是咁的，我踏上咗無盡的天國階梯 - ＃４想像

我跑緊⋯⋯一路跑緊⋯⋯

雖然已經冇好似之前咁，出盡全力去跑，但係我都仲係想努力多少少⋯⋯

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我依然希望可以早日到達終點。

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不過個事實係，就算我已經跑左咁長既一段時間，但係我面前既去路，都依然係睇唔到盡頭⋯⋯

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我仲未死心⋯⋯

我依然相信我所做既一切係唔會白費，只要我再努力落去，強迫自己再堅持耐啲、再耐啲！咁我，應該遲早會睇到轉機，甚至到達天國！⋯⋯

呢個⋯⋯係一個信念⋯⋯

係一個支撐住我⋯⋯繼續跑落去⋯⋯既信念⋯⋯

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我已經⋯⋯跑唔到落去喇⋯⋯

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我慢慢咁停左落嚟，呆左幾秒，然後慢慢擰轉個身，坐左喺度。

比起漫無目的咁一路繼續跑，我而家最需要既⋯⋯係咪思考呢？⋯⋯

我dup低左個頭，望左一望我之前走過既路，然後又擰轉個頭，望返上去天梯既盡頭⋯⋯

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究竟而家⋯⋯係咩情況？⋯⋯

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向下⋯⋯無盡⋯⋯向上⋯⋯同樣無盡⋯⋯

我真係好懷疑⋯⋯我真係好懷疑！⋯⋯

究竟我而家真咪真係身處喺一條通往天國既天梯上面？⋯⋯點解我覺得，我似係困左喺一個永遠冇出路既輪迴地獄裡面多啲既？

回想返最初，我對呢個世界既所有認知，全部都係嚟自白衣男⋯⋯

係佢話比我知我死左⋯⋯係佢話比我知我要起行，要前往天國⋯⋯

雖然，佢講過既某幾件事情都係事實，我到而家都深信不疑⋯⋯譬如話我已經死咗、記憶被抽調既呢啲事⋯⋯

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但係！！

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呢度⋯⋯真係一條前往天國既天梯？⋯⋯咁點解行極都未到終點？⋯⋯而且周圍又荒蕪到乜乜柒柒⋯⋯

係！⋯⋯我係好欣賞呢個世界既某啲設計，譬如話呢度環境既舒適度，風景既自然變化，天梯既造工等等⋯⋯

但係⋯⋯如果你個路程係真係要安排到咁乸閪遠既話⋯⋯點解你唔喺一開始既時候就講得清清楚楚呢？⋯⋯沿途又到冇任何既路標指示，淨係得我一個人孤零零、戇鳩鳩咁一直行⋯⋯搞到我擔心呢樣、擔心果樣，諗嚟諗去，胡思亂想⋯⋯

而更惡毒既一樣就係⋯⋯

點解呢度⋯⋯會冇圍欄架？⋯⋯我之前已經連續兩次差啲跌落去⋯⋯

你既然變到條天梯出嚟，咁點解唔變埋個圍欄出嚟啊？⋯⋯係咪好晒你時間啊？⋯⋯係晒時間既話，咁不如連條天梯都唔撚好變出嚟啦！係唔撚係呀？

哦⋯⋯唔通？⋯⋯

唔通你係故意既？⋯⋯呢啲叫汰弱留強？⋯⋯你想篩走啲戇鳩仔？係咪！？⋯⋯定係你係想引誘啲意志力唔夠堅定既人，等佢地自己跳落去？⋯⋯

屌你咩⋯⋯咁啫係算係點啊？⋯⋯心地有冇咁撚差啊？⋯⋯

好撚辛苦啊⋯⋯究竟仲要行幾耐？⋯⋯

天國⋯⋯

我連天國係點都唔知，究竟你想我有幾期待，有幾堅持⋯⋯

喂⋯⋯我真係頂唔撚pro喇⋯⋯

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雖然滿腦子牢騷，但我都仲係再次企起返身，重新上路⋯⋯

不過今次⋯⋯我連跑都唔再跑⋯⋯我慢慢行⋯⋯

我一路行，我一路係度想像天國究竟係個點樣既地方⋯⋯

唔知果度，係咪好似呢度咁，咩都冇架呢？⋯⋯定抑或是係好熱鬧既呢？⋯⋯

如果人死後既靈魂係永垂不朽，從此定居天國既話，咁天國⋯⋯咪好撚多人？⋯⋯

雖然話佢哋有一定既篩選，只係得「好人」先至有呢個資格⋯⋯咁但係果啲幾千年前既古人，仲有果啲幾萬年前既人類祖先啊、北京猿人等等⋯⋯唔通，我到時候都會見到佢哋，同佢哋一齊生活？⋯⋯

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bu 你阿嬤⋯⋯好難想像⋯⋯

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唔知到時候既生活，會係樸素丫，定抑或是先進呢？⋯⋯

牛頓、愛因斯坦果班天才喺果邊都叫做生活左百鳩幾年啦⋯⋯我諗只要有材料，就算扔佢哋去原始部落，都應該夠佢哋慢慢製造出啲先進發明掛？⋯⋯

係啦⋯⋯冇錯⋯⋯除非「上帝」唔畀架啫⋯⋯

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上帝？上帝係咩嚟？點解我會冇啦啦諗起呢個字？⋯⋯

上帝係咪即啫係「造物主」？定係咩「至高無上」？一諗起呢個字，我就同時有呢幾種既熟悉又模糊感覺⋯⋯

對於「佢」，我諗一定係擁有不低於人類既高度智慧⋯⋯咁但係⋯⋯「佢」又會唔會係擁有人類既外表呢？⋯⋯

定係「佢」可以隨時變化？⋯⋯甚至喺唔同人既眼中，會睇見佢唔一樣既造型？⋯⋯

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其實又會唔會，我一直提到既「佢」，只不過係一個programmer，而而家既呢個我，亦只不過係一位進入左虛擬世界既「玩家」呢？⋯⋯

由於呢一切同我既大腦接通左，所以一切睇起上嚟，同感受起上嚟，都十分之真實⋯⋯

話時話⋯⋯呢度既一切都係咁簡約樸素，又無窮無盡⋯⋯講真⋯⋯又真係幾似一個隨隨便便，用程式構建出嚟既牢房一樣⋯⋯

我又再次望左天梯下面一眼，果一片遼闊深邃既蔚藍色⋯⋯

嗯⋯⋯真係越睇越似⋯⋯

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算啦⋯⋯

雖然我岩先諗到既種種可能性唔係話冇可能，但係而家既我，根本就冇辦法去證實⋯⋯

諗嚟諗去⋯⋯咪又係晒時間⋯⋯

不過諗返轉頭，其實而家既我，都只不過算係處於個開端啫⋯⋯

所以⋯⋯不如我就⋯⋯再堅持多一下⋯⋯睇下嚟緊⋯⋯會唔會遇到一丁點既曙光？⋯⋯

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唔？

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我眨眨隻眼，望住眼前既天梯盡頭——

佢好似⋯⋯好似⋯⋯

微微咁轉咗向右邊？⋯⋯

我好猶豫⋯⋯好唔確定⋯⋯

我決定打醒精神，定住雙眼，抬起個頭再一次望實條天梯——

我一邊望，一邊慢慢橫移，嘗試微微調整角度、細心觀察，去小心確認佢係咪真係有輕微既轉彎跡象。

我望左好耐⋯⋯好耐⋯⋯覺得好似有⋯⋯

又好似冇⋯⋯

我有啲怕係因為自己一直凝住凝住，亂咁係度諗，諗到開始發傻，自己呃自己、催眠自己⋯⋯我唔希望呢一切都只係自己既錯覺，疑神疑鬼，信以為真⋯⋯

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啊～！竟然越睇就越唔肯定！

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一旦睇得太仔細、睇得太耐，天梯既外形喺我眼中就開始變得扭曲；佢係度扭嚟扭去，隨時變形，越嚟越唔真實⋯⋯

於是我嘗試合埋隻眼，休息一陣，先至再睇。

我又嘗試左一下望返轉頭，睇下會唔會有唔同既發現⋯⋯

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我決定向上跑。

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我諗天梯而家既弧度，可能會喺之後既路段將會變得更加明顯都話唔定，所以只要我一路行，一路細心觀察，應該可以睇到多啲線索⋯⋯

於是我間歇咁跑一段路，然後停一停，睇一睇；然後又再跑一段路，停一停，睇一睇⋯⋯

我重重覆覆咁，喺唔既高度上面比較條天梯喺形態上既分別⋯⋯

我開始覺得⋯⋯似乎⋯⋯

係！係！佢真係有彎到⋯⋯唔係⋯⋯唔係似乎⋯⋯係真係有！⋯⋯

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係真係轉緊彎呀！！！

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唔單止咁，隨住我一直向上跑，佢轉彎個弧度亦一路逐漸增加緊！

我好振奮，係前所未有咁感動！

我開始覺得⋯⋯而家既我好有可能好接近終點！

冇錯！係先兆！係終點前既先兆！！

我既鬥志被重新燃點，我又再次跑起上嚟！

冇錯！係久違既全速！

我要用我最激昂既心，以全速全力，一路直奔終點！！！

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