更清楚,有些刻意忽視的如今想起來清楚的像什麼一樣,雖然不懂……可是心頭幾番掙扎後決定靜下心去體會。40Please respect copyright.PENANAeTMXM6tWEh
40Please respect copyright.PENANASQ7tp9ik7l
到底剛剛始終無法靜下心是為了什麼?40Please respect copyright.PENANAT90wNRKw4m
40Please respect copyright.PENANAsgGgs20g2d
畫面轉向下一幕,亞連開心的笑容……40Please respect copyright.PENANAP9kqB2cdzT
40Please respect copyright.PENANAFkUP7Ku77m
他喜歡、很喜歡那乾淨清澈、如果可以再更少去一點隱隱不安會更好的……笑容。40Please respect copyright.PENANAm0HGNUZSQ0
40Please respect copyright.PENANAJrCOkfcEiv
這就是答案。40Please respect copyright.PENANAiQQwhtcmXZ
40Please respect copyright.PENANAAvvIp07txB
「……」墨黑的眼在此時睜開,此刻起帶上了過去沒有的神采。40Please respect copyright.PENANAfaskLcTAoc
40Please respect copyright.PENANAS8mwG6U1mk
…………40Please respect copyright.PENANABNZX2ZIOgn
40Please respect copyright.PENANAE4Gxr8MQCm
……40Please respect copyright.PENANADkHscsAAMk
40Please respect copyright.PENANAPqyo5pVaSg
40Please respect copyright.PENANA9gHS1bsM2X
40Please respect copyright.PENANAUvckT6nCfq