「我回來了。」168Please respect copyright.PENANAFTkWGUXId6
想當然地沒有任何回應。168Please respect copyright.PENANAKjAZR1FMba
滿是酒氣的客廳隗羽一刻都不想多待,放下書包換好拖鞋,她繞過沙發,臨門前拿掃帚挑開堆積成山的衣物,順脚踢走酒瓶。168Please respect copyright.PENANAp6eGX3CYPp
回到房間,恢復清净的空氣終於令眉眼彎了起來,打開空調,她有條不紊地將課本塞進書櫃提前預留好的隔間,整理完,又從背包掏出幾封信件。168Please respect copyright.PENANAZSwA1pOJh2
每人一份的紀念冊,以及群體合照右下角的自己。168Please respect copyright.PENANAaFeonjIpHq
難得的同框相片,連假笑都像是透著喜悅。168Please respect copyright.PENANAhXjesL9Mut
輕輕伸手撫摸,保護層粘附在指尖,最後一天就這麽溜走了。168Please respect copyright.PENANAmKkKMmVpSu
以後再也見不到了吧。168Please respect copyright.PENANA1cZgossT8X
儘管與他們並不熟悉,隗羽還是難免有些感慨。168Please respect copyright.PENANAhrNLEbgyLO
接下來離成年又近一步,千萬不要成為父親那種人了。168Please respect copyright.PENANAxnZxOkBlDK
暢想著未來,少女腦中脹滿憧憬。168Please respect copyright.PENANA75QuA9qtUQ
國中會很不一樣吧,新校園、新朋友、社團活動,再幾年之後,自己很快就可以獨立了!168Please respect copyright.PENANAzLRDCkC5G6
到時候趕緊離開父親……168Please respect copyright.PENANAg20lxMTpOs
開門聲赫然響起,隗羽一驚,反射性地想要躲進書桌底下,可已經太遲了。168Please respect copyright.PENANAC3OOQX6Rbk
綠酒瓶憤憤在木地板砸出一個坑,發泄充斥酒精味的怒意。168Please respect copyright.PENANA4ysOdMVZYN
「你他媽沒長記性是不是?酒呢?冰箱裡的酒呢?」168Please respect copyright.PENANAnb4qWrJWwf
少女回身,單膝跪地懇求饒恕。168Please respect copyright.PENANAJaKSrV5ZHA
「對不起,阿爸,我不記得了。」168Please respect copyright.PENANADhEcmAYM4Z
興許是長年纍計的不忿,又或是少年人零星閃耀的勇氣,隗羽努力抬起雙眼,頂撞向上方的高大人影。168Please respect copyright.PENANAjrR7NcfKcy
「今天畢業典禮你沒來,每次要喝酒了才會想起我……阿爸,你當我做跑腿了,對嗎?」168Please respect copyright.PENANA9jxLRPJ9Ck
魁梧的身軀俯身靠近,陰沉的深藍色帶有醉意,仔細打量幾下隗羽,認定她的不孝。168Please respect copyright.PENANAF78lZP9OEK
房間四壁震顫起來,他冷冷叱喝,「長大了?學會頂嘴了?」168Please respect copyright.PENANAopk5rmZTaq
時鐘邁步跨越了分界綫,與孩子們最後的玩樂時光道別。168Please respect copyright.PENANAocF74brlhp
破空聲向隗羽襲去,下意識的格擋永遠是徒勞,一齣劇場重複著上演,悶哼聲,隨即是倒地的脆響,再然後是掌摑,抬手猛烈砸向太陽穴,無塵的書架在陽光下熠熠生輝,沉默看著眼前無力反抗的求援者。168Please respect copyright.PENANARRp5wnmtaC
停頓意味更凶悍陰鷙的施暴,雷擊一般的揮打劈頭蓋臉彌天蓋地,脅從拔高音量的咆哮,「怎麽跟你父親説話的,啊?你指教甚麽?你懂甚麽?你懂甚麽啊?」168Please respect copyright.PENANAhOmF3jAWiE
手沒力了就用脚踹、踢,直到少女蜷縮起身軀,放棄躲閃,展露認命的畏怯姿態。168Please respect copyright.PENANAgG31CasLwl
血液湧入酒醉的頭腦,早見慣的這副模樣是如此令人憎恨,念到這些年來浪費的錢與精力、公司中的不如意、親戚間的譏誚話,卻換來個懦弱無能的窩囊廢,一點小事都做不好,手臂頓時青筋暴起,還不解氣,沉聲駡道:「我付出了那麽多,你就這樣對我?」168Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZKR0BatkE
視綫移向地上的酒瓶,沉吟半響,往倒在地上的瘦弱身影狠狠一砸,隗羽愣怔住想要逃,身體卻不聽令,紋絲不動,深入骨髓的痛楚連綿迤邐戳進肉裡,悶響與碎裂像一隻大手要將她捆住,腦海眩暈無章,木板反射出的那身影越來越陌生,父親被來歷不明的靈魂奪捨了。168Please respect copyright.PENANAGUGGuZbhbK
明明是親骨肉,傳入體内的恨意卻如此清晰,在耳邊炸裂,將少年人未曾表露的棱角一并摧毀得不成形。168Please respect copyright.PENANAHkqxGad1mS
「是你!都怪你!好人從來就沒好報,生出你這種東西來!」168Please respect copyright.PENANAmrWWVbUiXc
怒火仍不停歇,一下又一下隨著四散的酒液在後背劃出幾個口子,頓時一片血肉模糊。168Please respect copyright.PENANAk6BFcFWeIN
沒有尖叫,沒有淚水,只有隱忍的急促喘氣慢慢變為不可置信的啞聲。168Please respect copyright.PENANAOjUortfILL
血流沾到他滿手都是,發泄得酣暢淋漓,心中忽而痛快極了,踹門離去。168Please respect copyright.PENANApsTWtEOqCQ
窗戶敞著風,將七月遙遠的潮濕空氣吹拂在少女額前。168Please respect copyright.PENANAisrrlPwFdk
炎炎夏日頻繁的雨腥氣,帶她墜入冰窟,四肢順著生命力散去而發冷。168Please respect copyright.PENANA3zpgo9pxEb
虛幻的輕柔觸感將她包覆,全身似乎被某人擁在懷中。168Please respect copyright.PENANAoKAXPXpZX2
啊。168Please respect copyright.PENANAEkpNmykAzP
要是能永遠感受這樣繾綣的溫度,那該多好?168Please respect copyright.PENANAHWLFdVXaj3
既然是幻覺,自己也有資格緊握不放吧。168Please respect copyright.PENANAytu6nOBu0n
她想要睜眼,又深怕這是情緒激動下的假象,只能任由意識隨著痛覺飄散、昏去。168Please respect copyright.PENANA0ZQPbNIVf6
鈴蘭花香繚繞了來,一親芳澤,睡夢中的少女埋向西裝的腰綫之間,緊抓不放。168Please respect copyright.PENANAm3F0I9inLM
怕這股好聞的味道,鬆開就全散了。168Please respect copyright.PENANAviNRR01rg2
***168Please respect copyright.PENANAQsnVx4E7Q3
一直以來,隗羽都曾這麽幻想過。168Please respect copyright.PENANAf9aHCmQzpJ
生命中有一位在乎她的人,不論外表,不論性格。168Please respect copyright.PENANAktUjVbRjps
就算捨去皮囊,就算捨去靈魂。168Please respect copyright.PENANAf1wrha5xFc
奢望有人愛她,無論是酗酒的父親也好、還是無法融入的同學群體、抑或是素未謀面的陌生人。168Please respect copyright.PENANA144d1gnicm
母親曾這麽愛過她。168Please respect copyright.PENANA8qfRvTCu1g
要是能回到從前。168Please respect copyright.PENANAA3Aqdz6H2j
要是能被在乎。168Please respect copyright.PENANAbNmCCFEFjs
要是能被注視。168Please respect copyright.PENANAbQ7tmMFZ1f
要是,自己的存在是有意義的。168Please respect copyright.PENANAZNk4mvSsEt
……168Please respect copyright.PENANAoU53Ukr5mp
但這種愛不存在。168Please respect copyright.PENANAVkiFtem2cZ
也對,九年了,内心腐爛得七七八八,又有甚麽可吸引人的?168Please respect copyright.PENANAndAlXHkPqV
索愛之前必須放大雙眼,先看自己配不配。168Please respect copyright.PENANAc1zHkv2m7k
現在,隗羽發現,這也是她自找的。168Please respect copyright.PENANAEiRSoipBvq
***168Please respect copyright.PENANArKjVgtvGK3
步伐不穩地來到走廊,海鴒並未將書櫃移除,反而在旁放置了飯盒。168Please respect copyright.PENANAyVfLioHTfm
一看時間,已經是下午一點,整整睡了大半天,頭卻暈得嚴重,大概是缺氧的後遺症。168Please respect copyright.PENANA0diLJPP802
拿起精緻包裝的便當,標簽昭示著這並非海鴒親手製作,從外買來,大概價格不菲。168Please respect copyright.PENANA1D5Fw6Hwdv
飯盒與瓶裝水均未拆封,似乎沒有下藥的可能。168Please respect copyright.PENANAJcOxFIFwdR
要吃嗎?168Please respect copyright.PENANAqIIQV3Z8kp
脖頸滯留幾塊淤青,脹痛感後浪推前浪,隗羽如暈船一般,只能尋找最近的依靠,挨蹭在墻上,才能免於被折磨得胃部翻騰。168Please respect copyright.PENANA0iXf5A0sMz
她輕輕撫摸咽喉,想要緩解痛楚。168Please respect copyright.PENANAEC8y7BRrZP
海鴒真的起了殺心嗎?168Please respect copyright.PENANA5ElMQwh86F
還是藉著恐懼的須臾侵犯自己?168Please respect copyright.PENANA6ypkYoW0Iz
木製書櫃頂端失去逃脫的可能,不遠處是幽幽紅光反復地亮。168Please respect copyright.PENANAefSpKlwKKX
也不知海鴒是躲在門後,還是正透過螢幕監視著她。168Please respect copyright.PENANAa1wFb0hKKQ
東搖西擺靠近那扇通往外界的上鎖出口,隗羽眼瞳微閃。168Please respect copyright.PENANAoiedJgKbOf
反正到頭來也是無意義的反抗,不如痛痛快快地成全海鴒,免得再受這些折磨。168Please respect copyright.PENANAKcYwCGZQKN
鬼迷心竅正伸手要敲,她又驚悟過來。
……算了。168Please respect copyright.PENANAiQePlItHTF
回到書櫃旁,拿起一本未讀過的小説,在老位置打發起時間。168Please respect copyright.PENANAQXtTxkXCwh
刷刷地翻頁,漫不經心地調整為踞坐姿態,牢房内的寒氣飄入走廊,隗羽不禁打了個冷顫。168Please respect copyright.PENANAHqt3YPWSnY
已經聽慣的時鐘聲響,導向長久以來堵塞的思緒。168Please respect copyright.PENANAP5i3W39UFo
不對。168Please respect copyright.PENANA3e6cgoYKjA
她應該沒説過自己喜歡小説吧?168Please respect copyright.PENANAkoutFSbIVW
海鴒是怎麽知道的……靠觀察?168Please respect copyright.PENANAxUdMfgM9bT
不對。168Please respect copyright.PENANAkmVD5SzrQp
分針轉動的細微變化,只有小孩子閑得慌了才會盯上整天。168Please respect copyright.PENANA9gPWJ7OfEs
嘀嗒。168Please respect copyright.PENANAq5XolILOmS
馬達操縱輪軸,鋸齒的每一次跳躍敲擊在心中掀起巨響。168Please respect copyright.PENANA3r11RGl0aL
嘀嗒。168Please respect copyright.PENANAbg1wP1NtIM
隗羽發覺自己總是在看時鐘。168Please respect copyright.PENANAL7UtoPdnGK
錶盤平面的數字符號成了露珠,刻度劃分開不連貫的人生,後又被針尖掩蓋。168Please respect copyright.PENANAcFI3NWPIWR
就像小時候每個樹蔭下的獨行。168Please respect copyright.PENANAPZoImfeARj
隗羽忽然瞪大眼。168Please respect copyright.PENANAps47S86tI7
多像那對錦鯉的眼睛啊。168Please respect copyright.PENANAWWJAR5qsz3
書頁啪嗒落地。168Please respect copyright.PENANA780ooTh5mQ
「開門!開門!」168Please respect copyright.PENANAjkn4orEvcy
拍擊無法引起注意,於是就用肩膀撞,再然後整個身子都搭了上去。168Please respect copyright.PENANA18GYJVxyzi
心中猜測逐漸清晰,但她就是不願相信。168Please respect copyright.PENANAwBPuHOvURb
撕啦!168Please respect copyright.PENANARIbV8MhQpT
房門似乎沒上鎖,隗羽反應不及,順著勢能摔倒在地。168Please respect copyright.PENANAAGaQNYsaT9
神經叫囂著喊痛,傳入大腦的訊號卻盡是怔忡,將五臟六腑竄起酸澀。 168Please respect copyright.PENANASJDXIImvSz
沒有找到預料中的人影,隗羽早已無法顧及這些。168Please respect copyright.PENANACUvorJdj85
整潔的白床單其上,排山倒海的照片壓潰最後一絲理智。168Please respect copyright.PENANA5MDRpe1TN2
這不是真的。168Please respect copyright.PENANAW5vGEaZHs2
隔著窗戶發瘋的父親、書桌作業旁的睡顏、獨自穿校服踏著單車的偷窺視角。168Please respect copyright.PENANAoqSHsLdZK0
墻上一個個精心裱起的相框,一個個再熟悉不過的場景。168Please respect copyright.PENANA5AovK0S7kx
全都是她的樣貌。
168Please respect copyright.PENANAFhQWUO0cq9