「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」134Please respect copyright.PENANAh7Q8xk2Lzb
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩134Please respect copyright.PENANAYgx2C6yTXV
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路134Please respect copyright.PENANA94ggTAO1LE
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」134Please respect copyright.PENANAtKCzcdiw3W
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。134Please respect copyright.PENANAd55S0FELcY
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫134Please respect copyright.PENANATi6jT9X33l
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了134Please respect copyright.PENANA22GzDg1mkY
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫134Please respect copyright.PENANAYpO3uJt8oS
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯134Please respect copyright.PENANA8hmWr5YYGG
拿起手機看了看日期134Please respect copyright.PENANAHh5wZ3ht8z
今天是2月28日134Please respect copyright.PENANAYK94d6pScC
於是我換上了運動服134Please respect copyright.PENANAApRm9Iny9b
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服134Please respect copyright.PENANAvzViGPpF7N
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子134Please respect copyright.PENANA4AlMxEzpK6
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。134Please respect copyright.PENANA7trRr0VVTL
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進134Please respect copyright.PENANAxGxEK3IdIg
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應134Please respect copyright.PENANAAxiJw63yBb
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受134Please respect copyright.PENANACW1HspoDBt
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問134Please respect copyright.PENANAkYIOUzCKU0
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想134Please respect copyright.PENANAQ8oIzhjsE3
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想134Please respect copyright.PENANAwPMiCvANCW
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道134Please respect copyright.PENANAclYyUQKWRW
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天134Please respect copyright.PENANAaFUY4VGi4N
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲134Please respect copyright.PENANAwQYXraxaJe
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門134Please respect copyright.PENANARj0nnAFgkS
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的134Please respect copyright.PENANAKhGwIRX4Nt
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色134Please respect copyright.PENANAZaXIWJiFQ0
對我來說那便是理想134Please respect copyright.PENANAlImUw9jTWq
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色134Please respect copyright.PENANAM8QywaaIz3
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼134Please respect copyright.PENANASCa0D3Exs0
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見134Please respect copyright.PENANAHp1mK6YMrx
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心134Please respect copyright.PENANAjCHTAFSpHB
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身134Please respect copyright.PENANAcWs6sh0i3x
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般134Please respect copyright.PENANALCc0jL7OJJ
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話134Please respect copyright.PENANA6pEqNNSHwW
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。134Please respect copyright.PENANAgnkpUr13ln
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說134Please respect copyright.PENANA4DjQmsj56e
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流134Please respect copyright.PENANA99DY6caHgi
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息134Please respect copyright.PENANAiWSqUNOgn9
「跟理想完全不同呢。」134Please respect copyright.PENANAhZeaN1wMbM
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館134Please respect copyright.PENANAQAjNHqT4Oi
我喜歡圖書館134Please respect copyright.PENANAOGWsJbAVQN
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般134Please respect copyright.PENANAF0PWWykh21
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?134Please respect copyright.PENANA1gya1uSXNf
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?134Please respect copyright.PENANAbdyr9R1Ok9
找到了、找到了、找到了?134Please respect copyright.PENANAqVlJ6Vh3XY
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出134Please respect copyright.PENANABGRMYeAuyl
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般134Please respect copyright.PENANA4JNrS24rMn
這種行為讓我露出了笑容134Please respect copyright.PENANAouk6s2ko7y
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容134Please respect copyright.PENANAKM70LJl4FO
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來134Please respect copyright.PENANAP0cKjqmzBv
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿134Please respect copyright.PENANA1sYR3vJsJo
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子134Please respect copyright.PENANAKMjGYOqtEV
我似乎迷上了那種血腥134Please respect copyright.PENANA06gbTU3uTD
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)134Please respect copyright.PENANANcCVY70hM1
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩134Please respect copyright.PENANAkMNth0CBO2
眼前一黑134Please respect copyright.PENANAtk12QrPBus
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧134Please respect copyright.PENANAdrNLfuNYXy
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼134Please respect copyright.PENANAUD6520YV7R
強光...?134Please respect copyright.PENANAAeKMEqADW7
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。134Please respect copyright.PENANAWTtKThsLyH
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光134Please respect copyright.PENANAGBXVg6aCnY
睜開眼看見開闊的草原134Please respect copyright.PENANApuLjejWmKG
草原?134Please respect copyright.PENANArUwa81HNUR
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能134Please respect copyright.PENANAZs0fLrpN8j
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?134Please respect copyright.PENANA5QRw8Syjbu
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著134Please respect copyright.PENANAz9Jamg1BvE
笑?134Please respect copyright.PENANAFr7lQ0Wj6S
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?134Please respect copyright.PENANAx3kHq8C1Zy
狂笑著134Please respect copyright.PENANAwITnM1nxEp
打從生下來第一次的134Please respect copyright.PENANA96d25VLPlo
扭曲的狂笑134Please respect copyright.PENANAYzCvfdR9bZ
醜陋的狂笑134Please respect copyright.PENANA141QjzFMI1
像個小丑一般舞蹈著134Please respect copyright.PENANAIwYYD250nx
純白的毛球向我撲來134Please respect copyright.PENANABd9tx5W62k
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音134Please respect copyright.PENANAAj7XbLpCGo
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去134Please respect copyright.PENANAmq2WqZ4ste
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色134Please respect copyright.PENANARf3OlFsuIp
右手感到重量,看向自己的手134Please respect copyright.PENANA0f0pJyW5ov
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀134Please respect copyright.PENANAj5E9Pr0ziq
又來了,又笑了134Please respect copyright.PENANAVQLqOZkLkw
笑了、笑了、笑了?134Please respect copyright.PENANAzFTkUGgImo
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆134Please respect copyright.PENANA8a6Oq3BWNN
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」134Please respect copyright.PENANAPklFM40qDa
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」134Please respect copyright.PENANAUadDTnQwzl
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存134Please respect copyright.PENANANqYW8z2dC7
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去134Please respect copyright.PENANAqixoRqAcps
我本來就是為了借書而來134Please respect copyright.PENANAN87h3heBSs
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物134Please respect copyright.PENANAScE96uy362
血液四散、內臟也散落一地134Please respect copyright.PENANAiRvLSs31Ta
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道134Please respect copyright.PENANApw2KYcdRLM
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉134Please respect copyright.PENANAZj6vpoABqy
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣134Please respect copyright.PENANAF9EXYOyGuK
我仍穿著高中制服134Please respect copyright.PENANA4R6O69XCl7
但步伐變得輕盈134Please respect copyright.PENANANh7LflQCrI
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界134Please respect copyright.PENANAAZrFSqRc2H
走在草原上與一群人相遇134Please respect copyright.PENANA67HVIGc1KU
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人134Please respect copyright.PENANADt2rErSK8Y
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外134Please respect copyright.PENANANtkvLm4vIh
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫134Please respect copyright.PENANAvn0uBBbIhZ
嘈雜。134Please respect copyright.PENANADO2RKcUkef
好討厭阿,好吵阿134Please respect copyright.PENANAkEVW0wGF46
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」134Please respect copyright.PENANA1Z1wgrNmE6
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道134Please respect copyright.PENANAfAaj4zx56n
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙134Please respect copyright.PENANAJIhX4tFZ23
一名少女獨自站著?134Please respect copyright.PENANABTLSmmZDUV
靜謐。134Please respect copyright.PENANAHZOlD9G6Sr
不再有人發問134Please respect copyright.PENANAFZqs53doVN
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀134Please respect copyright.PENANAPrh2DfCwTA
看見自己的笑容134Please respect copyright.PENANAZza4YkbwR6
看見了人類的頭顱134Please respect copyright.PENANAmVpOlF30W0
看見了134Please respect copyright.PENANA4tYTl6x7EU
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般134Please respect copyright.PENANAhqqi2pvW6d
奇怪的夢境134Please respect copyright.PENANA6gb9P1UdiJ
我果然是瘋了吧134Please respect copyright.PENANAD8bW7vC7JJ
但我再怎麼瘋狂134Please respect copyright.PENANAe44W8HPrDr
應該也不會去殺人134Please respect copyright.PENANA6kaFRlUnmo
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有134Please respect copyright.PENANAG6rlehfIT8
夢中的我在笑134Please respect copyright.PENANAxuiMRipAwu
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道134Please respect copyright.PENANA4v9KKSWQ2w
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著134Please respect copyright.PENANASGftHiV3h0
「2月2日」134Please respect copyright.PENANAo4PoNtFioJ