74Please respect copyright.PENANAsLGkz2juWx
──我想我是嫉妒那個可以和他擁有對等身分的自己74Please respect copyright.PENANAt9lFKNmezB
By 黑子哲也74Please respect copyright.PENANAzRJEF9nFdw
74Please respect copyright.PENANA8cyWCSxpdH
74Please respect copyright.PENANAUJ87el8NQ6
74Please respect copyright.PENANAuOUXSAU6FH
74Please respect copyright.PENANAucCrlOwIEg
74Please respect copyright.PENANAsgtGUe6aPu
「嘿──咻。」奮力地將裝滿紙張的箱子搬到書架的最上方,大功告成後,黑子吁了一口氣,露出小小的笑容。74Please respect copyright.PENANA6ayHfRwA4R
74Please respect copyright.PENANAi6X0xz7hka
黑子甩了甩手,紓解搬書搬到手痠的不適感。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8SWMAkdjIF
74Please respect copyright.PENANAqxb10rJbqZ
他現在所在的地方是綠間的書房,這個家裡面積最大的房間裡超過一半都是堆滿各式書籍的書架,不止架子上,包括書桌上、電腦旁甚至地上都堆著滿滿的書。74Please respect copyright.PENANAxyFk5WmQSu
74Please respect copyright.PENANAspZhXYy2GE
74Please respect copyright.PENANAjl9L8QNADe
前面說過綠間生活習慣很嚴謹,已經到了近乎神經質的地步,照理來說書房亂成這樣他不可能視若無睹,只是最近太忙的關係,讓他抽不出多餘的時間好好整理下自己的藏書。74Please respect copyright.PENANAATBYpN2UZs
74Please respect copyright.PENANAWDyGQJWUa1
然後堆在書桌和筆電旁的書就越來越高、越來越傾斜……74Please respect copyright.PENANAqaCAgL5kMA
74Please respect copyright.PENANAKZW0SsmYFM
於是在好心收留他的綠間先生同一個晚上第五次被堆在腳邊的「書塔」絆到差點摔死後(沒辦法最近都在熬夜,眼花看不清是正常的),黑子自告奮勇在綠間去醫院的時候幫他整理書房。74Please respect copyright.PENANAs7hOk1QFWv
74Please respect copyright.PENANAfRuKIjeBtZ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAEnxI1x80Ia
「《人體解剖大全最新修訂版》?果然是綠間君在看的書。」都好正經。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8OYsYeFNI0
74Please respect copyright.PENANA6etCb6SFwQ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAyc0c9CTKqf
把手上的解剖大全細心擦過後,依照分類放到書架上,這工作聽起來很簡單,事實上做起來卻比想像中的還累,黑子花了幾乎一整個早上的時間也不過整理好三分之二而已。74Please respect copyright.PENANAjU5u5xzFPJ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAu4y0nwjede
雖然其中也有一部份原因是因為黑子遇到自己感興趣的書時就會停下來看看,聽綠間說,他還沒失憶前也很喜歡看書,還是一名頗有名氣的作家。74Please respect copyright.PENANAMAKPhDewY5
74Please respect copyright.PENANAIEdkOyhz3u
儘管沒什麼印象,但他喜歡看書這點似乎一點也沒變。看來即使失憶了,大腦還是會殘留一些過去曾經留下的痕跡,不能稱之為記憶,卻自然而然的保留了下來。74Please respect copyright.PENANAnibq5fW6XU
74Please respect copyright.PENANA4IhQBx3JZF
記憶啊……到底回不回得來呢?不知道是誰說的,記不起來的事物並不是遺忘了,只是想不起來而已,也就是說一定都還存在的吧?74Please respect copyright.PENANA1i2Fz4WYDP
74Please respect copyright.PENANAdT7PYq851h
74Please respect copyright.PENANAIM1E4ZTh2o
對了,那天高尾似乎有說過,他和綠間認識的時間比高尾跟綠間認識的時間還久的樣子……?74Please respect copyright.PENANASaAByDrrkK
74Please respect copyright.PENANAxn4Yfu5MRV
74Please respect copyright.PENANAHf0q9SodSZ
其實從來沒想過綠間對自己是那種感情。黑子有些發楞的揉著痠痛的手腕,眼眸望著窗外和他眼睛同色的晴空,連他自己都沒有發現的一絲惶然從那張甚少有感情波動的面孔上掠過。74Please respect copyright.PENANAiYYlSpdkDH
74Please respect copyright.PENANATjSw3DhReF
因為其實連黑子自己都不知道他對綠間的感情到底算是什麼了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAC5CWNYxxBB
74Please respect copyright.PENANAC2L1NrKs9X
他失憶後第一個來看他的人是綠間,聽說也是綠間把他送到醫院的──雖然貌似是因為綠間就是撞到他的人──在他失憶後收留他的人也是綠間,在他懷著對周遭完全陌生的感覺時拉著他的是綠間,沒有因為不會做家事對他生氣,雖然說話不中聽卻還是耐著性子幫他收拾的還是綠間。74Please respect copyright.PENANAIhfAxrR99C
74Please respect copyright.PENANA5ylyppDmeD
74Please respect copyright.PENANAbELRCgnfMK
太短太短的日子裡,可他卻已經對綠間有了太深太深的依賴。74Please respect copyright.PENANAz4wHLNOkjU
但這樣的感情可稱之為喜歡,甚至稱之為愛了嗎?74Please respect copyright.PENANAKUTxRrnvI4
74Please respect copyright.PENANALidDeyFJEI
74Please respect copyright.PENANAnXNjzsfpB8
74Please respect copyright.PENANAYqrqgx84z9
不用高尾提醒黑子也知道,不完全的喜歡對那個驕傲的男人來說只是一種不尊重。74Please respect copyright.PENANAqU6M4fA9hH
74Please respect copyright.PENANAlimoajVhkz
所以黑子很困惑,非常的困惑。74Please respect copyright.PENANAbFJBotcpl8
74Please respect copyright.PENANAimD5mN6r22
「啊,糟糕……」想得太入神導致手上的書不慎掉到地上,幸好沒有折到內頁的樣子。黑子連忙撿起來,卻在書櫃的最下面一層發現了一本看起來擁有頗久歲月的相冊。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8sdxO4zS0Z
74Please respect copyright.PENANA1zBISkHvd5
素色的封面,沒有太多不必要的花俏裝飾,儘管被放置在書櫃的最下面一層,卻顯然很常被翻閱,細心保養的相冊即使看得出擁有一定的歷史卻依然乾淨整齊,連一點灰塵也看不到。74Please respect copyright.PENANAQLYwkYCWUa
74Please respect copyright.PENANAYA53Ox5kKt
74Please respect copyright.PENANAbik5NoH0sJ
「相冊?應該是綠間君的吧……」猜測著或許會是全家福或者是生活紀錄之類的內容,黑子好奇地打開來。74Please respect copyright.PENANArEQOqFw8ec
74Please respect copyright.PENANADdirJXLYf7
74Please respect copyright.PENANAHpdCMXn7bD
相片很多,厚厚的相簿算一算大概有幾十頁。儘管場景不盡相同,卻大多都是籃球場或運動館;每一張相片的主角不盡相同,卻可以發現幾乎都是同樣的幾個人。赤青紫綠黃藍粉,有著鮮亮髮色的少年少女在遙遠的過去、在每一張屬於記憶裡的場景裡露出燦爛的笑容,那般張揚的、鮮活的、充滿生命力的,肆意揮霍著屬於他們的年少輕狂。74Please respect copyright.PENANAzjcFS6aHNQ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAdWvO1rzcV6
74Please respect copyright.PENANAApRGrbI98E
相片裡少年們都穿著寬鬆的球衣,水藍與白的底色上標誌著鮮明的「TEIKO」。74Please respect copyright.PENANARPKtqhb6MG
74Please respect copyright.PENANAIf8L49uxcp
TEIKO,帝光。74Please respect copyright.PENANA7yAsWbgk1k
74Please respect copyright.PENANAfBqPYPlP5y
74Please respect copyright.PENANAbmtdS6SCSG
儘管模樣比起現在要稚嫩許多,但黑子還是一眼就認出了相片中的自己和綠間。74Please respect copyright.PENANAGW0wGeyNam
74Please respect copyright.PENANAqenyr08zUJ
隊伍中的少年,一個有著水藍色的眉眼卻存在感稀薄得不可思議;一個身材高大拿著浣熊信樂燒,一雙秀麗的翠綠色眼眸卻滿臉彆扭,顯然是硬被拉過來拍照。74Please respect copyright.PENANA7m1R1Szv8R
74Please respect copyright.PENANAGKPPRdQTzN
74Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3JUPtGEPD
看了下相片背後註明的拍攝日期,這是綠間國中時期拍下的相片。74Please respect copyright.PENANA3SNyJWcXIC
74Please respect copyright.PENANACzOBx25TjT
也就是說,黑子跟綠間早在他們中學時就已經認識了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAPIa2ogpsue
74Please respect copyright.PENANADhhPVnfGXZ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAf6mjrv13p7
難怪高尾會說黑子跟綠間認識的時間比他要更久啊……那是現在的黑子哲也所不知道的、屬於過去的回憶和時光,而那樣的時光肯定對綠間有著非常特殊的意義,從這本相冊被保存的如此之好的情況就可以知道了。並不是什麼隨便的東西都能讓綠間真太郎如此重視,在這個家住了這麼久,黑子不曾看過其他有關於過去的綠間的任何物品,不管事畢業紀念冊還是其他什麼的也好,可是這本不起眼的相冊卻讓綠間如此珍而重之地收藏著。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8Fx451DYza
74Please respect copyright.PENANAvc5FoBzPhd
74Please respect copyright.PENANAjPofwzKgMa
懷著有點複雜的情感收起了那本保存良好的相冊,黑子繼續著先前整理書架的動作,只是思緒卻完全無法專注在這上面。74Please respect copyright.PENANAiaku9MsRK1
74Please respect copyright.PENANA3LBR8RlV7G
想著那本相冊,想著相片裡神采飛揚的少年們,想著那個時候的他和他,想著在綠間最珍惜的過去裡佔著一席之地的自己,那個從前的黑子哲也。74Please respect copyright.PENANA4lUqQxDeFb
74Please respect copyright.PENANAkpjH6YFNsz
黑子突然發現他居然有點嫉妒起那個和綠間有著不一樣牽絆的、以前的自己。74Please respect copyright.PENANAvH5Y6iFnxC
74Please respect copyright.PENANAKjDSVj1Wqh
74Please respect copyright.PENANA6nB3vtgt8p
74Please respect copyright.PENANAkMlS0UC2mt
74Please respect copyright.PENANAtdSVez1vGD
74Please respect copyright.PENANAch1jG5ITaW
74Please respect copyright.PENANAYzMQbuak7A
TBC.
ns216.73.217.1da2 ──我想我是嫉妒那個可以和他擁有對等身分的自己74Please respect copyright.PENANAt9lFKNmezB
By 黑子哲也74Please respect copyright.PENANAzRJEF9nFdw
74Please respect copyright.PENANA8cyWCSxpdH
74Please respect copyright.PENANAUJ87el8NQ6
74Please respect copyright.PENANAuOUXSAU6FH
74Please respect copyright.PENANAucCrlOwIEg
74Please respect copyright.PENANAsgtGUe6aPu
「嘿──咻。」奮力地將裝滿紙張的箱子搬到書架的最上方,大功告成後,黑子吁了一口氣,露出小小的笑容。74Please respect copyright.PENANA6ayHfRwA4R
74Please respect copyright.PENANAi6X0xz7hka
黑子甩了甩手,紓解搬書搬到手痠的不適感。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8SWMAkdjIF
74Please respect copyright.PENANAqxb10rJbqZ
他現在所在的地方是綠間的書房,這個家裡面積最大的房間裡超過一半都是堆滿各式書籍的書架,不止架子上,包括書桌上、電腦旁甚至地上都堆著滿滿的書。74Please respect copyright.PENANAxyFk5WmQSu
74Please respect copyright.PENANAspZhXYy2GE
74Please respect copyright.PENANAjl9L8QNADe
前面說過綠間生活習慣很嚴謹,已經到了近乎神經質的地步,照理來說書房亂成這樣他不可能視若無睹,只是最近太忙的關係,讓他抽不出多餘的時間好好整理下自己的藏書。74Please respect copyright.PENANAATBYpN2UZs
74Please respect copyright.PENANAWDyGQJWUa1
然後堆在書桌和筆電旁的書就越來越高、越來越傾斜……74Please respect copyright.PENANAqaCAgL5kMA
74Please respect copyright.PENANAKZW0SsmYFM
於是在好心收留他的綠間先生同一個晚上第五次被堆在腳邊的「書塔」絆到差點摔死後(沒辦法最近都在熬夜,眼花看不清是正常的),黑子自告奮勇在綠間去醫院的時候幫他整理書房。74Please respect copyright.PENANAs7hOk1QFWv
74Please respect copyright.PENANAfRuKIjeBtZ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAEnxI1x80Ia
「《人體解剖大全最新修訂版》?果然是綠間君在看的書。」都好正經。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8OYsYeFNI0
74Please respect copyright.PENANA6etCb6SFwQ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAyc0c9CTKqf
把手上的解剖大全細心擦過後,依照分類放到書架上,這工作聽起來很簡單,事實上做起來卻比想像中的還累,黑子花了幾乎一整個早上的時間也不過整理好三分之二而已。74Please respect copyright.PENANAjU5u5xzFPJ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAu4y0nwjede
雖然其中也有一部份原因是因為黑子遇到自己感興趣的書時就會停下來看看,聽綠間說,他還沒失憶前也很喜歡看書,還是一名頗有名氣的作家。74Please respect copyright.PENANAMAKPhDewY5
74Please respect copyright.PENANAIEdkOyhz3u
儘管沒什麼印象,但他喜歡看書這點似乎一點也沒變。看來即使失憶了,大腦還是會殘留一些過去曾經留下的痕跡,不能稱之為記憶,卻自然而然的保留了下來。74Please respect copyright.PENANAnibq5fW6XU
74Please respect copyright.PENANA4IhQBx3JZF
記憶啊……到底回不回得來呢?不知道是誰說的,記不起來的事物並不是遺忘了,只是想不起來而已,也就是說一定都還存在的吧?74Please respect copyright.PENANA1i2Fz4WYDP
74Please respect copyright.PENANAdT7PYq851h
74Please respect copyright.PENANAIM1E4ZTh2o
對了,那天高尾似乎有說過,他和綠間認識的時間比高尾跟綠間認識的時間還久的樣子……?74Please respect copyright.PENANASaAByDrrkK
74Please respect copyright.PENANAxn4Yfu5MRV
74Please respect copyright.PENANAHf0q9SodSZ
其實從來沒想過綠間對自己是那種感情。黑子有些發楞的揉著痠痛的手腕,眼眸望著窗外和他眼睛同色的晴空,連他自己都沒有發現的一絲惶然從那張甚少有感情波動的面孔上掠過。74Please respect copyright.PENANAiYYlSpdkDH
74Please respect copyright.PENANATjSw3DhReF
因為其實連黑子自己都不知道他對綠間的感情到底算是什麼了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAC5CWNYxxBB
74Please respect copyright.PENANAC2L1NrKs9X
他失憶後第一個來看他的人是綠間,聽說也是綠間把他送到醫院的──雖然貌似是因為綠間就是撞到他的人──在他失憶後收留他的人也是綠間,在他懷著對周遭完全陌生的感覺時拉著他的是綠間,沒有因為不會做家事對他生氣,雖然說話不中聽卻還是耐著性子幫他收拾的還是綠間。74Please respect copyright.PENANAIhfAxrR99C
74Please respect copyright.PENANA5ylyppDmeD
74Please respect copyright.PENANAbELRCgnfMK
太短太短的日子裡,可他卻已經對綠間有了太深太深的依賴。74Please respect copyright.PENANAz4wHLNOkjU
但這樣的感情可稱之為喜歡,甚至稱之為愛了嗎?74Please respect copyright.PENANAKUTxRrnvI4
74Please respect copyright.PENANALidDeyFJEI
74Please respect copyright.PENANAnXNjzsfpB8
74Please respect copyright.PENANAYqrqgx84z9
不用高尾提醒黑子也知道,不完全的喜歡對那個驕傲的男人來說只是一種不尊重。74Please respect copyright.PENANAqU6M4fA9hH
74Please respect copyright.PENANAlimoajVhkz
所以黑子很困惑,非常的困惑。74Please respect copyright.PENANAbFJBotcpl8
74Please respect copyright.PENANAimD5mN6r22
「啊,糟糕……」想得太入神導致手上的書不慎掉到地上,幸好沒有折到內頁的樣子。黑子連忙撿起來,卻在書櫃的最下面一層發現了一本看起來擁有頗久歲月的相冊。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8sdxO4zS0Z
74Please respect copyright.PENANA1zBISkHvd5
素色的封面,沒有太多不必要的花俏裝飾,儘管被放置在書櫃的最下面一層,卻顯然很常被翻閱,細心保養的相冊即使看得出擁有一定的歷史卻依然乾淨整齊,連一點灰塵也看不到。74Please respect copyright.PENANAQLYwkYCWUa
74Please respect copyright.PENANAYA53Ox5kKt
74Please respect copyright.PENANAbik5NoH0sJ
「相冊?應該是綠間君的吧……」猜測著或許會是全家福或者是生活紀錄之類的內容,黑子好奇地打開來。74Please respect copyright.PENANArEQOqFw8ec
74Please respect copyright.PENANADdirJXLYf7
74Please respect copyright.PENANAHpdCMXn7bD
相片很多,厚厚的相簿算一算大概有幾十頁。儘管場景不盡相同,卻大多都是籃球場或運動館;每一張相片的主角不盡相同,卻可以發現幾乎都是同樣的幾個人。赤青紫綠黃藍粉,有著鮮亮髮色的少年少女在遙遠的過去、在每一張屬於記憶裡的場景裡露出燦爛的笑容,那般張揚的、鮮活的、充滿生命力的,肆意揮霍著屬於他們的年少輕狂。74Please respect copyright.PENANAzjcFS6aHNQ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAdWvO1rzcV6
74Please respect copyright.PENANAApRGrbI98E
相片裡少年們都穿著寬鬆的球衣,水藍與白的底色上標誌著鮮明的「TEIKO」。74Please respect copyright.PENANARPKtqhb6MG
74Please respect copyright.PENANAIf8L49uxcp
TEIKO,帝光。74Please respect copyright.PENANA7yAsWbgk1k
74Please respect copyright.PENANAfBqPYPlP5y
74Please respect copyright.PENANAbmtdS6SCSG
儘管模樣比起現在要稚嫩許多,但黑子還是一眼就認出了相片中的自己和綠間。74Please respect copyright.PENANAGW0wGeyNam
74Please respect copyright.PENANAqenyr08zUJ
隊伍中的少年,一個有著水藍色的眉眼卻存在感稀薄得不可思議;一個身材高大拿著浣熊信樂燒,一雙秀麗的翠綠色眼眸卻滿臉彆扭,顯然是硬被拉過來拍照。74Please respect copyright.PENANA7m1R1Szv8R
74Please respect copyright.PENANAGKPPRdQTzN
74Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3JUPtGEPD
看了下相片背後註明的拍攝日期,這是綠間國中時期拍下的相片。74Please respect copyright.PENANA3SNyJWcXIC
74Please respect copyright.PENANACzOBx25TjT
也就是說,黑子跟綠間早在他們中學時就已經認識了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAPIa2ogpsue
74Please respect copyright.PENANADhhPVnfGXZ
74Please respect copyright.PENANAf6mjrv13p7
難怪高尾會說黑子跟綠間認識的時間比他要更久啊……那是現在的黑子哲也所不知道的、屬於過去的回憶和時光,而那樣的時光肯定對綠間有著非常特殊的意義,從這本相冊被保存的如此之好的情況就可以知道了。並不是什麼隨便的東西都能讓綠間真太郎如此重視,在這個家住了這麼久,黑子不曾看過其他有關於過去的綠間的任何物品,不管事畢業紀念冊還是其他什麼的也好,可是這本不起眼的相冊卻讓綠間如此珍而重之地收藏著。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8Fx451DYza
74Please respect copyright.PENANAvc5FoBzPhd
74Please respect copyright.PENANAjPofwzKgMa
懷著有點複雜的情感收起了那本保存良好的相冊,黑子繼續著先前整理書架的動作,只是思緒卻完全無法專注在這上面。74Please respect copyright.PENANAiaku9MsRK1
74Please respect copyright.PENANA3LBR8RlV7G
想著那本相冊,想著相片裡神采飛揚的少年們,想著那個時候的他和他,想著在綠間最珍惜的過去裡佔著一席之地的自己,那個從前的黑子哲也。74Please respect copyright.PENANA4lUqQxDeFb
74Please respect copyright.PENANAkpjH6YFNsz
黑子突然發現他居然有點嫉妒起那個和綠間有著不一樣牽絆的、以前的自己。74Please respect copyright.PENANAvH5Y6iFnxC
74Please respect copyright.PENANAKjDSVj1Wqh
74Please respect copyright.PENANA6nB3vtgt8p
74Please respect copyright.PENANAkMlS0UC2mt
74Please respect copyright.PENANAtdSVez1vGD
74Please respect copyright.PENANAch1jG5ITaW
74Please respect copyright.PENANAYzMQbuak7A
TBC.