「正中目標,海鴒你看見了嗎?」胡曉睜開左眼,喝彩著起身。269Please respect copyright.PENANAMuwWxztLTK
冬天的安鷺市總有股澄净味道,將空氣中剩餘的暖意都驅散了。胡曉觀察好一會才收起支架,將狙擊槍塞進一旁的小提琴盒裡。269Please respect copyright.PENANARgeYrq4nRN
「海鴒?」見那人沒回應,她開口。269Please respect copyright.PENANAaPFm8R6p7h
窗邊女子拿著一副雙筒望遠鏡,明明是冬天,卻穿著個單薄短袖,嘴裡叼著煙,連呼出的氣都是熱的。269Please respect copyright.PENANAWGYD5kiZvK
「你根本沒在看嘛,背著我偷窺啥呢。」
胡曉順著望遠鏡的方向望去,那是一間小學。269Please respect copyright.PENANA04uluOKsgx
「喂,聽得見我說話嗎,要走了,不然他們會找過來的。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAfdre72ZkrD
伸手熄掉海鴒的煙,她故作悲傷道:「你才二十出頭,再抽煙小心青春永駐啊——死了也年輕。」見對方沒回應,得寸進尺,「嘿,到時真這樣我第一個衝到墳頭燒香,讓你吸個夠。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAnJiQGS0Bl7
海鴒沒有搭腔,胳膊不動一下,「安靜點。」269Please respect copyright.PENANADufwnEeQBT
明明只是飄過學校的隨機一瞄,她卻捕捉到了甚麽。269Please respect copyright.PENANAIkEnBVhxPC
窗戶內,一團團毛頭伢子正齊刷刷看著講臺上的高個兒。269Please respect copyright.PENANA0yUxFAjbyf
國小學生,未來的路途未詳,他們不急於尋找所謂的人生「意義」,大多都是純白的。269Please respect copyright.PENANAq53Ks3e93C
像紙張一樣,塗上色就抹不掉了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAD50wlJJTKQ
海鴒眼神微閃,孩群堆裡,隱隱約約潛沉著一抹灰。是投影布前的老師嗎?不對,看起來像彩色,就算摻了雜質也沒甚麽特別。269Please respect copyright.PENANALpfQws5TQX
但那抹灰色,淺灰色,是迥異的。那是人成為黑色前的樣子,失去光彩,不可逆地向終點奔去。269Please respect copyright.PENANAr8U8Ixs612
海鴒見過無數副灰色的面孔。269Please respect copyright.PENANAewIUnone22
但這種灰出現在這麼年幼的孩童身上,還是第一次。269Please respect copyright.PENANAUoOPWqoSg4
「喂,海鴒,走啦。」胡曉催促起來,左臂上的黑虎紋身怒目圓瞪,此刻卻像隻病貓,餓極了,嗚嗚討著吃食。269Please respect copyright.PENANA2B1isJpP6T
海鴒凝眸再看了會,才收起望遠鏡。269Please respect copyright.PENANAthixHf2MkG
「今晚你請客。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAH1f3DBcGtQ
「安啦,哪次不是我請?海鴒你當了頭之後可別忘記好姐妹,這叫有借有還。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAsMhrVGSyCa
搭上路邊提前安排的專車,胡曉用奇怪的腔調哼起歌來,「收拾掉小組長,回去領工咯~」269Please respect copyright.PENANAAiOHvYLCrc
一夜過去。269Please respect copyright.PENANABqHk7cIyZC
兜兜轉轉,又回到這裡了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAGPul4phhUI
學校近看比想象中要小,外墻許久沒翻新,粗略估計擱置了五六年。269Please respect copyright.PENANAlP7fk1c8j9
沒記錯的話,昨天是三樓的窗戶,課室暗著燈,那女孩不在這裡。269Please respect copyright.PENANA3xag9TTrzO
在想甚麼呢?反正那種人很快就會死去,有甚麼好在意的?269Please respect copyright.PENANAR0O3M665HR
只不過是年幼了些罷了,早熟的人可不少見。269Please respect copyright.PENANAh4m1lvHyr9
但不知不覺中,海鴒還是來到學校的另一側。269Please respect copyright.PENANAocXXHTf1FB
隔著鉄欄杆,操場上零零散散幾堆學生,尖叫嬉戲著,這種過量的活力也只有學生崽身上存在了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAnpXl7gHuPA
繼續往右掃去,海鴒定睛,找到了那抹灰。269Please respect copyright.PENANArqZVJEH5aP
女孩待在角落,觀察著四周,像是隻受驚的倉鼠般探頭探腦,在巢內小心觀察外界是否有天敵,有人玩鬧著跑過就定身不動裝死,生怕別人注意到她。269Please respect copyright.PENANAlOc5fyQsE6
體育老師發現狀況不對,走去向女孩問話,海鴒凝了神去聽。269Please respect copyright.PENANAb1uWwg8qp1
「嘿,隗羽,你還好嗎?身體不舒服嗎?」269Please respect copyright.PENANAmkXQPn9F2h
隗羽……
那女孩應了老師的話,回到同學群體中。269Please respect copyright.PENANAsGXBIcqBwB
但她的顏色融不進去。269Please respect copyright.PENANAXZkr5cnjXF
她不像那些見過無數次的人。黑色的人永遠不想讓其他人發現自己的色彩,往往會將外表塗成五顏六色,就像自己的母親一樣。
但這種五顏六色過於鮮豔,明眼人一下子就能看出是偽裝。269Please respect copyright.PENANAMhTd8pIdAy
不,她並沒有在藏匿。269Please respect copyright.PENANAk9CqytD45y
她的顏色是灰色的,從內到外,由始至終都是灰色。269Please respect copyright.PENANAPr3q9lIzYF
灰色是融入不了純白的孩子的。269Please respect copyright.PENANAIAjxIG0qec
所以她才待在角落。269Please respect copyright.PENANAX5geTb66ds
***269Please respect copyright.PENANAk8CH7SDlbG
「隗同學,你的家長呢?」269Please respect copyright.PENANAZJjwaB8UIT
「……」269Please respect copyright.PENANAOLlgmjvQ9Y
「隗羽,你爸看起來好兇哦。」269Please respect copyright.PENANALBNY5IfEiJ
「……」269Please respect copyright.PENANAQNOn3wR1mi
「隗羽……」269Please respect copyright.PENANA2Q3Qmn0Hh3
「騙子,你看我眼熟嗎?」269Please respect copyright.PENANA7VC2RTBqG1
猛地起身,隗羽驚恐睜開眼,才發現是夢。269Please respect copyright.PENANAY9qH5qxucN
書櫃上方的時鐘來到晚上六點。到頭來,自己還是睡著了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAUgAkzpMMNs
通宵後暈頭轉向,像是被車撞過一樣。海鴒似乎沒有進過走廊的蹤跡,讓自己就這麽睡了大半天。269Please respect copyright.PENANAvm7BIYEBiR
懊惱地埋在手銬裡,現在精神充沛極了,今晚要怎麽入睡?269Please respect copyright.PENANALNILhKLzcN
不但失眠了,作息時間還被打亂,恐怕沒個幾周調節不回來。269Please respect copyright.PENANAFzBKnzRgFA
這也算是好事吧,失眠就不用再做噩夢了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAUwz0J10yxz
沒幾分鐘,熟悉的溫婉口吻伴著開門聲降臨。269Please respect copyright.PENANAbJ7uDv0TZt
「睡飽了?」269Please respect copyright.PENANAXJ6kVvA8lV
海鴒見她清醒就端著紙盤子來到身邊,這幾天飯菜都是汕湖市特色菜,隗羽這輩子打自搬家以後都沒嘗過這麽多菜餚,「美食」這兩個字似乎只存在記憶中母親的那個小家。
海鴒手藝很不錯,是真的很不錯。269Please respect copyright.PENANA4mJEPwm1wd
不過,要是她別這麽靠近自己就好了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAL1Ks7T3eP3
無論是呼在耳邊的氣息,還是有意無意間侵入鼻腔的冷香,一切都巨大無比極了;而她是那麽地渺小,一推就能被推倒在地,一壓就能被壓得慘叫出聲,一扯就能被迫扯過來侵入口腔。269Please respect copyright.PENANAIWrfFGLmZK
海鴒又開始盯著她看了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAt4HKM53od3
昨天那兩餐也是這樣,平靜審視的目光,在玄關是這樣,咬過來時也是這樣,平時的溫和神態盡是偽裝;現在的她也不真實,同樣在隱藏著甚麽。269Please respect copyright.PENANAY0Czx3M7fa
隗羽莫名有些想笑。269Please respect copyright.PENANACkEcqm6MOq
「這樣盯著我吃飯,難道你怕我嗆死麽?」269Please respect copyright.PENANAjg1iAIsN3R
海鴒意味深長地一點頭,沒有否認,「我怕。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAgKK0EA0sUl
「但你知道我不敢。」隗羽冷道。269Please respect copyright.PENANAmvennVCqoz
被關在這裡與以前沒甚麽區別,一樣是躺在床上看小説,只不過那裡沒有無時不在的視綫,沒有窗口遮擋陽光的木條,沒有身上的枷鎖罷了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAp0dagVv9qg
拿起竹叉,但隗羽已經沒胃口了,「你就打算一直將我關在這裡,對嗎。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAp5FeYnLCyx
一襲黑髮順著腰部垂在地上,海鴒來到身旁,「隗羽,在未來的某個時刻,」她頓了一下,「你我都會做出改變,不會很久的。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAAanclgYPqm
「改變?」隗羽哽出聲來,「你是說,下次你會帶甚麽進來?這次是小説,下次呢?你又想怎樣?强吻我?咬我?揍我?」隗羽越説越激動,眼眶紅了一片,狠狠咬緊牙關,「還是你會直接上了我?」269Please respect copyright.PENANAgGYFNgdr4Z
「……幫我把手銬摘了。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAglxlup7Pox
海鴒微不可察地嘆了口氣,「隗羽,不行。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAMcGqRZIRpU
「看吧,你之前口口聲聲說——」269Please respect copyright.PENANA6btp2Tqwd1
「這是有條件的。」海鴒打斷她的話。269Please respect copyright.PENANAr8udoNSoDx
隗羽失聲,張大嘴想笑,卻連氣都呼不出來了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAxFzbiFCHBL
「……真有你的。」269Please respect copyright.PENANAYvADP8Lxew
愣怔著起身,隗羽抛下餐碗回到房間。269Please respect copyright.PENANACcfdfFi5ur
無法反抗,無法逃離,又有甚麽是剩下的呢?269Please respect copyright.PENANA7AeRmLwUW4
當肉體的熱戀期結束後,又有甚麽是剩下的呢?269Please respect copyright.PENANAroAnU15WZM
若是答案已經確定,無法改變,這又有甚麽好流淚的呢?269Please respect copyright.PENANAXf22NGYKpT
將頭悶在枕頭裡,隗羽不受控地微微抽動起來,為布料洇上水痕。269Please respect copyright.PENANAtygjo6BnNA
哭有甚麽用。269Please respect copyright.PENANAl3ZhKYmSum
但臉上的水珠似乎牽扯了甚麽東西,止不住地坍塌擴散,逐漸化為斷斷續續的啜泣聲。269Please respect copyright.PENANANEgYNHp2uf
嘴唇的傷口,痛死了。269Please respect copyright.PENANA4NL971l8wl
「隗羽。」海鴒不知何時跟著來到了床邊。269Please respect copyright.PENANAW0fQJW8DXB
啼哭者定住身,像個被嚇著的刺蝟,蓋著被褥縮成一團,不再動了。269Please respect copyright.PENANA8ccB74MZDT
但喉嚨裡細細的嗚咽聲還是傳了出來。269Please respect copyright.PENANAj3tynobFcI
隗羽感覺到海鴒坐在了床上。269Please respect copyright.PENANAGoWON1CyRd
掀開床被,濕熱的側臉暴露於空氣中。269Please respect copyright.PENANAElkW6AY47u
「出去。」隗羽盡力保持平靜,掩面讓自己看起來不像哭過。269Please respect copyright.PENANAC7pXpYjINw
頭上傳來灼熱觸感,海鴒摸了她的頭,緩慢地,輕輕地,像在對待脆弱的易碎品。269Please respect copyright.PENANAUxyuJYcmbc
終於,隗羽的哭聲止不住了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAbxxK2S7SL0
最不應該安慰她的就是海鴒。269Please respect copyright.PENANAj7JP2G1kWW
是海鴒囚禁了她,令她無時不刻感受這種痛苦。269Please respect copyright.PENANA8nl45jnzu6
是海鴒强吻了她,令她不得安生,連惡夢都盡是那高挑身影。269Please respect copyright.PENANASiVQX6QcvW
「出去!」269Please respect copyright.PENANAeOnnROI6tL
歇斯底里的吼聲響徹房間。隗羽拼命收著淚,推開床褥,推開海鴒的手。269Please respect copyright.PENANAaUvGEF0ksa
「我求求你,求你快點出去……」隗羽哽咽著,不斷向後退,剛才一瞬間的氣焰熄滅了。269Please respect copyright.PENANAf6k8pxrYlG
她的眼睛裡,除了絕望,淨剩下恐懼。269Please respect copyright.PENANAwox0noqYEB
她連死都不怕,到底為甚麽要怕海鴒呢?269Please respect copyright.PENANAvDfmSsFRj4
脚步聲緩慢遠去。269Please respect copyright.PENANAXuPTr9eGw0
那象徵著退讓,暫時性的。
269Please respect copyright.PENANAKPCokPG3LQ