「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」118Please respect copyright.PENANAqcidkdkbtb
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩118Please respect copyright.PENANAYhI9kNrlYd
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路118Please respect copyright.PENANAKfN4wCeHPp
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」118Please respect copyright.PENANARWLaEozrz8
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。118Please respect copyright.PENANAPKUmNIU1ao
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫118Please respect copyright.PENANASs7exfiUOW
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了118Please respect copyright.PENANAcnYOYdywFt
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫118Please respect copyright.PENANAL6b37bcCUV
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯118Please respect copyright.PENANAtITEbWJ8Da
拿起手機看了看日期118Please respect copyright.PENANAjCMbYGPErc
今天是2月28日118Please respect copyright.PENANAVOLvtjXHZN
於是我換上了運動服118Please respect copyright.PENANAUqA3dDHFD0
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服118Please respect copyright.PENANAZctfwV3sy1
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子118Please respect copyright.PENANAlsDnhxY8pP
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。118Please respect copyright.PENANAVrLtT0BZ6H
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進118Please respect copyright.PENANA2ZXaXcRfBi
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應118Please respect copyright.PENANAzbkuFHxm9G
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受118Please respect copyright.PENANALh0XTxzVJT
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問118Please respect copyright.PENANAyLvgeOIVh9
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想118Please respect copyright.PENANAEYqq8fAgf9
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想118Please respect copyright.PENANAhz6dmXBcBJ
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道118Please respect copyright.PENANAk7tDHRDuhW
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天118Please respect copyright.PENANAPkZZF8i1d5
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲118Please respect copyright.PENANA0asMjAZphj
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門118Please respect copyright.PENANAg0lTLXPUmh
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的118Please respect copyright.PENANAQUUmEEz07w
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色118Please respect copyright.PENANARmzTyvvgiB
對我來說那便是理想118Please respect copyright.PENANAJeTsqubbod
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色118Please respect copyright.PENANAZRJ7NTiHpR
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼118Please respect copyright.PENANALws2kaBED7
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見118Please respect copyright.PENANAdpgS3jOIBC
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心118Please respect copyright.PENANAkGNPC90dO2
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身118Please respect copyright.PENANAU07FzqQHZm
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般118Please respect copyright.PENANANAOvvKfOI9
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話118Please respect copyright.PENANAo4ZcbhXiTH
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。118Please respect copyright.PENANAMLpTSi56pS
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說118Please respect copyright.PENANAIDKeoYF0QA
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流118Please respect copyright.PENANAG1kHu5LX1Y
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息118Please respect copyright.PENANA8VfUK4qenP
「跟理想完全不同呢。」118Please respect copyright.PENANApSnBaHqv1i
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館118Please respect copyright.PENANArrLSLZ31fU
我喜歡圖書館118Please respect copyright.PENANAIzaEYyhcZc
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般118Please respect copyright.PENANAyB6rNP88Gt
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?118Please respect copyright.PENANAUtufkOM6ma
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?118Please respect copyright.PENANAxxHImagr6V
找到了、找到了、找到了?118Please respect copyright.PENANAH04n5EC9ec
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出118Please respect copyright.PENANAaKlSDqDk2l
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般118Please respect copyright.PENANATkaUqZbw5Q
這種行為讓我露出了笑容118Please respect copyright.PENANAPBd2BIv6wj
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容118Please respect copyright.PENANAoQXi4yVjxe
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來118Please respect copyright.PENANAbKN4BmJGaL
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿118Please respect copyright.PENANAPEDQjPg3Gu
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子118Please respect copyright.PENANAPYG1jy03hp
我似乎迷上了那種血腥118Please respect copyright.PENANAHrCO0vb9pr
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)118Please respect copyright.PENANAeOzQ8oJlhU
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩118Please respect copyright.PENANAmJykBh2Ccw
眼前一黑118Please respect copyright.PENANAaW5xBXReoC
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧118Please respect copyright.PENANAeYC5UsfXB1
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼118Please respect copyright.PENANATICIh0lelg
強光...?118Please respect copyright.PENANA3KbZV8XnQV
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。118Please respect copyright.PENANARpmc7jYZQx
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光118Please respect copyright.PENANAKkul8h8Cjl
睜開眼看見開闊的草原118Please respect copyright.PENANAQjYdq1IZYp
草原?118Please respect copyright.PENANATwHEpuWv2S
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能118Please respect copyright.PENANAmvSaByKn6s
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?118Please respect copyright.PENANAhjSWK3tJD3
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著118Please respect copyright.PENANAFsE3gDWP7E
笑?118Please respect copyright.PENANAz2j5vhxXyv
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?118Please respect copyright.PENANApp6qp2uTbx
狂笑著118Please respect copyright.PENANADAD22J0Yob
打從生下來第一次的118Please respect copyright.PENANAuRKToN3Xwn
扭曲的狂笑118Please respect copyright.PENANAIVdStL3CIt
醜陋的狂笑118Please respect copyright.PENANAm9QRnyoqr9
像個小丑一般舞蹈著118Please respect copyright.PENANArrv9ks1vVA
純白的毛球向我撲來118Please respect copyright.PENANArk4aP0CEJ1
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音118Please respect copyright.PENANAwLsIJLVfrP
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去118Please respect copyright.PENANAQVDHw0ZQ1U
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色118Please respect copyright.PENANAb1FWVl1TvN
右手感到重量,看向自己的手118Please respect copyright.PENANAwFCqsoqDFJ
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀118Please respect copyright.PENANAGqRAfmGJrn
又來了,又笑了118Please respect copyright.PENANATEPfw8O1ql
笑了、笑了、笑了?118Please respect copyright.PENANAw89RI6F3D7
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆118Please respect copyright.PENANAJLS2NXZAXB
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」118Please respect copyright.PENANAj7VHfmBoTG
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」118Please respect copyright.PENANAinINFoo8sh
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存118Please respect copyright.PENANAPmhVoG2MVB
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去118Please respect copyright.PENANA4xjRnglM1C
我本來就是為了借書而來118Please respect copyright.PENANAnEdp3aLURH
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物118Please respect copyright.PENANA1r2f8uaTDs
血液四散、內臟也散落一地118Please respect copyright.PENANANWXbaryRAX
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道118Please respect copyright.PENANAhfTw3OMzag
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉118Please respect copyright.PENANASlb2q1IPVz
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣118Please respect copyright.PENANAbQxNnDAkEj
我仍穿著高中制服118Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0M5PARndY
但步伐變得輕盈118Please respect copyright.PENANAVUL8FLAu4t
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界118Please respect copyright.PENANAoh3KWFtq3M
走在草原上與一群人相遇118Please respect copyright.PENANAw9Ozen2ty3
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人118Please respect copyright.PENANARm7Aszs97Q
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外118Please respect copyright.PENANAqiUCSJ1TLx
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫118Please respect copyright.PENANAp2ZuhEVqjC
嘈雜。118Please respect copyright.PENANAzdX3g5qwhX
好討厭阿,好吵阿118Please respect copyright.PENANAWxiC7VV8PP
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」118Please respect copyright.PENANAdr7CEGB0Hq
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道118Please respect copyright.PENANAxwysQNIc7Q
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙118Please respect copyright.PENANAGe4vGYba0U
一名少女獨自站著?118Please respect copyright.PENANAjfy3tmKGU2
靜謐。118Please respect copyright.PENANAoGreQBYg72
不再有人發問118Please respect copyright.PENANAAvotVcsbVw
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀118Please respect copyright.PENANA9Uf3G02Nd2
看見自己的笑容118Please respect copyright.PENANAlZYrOBfGkT
看見了人類的頭顱118Please respect copyright.PENANAcdKzefFrju
看見了118Please respect copyright.PENANAaGG9kBk047
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般118Please respect copyright.PENANAa7d3TcAJof
奇怪的夢境118Please respect copyright.PENANAMtdzulejn4
我果然是瘋了吧118Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZbAM5uu8w
但我再怎麼瘋狂118Please respect copyright.PENANAqabH9c8xKA
應該也不會去殺人118Please respect copyright.PENANA3yvepSbKzK
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有118Please respect copyright.PENANA4974XLQwXO
夢中的我在笑118Please respect copyright.PENANAbw2wgOB88G
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道118Please respect copyright.PENANAc40M3PvL6F
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著118Please respect copyright.PENANAr5y3guWSob
「2月2日」118Please respect copyright.PENANAFiYon1cvLD