「我回來了。」121Please respect copyright.PENANAFnpfpG11Ay
想當然地沒有任何回應。121Please respect copyright.PENANA0JPmnJfuJv
滿是酒氣的客廳隗羽一刻都不想多待,放下書包換好拖鞋,她繞過沙發,臨門前拿掃帚挑開堆積成山的衣物,順脚踢走酒瓶。121Please respect copyright.PENANAXHddsvrLzP
回到房間,恢復清净的空氣終於令眉眼彎了起來,打開空調,她有條不紊地將課本塞進書櫃提前預留好的隔間,整理完,又從背包掏出幾封信件。121Please respect copyright.PENANAGMu3qzlATu
每人一份的紀念冊,以及群體合照右下角的自己。121Please respect copyright.PENANAIG2XDjOPDY
難得的同框相片,連假笑都像是透著喜悅。121Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2WuHJc107
輕輕伸手撫摸,保護層粘附在指尖,最後一天就這麽溜走了。121Please respect copyright.PENANAdpZcJgm58B
以後再也見不到了吧。121Please respect copyright.PENANAc1Z3Sm29SR
儘管與他們並不熟悉,隗羽還是難免有些感慨。121Please respect copyright.PENANABeKPATffTT
接下來離成年又近一步,千萬不要成為父親那種人了。121Please respect copyright.PENANAdoD5mhEtYv
暢想著未來,少女腦中脹滿憧憬。121Please respect copyright.PENANAVmBFhQaZzu
國中會很不一樣吧,新校園、新朋友、社團活動,再幾年之後,自己很快就可以獨立了!121Please respect copyright.PENANA9sXHEh1fYd
到時候趕緊離開父親……121Please respect copyright.PENANAkjezIHMYCv
開門聲赫然響起,隗羽一驚,反射性地想要躲進書桌底下,可已經太遲了。121Please respect copyright.PENANAFhn2hNqGnH
綠酒瓶憤憤在木地板砸出一個坑,發泄充斥酒精味的怒意。121Please respect copyright.PENANAjJgjXFw2Bx
「你他媽沒長記性是不是?酒呢?冰箱裡的酒呢?」121Please respect copyright.PENANA1XlflT812D
少女回身,單膝跪地懇求饒恕。121Please respect copyright.PENANA6YUqj5cikG
「對不起,阿爸,我不記得了。」121Please respect copyright.PENANAiJL7v6H2fq
興許是長年纍計的不忿,又或是少年人零星閃耀的勇氣,隗羽努力抬起雙眼,頂撞向上方的高大人影。121Please respect copyright.PENANAx6eGATrVGt
「今天畢業典禮你沒來,每次要喝酒了才會想起我……阿爸,你當我做跑腿了,對嗎?」121Please respect copyright.PENANAEwagYozPPR
魁梧的身軀俯身靠近,陰沉的深藍色帶有醉意,仔細打量幾下隗羽,認定她的不孝。121Please respect copyright.PENANANz70zsGGrt
房間四壁震顫起來,他冷冷叱喝,「長大了?學會頂嘴了?」121Please respect copyright.PENANAF79mYxpXUq
時鐘邁步跨越了分界綫,與孩子們最後的玩樂時光道別。121Please respect copyright.PENANALraPZ5sBna
破空聲向隗羽襲去,下意識的格擋永遠是徒勞,一齣劇場重複著上演,悶哼聲,隨即是倒地的脆響,再然後是掌摑,抬手猛烈砸向太陽穴,無塵的書架在陽光下熠熠生輝,沉默看著眼前無力反抗的求援者。121Please respect copyright.PENANAbwSdKfQglc
停頓意味更凶悍陰鷙的施暴,雷擊一般的揮打劈頭蓋臉彌天蓋地,脅從拔高音量的咆哮,「怎麽跟你父親説話的,啊?你指教甚麽?你懂甚麽?你懂甚麽啊?」121Please respect copyright.PENANAKIxKMTlf1e
手沒力了就用脚踹、踢,直到少女蜷縮起身軀,放棄躲閃,展露認命的畏怯姿態。121Please respect copyright.PENANA4747vrySjR
血液湧入酒醉的頭腦,早見慣的這副模樣是如此令人憎恨,念到這些年來浪費的錢與精力、公司中的不如意、親戚間的譏誚話,卻換來個懦弱無能的窩囊廢,一點小事都做不好,手臂頓時青筋暴起,還不解氣,沉聲駡道:「我付出了那麽多,你就這樣對我?」121Please respect copyright.PENANAMHzbEzWJZj
視綫移向地上的酒瓶,沉吟半響,往倒在地上的瘦弱身影狠狠一砸,隗羽愣怔住想要逃,身體卻不聽令,紋絲不動,深入骨髓的痛楚連綿迤邐戳進肉裡,悶響與碎裂像一隻大手要將她捆住,腦海眩暈無章,木板反射出的那身影越來越陌生,父親被來歷不明的靈魂奪捨了。121Please respect copyright.PENANAxOLxOB4CMR
明明是親骨肉,傳入體内的恨意卻如此清晰,在耳邊炸裂,將少年人未曾表露的棱角一并摧毀得不成形。121Please respect copyright.PENANAuwk4y2en6r
「是你!都怪你!好人從來就沒好報,生出你這種東西來!」121Please respect copyright.PENANAU2q1DXasFb
怒火仍不停歇,一下又一下隨著四散的酒液在後背劃出幾個口子,頓時一片血肉模糊。121Please respect copyright.PENANAFjBZ5CehVi
沒有尖叫,沒有淚水,只有隱忍的急促喘氣慢慢變為不可置信的啞聲。121Please respect copyright.PENANA0NY89T29J0
血流沾到他滿手都是,發泄得酣暢淋漓,心中忽而痛快極了,踹門離去。121Please respect copyright.PENANAHByYFmpSlJ
窗戶敞著風,將七月遙遠的潮濕空氣吹拂在少女額前。121Please respect copyright.PENANAn0Sf4aHxBK
炎炎夏日頻繁的雨腥氣,帶她墜入冰窟,四肢順著生命力散去而發冷。121Please respect copyright.PENANAHj4fSMeAWR
虛幻的輕柔觸感將她包覆,全身似乎被某人擁在懷中。121Please respect copyright.PENANAmNLbtND6H9
啊。121Please respect copyright.PENANAcvbj3g2zXt
要是能永遠感受這樣繾綣的溫度,那該多好?121Please respect copyright.PENANAsZ5cWg7xGR
既然是幻覺,自己也有資格緊握不放吧。121Please respect copyright.PENANA8jxylReLFC
她想要睜眼,又深怕這是情緒激動下的假象,只能任由意識隨著痛覺飄散、昏去。121Please respect copyright.PENANAOk4w5T6fmw
鈴蘭花香繚繞了來,一親芳澤,睡夢中的少女埋向西裝的腰綫之間,緊抓不放。121Please respect copyright.PENANA7SYSgIo5Yz
怕這股好聞的味道,鬆開就全散了。121Please respect copyright.PENANAx9yRbjO4eR
***121Please respect copyright.PENANAHfhEYeVagC
一直以來,隗羽都曾這麽幻想過。121Please respect copyright.PENANAv0fjp4P4OQ
生命中有一位在乎她的人,不論外表,不論性格。121Please respect copyright.PENANAe0JoXnZAGI
就算捨去皮囊,就算捨去靈魂。121Please respect copyright.PENANAoIor4Dq930
奢望有人愛她,無論是酗酒的父親也好、還是無法融入的同學群體、抑或是素未謀面的陌生人。121Please respect copyright.PENANA1HLtcKqkOC
母親曾這麽愛過她。121Please respect copyright.PENANAt3B4XYK5xm
要是能回到從前。121Please respect copyright.PENANAB53Dk9OEmK
要是能被在乎。121Please respect copyright.PENANAdEO9WuQmGo
要是能被注視。121Please respect copyright.PENANAXsOAPRhdVE
要是,自己的存在是有意義的。121Please respect copyright.PENANAASEeVJMMyn
……121Please respect copyright.PENANAaitM52HOTA
但這種愛不存在。121Please respect copyright.PENANAOB1SEAq9Uf
也對,九年了,内心腐爛得七七八八,又有甚麽可吸引人的?121Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZzYk9yfO4
索愛之前必須放大雙眼,先看自己配不配。121Please respect copyright.PENANAIOD4DVM51d
現在,隗羽發現,這也是她自找的。121Please respect copyright.PENANAQGNPOvxhIz
***121Please respect copyright.PENANAvKJBWSwZig
步伐不穩地來到走廊,海鴒並未將書櫃移除,反而在旁放置了飯盒。121Please respect copyright.PENANApIQmLiLaXM
一看時間,已經是下午一點,整整睡了大半天,頭卻暈得嚴重,大概是缺氧的後遺症。121Please respect copyright.PENANA1AfcsRu9nr
拿起精緻包裝的便當,標簽昭示著這並非海鴒親手製作,從外買來,大概價格不菲。121Please respect copyright.PENANA1voERK6O1W
飯盒與瓶裝水均未拆封,似乎沒有下藥的可能。121Please respect copyright.PENANAM4YB4M9xO2
要吃嗎?121Please respect copyright.PENANApcMpSgPTUY
脖頸滯留幾塊淤青,脹痛感後浪推前浪,隗羽如暈船一般,只能尋找最近的依靠,挨蹭在墻上,才能免於被折磨得胃部翻騰。121Please respect copyright.PENANAHXJbbTTSUu
她輕輕撫摸咽喉,想要緩解痛楚。121Please respect copyright.PENANAVnCk6DqlWJ
海鴒真的起了殺心嗎?121Please respect copyright.PENANAbKHZ3kKwpw
還是藉著恐懼的須臾侵犯自己?121Please respect copyright.PENANADRX3ILcCL9
木製書櫃頂端失去逃脫的可能,不遠處是幽幽紅光反復地亮。121Please respect copyright.PENANAgeac5UpqRK
也不知海鴒是躲在門後,還是正透過螢幕監視著她。121Please respect copyright.PENANAsswpdMsjxZ
東搖西擺靠近那扇通往外界的上鎖出口,隗羽眼瞳微閃。121Please respect copyright.PENANAI3ZNCe0nLE
反正到頭來也是無意義的反抗,不如痛痛快快地成全海鴒,免得再受這些折磨。121Please respect copyright.PENANAwQtgc7Y1z3
鬼迷心竅正伸手要敲,她又驚悟過來。
……算了。121Please respect copyright.PENANAhGaiewuTbK
回到書櫃旁,拿起一本未讀過的小説,在老位置打發起時間。121Please respect copyright.PENANAIoRQJjcQhj
刷刷地翻頁,漫不經心地調整為踞坐姿態,牢房内的寒氣飄入走廊,隗羽不禁打了個冷顫。121Please respect copyright.PENANAgnpchO8Sbh
已經聽慣的時鐘聲響,導向長久以來堵塞的思緒。121Please respect copyright.PENANAisJevMo02n
不對。121Please respect copyright.PENANA3LJU5kzfUf
她應該沒説過自己喜歡小説吧?121Please respect copyright.PENANAOTZ5VcKTmB
海鴒是怎麽知道的……靠觀察?121Please respect copyright.PENANAmFuhq8rzKC
不對。121Please respect copyright.PENANAL7EzzUjwsE
分針轉動的細微變化,只有小孩子閑得慌了才會盯上整天。121Please respect copyright.PENANA5FdRyKYNyr
嘀嗒。121Please respect copyright.PENANAbkONwfiSVG
馬達操縱輪軸,鋸齒的每一次跳躍敲擊在心中掀起巨響。121Please respect copyright.PENANAWOADQa3akD
嘀嗒。121Please respect copyright.PENANAiRIkIENPWk
隗羽發覺自己總是在看時鐘。121Please respect copyright.PENANA1u5QtMWbRi
錶盤平面的數字符號成了露珠,刻度劃分開不連貫的人生,後又被針尖掩蓋。121Please respect copyright.PENANA6Nl8JS9yhs
就像小時候每個樹蔭下的獨行。121Please respect copyright.PENANAoxwoS7cmwR
隗羽忽然瞪大眼。121Please respect copyright.PENANAD1paYXP9B3
多像那對錦鯉的眼睛啊。121Please respect copyright.PENANAAafNOrzZdm
書頁啪嗒落地。121Please respect copyright.PENANAK63v7VIM9I
「開門!開門!」121Please respect copyright.PENANAeEvXIVMZU2
拍擊無法引起注意,於是就用肩膀撞,再然後整個身子都搭了上去。121Please respect copyright.PENANAR8n9cNOVKI
心中猜測逐漸清晰,但她就是不願相信。121Please respect copyright.PENANArTtlpaFZgp
撕啦!121Please respect copyright.PENANAVlG49aWvtW
房門似乎沒上鎖,隗羽反應不及,順著勢能摔倒在地。121Please respect copyright.PENANAqr0UDRWheJ
神經叫囂著喊痛,傳入大腦的訊號卻盡是怔忡,將五臟六腑竄起酸澀。 121Please respect copyright.PENANAxCyth1gIs3
沒有找到預料中的人影,隗羽早已無法顧及這些。121Please respect copyright.PENANAuR40K8R6jT
整潔的白床單其上,排山倒海的照片壓潰最後一絲理智。121Please respect copyright.PENANAWc6ai9MntT
這不是真的。121Please respect copyright.PENANAF5Aotpyh21
隔著窗戶發瘋的父親、書桌作業旁的睡顏、獨自穿校服踏著單車的偷窺視角。121Please respect copyright.PENANA4tHdzcZYAH
墻上一個個精心裱起的相框,一個個再熟悉不過的場景。121Please respect copyright.PENANA9Ayx1MlSfN
全都是她的樣貌。
121Please respect copyright.PENANAnr3quxLJ5o