okay okay i fell off the face off the earth for a bit. im still alive. ive had assignments due and assignments... assigned.
i went over to B's house on saturday because he didnt have work. on sunday, he begged and pleaded for an open shift so he'd still have the rest of the day to hang out. he worked from like 4am - 12pm so everything was basically closed by the time we got into town. sucks ass but that meant i was allowed over to make up for it. not only that but i got to stay over for dinner which was around 7pm (gasp!). that was the first time eating dinner at a partners house, i expected it to be scarier. his dad was snoozing the whole time and we ate in his room on his bed like when you're at a sleepover at your girlies house having chicken nuggets and sauce. it was great, his mama made lasagna and oh my god it was the best lasagna i've EVER had. straight up. literally. i went bonkers for it. then we got icecream and they dropped me home.
while i was over, B and i started to get a little frisky. hes a year older than me but school wise - he's the year below me. it's a little confusing but im young for my year. im turning 16 soon and B said for moral and almost legal purposes, we won't do anything too scandalous until i am 16 - the age of consent in my country. so to pass time, we just touch, mouths on body, hands on body, kissing and loving and oh god if anyone i know found this i think i'd put a bullet through my brain and turn it into a slushie. seriously. he left major hickeys on my chest and lower. i told him to. it's a branding thing, a marking whats yours thing, a territory thing. this is making me sound weird. im not a weirdo. i just like it when people know i have an other half. im taken, i've been claimed. im gonna move away from that point. big purple love bites, little red ones, i look like i got beat the crap out of. i wear low cut tops and walk around my house (just my mama and sister at the moment) without a shirt on so he was very considerate in keeping the love bites well hidden.
i had an argument with J. about the excursion coming up. J and i always sit next to each other on the bus to places and back from places because who better to sit with than your best friend? that was until i got a boyfriend. i feel like it was a given but of course i'd convince my boyfriend to come with us on the ride to the ROYAL EASTER SHOW??? that only happens ONCE A YEAR and hes leaving school next year anyway to pursue work. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKvU3OgjFt
so with boyfriend B coming, he asked me to sit with him on the bus. i was gonna talk to J about it today but she didnt come to school so when one of our old friends asked me sbout it, we started talking. she asked who i was gonna sit with on the bus and i told her my dilemma. i put off telling J about B asking me until i come up with a master plan to solve the issue. this friend of ours i'll name P for now told me that she has a group thats also of 3. and 3 plus 3 is 6 which is an even number, right so then everyone would get to sit next to someone else. the only problem? E is part of that group. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkp4QvR0y0
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J can't sit next to BB because BB has motion sickness so she sits at the very front but that would mess up J's motion sickness. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1kIhyDUX5
B can't sit with BB because hes scared of hurting her feelings with his mean and awful comments, and BB is the nicest person you've ever met, if he made her upset he'd never be sble to live with that on his conscious. and BB also messaged me telling me her and B have a weird awkward dynamic she'd be weird and awkward about. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmUvzPHVRb
J can't sit with P because she thinks Ps annoying and just yaps (she does) and she has nothign in common with P (she doesnt)253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBE2cLfhew
B can't sit with P because he cant stand her and end up hurting her feelings. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCgDPEylpY
J doesnt want to sit with E because they havent spoke in 8 weeks, J thinks it'll be weird. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOzZz8ME1V
I dont want B to sit with E because they had a short history, i'd feel weird. 253Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdCXgOPXV3
but i was okay with sitting with J on the way there and B sitting with E if it made everyone happy. then sitting with B on the way back and J sits with E on the way back. but E and BB have already decided they were sitting together and J would feel like an asshole if she interrupted their plans. So she's getting K to come so when im sitting with B, she'll sit with K.
the fight came from J wanting to completely merge with BB, E and P AND invite K. i was completely against this because im a big group hater AND what about L who we were goign to the easter show to see?? i was worried she didnt know anyone and feel weird anf awkward. so i told J i didnt want to merge. she said it'd be easier but her points were just as valid if it was just us four (L, J, B and i). i was contemplating just going with B but i never said anything because that would be the end of everything. i was crying, i was so worked up, it felt like i wasnt being listened to and she couldnt hear what i was saying.
turned out K DOES have friends going so we dont have to baby sit him. and BB, P and E have their own plans. i dont know how J feels and idk if shes gonna go intrude on some things but i was upset with how she said she doesnt like change but the show is in 11 days, she has plenty of time to like get used to it, but J who doesnt like change is goign out of her way to change EVERYTHING with the plan i had. i meticulously scavenge for the right numbers. even though i love BB we didnt invite her to join us because we need even numbers. and BB would make it 5 people. even after us and E "made up" we didnt invite her (because she was going with BB) because E woulf make 5 people and we need even numbers.
im not sure what the consensus is. im not sure if i'll be back at square one tomorrow when we all talk. im worried we'll all forget to tell L about the change of plans.
I tried telling J i was working hard and stressing to make shit convienient for her but she kept getting mad at me telling me i wasnt being ocnvienenrt for her and if i hadnt told her i was sitting with her then told B i was sitting with him, i wouldnt be in the predicament. even though thats not what happened. she didnt ask.
whatever.
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