各星系政權之間戰爭頻繁。某星系政權暗中研發大殺傷力武器期間發生意外,大爆炸瞬間毀滅三個星系,衝擊波波及鄰近多個星系,所有政權或瓦解或衰落,沒有任何勢力能夠統領各星系。倖存兵將們頓時失去目標、故鄉和親人,成為「浪客」。626Please respect copyright.PENANAoYcBt8Zw5R
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大爆炸導致的環境污染令受影響星系外的文明不敢接近,無法伸出援手。浪客們各自組織小團體,搶佔戰艦,苟延殘喘。由於物資匱乏,戰艦之間不停侵略、吞併。為求休養生息,我所在的小型戰艦連續搶掠五艘大型戰艦、得到充裕物資後,反其道而行,選擇於災區中心附近駐紮。626Please respect copyright.PENANA66DA0ogCE1
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果然,在接下來的三十多年,沒有戰艦膽敢接近。626Please respect copyright.PENANAALwz54lVRD
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雖有防護衣物保護,但不少浪客抵不住嚴重環境污染而喪命,僅餘二百三十一人倖存。大家身體逐漸出現各種變異,例如皮膚泛紫,長出鱗片,骨骼變形,體液變稠……大部份安穩後出生的孩子早在母體中適應污染物,誕生後雖有輕微畸型,猶幸行動自如,沒有不適,彷彿我們這個物種天生如此。626Please respect copyright.PENANAkCF2juG4vV
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年歲漸長,孩子們開始擁有獨立思考能力。他們喜好和平,對過去的星系大戰為表示不解和厭惡,經常明目張膽針對曾經上前線殺敵的浪客,包括我。故意翻倒我們的食物,在幼童面前以難堪字眼奚落我們,在我們熟睡時偷襲……626Please respect copyright.PENANABJuVWpgHn3
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我如今六十三歲,是戰艦上年齡最大的一員。當年我軍階不高,僅是一位無名小兵,拿著成本低廉的手提核武在最前線殺敵。參戰原因……大概是群眾心理吧。十五歲,半生不熟的年紀。看見同輩朋友們大都懷著一腔熱血從軍參戰,於是我傻愣愣跟著去。上前線初期,在驚恐之餘仍會反思戰爭和生命的意義。後來,目睹戰友們相繼離世,我逐漸放棄思考虛無飄渺的事情,專注當下如何保命和取勝。626Please respect copyright.PENANAidm7YnLsCK
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一直後悔參與戰爭,無論誰勝誰負,只求戰爭能早日結束。誰料戰爭竟以這種出乎意料的方式結束,所有人都淪為輸家,包括戰後出生的孩子。626Please respect copyright.PENANAjd3x2WpUCA
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我不討厭那些找麻煩的孩子們,亦不害怕。我為他們感到抱歉。無可否認,是我們前人種下禍根,他們無辜當災。與其他選擇啞忍的浪客不同,我決定迴避。後來他們發現了,認為我「逃避懲罰」,是毫無悔意的表現。某天他們手持利器將我逼向逃生艙。我明白他們用意,主動進入逃生艙離開戰艦。626Please respect copyright.PENANAzVGajjhioT
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回首看著戰艦高速遠離,我知道自己死定了,不禁鬆一口氣。626Please respect copyright.PENANAiL3I9rqfR7
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不論甚麼原因、立場和崗位,我參與戰爭等同支持戰爭,等同剝奪孩子們本該擁有的和平、自由及幸福,所以我活該終身體驗被動地失去一切的感受。先是失去目標、故鄉和親人,後是失去他人尊重及容身之所,最終發自內心認同自己失去作為人的資格。626Please respect copyright.PENANAQxlKxSveLF
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戰艦看來越益細小,像是漫天星辰裡的一顆小塵埃。相對地,逃生艙裡的我沒有改變。我仍是我。我只是我。我是……甚麼?626Please respect copyright.PENANAygv7WtMuJp
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思考夾雜回憶,存在牽引失去。626Please respect copyright.PENANAFAZxHVnN82
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警報器響起,顯示艙門受損,艙內氣壓失衡,短時間內會隨時坍塌。想必是安娜動了手腳吧。626Please respect copyright.PENANA3s5pulDL0D
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出於本能,我難免生起面對死亡的恐懼。但身邊無人,置身極致孤獨之中,我忽爾感到輕鬆。原來這是作為一個獨立個體的原始狀態。626Please respect copyright.PENANAVpp7FZdnP1
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誕生當刻,有爸有媽,我不只是我,而是爸媽的孩子;上學以後,是學生、同學;參軍以後,是軍人、敵人、戰友;戰爭以後,是失去目標、故鄉和親人的浪客;晚年,是連累孩子的罪人。626Please respect copyright.PENANAu4co1ey8Id
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自出娘胎,所有身份離不開自身與旁人的關係。我從不孤獨,因為我從不只是我。惟當世界拋棄了我,所有身份被強行剝奪,我再次成為純粹的「我」。626Please respect copyright.PENANAt0abIZ0YzD
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生之時,我開始存在。死之際,我將停止失去。626Please respect copyright.PENANAtIscou2dMi
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感謝上天恩賜,讓我得以在離世前放過自己。626Please respect copyright.PENANA5eyQoP6bKd
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我享受警報器的吵鬧。我期待即將突如其來的坍塌。我感……626Please respect copyright.PENANAEHJxsVzEOu
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