隗羽醒了。36Please respect copyright.PENANA3YEsgDZrmR
鬧鐘照舊的響,鬧騰得房間發熱,泄了氣般拖著長音。36Please respect copyright.PENANAbwpXrnjzmP
窗外是鬱悶的烈陽,照得她繼續發起懞來。36Please respect copyright.PENANARKgLlcJtGf
好熱。36Please respect copyright.PENANAeFdVefOqgM
空調不知何時停了,無力的手拿起無力的手機,剛一開啓——36Please respect copyright.PENANAy0M0bCSQQE
「啊,沒電了。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAM6SWguPZfu
興許是昨晚再度沉迷小説,迷迷糊糊中忘插上電源;興許是家裡忘繳電費……亦或是房租。36Please respect copyright.PENANASGcKNoPQFJ
不論如何,無法進入網絡世界的酷夏總會令人興致全無。36Please respect copyright.PENANAXz4imvQmuw
想到這,那雙手徹底沒了力,攤在被窩裡。36Please respect copyright.PENANAemX8xiMyUm
家裡沒有其他人,父親去上班了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAxAJep3awJL
大概會照舊勾搭不知姓名的女人,然後在凌晨帶著一身酒氣回家吧。36Please respect copyright.PENANAa6kiT3HnXI
有時是上司,有時是同事,有時,她甚至連隔壁的王小姐都見著了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAMxnodjUZLf
隗羽摸了摸胸口。36Please respect copyright.PENANAkyO7gAORV1
要説毫無起伏也不至於,但也僅僅是有點凸起的程度。36Please respect copyright.PENANAOfSYpcZoom
如果自己到了那些女人的年紀,也能隨隨便便闖進別人家麽?36Please respect copyright.PENANAniB7w0YWfH
他們是成年人,隗羽想。36Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3CSsHA14q
所以他們吸烟,他們喝酒,他們上床。36Please respect copyright.PENANA5WNPWcF0X5
……盡是些以靈魂為藉口做肉體買賣的社會人。36Please respect copyright.PENANAF93S16vI8A
隗羽不情不愿地起身。36Please respect copyright.PENANAgdeSHWMwuX
冰箱裡的啤酒昨夜就該耗盡了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAsuNaJWDNAN
她幾乎忘了這茬,賣力撐起被褥,將窗簾拉開,隨手披上件純棉襯衫。36Please respect copyright.PENANAYN4tbM4PJ0
半長不短的褐髮蓬鬆披散到肩部,絲一般如逆風垂柳,偶有幾撮倒立起來。隗羽敷衍梳了頭。36Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6FHhws7DR
出房門後,入眼一片狼藉。客廳永遠如此,像流浪漢闖過一般——雖然她的房間同樣亂就是了。36Please respect copyright.PENANA7c3TtTgZnm
不過房間裡可不會有煙味。36Please respect copyright.PENANACdK5oj6Yp5
也不會有隨意丟棄的胸罩。36Please respect copyright.PENANAFO8yLFLuxz
嫌棄地踢開脚邊衣物,隗羽來到厨房。36Please respect copyright.PENANATOd3LQFjZA
烤爐電子鐘提醒她,現在是下午三點。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWz8F5k7ywP
反正都這個點,吃不吃午餐也沒所謂了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAf1Xm5FVErn
冰箱裡……照舊沒有放置任何食材,飲料格也空著,果然沒啤酒了。36Please respect copyright.PENANA6k3RkscAQ1
感受著冷空氣,隗羽緊握磁吸門的手遲遲不鬆開。36Please respect copyright.PENANAzzs6ynobRV
夏天真該死啊。36Please respect copyright.PENANA0uLnVBetUZ
暴躁的太陽與暴躁的人,最重要是為期兩月的暑假。36Please respect copyright.PENANA9eXl4k3pQX
國中也好,高中也好,對她來説,假期與學校並無區別,見着的面孔換了又換,盡是對她不感興趣的,盡是豐滿的人,裝不下她。36Please respect copyright.PENANAQTV0pcI0NP
哎。36Please respect copyright.PENANAxMlqisxiII
嘆口氣,隗羽忽然有些恍惚。36Please respect copyright.PENANAsAjUFHrk5M
窗外仍是一片亮,灰磚墻根、寂寥的矮杉樹,似乎空渺渺嗡鳴起來。36Please respect copyright.PENANAzdKKTWdSxM
夏炎的躁意,與她不相干了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAuPSRnhD8rN
頭腦冷下來,又針扎地刺一下。36Please respect copyright.PENANAlWGsOjFAmY
她想去看看海。36Please respect copyright.PENANARqm14AsSBl
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「感謝惠顧~」36Please respect copyright.PENANAEDYkIoGHE7
隗羽拿著黑塑料袋出了商店。36Please respect copyright.PENANADl5IKGooeg
親戚開的店不需出示身份證,買酒自然不成阻礙。36Please respect copyright.PENANAOiM6PQ0SG1
順便買了些泡麵,原味的。36Please respect copyright.PENANAeC3Dy6yVeG
不論何種口味,泡麵永遠是那股軟爛勁兒,吃著像嚼稀泥,越嚼越反胃;加了鹽的稀泥與和了糖的稀泥怎可能是兩種味?36Please respect copyright.PENANAVBycQcAyJO
今天晚餐照舊吃泡麵。36Please respect copyright.PENANA0o6fyrXkYw
哎。36Please respect copyright.PENANAHQUlobms4e
又是嘆氣,隗羽拍拍臉,騎上自行車。36Please respect copyright.PENANAKeIHuflpcE
這樣鬱悶下去不好,她該換個角度思考。36Please respect copyright.PENANARtgmkj9isJ
但腦殼頂的灼燒感告訴她,應該讓天上的火球也加入討論,將一切胡思亂想都燃盡。36Please respect copyright.PENANACTP7Std7un
汕湖市的夏天總是如此濕悶。36Please respect copyright.PENANAZXiUeEFXBV
好熱。她該去看看海。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWJknOcJZZP
但她應該在家裡為年初的學測作準備——36Please respect copyright.PENANA7OMoViZNif
理性正想説些甚麽,卻被太陽掐住了嘴,嗚嗚大叫起來。36Please respect copyright.PENANAzo6EU7YVTp
半響,短袖黑襯衫早已濕透,隗羽踏起單車一上一下。車鏈子許久未經使用,有些生鏽,踏得她腿疼。36Please respect copyright.PENANAPxeY5M2oB9
路途顛顛簸簸,那冒煙的鉄欄杆也被感染,熱情地將夏天最亮的光映過來。36Please respect copyright.PENANApFRScU0PNA
途徑數人,嬉笑談天好不快樂,聚集在一起,個個臉上都有色彩,一個個都有色彩。36Please respect copyright.PENANAr3995VSyms
自己融得進他們的圈子嗎?隗羽想。36Please respect copyright.PENANAQwyg5esDj0
看起來像大學生的穿衣搭配,衣服鞋子都是名牌,是有錢人家啊。36Please respect copyright.PENANAZpKjX6mdPr
盯著身上的黑背包,黑短褲,還有黑色單車,隗羽幹幹地笑了下,笑容中明明白白寫滿幾個大字,「不懂穿搭」。36Please respect copyright.PENANAV1cWksDSxV
反正就算穿上艷裝也沒差別。36Please respect copyright.PENANAU6IfV2FS82
近乎眩暈的白金反射照來,鐵欄杆紅了臉,熱心地提醒她,該休息了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAkrgwgQmjdb
是該休息了。36Please respect copyright.PENANACEe6j6c2Y0
她下車,穿過人行道來到公路另一側。36Please respect copyright.PENANAVvQUwnoAbA
海的廣闊、慧藍,靜靜攤開在眼前。36Please respect copyright.PENANAnHVymVVQS3
海岸對面,連接著白雲油畫。一頭深,一面淺;一片藍,一塊白。骨碌幾聲,那沉重的黑袋子脫了手,黃罐啤酒滾落一地。36Please respect copyright.PENANAtjScVR7oI5
這幅海景油畫,怎都顯得有點割裂。36Please respect copyright.PENANA8vs8wFBC1k
隗羽伸手掏口袋,又記起手機留在家中充電,便彎下腰,慢悠悠地撿起啤酒罐。36Please respect copyright.PENANAjMArTjIsdZ
照片對自己有何意義?36Please respect copyright.PENANAaoR1gtKEvY
拍了海景照,她又能與誰分享?36Please respect copyright.PENANAZOQ6O6MSL1
父親?36Please respect copyright.PENANAp5Qa2oTahh
同學?36Please respect copyright.PENANADPHDHT7YrA
還是那商店裡的親戚?36Please respect copyright.PENANAl3bybFEUgU
難不成還能留個紀念?36Please respect copyright.PENANAMc3UIA6bMP
她沒有朋友,連能説上話的人都沒有。36Please respect copyright.PENANAyVDAR3e9Dw
她沒有才華,連老師都看不上自己,連親人都嫌棄利用自己。36Please respect copyright.PENANAmwsayNXxVo
她沒有靈魂,沒有蕙心蘭質,沒有光風霽月,連發聲都不會得到注視,連社會喧嘩盤曲的綫團也融不進,連山海的雍雍斷斷續續影影綽綽氤氤氳氳也找不著容身之處。36Please respect copyright.PENANAm2KJFZRh4E
——啪36Please respect copyright.PENANA9KJuN7q3nt
打開啤酒,隗羽任由冰涼從頭淋到全身。36Please respect copyright.PENANAr8nZhNGhsf
凌亂的柳髮浸了水,濕乎乎黏成一塊。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWWqxwx2xMk
沒過幾秒,噹啷一聲將空心鐵罐抛入垃圾桶。36Please respect copyright.PENANAC0Q8ENtspK
好熱。好吵。36Please respect copyright.PENANAe8ZyMcw14K
興許是覺得不夠,她再開了罐,對著嘴就一飲而盡。36Please respect copyright.PENANAjLFjB9cIKx
冒著泡的酒水挾著苦味撞入口腔,隗羽下意識地感到惡心,隨即將金屬罐掐得更緊,强迫胃部接受從未嘗過的劣質啤酒。36Please respect copyright.PENANAP1uADYa4gA
苦點好,苦點好啊。36Please respect copyright.PENANA9eVlfoPjg1
皺著臉來到樹蔭處,心中陰鬱并未被酒氣掃光。36Please respect copyright.PENANAkC0X8J9NMX
相反地,那舌尖上的刺痛感,轉移到腦中,不肯走了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAuAdgtjN5de
頭頂仍滲著水,生平第一次喝酒就是這副落魄樣。36Please respect copyright.PENANALrdP7XRavi
看向海,那海便像招呼隗羽似的,一擺一擺揮起手。36Please respect copyright.PENANADVu1ab6t0n
她失了神,攀到鐵欄杆上,見著東零西落一地泡麵紙盒,又搖晃下身,低頭將它們層層堆在樹根旁。36Please respect copyright.PENANAV71dGQ9rKT
啪。36Please respect copyright.PENANA07V14YvqFg
第三罐啤酒是倒給大海的。36Please respect copyright.PENANA8k1Y7YRQwF
米黃色液體圓柱順著浪花嵌入海面,白色浮沫還未完全顯現,就被下一波泡沫推擠開,一圈,又一圈,全被海浪吞沒,直到瓶子「咕咕」地變成空心缺口。浪揮著手說再見,擁抱了土岸。36Please respect copyright.PENANA9njkqHTMZ9
「要是我沉下去,也能像泡沫一樣消散嗎?」36Please respect copyright.PENANAhd6GjgnZZg
隗羽凝視著海,海也凝視著她,驀然,不再湧動。36Please respect copyright.PENANAqcmk4Od0c1
一切都平靜了;遠處的山聳立著,彎起腰看她;天上的雲為太陽讓出位,偷偷地瞟視她。一切都是那麽地安靜……平靜,隗羽突然覺得自己的大腦也沒聲了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAiadJXZT9Mq
她早該知道答案。36Please respect copyright.PENANATbTfmGXJlc
這裡容不得她。36Please respect copyright.PENANA75mUOj7uBn
框噠。36Please respect copyright.PENANADklC5edtjk
越過欄杆不過是毫秒之間,在那墜落的最後一刻,看向天邊的最後一眼,她發覺世界有了色彩。36Please respect copyright.PENANAsTMrk2iwcS
世界不會關注可有可無的人。36Please respect copyright.PENANAwrgRRFImbj
所以就算自己消失了,這裡仍是容不得她的。36Please respect copyright.PENANAp7pdPG1u0H
噗通。36Please respect copyright.PENANAaIDVpqHgQ5
水花濺起,躍不過一人高。36Please respect copyright.PENANAj3AVpwjIOJ
海浪動了,山動了,雲也動了。它們看著彼此,或許沒有,或許只是偶然間的雙目交織。36Please respect copyright.PENANASsF32VcV7I
無風亦無浪,一切都平靜了。36Please respect copyright.PENANAnNtXoFDoyF
然後,幾分鐘。36Please respect copyright.PENANA6X4lOTnLWY
第二次落水聲徹底打破夏的安謐。
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