「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」157Please respect copyright.PENANAuBqL2lAe8t
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩157Please respect copyright.PENANA7DtCOR5w6y
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路157Please respect copyright.PENANAx1SHzA3uq8
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」157Please respect copyright.PENANAZuqkWcjDMl
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。157Please respect copyright.PENANAeZXLmgVNjy
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫157Please respect copyright.PENANAMIzau3YNSD
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了157Please respect copyright.PENANAF9cFsYSWfv
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫157Please respect copyright.PENANAjnrfZRW6KU
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯157Please respect copyright.PENANAloID7lHa5k
拿起手機看了看日期157Please respect copyright.PENANAUTEkr5KyQg
今天是2月28日157Please respect copyright.PENANAhGp4jMu8cS
於是我換上了運動服157Please respect copyright.PENANAoOYvfuPkgG
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服157Please respect copyright.PENANAOeChH4a7I0
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子157Please respect copyright.PENANAQOkLjnV7lX
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。157Please respect copyright.PENANA1ck3lgzcYl
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進157Please respect copyright.PENANAxsRRwRscXg
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應157Please respect copyright.PENANAFpyR5Or5rz
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受157Please respect copyright.PENANAiNSxSTmLgV
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問157Please respect copyright.PENANAxsTeCMXyQW
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想157Please respect copyright.PENANAXuHpwmw05v
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想157Please respect copyright.PENANAHZ96ygJ3ev
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道157Please respect copyright.PENANAxh2IqUOWRK
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天157Please respect copyright.PENANAStMJVs4kZt
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲157Please respect copyright.PENANAdwI3fV6tAK
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門157Please respect copyright.PENANAA0szMCK0nL
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的157Please respect copyright.PENANAC4Ht0n5lv4
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色157Please respect copyright.PENANAM9dgetKcQv
對我來說那便是理想157Please respect copyright.PENANAMAIdHNlObT
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色157Please respect copyright.PENANAkQ6Jyxaa5I
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼157Please respect copyright.PENANAzSGNtv286V
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見157Please respect copyright.PENANA89YN8RdFYO
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心157Please respect copyright.PENANA6lr6x0scGx
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身157Please respect copyright.PENANAH20bCQDUuE
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般157Please respect copyright.PENANAfog1gylWbi
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話157Please respect copyright.PENANAfce8KehniQ
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。157Please respect copyright.PENANA6qeyAKbjkU
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說157Please respect copyright.PENANA8BI0iqVjlY
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流157Please respect copyright.PENANAiHCODJ6Pxv
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息157Please respect copyright.PENANAPu6sh2d8GG
「跟理想完全不同呢。」157Please respect copyright.PENANA0t55Tg7xoK
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館157Please respect copyright.PENANA6Un09DMiBf
我喜歡圖書館157Please respect copyright.PENANAo2H4fBBOTO
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般157Please respect copyright.PENANAnIWRbZPKHV
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?157Please respect copyright.PENANAM8NV4WuCM9
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?157Please respect copyright.PENANAc2HjVf0ukd
找到了、找到了、找到了?157Please respect copyright.PENANATEQP6wB7T5
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出157Please respect copyright.PENANATeifCeeA9z
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般157Please respect copyright.PENANATt7dV1PtUY
這種行為讓我露出了笑容157Please respect copyright.PENANAVLUK2E0rOv
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容157Please respect copyright.PENANATQPHtsHngb
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來157Please respect copyright.PENANAgSE1HbOjUh
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿157Please respect copyright.PENANAFPBXWllAP9
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子157Please respect copyright.PENANAWch4fjN8nt
我似乎迷上了那種血腥157Please respect copyright.PENANAk9n77MkpzA
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)157Please respect copyright.PENANApywRaTuJ4q
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩157Please respect copyright.PENANArGpdLS3VoJ
眼前一黑157Please respect copyright.PENANAPGaDzVxiYP
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧157Please respect copyright.PENANAu0LVnUTawD
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼157Please respect copyright.PENANA4ulMjQWZIt
強光...?157Please respect copyright.PENANAKEQSXs6s8J
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。157Please respect copyright.PENANAtNsr76jx0K
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光157Please respect copyright.PENANAOkM8cQdU3H
睜開眼看見開闊的草原157Please respect copyright.PENANAa3iZ2kHRhv
草原?157Please respect copyright.PENANAPEw3xU0Jqy
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能157Please respect copyright.PENANAYdPyD1ATWP
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?157Please respect copyright.PENANAWORejVnVyu
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著157Please respect copyright.PENANA0l36r7DpLv
笑?157Please respect copyright.PENANA47iSSVx0UZ
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?157Please respect copyright.PENANAqYBOJjAU29
狂笑著157Please respect copyright.PENANAuYeHdi8jMQ
打從生下來第一次的157Please respect copyright.PENANArjYcfV7lkU
扭曲的狂笑157Please respect copyright.PENANASrNQH5feJG
醜陋的狂笑157Please respect copyright.PENANAL81RUUFzPL
像個小丑一般舞蹈著157Please respect copyright.PENANAONl39t8zO5
純白的毛球向我撲來157Please respect copyright.PENANACrEex40grA
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音157Please respect copyright.PENANAEVemjvDfE8
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去157Please respect copyright.PENANA76Dfkd2lew
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色157Please respect copyright.PENANAk5snQSy9PE
右手感到重量,看向自己的手157Please respect copyright.PENANA34mQRuiSpj
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀157Please respect copyright.PENANATYEuW2rMgg
又來了,又笑了157Please respect copyright.PENANAWyORYo8qb0
笑了、笑了、笑了?157Please respect copyright.PENANAEHcxY5Dz92
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆157Please respect copyright.PENANA3J2fvrgKUW
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」157Please respect copyright.PENANAc772ekIWHz
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」157Please respect copyright.PENANArKgffnooqM
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存157Please respect copyright.PENANAxgevL51euA
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去157Please respect copyright.PENANALkMVyyZP5e
我本來就是為了借書而來157Please respect copyright.PENANAm3XrROAIvA
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物157Please respect copyright.PENANAOEJTY1n7nQ
血液四散、內臟也散落一地157Please respect copyright.PENANAcYqcu6fBWZ
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道157Please respect copyright.PENANAtoYWSTCaJk
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉157Please respect copyright.PENANANqWl5NPdx0
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣157Please respect copyright.PENANALBnOqztGa4
我仍穿著高中制服157Please respect copyright.PENANABUV7Vu8fps
但步伐變得輕盈157Please respect copyright.PENANAB5KV6kP00r
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界157Please respect copyright.PENANAKPzzyaOZBN
走在草原上與一群人相遇157Please respect copyright.PENANAIMLXbXYSf3
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人157Please respect copyright.PENANAfAZ2C9ZYj4
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外157Please respect copyright.PENANAlh3Rfw5ocd
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫157Please respect copyright.PENANASf2LXWiDfP
嘈雜。157Please respect copyright.PENANAqXL4Kacpro
好討厭阿,好吵阿157Please respect copyright.PENANAzqVNRmcw8N
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」157Please respect copyright.PENANAgPyv1gup7B
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道157Please respect copyright.PENANAiM8cLhzgdN
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙157Please respect copyright.PENANAuyV2u48jrS
一名少女獨自站著?157Please respect copyright.PENANAEtegDl0sEG
靜謐。157Please respect copyright.PENANAGYo6SHYzb4
不再有人發問157Please respect copyright.PENANAcwmC98toKv
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀157Please respect copyright.PENANAoZDjBALMhs
看見自己的笑容157Please respect copyright.PENANAp93XY4Cv2W
看見了人類的頭顱157Please respect copyright.PENANAYM5orZ89db
看見了157Please respect copyright.PENANA0PAUOm7tOf
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般157Please respect copyright.PENANAnKkTqk9cz9
奇怪的夢境157Please respect copyright.PENANAyyHb7xFtAi
我果然是瘋了吧157Please respect copyright.PENANAcfspXoJbGZ
但我再怎麼瘋狂157Please respect copyright.PENANAzHEgwZUtOr
應該也不會去殺人157Please respect copyright.PENANAdAOaZeGv44
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有157Please respect copyright.PENANAGFHFxQ5O4I
夢中的我在笑157Please respect copyright.PENANADz87IVsGJX
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道157Please respect copyright.PENANAkl1vGK7XnA
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著157Please respect copyright.PENANALWBxbZUkUC
「2月2日」157Please respect copyright.PENANAElZxOrh7ry