隗羽醒了。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6yMwZCYDog
鬧鐘照舊的響,鬧騰得房間發熱,泄了氣般拖著長音。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwjQc6Ek7hX
窗外是鬱悶的烈陽,照得她繼續發起懞來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPfDGbss126
好熱。41Please respect copyright.PENANATVvfeuWKsL
空調不知何時停了,無力的手拿起無力的手機,剛一開啓——41Please respect copyright.PENANANsVYianfVc
「啊,沒電了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAHPZfvNtBe8
興許是昨晚再度沉迷小説,迷迷糊糊中忘插上電源;興許是家裡忘繳電費……亦或是房租。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmR1cedGuTP
不論如何,無法進入網絡世界的酷夏總會令人興致全無。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzLaw14cTFZ
想到這,那雙手徹底沒了力,攤在被窩裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5EsdMh7ctn
家裡沒有其他人,父親去上班了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAl8UXOiH4sE
大概會照舊勾搭不知姓名的女人,然後在凌晨帶著一身酒氣回家吧。41Please respect copyright.PENANA85UElFRsdC
有時是上司,有時是同事,有時,她甚至連隔壁的王小姐都見著了。41Please respect copyright.PENANABRTNJUfPcw
隗羽摸了摸胸口。41Please respect copyright.PENANASLPQjVBTpx
要説毫無起伏也不至於,但也僅僅是有點凸起的程度。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQhxSfJdNls
如果自己到了那些女人的年紀,也能隨隨便便闖進別人家麽?41Please respect copyright.PENANAxV2XXzmeDQ
他們是成年人,隗羽想。41Please respect copyright.PENANAr4ESy9Fjaw
所以他們吸烟,他們喝酒,他們上床。41Please respect copyright.PENANA81whco58jx
……盡是些以靈魂為藉口做肉體買賣的社會人。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmdt85oO0uw
隗羽不情不愿地起身。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjPUAp0b63v
冰箱裡的啤酒昨夜就該耗盡了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQy2UWBghDY
她幾乎忘了這茬,賣力撐起被褥,將窗簾拉開,隨手披上件純棉襯衫。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9eFLs6PGwh
半長不短的褐髮蓬鬆披散到肩部,絲一般如逆風垂柳,偶有幾撮倒立起來。隗羽敷衍梳了頭。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQGMqlmqedf
出房門後,入眼一片狼藉。客廳永遠如此,像流浪漢闖過一般——雖然她的房間同樣亂就是了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjiZ287E6zA
不過房間裡可不會有煙味。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3j0ReLw3Th
也不會有隨意丟棄的胸罩。41Please respect copyright.PENANANQ05o9TZtE
嫌棄地踢開脚邊衣物,隗羽來到厨房。41Please respect copyright.PENANADe56YEntXt
烤爐電子鐘提醒她,現在是下午三點。41Please respect copyright.PENANAk1G88X9itD
反正都這個點,吃不吃午餐也沒所謂了。41Please respect copyright.PENANArn606f0OTQ
冰箱裡……照舊沒有放置任何食材,飲料格也空著,果然沒啤酒了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlPbbXUWC3W
感受著冷空氣,隗羽緊握磁吸門的手遲遲不鬆開。41Please respect copyright.PENANASV0Dz4Bau0
夏天真該死啊。41Please respect copyright.PENANApQMKImN9i8
暴躁的太陽與暴躁的人,最重要是為期兩月的暑假。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWhm0EgG8dM
國中也好,高中也好,對她來説,假期與學校並無區別,見着的面孔換了又換,盡是對她不感興趣的,盡是豐滿的人,裝不下她。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5XDX4EWBBO
哎。41Please respect copyright.PENANAxK5tzrRgSW
嘆口氣,隗羽忽然有些恍惚。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOCPRqHaXvL
窗外仍是一片亮,灰磚墻根、寂寥的矮杉樹,似乎空渺渺嗡鳴起來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWfYkt656Bf
夏炎的躁意,與她不相干了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAnK5lqe62gV
頭腦冷下來,又針扎地刺一下。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWttga8wSpS
她想去看看海。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQwRpTPNW1i
***41Please respect copyright.PENANAmj3Nk6v4Bm
「感謝惠顧~」41Please respect copyright.PENANA4sFHPJIauo
隗羽拿著黑塑料袋出了商店。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXP1h6ew3lw
親戚開的店不需出示身份證,買酒自然不成阻礙。41Please respect copyright.PENANAslb1Cpq0GZ
順便買了些泡麵,原味的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAMMhxBr9L0o
不論何種口味,泡麵永遠是那股軟爛勁兒,吃著像嚼稀泥,越嚼越反胃;加了鹽的稀泥與和了糖的稀泥怎可能是兩種味?41Please respect copyright.PENANAEzxoW8lqyM
今天晚餐照舊吃泡麵。41Please respect copyright.PENANATdBFmeAu2Q
哎。41Please respect copyright.PENANAbk5A7YHF8T
又是嘆氣,隗羽拍拍臉,騎上自行車。41Please respect copyright.PENANA56A8RxO0Kh
這樣鬱悶下去不好,她該換個角度思考。41Please respect copyright.PENANAg0EnOQxJe7
但腦殼頂的灼燒感告訴她,應該讓天上的火球也加入討論,將一切胡思亂想都燃盡。41Please respect copyright.PENANA84BLPaG406
汕湖市的夏天總是如此濕悶。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwJKvuTZVph
好熱。她該去看看海。41Please respect copyright.PENANABcXpQTs5gq
但她應該在家裡為年初的學測作準備——41Please respect copyright.PENANAg2jF6ED637
理性正想説些甚麽,卻被太陽掐住了嘴,嗚嗚大叫起來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYeHFInuV71
半響,短袖黑襯衫早已濕透,隗羽踏起單車一上一下。車鏈子許久未經使用,有些生鏽,踏得她腿疼。41Please respect copyright.PENANAB9HPk32s5J
路途顛顛簸簸,那冒煙的鉄欄杆也被感染,熱情地將夏天最亮的光映過來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWoq1NfG941
途徑數人,嬉笑談天好不快樂,聚集在一起,個個臉上都有色彩,一個個都有色彩。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPj8XzMS2hd
自己融得進他們的圈子嗎?隗羽想。41Please respect copyright.PENANABP9WuE3iN9
看起來像大學生的穿衣搭配,衣服鞋子都是名牌,是有錢人家啊。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYjLso2tKwx
盯著身上的黑背包,黑短褲,還有黑色單車,隗羽幹幹地笑了下,笑容中明明白白寫滿幾個大字,「不懂穿搭」。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKqvOKTFdDd
反正就算穿上艷裝也沒差別。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHFL6VeTObw
近乎眩暈的白金反射照來,鐵欄杆紅了臉,熱心地提醒她,該休息了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAfaSrLfx6sO
是該休息了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqFK9btOUJk
她下車,穿過人行道來到公路另一側。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjxowQEVtGr
海的廣闊、慧藍,靜靜攤開在眼前。41Please respect copyright.PENANASVIQ2y3qGm
海岸對面,連接著白雲油畫。一頭深,一面淺;一片藍,一塊白。骨碌幾聲,那沉重的黑袋子脫了手,黃罐啤酒滾落一地。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFkPbiNYvPQ
這幅海景油畫,怎都顯得有點割裂。41Please respect copyright.PENANAo87Eww0XVi
隗羽伸手掏口袋,又記起手機留在家中充電,便彎下腰,慢悠悠地撿起啤酒罐。41Please respect copyright.PENANAIDW6tfXRYy
照片對自己有何意義?41Please respect copyright.PENANAlwHqgvWaYT
拍了海景照,她又能與誰分享?41Please respect copyright.PENANA9PAQ8xUQaA
父親?41Please respect copyright.PENANATr2lPso17U
同學?41Please respect copyright.PENANAU7PesutuNu
還是那商店裡的親戚?41Please respect copyright.PENANAV4PCew6WY9
難不成還能留個紀念?41Please respect copyright.PENANAYkS28sAn8O
她沒有朋友,連能説上話的人都沒有。41Please respect copyright.PENANAhNOZsdo5Ej
她沒有才華,連老師都看不上自己,連親人都嫌棄利用自己。41Please respect copyright.PENANAR5NrJLrul8
她沒有靈魂,沒有蕙心蘭質,沒有光風霽月,連發聲都不會得到注視,連社會喧嘩盤曲的綫團也融不進,連山海的雍雍斷斷續續影影綽綽氤氤氳氳也找不著容身之處。41Please respect copyright.PENANAbm154hHs7C
——啪41Please respect copyright.PENANAUpcmPDCkSX
打開啤酒,隗羽任由冰涼從頭淋到全身。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlCj18V3am2
凌亂的柳髮浸了水,濕乎乎黏成一塊。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7F3GTi0aVG
沒過幾秒,噹啷一聲將空心鐵罐抛入垃圾桶。41Please respect copyright.PENANADwOzO2knCG
好熱。好吵。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKqXTkvLo0w
興許是覺得不夠,她再開了罐,對著嘴就一飲而盡。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJbaqrvhkMr
冒著泡的酒水挾著苦味撞入口腔,隗羽下意識地感到惡心,隨即將金屬罐掐得更緊,强迫胃部接受從未嘗過的劣質啤酒。41Please respect copyright.PENANAMv5w3rMf3y
苦點好,苦點好啊。41Please respect copyright.PENANAxAqi3vHbNz
皺著臉來到樹蔭處,心中陰鬱并未被酒氣掃光。41Please respect copyright.PENANAiCQ8IqvIWQ
相反地,那舌尖上的刺痛感,轉移到腦中,不肯走了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlUIxJQ3K1v
頭頂仍滲著水,生平第一次喝酒就是這副落魄樣。41Please respect copyright.PENANAM9B6FWdln9
看向海,那海便像招呼隗羽似的,一擺一擺揮起手。41Please respect copyright.PENANAkFlXoPVuiu
她失了神,攀到鐵欄杆上,見著東零西落一地泡麵紙盒,又搖晃下身,低頭將它們層層堆在樹根旁。41Please respect copyright.PENANABE5gZMguss
啪。41Please respect copyright.PENANABpnyyvTPf7
第三罐啤酒是倒給大海的。41Please respect copyright.PENANABNucnByoQG
米黃色液體圓柱順著浪花嵌入海面,白色浮沫還未完全顯現,就被下一波泡沫推擠開,一圈,又一圈,全被海浪吞沒,直到瓶子「咕咕」地變成空心缺口。浪揮著手說再見,擁抱了土岸。41Please respect copyright.PENANAM2749NnLlU
「要是我沉下去,也能像泡沫一樣消散嗎?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAr9jUvBG7BS
隗羽凝視著海,海也凝視著她,驀然,不再湧動。41Please respect copyright.PENANAca8PxN46Kh
一切都平靜了;遠處的山聳立著,彎起腰看她;天上的雲為太陽讓出位,偷偷地瞟視她。一切都是那麽地安靜……平靜,隗羽突然覺得自己的大腦也沒聲了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmubRxvZMnn
她早該知道答案。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcr5wfinYMW
這裡容不得她。41Please respect copyright.PENANAV0bJSug21D
框噠。41Please respect copyright.PENANANmCYuKi5VG
越過欄杆不過是毫秒之間,在那墜落的最後一刻,看向天邊的最後一眼,她發覺世界有了色彩。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwivws8mi5D
世界不會關注可有可無的人。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWyo18A3XEe
所以就算自己消失了,這裡仍是容不得她的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmXV2G7DkqV
噗通。41Please respect copyright.PENANAC4OVSndhzx
水花濺起,躍不過一人高。41Please respect copyright.PENANAnfonyDyoR5
海浪動了,山動了,雲也動了。它們看著彼此,或許沒有,或許只是偶然間的雙目交織。41Please respect copyright.PENANAA0SczUev0J
無風亦無浪,一切都平靜了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAk8bJrUeVoz
然後,幾分鐘。41Please respect copyright.PENANAS7C4yn8frp
第二次落水聲徹底打破夏的安謐。
41Please respect copyright.PENANArWwFl0Hjf0