「我該做的是什麼呢?為了甚麼活著呢?」141Please respect copyright.PENANA5kJ1nPi8bB
指引前路的月光,被雲霧所壟罩141Please respect copyright.PENANAFJkqjU1Aoe
看不清自己的內心,看不清自己的前路141Please respect copyright.PENANAxKHgXOXdXp
「阿...要是自己不存在就好了。」141Please respect copyright.PENANA15bL2ozGPB
經過短暫的話語,夜晚恢復寂靜。141Please respect copyright.PENANAmG0onbhwQv
太陽又一次升起,將我喚醒的不是清澈的鳥叫聲更不是夏禪的鳴叫141Please respect copyright.PENANAX0SpQvysfV
這不僅是因為現在根本不是夏天,更是因為我所在的地區已不在適合那些大自然生存了141Please respect copyright.PENANAEVtk3HLufE
喚醒我的僅僅是母親的呼叫141Please respect copyright.PENANAxLB3zc9Vuj
命令一般的叫我下樓去吃早飯141Please respect copyright.PENANASEovLDw92U
拿起手機看了看日期141Please respect copyright.PENANAv4s3U1WL3B
今天是2月28日141Please respect copyright.PENANAQkVT0CodGy
於是我換上了運動服141Please respect copyright.PENANAA87oUqcb2L
僅有在有體育課的日子我才會穿上運動服141Please respect copyright.PENANASLHaXZpUN4
對平常都穿著制服的我來說今天是特別的日子141Please respect copyright.PENANAfLPhzxSoKA
我喜歡穿制服,僅僅是因為那樣更加貼近我的理想。141Please respect copyright.PENANAqlQI0h9La4
完食後我便朝著離家僅有百米遠的學校前進141Please respect copyright.PENANAVYsi9Qwt0p
每次在路上我都感到強烈的不適應141Please respect copyright.PENANAKQFpdrvvb0
那是一種讓我認為到自己不應該在這世上、不應該與大家過著同樣生活的感受141Please respect copyright.PENANAqUgFCJYkqZ
「我為什麼在這裡?」多次向自己提出疑問141Please respect copyright.PENANA8onDAw73qp
在旁人看來大概只是些中二病的幻想141Please respect copyright.PENANAyYvbveQHp2
但對我來說卻是切切實實的真實,但現實也是種幻想141Please respect copyright.PENANARwd2lIsXuQ
那麼 那種感覺究竟是什麼?我不知道141Please respect copyright.PENANA8XOtv1sVhi
就這樣抱著疑問又過了重複的一天141Please respect copyright.PENANA6Oixl5bT4y
回到房間便一如往常地開始了線上遊戲141Please respect copyright.PENANAZrYuLeXLk9
那長52公分寬33公分的方框不單是螢幕也是通往異世界、理想世界的大門141Please respect copyright.PENANABUaczlTtIc
在那裏我扮演著自己的理想的141Please respect copyright.PENANA1aVbb9QqRf
不僅受人喜愛又健談扮演著吉祥物般的角色141Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8AU1Ct8q9
對我來說那便是理想141Please respect copyright.PENANATRMAI9f85P
一個受到所有人的青睞又不招人忌妒的角色141Please respect copyright.PENANAxUJnBAckLo
但那卻難以維持,自己對周遭越來越恐懼141Please respect copyright.PENANAgjlCeMA4o7
對每個人都開始了嫉妒與猜疑,害怕著自己那面具被扯下,醜陋的臉龐被看見141Please respect copyright.PENANA9NnEEnPscB
理想如同刀子一般刺進我心141Please respect copyright.PENANAvm13yb62OC
恐懼、開心、懷疑、痛苦等等情緒開始充斥於我自身141Please respect copyright.PENANAnKlUL5yrGx
與自己原本的理想完全相反,簡直像是第二個地獄一般141Please respect copyright.PENANAmCW11uuFsD
「阿......完了...」內心深處響起了這麼一句話141Please respect copyright.PENANAnMNV3xcNR7
太陽再次升起,沒錯祂又升起了,像是在嘲笑我一般。141Please respect copyright.PENANACmsBPhlL1V
2月29日,今天也是特別的日子呢,不是對我而是對世界來說141Please respect copyright.PENANARtN0HZI1Q2
學校-人間煉獄,為了朝向理想的我穿著制服,坐在角落的我因為陰沉的個性與他人毫無交流141Please respect copyright.PENANAPodK3oHSJu
與那些在上下課期間都活躍的人們活在不同世界的我暗自嘆息141Please respect copyright.PENANAcVif9q4Dyi
「跟理想完全不同呢。」141Please respect copyright.PENANAPlH5Ptwrng
今天我因為有想看的書而來到圖書館141Please respect copyright.PENANAbWOzMrB2Oo
我喜歡圖書館141Please respect copyright.PENANAb8l75v8usq
因為這裡的安靜讓我就像融入環境般141Please respect copyright.PENANAKoqCkFiMlU
異物感減少了、減少了、減少了?141Please respect copyright.PENANAhnC6RFsnbB
難道我這種人也能有這樣的歸屬嗎?141Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6qXFgVTVt
找到了、找到了、找到了?141Please respect copyright.PENANAuM1mWAtxhq
找到我想看的書了,將它從書櫃中抽出141Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3SxRwzI77
像是將它從它的歸屬中抽離一般141Please respect copyright.PENANAoP8gsSFrDz
這種行為讓我露出了笑容141Please respect copyright.PENANA4MhUEaqYdX
不自覺的毫不刻意的自然的笑容141Please respect copyright.PENANA3LwoiCsKJS
當下的我完全沒有發現自己的表情不同以往的扭曲起來141Please respect copyright.PENANAjqjEbOE9aj
(阿,這麼說來是從那時候開始的阿141Please respect copyright.PENANAkjjhorzN0J
小時候看見野獸獵食的樣子那血肉模糊的樣子141Please respect copyright.PENANAgwY3jmHWZy
我似乎迷上了那種血腥141Please respect copyright.PENANAYDDAYxZPd7
那種單方面的暴虐之類的)141Please respect copyright.PENANAgzNzQyQ4o2
將書拿出後突然無法好好站穩141Please respect copyright.PENANAexJ2nSHKPJ
眼前一黑141Please respect copyright.PENANAb0REfNaMfx
要是就這麼倒下我便會打破這寧靜吧141Please respect copyright.PENANAPqlPGjhdtz
好不容易站穩後卻因強光無法睜開眼141Please respect copyright.PENANAeu9XLUYEnT
強光...?141Please respect copyright.PENANAo2lBOaqjfe
這圖書館哪會有什麼強光?難道是在醫院?不對,我還站著。141Please respect copyright.PENANAE8e9c6XtKG
眼睛終於稍微適應了亮光141Please respect copyright.PENANARJSyrBtX1j
睜開眼看見開闊的草原141Please respect copyright.PENANAJIrOoyZFjp
草原?141Please respect copyright.PENANAEL8TpAjbSi
我的腦袋開始思考著無數可能141Please respect copyright.PENANARRpkslwZ20
幻覺...?難道我終於瘋了嗎?還是說...異世界...?那個我曾多次幻想的事發生了嗎?141Please respect copyright.PENANAXHa3V6ccxx
回過神來我發現自己正在笑著141Please respect copyright.PENANAz99CBZnfZY
笑?141Please respect copyright.PENANAyitiUYK1Qt
是因為困惑?無法理解?發狂?欣喜?141Please respect copyright.PENANAneUwsy8wTU
狂笑著141Please respect copyright.PENANAF96NpcHHEm
打從生下來第一次的141Please respect copyright.PENANAZVJ4nAv8dE
扭曲的狂笑141Please respect copyright.PENANATmcZofC2N8
醜陋的狂笑141Please respect copyright.PENANAMXbIjnMGnH
像個小丑一般舞蹈著141Please respect copyright.PENANAcqJ0o416xa
純白的毛球向我撲來141Please respect copyright.PENANAMez42L9LWD
聽見了空氣被切割的聲音141Please respect copyright.PENANAdOpS4p8vWO
純白的毛球消失了,低下頭朝草地看去141Please respect copyright.PENANAWVBvfcyY0Y
那潔白的身軀已經染上鮮豔的紅色141Please respect copyright.PENANAZFppvJcGUh
右手感到重量,看向自己的手141Please respect copyright.PENANAeXffB38F53
手裡握著的是染上日落般鮮紅的太刀141Please respect copyright.PENANA1HMv1KA53i
又來了,又笑了141Please respect copyright.PENANArotDCiiT4I
笑了、笑了、笑了?141Please respect copyright.PENANAQMF5sxAPoH
止不住的瘋狂,對生命的褻瀆141Please respect copyright.PENANAxDSrnxTzS5
「阿哈哈...阿哈哈哈哈哈----------」141Please respect copyright.PENANAnCKiDYTxzq
「同學,在圖書館請保持安靜」141Please respect copyright.PENANAapGtG7VmzL
剛才的狂氣已蕩然無存141Please respect copyright.PENANAIub1P8tJsg
「對...對不起」我向他低頭道歉後便安靜地朝櫃台走去141Please respect copyright.PENANAOvAvw7bkP4
我本來就是為了借書而來141Please respect copyright.PENANACKZhi9slO8
剛才看見的一切讓我再一次認為自己已然不正常
看到眼前被一分為二的生物141Please respect copyright.PENANAd3ctc8EoFj
血液四散、內臟也散落一地141Please respect copyright.PENANAFIKVRjpU2Y
為甚麼我的心情這麼的愉悅?我不知道141Please respect copyright.PENANA08eD3oywWh
看著手中的太刀感到非常熟悉141Please respect copyright.PENANAXTbwTsoKdm
與我在遊戲中所使用的武器一模一樣141Please respect copyright.PENANAmNlQQlc4NJ
我仍穿著高中制服141Please respect copyright.PENANAyfrTKR1jjr
但步伐變得輕盈141Please respect copyright.PENANATBPargu0TJ
先前揮出的一刀也如反射動作一般
我仍身處於那幻覺世界141Please respect copyright.PENANAib8RyMS8P9
走在草原上與一群人相遇141Please respect copyright.PENANAIxF6f7WApv
他們似乎是打算在此紮營的旅行商人141Please respect copyright.PENANALT4BFoSJeA
他們對於我的打扮毫不意外141Please respect copyright.PENANASnyXkUCqNQ
說是最近很流行這種穿搭
四周充斥著慘叫141Please respect copyright.PENANAJsPLVhVjGd
嘈雜。141Please respect copyright.PENANAMaaFtW1jdx
好討厭阿,好吵阿141Please respect copyright.PENANAPYv8QNzQTT
「妳...妳到底是甚麼人!為甚麼要做這種事!」141Please respect copyright.PENANA13fCBdysYC
這是在向我提問嗎?我不知道141Please respect copyright.PENANAMH9NeWkf9P
微弱的月光透過帳篷的縫隙141Please respect copyright.PENANAWu3kPf11zf
一名少女獨自站著?141Please respect copyright.PENANAu8MJUu1SjC
靜謐。141Please respect copyright.PENANAYUsYZdxZ6F
不再有人發問141Please respect copyright.PENANAkjYy8zPKrb
看見再一次被染上鮮血的刀141Please respect copyright.PENANAEShwG3FhHU
看見自己的笑容141Please respect copyright.PENANAyEoHSaHRd6
看見了人類的頭顱141Please respect copyright.PENANAfOc4NBY2RI
看見了141Please respect copyright.PENANAzE0QIC11cO
自己的內心...?
太陽又一次升起,宛如詛咒一般141Please respect copyright.PENANA875QVc8oOH
奇怪的夢境141Please respect copyright.PENANAXShjbILMfe
我果然是瘋了吧141Please respect copyright.PENANANEkTcoJ90A
但我再怎麼瘋狂141Please respect copyright.PENANAYHF1b3Ud4D
應該也不會去殺人141Please respect copyright.PENANAmhIsTHHDbr
雖說我曾想過自殺,但一次對他人下手的想法也沒有141Please respect copyright.PENANAk6AtdAic0T
夢中的我在笑141Please respect copyright.PENANAf7Qpy81wNO
難道我的未來是那種樣子的嗎?我不知道141Please respect copyright.PENANAmi8ZHrprU6
抱持著疑問又過了重複的一天?
早晨的新聞上寫著141Please respect copyright.PENANAayQr3ydi8q
「2月2日」141Please respect copyright.PENANAJx37G1JZeG