「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」142Please respect copyright.PENANADPledO9XxG
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩142Please respect copyright.PENANATpjw9oDVyR
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路142Please respect copyright.PENANAFNaeD3qt5S
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」142Please respect copyright.PENANAbiBFIFaj2S
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。142Please respect copyright.PENANAVDPs1wW7gw
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫142Please respect copyright.PENANAZyWYpWVud6
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了142Please respect copyright.PENANAoAbYB74ufg
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫142Please respect copyright.PENANAmJLEJrQLoD
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯142Please respect copyright.PENANAjVYIi2z0Ba
拿起手機看了看日期142Please respect copyright.PENANAkMF1TVnlBI
今天是2月28日142Please respect copyright.PENANAbExdLgJFyj
於是我換上了運動服142Please respect copyright.PENANAWmmLWFeoZ9
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服142Please respect copyright.PENANAimbkcDxD8V
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子142Please respect copyright.PENANARjCTHX4zDi
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。142Please respect copyright.PENANAiiiawIiIJU
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進142Please respect copyright.PENANAFpFuREYKQm
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應142Please respect copyright.PENANAPZCf6Pm2DU
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受142Please respect copyright.PENANA0gOrDMZfBI
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問142Please respect copyright.PENANAfbCI6bWAjm
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想142Please respect copyright.PENANAOrogNvYqx7
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想142Please respect copyright.PENANAtmpfotxOAc
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道142Please respect copyright.PENANAySA0sBtjw5
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天142Please respect copyright.PENANACiNu88eaZi
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲142Please respect copyright.PENANA6Mi9bG98EQ
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門142Please respect copyright.PENANALvYEON1Yox
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的142Please respect copyright.PENANA5b2dr3cf73
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色142Please respect copyright.PENANA4KO1QlBj4E
對我來說那便是理想142Please respect copyright.PENANAPY6DCtRdH0
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色142Please respect copyright.PENANAGucfsFFgxo
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼142Please respect copyright.PENANAvE8BXdTWsz
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見142Please respect copyright.PENANAW3pYFtfJkG
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心142Please respect copyright.PENANA4JrwneeYq4
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身142Please respect copyright.PENANAA3DfOUTLa5
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般142Please respect copyright.PENANAOfIHPUXyIR
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話142Please respect copyright.PENANAj3SFv40dvg
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。142Please respect copyright.PENANAbIwj7nf8q8
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說142Please respect copyright.PENANA6FCQpF0sOr
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流142Please respect copyright.PENANAS03gnpY4cS
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息142Please respect copyright.PENANATJViZnuXav
「跟理想完全不同呢。」142Please respect copyright.PENANAtJKqKeRpUs
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館142Please respect copyright.PENANAlNlnCmbQm1
我喜歡圖書館142Please respect copyright.PENANAyN6Z3QHLAa
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般142Please respect copyright.PENANAXhsZmcUNVu
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?142Please respect copyright.PENANAvCW6xqWggi
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?142Please respect copyright.PENANA3wWfe8mTea
找到了、找到了、找到了?142Please respect copyright.PENANAo5kJJSZYXq
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出142Please respect copyright.PENANAbFshwUMDyH
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般142Please respect copyright.PENANAeJa0FOhp0E
這種行為讓我露出了笑容142Please respect copyright.PENANAmwkAACHFDn
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容142Please respect copyright.PENANA9d6QEM7N9D
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來142Please respect copyright.PENANA78WUYKYQYN
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿142Please respect copyright.PENANAcjfkFNwofj
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子142Please respect copyright.PENANA9YIxT6gxxN
我似乎迷上了那種血腥142Please respect copyright.PENANAoxq1zIpY3z
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)142Please respect copyright.PENANAlWuPXqWlWl
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩142Please respect copyright.PENANA48WBRFIo7y
眼前一黑142Please respect copyright.PENANAv7vK6tdl7C
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧142Please respect copyright.PENANAhcyDhEtzK1
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼142Please respect copyright.PENANAIgz6IqC33C
強光...?142Please respect copyright.PENANAm2dvsz6ERw
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。142Please respect copyright.PENANACRc4ryxuP8
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光142Please respect copyright.PENANAk34xwul6pr
睜開眼看見開闊的草原142Please respect copyright.PENANAwp0rb3AZeD
草原?142Please respect copyright.PENANAzeiIrNs9tR
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能142Please respect copyright.PENANA3egC1VIkoU
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?142Please respect copyright.PENANAWhF73eVGbK
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著142Please respect copyright.PENANAVsZ65LGeSE
笑?142Please respect copyright.PENANAehTeieXzST
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?142Please respect copyright.PENANArYx5Bjsdj7
狂笑著142Please respect copyright.PENANA5EzxaY4vUn
打從生下來第一次的142Please respect copyright.PENANAu0nzQlI3fF
扭曲的狂笑142Please respect copyright.PENANA0l5wj2wuGW
醜陋的狂笑142Please respect copyright.PENANAEL1Cn456fQ
像個小丑一般舞蹈著142Please respect copyright.PENANAT27UxH1IQY
純白的毛球向我撲來142Please respect copyright.PENANAhtp5xCfTNS
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音142Please respect copyright.PENANAHy819d5Zrn
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去142Please respect copyright.PENANA81N7MocDu9
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色142Please respect copyright.PENANAtpfEdZDb7s
右手感到重量,看向自己的手142Please respect copyright.PENANAc0NjGlb8qU
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀142Please respect copyright.PENANAJTCHOpWbU1
又來了,又笑了142Please respect copyright.PENANAYx5lF3nqz0
笑了、笑了、笑了?142Please respect copyright.PENANAlShJkmiSoF
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆142Please respect copyright.PENANAYJeFYVYE63
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」142Please respect copyright.PENANAKl8zXNoYsv
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」142Please respect copyright.PENANAg6ZDVK0bgt
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存142Please respect copyright.PENANAk6VMgISzCN
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去142Please respect copyright.PENANAvdOu7MfbW6
我本來就是為了借書而來142Please respect copyright.PENANADy4ij7zotn
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物142Please respect copyright.PENANAcIc84K88lv
血液四散、內臟也散落一地142Please respect copyright.PENANAG5WbskJPYu
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道142Please respect copyright.PENANAgA5McCzKaS
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉142Please respect copyright.PENANAoNozFzP6Vw
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣142Please respect copyright.PENANAteIpVpWKbt
我仍穿著高中制服142Please respect copyright.PENANA1X5KXOn1zG
但步伐變得輕盈142Please respect copyright.PENANAj6KrlHjZJU
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界142Please respect copyright.PENANAlI4cjiz7F3
走在草原上與一群人相遇142Please respect copyright.PENANA4REBNyj1Tf
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人142Please respect copyright.PENANADQqPmeg2bC
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外142Please respect copyright.PENANAEkUAzOPFMs
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫142Please respect copyright.PENANA0zf1zwtDM8
嘈雜。142Please respect copyright.PENANAcBtsZxT9Oa
好討厭阿,好吵阿142Please respect copyright.PENANA9VkcccEMK5
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」142Please respect copyright.PENANAHIcZx8DF7Z
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道142Please respect copyright.PENANAYzuVfJBlaq
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙142Please respect copyright.PENANAmBQDKcfHTZ
一名少女獨自站著?142Please respect copyright.PENANAGY4pPMmMIn
靜謐。142Please respect copyright.PENANAOBh9UlgcHx
不再有人發問142Please respect copyright.PENANA8qZzNKgR5v
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀142Please respect copyright.PENANAlnw7Ub9wWc
看見自己的笑容142Please respect copyright.PENANAQIr6d04SQM
看見了人類的頭顱142Please respect copyright.PENANAjTcy7iIk3F
看見了142Please respect copyright.PENANAGE4rsmEC9Y
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般142Please respect copyright.PENANAzUPrEMHCXY
奇怪的夢境142Please respect copyright.PENANAMBMhWMgL4m
我果然是瘋了吧142Please respect copyright.PENANAY5EialY94j
但我再怎麼瘋狂142Please respect copyright.PENANAKVTpx6atHi
應該也不會去殺人142Please respect copyright.PENANA6Ez5lBF8HD
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有142Please respect copyright.PENANAxtNnuW7XD2
夢中的我在笑142Please respect copyright.PENANAajVzSQ3PuM
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道142Please respect copyright.PENANA3NXz8MRVpw
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著142Please respect copyright.PENANAehnKGeDTJT
「2月2日」142Please respect copyright.PENANAzqp5h5CVXi