had the mediation with E today. i told her we were trying to care about her and she was totally neglecting us. J told her it was unfair that she ignored her if the issue was with me. E said she was in an awful place mentally and the counsellor verified it. she said she didnt know how to voice she wanted space. and when school came around idk i guess she didnt know how to greet us again after ghosting us. she said she called me halfassed and used her for entertainment bc her parents and sister were breathing down her neck telling her im an asshole and she shouldnt be friends with me. telling her im toxic and dont deserve friends or something and she internalized it. doesnt excuse her telling my boyfriend shit about me. and btw, when my parents talk shit about my friends, i reject it. i dont internalize it, i completely reject it. "mmn mnn, no way, my friends arent like that, i'd know, i know them more than you". so idk why E thought that excuse would fly. whatever, she said she wants to be friends again, J said she needs communication, i said i needed effort, she said she wants to be friends in the group. like, her friends with my friends and everyone, not us exclusively. not us how we used to be, she just wants to be able to talk to us in class bc she misses us. so cute.
me and J have secured our seats on the bus for the Easter show now, we're just waiting on B to hurry up n get his shit signed so he can go.
last period today J cut my fringe because it was growing to long. we got weird stares from one of J's friends and some of mine when i told them. it wasnt drastic. it was like an inch and i feel better now its gone. woohooo
im still ill, my coughs sound awful and im still sniffling. i blow my nose and its green. gross. its fine, im getting better.
B hit one of my friends with a shoe, playfully, they were both laughing, then she went and had a whinge to her cousin who got so pressed that he said he was gonna bash B. this friend told me in english and i told her if her cousin goes anywhere near my boyfriend, i'd have to stop being her friend. its such a petty reason to get someone beat up?? when so easily, this friend could've just said "ouch B, that really hurt, you upset me" and B would've apologised and that wouldve been it. this "friend" must've repeated that back to him and my sister heard (this friend's cousin is friends with my sister) and she told me this arvo, trying to make fun of me. ridiculous. i meant it. i cant be friends with such a petty person. especially petty people who dont communicate.
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