I’m tired.536Please respect copyright.PENANA9xnk9uukuM
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by536Please respect copyright.PENANAK5h7RrwWNu
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead536Please respect copyright.PENANAWVDFugdejK
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy536Please respect copyright.PENANAvYlE2Lzv33
to pick them up and set them back down.536Please respect copyright.PENANABZ9O4seava
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing536Please respect copyright.PENANASuQvM7Hvg6
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk536Please respect copyright.PENANAXMOKR0t7Yc
like a normal person, thank you.536Please respect copyright.PENANAE0R1R3RSls
I try.536Please respect copyright.PENANADoUONbWZUj
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking536Please respect copyright.PENANABQ0Ds7pdgP
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground536Please respect copyright.PENANAYW2tBiWjs1
just barely making it from one place to another536Please respect copyright.PENANAtnIIEJ35Sc
without damage.
I’m tired.536Please respect copyright.PENANAmJabVH9NMI
Just this Wednesday I was driving home536Please respect copyright.PENANA324IViDIfI
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road536Please respect copyright.PENANAdWmlP6ZVRn
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and536Please respect copyright.PENANAngiljBYdjv
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me536Please respect copyright.PENANADQE4mQ4lJa
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken536Please respect copyright.PENANAePcoD1DQO0
for those I’m not sure how to help536Please respect copyright.PENANAdNMhZ3ifP4
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.536Please respect copyright.PENANAF2Odf20gp0
And while I was driving down the highway536Please respect copyright.PENANA666qVSTjla
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel536Please respect copyright.PENANAsO5AezJkrU
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the536Please respect copyright.PENANAx1VJKO8XW2
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to536Please respect copyright.PENANAZwiw0VktOA
collide with the wall, break through and destroy536Please respect copyright.PENANAtIpX4IO5Vq
the other side.536Please respect copyright.PENANA5UaMcKuBpM
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right536Please respect copyright.PENANAEBr1nZq9Xg
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t536Please respect copyright.PENANAOlOT0N1148
harm anyone else in the process. But I536Please respect copyright.PENANAU36zmmb8wC
didn’t do either, even though I536Please respect copyright.PENANA93xEbLvOmC
got so scared for a minute536Please respect copyright.PENANAvJoyPSIdIb
that I would.
I’m tired.536Please respect copyright.PENANAgiHvZrGzVj
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar536Please respect copyright.PENANAOdwiPH4R0g
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough536Please respect copyright.PENANALc45spvkL5
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt536Please respect copyright.PENANALth2lH2Fls
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten536Please respect copyright.PENANASyu1R9Q3FD
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife536Please respect copyright.PENANAbLl3z1pS81
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart536Please respect copyright.PENANAFNBL7W5zri
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.536Please respect copyright.PENANA5CP2NQq4Qk
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to536Please respect copyright.PENANAaZNq2GkVZz
draw blood, but it was the first time536Please respect copyright.PENANALqkMCKybw7
I had allowed myself to536Please respect copyright.PENANAykBiaR1tE4
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.536Please respect copyright.PENANA5fSreJnCmu
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never536Please respect copyright.PENANA9RPvpXVV7o
actually reach out and go through with it536Please respect copyright.PENANAnPg5yqd7Tj
I think because I’m afraid of not existing536Please respect copyright.PENANAovCxN2sbhw
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I536Please respect copyright.PENANAosO4sLwxfE
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure536Please respect copyright.PENANA7OC2Ist1sO
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people536Please respect copyright.PENANAKMNzGTSLA4
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself536Please respect copyright.PENANAJaybzeCr3P
and give up. I have thought about dying every day536Please respect copyright.PENANAf3fuHPVl2A
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just536Please respect copyright.PENANAt5y2oumm0g
go through with it.
I’m tired.536Please respect copyright.PENANAq84fXFOAsN
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing536Please respect copyright.PENANANkIE9AUdIp
for people to care about me when they should536Please respect copyright.PENANAlKanISmjZ9
care about me on their own. I often think that536Please respect copyright.PENANAQpbtbR8U2y
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that536Please respect copyright.PENANAseHN1X9w6E
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.536Please respect copyright.PENANAS2qe84WIqJ
She often hurts me more than she improves my life536Please respect copyright.PENANArfHrSoJo0r
but I’m too afraid to say anything because536Please respect copyright.PENANANLeTqOe5hQ
I need her. I need her to exist536Please respect copyright.PENANAiCWx6gWRMz
in my existence, and I need her to536Please respect copyright.PENANASLeGrdQxTn
be by my side.536Please respect copyright.PENANApclSTjEKCG
But I’m tired.
I’m tired536Please respect copyright.PENANAXiu0JjdDnp
of being tired536Please respect copyright.PENANA9whcdN1oJ2
in this tiring life.