「我回來了。」170Please respect copyright.PENANAWMccXkqHkF
想當然地沒有任何回應。170Please respect copyright.PENANAfUAtnx7j68
滿是酒氣的客廳隗羽一刻都不想多待,放下書包換好拖鞋,她繞過沙發,臨門前拿掃帚挑開堆積成山的衣物,順脚踢走酒瓶。170Please respect copyright.PENANAzQ3jvkskDi
回到房間,恢復清净的空氣終於令眉眼彎了起來,打開空調,她有條不紊地將課本塞進書櫃提前預留好的隔間,整理完,又從背包掏出幾封信件。170Please respect copyright.PENANAFk4O1ROh2H
每人一份的紀念冊,以及群體合照右下角的自己。170Please respect copyright.PENANAK5JQSgeBA4
難得的同框相片,連假笑都像是透著喜悅。170Please respect copyright.PENANAFaCTtsNJEM
輕輕伸手撫摸,保護層粘附在指尖,最後一天就這麽溜走了。170Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9sMkq0FJw
以後再也見不到了吧。170Please respect copyright.PENANANoHRpyql8r
儘管與他們並不熟悉,隗羽還是難免有些感慨。170Please respect copyright.PENANA5IGtA97VC1
接下來離成年又近一步,千萬不要成為父親那種人了。170Please respect copyright.PENANAo769H8aJgf
暢想著未來,少女腦中脹滿憧憬。170Please respect copyright.PENANAutpRCfw8v4
國中會很不一樣吧,新校園、新朋友、社團活動,再幾年之後,自己很快就可以獨立了!170Please respect copyright.PENANA0CBdLnCTJM
到時候趕緊離開父親……170Please respect copyright.PENANArorEc1CDwU
開門聲赫然響起,隗羽一驚,反射性地想要躲進書桌底下,可已經太遲了。170Please respect copyright.PENANAvEeWmx7HKK
綠酒瓶憤憤在木地板砸出一個坑,發泄充斥酒精味的怒意。170Please respect copyright.PENANAkxrxNWCv0d
「你他媽沒長記性是不是?酒呢?冰箱裡的酒呢?」170Please respect copyright.PENANAMtm4yfB8lO
少女回身,單膝跪地懇求饒恕。170Please respect copyright.PENANARAIxOyX6ob
「對不起,阿爸,我不記得了。」170Please respect copyright.PENANA0K7RwOaGfu
興許是長年纍計的不忿,又或是少年人零星閃耀的勇氣,隗羽努力抬起雙眼,頂撞向上方的高大人影。170Please respect copyright.PENANANUs0cOcDSZ
「今天畢業典禮你沒來,每次要喝酒了才會想起我……阿爸,你當我做跑腿了,對嗎?」170Please respect copyright.PENANAFl9Jlkk92s
魁梧的身軀俯身靠近,陰沉的深藍色帶有醉意,仔細打量幾下隗羽,認定她的不孝。170Please respect copyright.PENANA2fgIdI7lp5
房間四壁震顫起來,他冷冷叱喝,「長大了?學會頂嘴了?」170Please respect copyright.PENANAYkA7M3GWRH
時鐘邁步跨越了分界綫,與孩子們最後的玩樂時光道別。170Please respect copyright.PENANASO11PermZY
破空聲向隗羽襲去,下意識的格擋永遠是徒勞,一齣劇場重複著上演,悶哼聲,隨即是倒地的脆響,再然後是掌摑,抬手猛烈砸向太陽穴,無塵的書架在陽光下熠熠生輝,沉默看著眼前無力反抗的求援者。170Please respect copyright.PENANAUdc7NohbmS
停頓意味更凶悍陰鷙的施暴,雷擊一般的揮打劈頭蓋臉彌天蓋地,脅從拔高音量的咆哮,「怎麽跟你父親説話的,啊?你指教甚麽?你懂甚麽?你懂甚麽啊?」170Please respect copyright.PENANAKkZjmsutBq
手沒力了就用脚踹、踢,直到少女蜷縮起身軀,放棄躲閃,展露認命的畏怯姿態。170Please respect copyright.PENANAPaqgcmw9dq
血液湧入酒醉的頭腦,早見慣的這副模樣是如此令人憎恨,念到這些年來浪費的錢與精力、公司中的不如意、親戚間的譏誚話,卻換來個懦弱無能的窩囊廢,一點小事都做不好,手臂頓時青筋暴起,還不解氣,沉聲駡道:「我付出了那麽多,你就這樣對我?」170Please respect copyright.PENANAEqHwED5e6D
視綫移向地上的酒瓶,沉吟半響,往倒在地上的瘦弱身影狠狠一砸,隗羽愣怔住想要逃,身體卻不聽令,紋絲不動,深入骨髓的痛楚連綿迤邐戳進肉裡,悶響與碎裂像一隻大手要將她捆住,腦海眩暈無章,木板反射出的那身影越來越陌生,父親被來歷不明的靈魂奪捨了。170Please respect copyright.PENANAj8y5pUc0AJ
明明是親骨肉,傳入體内的恨意卻如此清晰,在耳邊炸裂,將少年人未曾表露的棱角一并摧毀得不成形。170Please respect copyright.PENANAfBQ5KaJwdm
「是你!都怪你!好人從來就沒好報,生出你這種東西來!」170Please respect copyright.PENANAjEb6wylNZ0
怒火仍不停歇,一下又一下隨著四散的酒液在後背劃出幾個口子,頓時一片血肉模糊。170Please respect copyright.PENANAJOMfNPIzy2
沒有尖叫,沒有淚水,只有隱忍的急促喘氣慢慢變為不可置信的啞聲。170Please respect copyright.PENANA6SDZ6tZvvV
血流沾到他滿手都是,發泄得酣暢淋漓,心中忽而痛快極了,踹門離去。170Please respect copyright.PENANAQZc0z9tuPI
窗戶敞著風,將七月遙遠的潮濕空氣吹拂在少女額前。170Please respect copyright.PENANATdquVTci8G
炎炎夏日頻繁的雨腥氣,帶她墜入冰窟,四肢順著生命力散去而發冷。170Please respect copyright.PENANAHinLPyo9zd
虛幻的輕柔觸感將她包覆,全身似乎被某人擁在懷中。170Please respect copyright.PENANA51aUEp9Czs
啊。170Please respect copyright.PENANAK31bWBue8K
要是能永遠感受這樣繾綣的溫度,那該多好?170Please respect copyright.PENANAcmVe5ScpPT
既然是幻覺,自己也有資格緊握不放吧。170Please respect copyright.PENANAmswC62OZ2P
她想要睜眼,又深怕這是情緒激動下的假象,只能任由意識隨著痛覺飄散、昏去。170Please respect copyright.PENANAsNlwhO5SeF
鈴蘭花香繚繞了來,一親芳澤,睡夢中的少女埋向西裝的腰綫之間,緊抓不放。170Please respect copyright.PENANArEtdjk7cuv
怕這股好聞的味道,鬆開就全散了。170Please respect copyright.PENANAWrHjj24ygt
***170Please respect copyright.PENANAi4NAuGqLuD
一直以來,隗羽都曾這麽幻想過。170Please respect copyright.PENANAIULLsk8X6d
生命中有一位在乎她的人,不論外表,不論性格。170Please respect copyright.PENANAA8exnF5NHS
就算捨去皮囊,就算捨去靈魂。170Please respect copyright.PENANAsjwTD15Y22
奢望有人愛她,無論是酗酒的父親也好、還是無法融入的同學群體、抑或是素未謀面的陌生人。170Please respect copyright.PENANAYu5BrU6hLW
母親曾這麽愛過她。170Please respect copyright.PENANA9dHj2uRp4W
要是能回到從前。170Please respect copyright.PENANAJWsU5DpC2S
要是能被在乎。170Please respect copyright.PENANAhVhLCTx3P0
要是能被注視。170Please respect copyright.PENANA9TyCym232O
要是,自己的存在是有意義的。170Please respect copyright.PENANAUoUqgZtMxr
……170Please respect copyright.PENANA55jiV2jSvW
但這種愛不存在。170Please respect copyright.PENANA0oic3TaftH
也對,九年了,内心腐爛得七七八八,又有甚麽可吸引人的?170Please respect copyright.PENANAnhusckaFbw
索愛之前必須放大雙眼,先看自己配不配。170Please respect copyright.PENANATlafgjmx7z
現在,隗羽發現,這也是她自找的。170Please respect copyright.PENANA2uLVd2ikkL
***170Please respect copyright.PENANA5fx62z3Vjk
步伐不穩地來到走廊,海鴒並未將書櫃移除,反而在旁放置了飯盒。170Please respect copyright.PENANA23iPrtf2g8
一看時間,已經是下午一點,整整睡了大半天,頭卻暈得嚴重,大概是缺氧的後遺症。170Please respect copyright.PENANAt0SKwTu1Hj
拿起精緻包裝的便當,標簽昭示著這並非海鴒親手製作,從外買來,大概價格不菲。170Please respect copyright.PENANAWa55b0f0uZ
飯盒與瓶裝水均未拆封,似乎沒有下藥的可能。170Please respect copyright.PENANA9MFL5vbBFm
要吃嗎?170Please respect copyright.PENANAt9EJ6lAHHX
脖頸滯留幾塊淤青,脹痛感後浪推前浪,隗羽如暈船一般,只能尋找最近的依靠,挨蹭在墻上,才能免於被折磨得胃部翻騰。170Please respect copyright.PENANAMUNN8dlL2m
她輕輕撫摸咽喉,想要緩解痛楚。170Please respect copyright.PENANA2SAn5tt9kM
海鴒真的起了殺心嗎?170Please respect copyright.PENANAerXpVkcIw8
還是藉著恐懼的須臾侵犯自己?170Please respect copyright.PENANAC5z9LX8UAM
木製書櫃頂端失去逃脫的可能,不遠處是幽幽紅光反復地亮。170Please respect copyright.PENANAAPatGoqPQs
也不知海鴒是躲在門後,還是正透過螢幕監視著她。170Please respect copyright.PENANAonY4Mie9K5
東搖西擺靠近那扇通往外界的上鎖出口,隗羽眼瞳微閃。170Please respect copyright.PENANAluD52tLU3G
反正到頭來也是無意義的反抗,不如痛痛快快地成全海鴒,免得再受這些折磨。170Please respect copyright.PENANAv36esNWKbu
鬼迷心竅正伸手要敲,她又驚悟過來。
……算了。170Please respect copyright.PENANAKMR0YMUXcP
回到書櫃旁,拿起一本未讀過的小説,在老位置打發起時間。170Please respect copyright.PENANAUSdpjITgs3
刷刷地翻頁,漫不經心地調整為踞坐姿態,牢房内的寒氣飄入走廊,隗羽不禁打了個冷顫。170Please respect copyright.PENANABjx62UVGkm
已經聽慣的時鐘聲響,導向長久以來堵塞的思緒。170Please respect copyright.PENANAaAITdc9x5I
不對。170Please respect copyright.PENANA44rPEf0tjN
她應該沒説過自己喜歡小説吧?170Please respect copyright.PENANAE53BJwzlkk
海鴒是怎麽知道的……靠觀察?170Please respect copyright.PENANAB5teZzwTyr
不對。170Please respect copyright.PENANAufBn3oz8SL
分針轉動的細微變化,只有小孩子閑得慌了才會盯上整天。170Please respect copyright.PENANA5F9DijeF3u
嘀嗒。170Please respect copyright.PENANAAXjuherIFr
馬達操縱輪軸,鋸齒的每一次跳躍敲擊在心中掀起巨響。170Please respect copyright.PENANAc19S93Srs4
嘀嗒。170Please respect copyright.PENANAVWtl8L9bjZ
隗羽發覺自己總是在看時鐘。170Please respect copyright.PENANAlNkgoqfgHe
錶盤平面的數字符號成了露珠,刻度劃分開不連貫的人生,後又被針尖掩蓋。170Please respect copyright.PENANADoYRmJuJhu
就像小時候每個樹蔭下的獨行。170Please respect copyright.PENANAuqJJF9tj10
隗羽忽然瞪大眼。170Please respect copyright.PENANA3GEoqh8iXl
多像那對錦鯉的眼睛啊。170Please respect copyright.PENANA19G4cPDsoH
書頁啪嗒落地。170Please respect copyright.PENANAfihfgP0DDC
「開門!開門!」170Please respect copyright.PENANAyOQNjLIT4T
拍擊無法引起注意,於是就用肩膀撞,再然後整個身子都搭了上去。170Please respect copyright.PENANAnrbEn39uXv
心中猜測逐漸清晰,但她就是不願相信。170Please respect copyright.PENANAy1N3PbIUdb
撕啦!170Please respect copyright.PENANA9eJaJyCPAL
房門似乎沒上鎖,隗羽反應不及,順著勢能摔倒在地。170Please respect copyright.PENANAkclTIhFStu
神經叫囂著喊痛,傳入大腦的訊號卻盡是怔忡,將五臟六腑竄起酸澀。 170Please respect copyright.PENANAhJvFP7Whd2
沒有找到預料中的人影,隗羽早已無法顧及這些。170Please respect copyright.PENANAFwnvrOAOO9
整潔的白床單其上,排山倒海的照片壓潰最後一絲理智。170Please respect copyright.PENANAp7l87rd4PW
這不是真的。170Please respect copyright.PENANAGfng05FmCw
隔著窗戶發瘋的父親、書桌作業旁的睡顏、獨自穿校服踏著單車的偷窺視角。170Please respect copyright.PENANA6ox2Kwwt2M
墻上一個個精心裱起的相框,一個個再熟悉不過的場景。170Please respect copyright.PENANA2QlELZr7iT
全都是她的樣貌。
170Please respect copyright.PENANAWKpXDDeWk6