I’m tired.534Please respect copyright.PENANAtLzpZ03QAk
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by534Please respect copyright.PENANAkLFdNrwHdF
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead534Please respect copyright.PENANA8TfMi4aQaD
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy534Please respect copyright.PENANAyZIqtkeCWJ
to pick them up and set them back down.534Please respect copyright.PENANAJn1Bd8npgJ
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing534Please respect copyright.PENANAWts8ebQ544
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk534Please respect copyright.PENANAzeKlScYuoD
like a normal person, thank you.534Please respect copyright.PENANABvG1t5rvxG
I try.534Please respect copyright.PENANAUYG7m1W4Zx
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking534Please respect copyright.PENANAljRjZBDpsw
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground534Please respect copyright.PENANAFLbXi4mDAg
just barely making it from one place to another534Please respect copyright.PENANAut3ArUSlr5
without damage.
I’m tired.534Please respect copyright.PENANA9bEHfobKPe
Just this Wednesday I was driving home534Please respect copyright.PENANAVO2NIShe5L
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road534Please respect copyright.PENANA7cseeZlLqf
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and534Please respect copyright.PENANAAoOmX4XK8G
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me534Please respect copyright.PENANAzZMXDuSbcI
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken534Please respect copyright.PENANA2Iu1ymhlEC
for those I’m not sure how to help534Please respect copyright.PENANATDEgD2ph6p
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.534Please respect copyright.PENANAYLlVnCbfgZ
And while I was driving down the highway534Please respect copyright.PENANAVoPcMZNM7I
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel534Please respect copyright.PENANAlBBMwt8TJM
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the534Please respect copyright.PENANA8hC5BiVvya
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to534Please respect copyright.PENANAJnEx5TegJy
collide with the wall, break through and destroy534Please respect copyright.PENANAYQDtK3oisE
the other side.534Please respect copyright.PENANAEZ6nDNi15W
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right534Please respect copyright.PENANAmPmrW7H3Cp
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t534Please respect copyright.PENANAAZZPjPheBT
harm anyone else in the process. But I534Please respect copyright.PENANAhABhOVsHwo
didn’t do either, even though I534Please respect copyright.PENANAR7zsyKPLBT
got so scared for a minute534Please respect copyright.PENANAY4LRX5fTcr
that I would.
I’m tired.534Please respect copyright.PENANAk3RGSk95e8
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar534Please respect copyright.PENANAtswUDvMFPP
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough534Please respect copyright.PENANAJTvjEfkKcp
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt534Please respect copyright.PENANA6Vb7IoHubF
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten534Please respect copyright.PENANAT9OOeGl0TV
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife534Please respect copyright.PENANARKvBpBMGnM
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart534Please respect copyright.PENANAuqwrur2TYq
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.534Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9dB0A6D2o
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to534Please respect copyright.PENANAmkyjM4O1LB
draw blood, but it was the first time534Please respect copyright.PENANAJ42raUNKbl
I had allowed myself to534Please respect copyright.PENANAIGt4B9vwZC
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.534Please respect copyright.PENANATczMR99TdD
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never534Please respect copyright.PENANAonV7ahmjg3
actually reach out and go through with it534Please respect copyright.PENANAiI4IwxfORm
I think because I’m afraid of not existing534Please respect copyright.PENANA1EdpVRdGi4
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I534Please respect copyright.PENANAY347nADlUF
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure534Please respect copyright.PENANApfuPXNVb1m
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people534Please respect copyright.PENANA1noFjrnzA4
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself534Please respect copyright.PENANAjGdX8Yhs8b
and give up. I have thought about dying every day534Please respect copyright.PENANAd2J7BkFQjv
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just534Please respect copyright.PENANAHOs48whQO4
go through with it.
I’m tired.534Please respect copyright.PENANAcWG0DnEp5w
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing534Please respect copyright.PENANAkIr63826oH
for people to care about me when they should534Please respect copyright.PENANA3BUpws0PmO
care about me on their own. I often think that534Please respect copyright.PENANASjXpN9qG5q
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that534Please respect copyright.PENANA8Eara3aZRM
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.534Please respect copyright.PENANAdVPdwv6uRG
She often hurts me more than she improves my life534Please respect copyright.PENANAYVgEQ1ri80
but I’m too afraid to say anything because534Please respect copyright.PENANA2F3WCTY3Vc
I need her. I need her to exist534Please respect copyright.PENANAQjvzO8DFJo
in my existence, and I need her to534Please respect copyright.PENANAOtAyHZGOLK
be by my side.534Please respect copyright.PENANADxwvYlUpCJ
But I’m tired.
I’m tired534Please respect copyright.PENANAdpTGySeWQ2
of being tired534Please respect copyright.PENANA2oTyDxGfri
in this tiring life.