「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」121Please respect copyright.PENANAUySnKUUnkX
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩121Please respect copyright.PENANA7sHnxfx1kA
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路121Please respect copyright.PENANAKdds3derFx
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」121Please respect copyright.PENANAfwFOyhKOgd
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。121Please respect copyright.PENANA5N9vnqppu7
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫121Please respect copyright.PENANAuR7qRH9Dqj
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了121Please respect copyright.PENANAVtGEisbe8L
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫121Please respect copyright.PENANAsu7GBhRShs
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯121Please respect copyright.PENANARwAPkxpG5J
拿起手機看了看日期121Please respect copyright.PENANAKsu6Gbq5D0
今天是2月28日121Please respect copyright.PENANAmw8jcybrKP
於是我換上了運動服121Please respect copyright.PENANA2sFIQfYrKU
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服121Please respect copyright.PENANAs1q2EhTVJQ
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子121Please respect copyright.PENANAIFw46EMbX9
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。121Please respect copyright.PENANApfpsGOxEuc
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進121Please respect copyright.PENANA8pWAFcQVq7
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應121Please respect copyright.PENANAgzoM1JdpK1
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受121Please respect copyright.PENANA9WRvxdtvjV
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問121Please respect copyright.PENANAt331XtMV2z
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想121Please respect copyright.PENANA7zEizpK9QI
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想121Please respect copyright.PENANAZtkmI1I9FR
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道121Please respect copyright.PENANAVNHBqDnAEt
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天121Please respect copyright.PENANAJlSwll09Yq
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲121Please respect copyright.PENANAWwjk0t9cpl
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門121Please respect copyright.PENANAEVTurEPbrM
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的121Please respect copyright.PENANA5vixKCPipG
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色121Please respect copyright.PENANA4ByEmo7FKB
對我來說那便是理想121Please respect copyright.PENANAGj7oNTCwH0
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色121Please respect copyright.PENANAZhZbfTl1bT
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼121Please respect copyright.PENANAua7odGA1aI
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見121Please respect copyright.PENANA69XFGIprWD
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心121Please respect copyright.PENANAd80EwPgZIq
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身121Please respect copyright.PENANAbkxSHXtP32
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般121Please respect copyright.PENANArRrkwZBQK9
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話121Please respect copyright.PENANA4DsyRKlnfY
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。121Please respect copyright.PENANAIRUBYAkRII
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說121Please respect copyright.PENANAGIhKuTZoIT
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流121Please respect copyright.PENANAAqiO8k55UY
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息121Please respect copyright.PENANA9lIKUSdrd0
「跟理想完全不同呢。」121Please respect copyright.PENANAkMhQNCjXSh
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館121Please respect copyright.PENANATWX5oYip3j
我喜歡圖書館121Please respect copyright.PENANADctvwJh91t
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般121Please respect copyright.PENANAmAE11QP8sa
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?121Please respect copyright.PENANAYWByRxd86Y
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?121Please respect copyright.PENANAgMU1TLUnEU
找到了、找到了、找到了?121Please respect copyright.PENANAf91HCDBwOs
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出121Please respect copyright.PENANAjFVHBQ4yL4
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般121Please respect copyright.PENANAEKxZXTvhW3
這種行為讓我露出了笑容121Please respect copyright.PENANA6XoqaAuUIu
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容121Please respect copyright.PENANAUzmrNpMgK5
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來121Please respect copyright.PENANAvXmHMtTQiF
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿121Please respect copyright.PENANAEagcHFGtxf
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子121Please respect copyright.PENANAIIg99V0w2J
我似乎迷上了那種血腥121Please respect copyright.PENANAQAccMDLcdX
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)121Please respect copyright.PENANAMVQrKGw2xd
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩121Please respect copyright.PENANAvAGG8WkB7v
眼前一黑121Please respect copyright.PENANARWWCuf8BaI
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧121Please respect copyright.PENANAQXF45iBPaE
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼121Please respect copyright.PENANAaOkdLYajF4
強光...?121Please respect copyright.PENANA6FLnEmrUtM
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。121Please respect copyright.PENANAwkVdDVDcU2
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光121Please respect copyright.PENANAuUYaNPNb6C
睜開眼看見開闊的草原121Please respect copyright.PENANAGctI7GB7NE
草原?121Please respect copyright.PENANAr0BfnJVxk6
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能121Please respect copyright.PENANAbCjZazx7Eg
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?121Please respect copyright.PENANArJFZKaAzfk
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著121Please respect copyright.PENANAv5oHZuR5Hv
笑?121Please respect copyright.PENANAZxfm6LopdM
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?121Please respect copyright.PENANAlMX6IanuN8
狂笑著121Please respect copyright.PENANA9Efs94ZFCg
打從生下來第一次的121Please respect copyright.PENANAqhznHrgHbN
扭曲的狂笑121Please respect copyright.PENANAOcHwpvTImF
醜陋的狂笑121Please respect copyright.PENANAZPsgiq00oU
像個小丑一般舞蹈著121Please respect copyright.PENANALktRxVkniL
純白的毛球向我撲來121Please respect copyright.PENANAXyCx8ZwWfK
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音121Please respect copyright.PENANArq1HfmpSqh
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去121Please respect copyright.PENANAXpypAoLo1L
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色121Please respect copyright.PENANAL4OBrC3Ktx
右手感到重量,看向自己的手121Please respect copyright.PENANALaatzBROtn
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀121Please respect copyright.PENANApF3rj4cr9R
又來了,又笑了121Please respect copyright.PENANA25J17ua2Fn
笑了、笑了、笑了?121Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4ZWOkJXZi
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆121Please respect copyright.PENANAIft6zFUIRd
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」121Please respect copyright.PENANA5yRHqPituw
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」121Please respect copyright.PENANAVUvXvWmsK5
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存121Please respect copyright.PENANAxyS33LJN6S
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去121Please respect copyright.PENANAt4iTWHJinq
我本來就是為了借書而來121Please respect copyright.PENANAKe7QzFnafA
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物121Please respect copyright.PENANAnOHHA5m5NY
血液四散、內臟也散落一地121Please respect copyright.PENANAcA1fY0XD7U
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道121Please respect copyright.PENANAObQjFqWx2Y
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉121Please respect copyright.PENANAr7xzp1q8jk
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣121Please respect copyright.PENANA0nPtE6AfQU
我仍穿著高中制服121Please respect copyright.PENANAUTe3saSmQJ
但步伐變得輕盈121Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3MkkHaUvY
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界121Please respect copyright.PENANAofA4P60SXK
走在草原上與一群人相遇121Please respect copyright.PENANAAMxMmTo6K0
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人121Please respect copyright.PENANA3B9Xyr3kzD
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外121Please respect copyright.PENANANTGH5dM2yw
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫121Please respect copyright.PENANAICCTlmKzzL
嘈雜。121Please respect copyright.PENANAXhfMP31oqM
好討厭阿,好吵阿121Please respect copyright.PENANAG8t9MAJMYx
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」121Please respect copyright.PENANAAOg9vI9XI8
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道121Please respect copyright.PENANAVaIF0vhmyc
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙121Please respect copyright.PENANAh047zn93Vy
一名少女獨自站著?121Please respect copyright.PENANAROTGLKBwuM
靜謐。121Please respect copyright.PENANAsNBKj4oN5p
不再有人發問121Please respect copyright.PENANAbrDpNvj61D
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀121Please respect copyright.PENANAZHikusrL9y
看見自己的笑容121Please respect copyright.PENANA2Gt9Ie66TS
看見了人類的頭顱121Please respect copyright.PENANAUDfYlK3nth
看見了121Please respect copyright.PENANAEgdGoXnSCj
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般121Please respect copyright.PENANAwaZhIuXYia
奇怪的夢境121Please respect copyright.PENANAcpQuTXPZ7C
我果然是瘋了吧121Please respect copyright.PENANAHcrOB9Giwj
但我再怎麼瘋狂121Please respect copyright.PENANARBnplmvFKm
應該也不會去殺人121Please respect copyright.PENANAX9mW5zQ6nr
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有121Please respect copyright.PENANAzZ94TrqpTN
夢中的我在笑121Please respect copyright.PENANA0HDTJtj8VU
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道121Please respect copyright.PENANAFbGwg0ctQs
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著121Please respect copyright.PENANAvKarLpdSvr
「2月2日」121Please respect copyright.PENANATxesmUz4HM