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火神大我的手上總是充滿傷痕。29Please respect copyright.PENANA9rdAnom1wX
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無論是刮傷的,還是留了疤的不規則形狀,任何時候看著總有一 些肉眼能夠見著的傷口,而見不著僅能憑藉神經感受的疼痛又是另外一回事,那些零零星星的血褐色在他寬厚的手掌上駐留不離,像是想死心塌地的纏著,奈何一些 小傷最終還是敗給了年輕力盛的復原能力,而較為嚴重的那些,則光榮地留下驕傲的痕跡。29Please respect copyright.PENANAviIA3nA85A
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很多時候連他自己也不明白是怎麼弄傷的,甚至缺乏痛覺。每當得等碰了水,或是有其他人發覺的時候才會萌生一些隱隱暗暗的疼,但絕不會讓他難受到齜牙咧嘴,會有後者這種情況絕大多數都是被捉弄的,而始作俑者全是同一人。29Please respect copyright.PENANA8eVfXQOaTI
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黑子哲也。29Please respect copyright.PENANA2W4WWYPMST
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若能遇上排休的日子,他們總會一同坐在沙發上頭看電視。偶爾是預錄好的NBA球賽,偶爾是黑子喜歡的沉悶電影,火神與黑子兩人窩在一塊,手臂抵著手臂,就算是不說話也能覺得萬分愉快,從學生時代開始,他們總維持著這樣的相處模式。29Please respect copyright.PENANAlLdhonMDi8
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不 經意的接觸與相近,足以表明某一方的拙於言辭。無論是過了多久,那個面惡心善的傢伙與他仍舊是宛如初見,每日固定的擁抱與親吻是好不容易得來的定則,然而 怎麼樣也不得習慣害臊話語的那個人,卻會在無意識間表達出他的關心與喜愛,惦記著黑子需要什麼、想要什麼,然後極盡可能的供給予他。29Please respect copyright.PENANALC4G8lzFO6
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像是 現在這樣,溫溫順順地撫起他的頭髮。由頭頂一直磨蹭至耳後的細髮,那些不自覺的小動作僅僅只是自然而然的身體反應,儘管多年下來的成長受挫已將他的急躁消 磨得少之又少,但始終存著那分本性的不耐,很多時候黑子總是想著,那個男人怎麼總有那些耐心將他的髮絲一點一點的整理清楚,由髮根到細軟的尾部,對方早已 不知道數過多少遍了,那些明明白白的細線幾乎都要成為手心上頭的掌紋,但還是這麼堅持著不肯放手。29Please respect copyright.PENANAQJmin6ul9t
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然後他便會將火神擱在他頭頂的掌心捉下來瞧。29Please respect copyright.PENANAwfii9aFSCp
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事實上黑子也不知道見過多少遍,這雙厚實大手老早就深深地刻印在他的記憶裡頭。過去因多年碰觸籃球而漸漸生出厚繭,而蒼白的紋路則隱沒於骨節之間,割出一道道歲月的烙痕,這雙堅韌粗糙的手說起來怎麼也不算好看,但他就是特別喜歡。29Please respect copyright.PENANAp4Sxho0Orl
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黑子將他的手掌翻來翻去,起初都是沒什麼變化的,但弄著弄著卻突然間被鬆開了。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzhOkraNGmF
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原先還沉迷在比賽裡頭的火神突然回過神來,他望著那個一動也不動的小傢伙揪著手腕直瞧,像是發現了什麼似的,而後看了又看之後便扔下他的手,與他拉開距離,兩人不再靠在一塊,一左一右的間隔刻意的很。29Please respect copyright.PENANApJqWghFx6Y
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「……你怎麼了?」一瞬間摸不著頭緒的火神搔了搔頭,「黑子?」29Please respect copyright.PENANArfhcqzPbVC
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「沒事,」他面無表情地咕噥一聲,接著便站了起來,「我要先去睡了,火神君慢慢看吧。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAA0ul0iMFm3
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「欸、等等…」火神從後頭扯住了他的手腕,雖然不大明白黑子這是怎麼了,但多少還能辨認對方是在生悶氣。他遲疑地頓了頓,最終還是說出了自己的猜測,「……你生氣了?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAR2UvGKTnzi
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「沒有。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA2iiONbKxUx
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「是什麼原因?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAsGrrzAnPQK
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「就說了不是生氣。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAmHeRbCKIeJ
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「……欸。」分明是生氣了。29Please respect copyright.PENANAk6uvGZLqU0
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「火神君最近又做了什麼危險的事嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAC1eJZ4Epvm
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「啊?沒有吧。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAly5MuNuEaT
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「可是你的手……」黑子轉過身去,停頓了一會之後,決定不再說下去,「…算了,火神君晚安,記得要把電視關掉。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAkFfbjo1bLF
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什麼手?29Please respect copyright.PENANAApySdpF3uD
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還來不及詢問的他愣在原地,就這麼見著黑子轉身走回房間的背影一陣錯愕。29Please respect copyright.PENANAxSqdwy2dKI
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少了一個人的電視節目,就算再怎麼精采,此時此刻也有趣不起來。火神盤起手臂,難得地沉下心思來深思熟慮,但想了又想卻始終不能明白,無所適從的情況之下乾脆將電視關了,他獨自在客廳兜了幾個圈子,轉了又轉,最後還是轉回進房裡頭去。29Please respect copyright.PENANA5cwYn8Bs07
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他與黑子可說是完全相異,卻又極為相似的存在。29Please respect copyright.PENANAL4doMwp1U5
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很多事情總擱在心底不說的是黑子哲也,而沒想這麼多卻也不知道該如何表達的是火神大我。總括一句,就是誰也沒有開口,寧可就這麼過得久了放著淡了,久而久之不再想起這回事,偏偏誰也沒忘,花上心思去猜的事物仰賴領悟,卻總得輪上幾個夏秋才會明白。29Please respect copyright.PENANA2zVbB47aRU
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但經過許多次之後,火神多多少少明瞭起那些不說出口的理由不是任性,而是不令自己感到愧疚的體貼。29Please respect copyright.PENANAbfJSbOK3zF
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雖然。29Please respect copyright.PENANAn9y1Rnb5r8
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「學長……」拿著一疊表單的火神站在資料櫃前頭,有些猶豫地開了口。他與土田在同一個消防單位共事,雖說早已畢業多年,但習慣了的稱呼仍舊改不掉,「…那個,我想問你一個問題……」29Please respect copyright.PENANABE0GUNM8v4
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「哦,好啊,你想問什麼。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAJPe8EOIqRY
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「如果啊…如果……」想要徵詢意見的他,卻又不知道該如何開口,「…兩個人一起坐在沙發上頭看電視,然後其中有一個人突然生起氣來了,是為什麼啊?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAIP8yiGDwYc
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「啊?」沒頭沒尾的描述讓土田完全無法理解,「等等,這兩個人是誰啊,而且沒什麼前因後果的,你說得詳細一點。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAd5UavBJ9dU
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「呃,就是──」29Please respect copyright.PENANALDsnXzMb8m
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「你和黑子嗎?」事實上火神與黑子兩人之間的曖昧關係早已在高中時代徹底敗露,交往後的細節在理子的告知之下也略知一二,而他一瞬間瞧見火神有些慌張的表情,不用多想也知道自己猜對了,「嗯,看電視的時候發生了什麼事嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAjHQQveaCdB
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「沒什麼吧,我只是像平常一樣摸了摸他的頭…」火神頓了頓,「……然後黑子把我的手抓了過去,看一看之後又放開了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAERTcAHwEBC
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「是這樣啊……」雖說土田也覺得黑子的個性不大好捉摸,但事出必有因,照理來說,若沒有什麼特定的理由,應該不會惹得那個冷靜的透明少年生氣,「…火神,你把你的手伸出來我看看。」29Please respect copyright.PENANACuMaC1byte
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「喔好。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAV6oN90PX5g
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火神放下資料,伸出手來給土田檢查。29Please respect copyright.PENANAMRlthSXKTC
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「嗯…好像沒什麼事啊,不過這裡……」土田指著左手手背一側的位置,「…是什麼時候弄傷的啊?這麼大的傷口…」29Please respect copyright.PENANAaGkGzJzROl
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「咦,有嗎?」火神將手背過來一看,果然在左側的位置留了一道歪曲的傷口,已經略為結痂的部位半褐半紅,似乎是靠著自行的癒合能力好了一半,原先沒有發覺前連一點感覺也沒有,但現今看著看著,卻覺得隱隱作疼起來。29Please respect copyright.PENANAdpER2N8RfA
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「你還真是後知後覺啊,居然連自己受傷也不知道,我幫你包紮一下傷口好了……不過這是在哪裡弄傷的?」29Please respect copyright.PENANALprPCCyUPT
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「我也不太清楚……」火神看著土田從遠處提來的醫藥箱一陣發愣,「…大概是上次出任務的時候弄到的吧,橋底下卡了一隻小貓,那附近剛好都是鐵網。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA1eI0dfwQrF
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「該說你神經大條還是…」土田嘆了一口氣,那癒合一半的傷口刺目的很,然而看著看著他便明白了些什麼,「……也難怪黑子要生氣啊,老是這樣讓人操心的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAtO1CxYqS6W
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「什麼?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAw24MdGPczG
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簡單的替他上了藥水,而後纏上紗布包紮,土田的救護經驗豐富,做起這些事來一向得心應手。29Please respect copyright.PENANAJwq3lmQm7i
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「好啦,」基於學長的立場,他還是鼓勵起這多少年來仍舊遲鈍不改的學弟,「你們好好談一下吧,我想應該會沒事的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAHXlcF2Z1pg
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而後消毒藥水的氣味給膠帶全數封起,他瞧不見底下的傷口,卻得以感覺一陣一陣的刺疼。29Please respect copyright.PENANAPs0bPGSQqu
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他踏進家門的時候,客廳的燈是亮著的。29Please respect copyright.PENANAWBaJy64zmj
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一如往常的毫無變化,他的戀人今日還是這樣淡然平靜而缺乏起伏,昨天那個生了悶氣的黑子彷彿是他幻想出來的恐懼產物,現今便因為時效徹底消失無蹤。然而火神小心翼翼地瞥了對方一眼,遲鈍如他終究是找不出任何異樣,最終仍是流於安然無事的氣氛之中。29Please respect copyright.PENANASABRDKfDyL
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但 那或許只是隱沒在寂靜下頭的選擇性放棄,比起又深又長的談話他更害怕什麼也不說,而比起什麼也不說,他更憂慮的是不知不覺給予的傷害。話語說不出表情,表 情顯露不出心情,諸如此類的全是難以理解的言語技巧,然而誰不是一邊追求著直言直語的爽快,又一邊懼怕著並非真實的難受,社會交際如此,更何況相愛者親密 無間。29Please respect copyright.PENANA76yFsguFvZ
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因此他還是將對方圈進懷裡,嘗試性的問了一句是不是不生氣了?29Please respect copyright.PENANAjR6sgXzbZb
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「我沒有生氣,」黑子靠在他的胸膛上頭,慢條斯理地翻起書本,「而且生氣不能隔夜,這樣不好。」29Please respect copyright.PENANACnZyjvjOi5
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那不就是生氣了嗎?火神一陣靜默,而後才將下顎抵上他的頭頂,「那個……呃、抱歉」29Please respect copyright.PENANAPrBdsGVKiV
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「火神君為什麼要道歉?」29Please respect copyright.PENANATIoQL1kbPL
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「土田學長叫我這麼做的……」29Please respect copyright.PENANAZeZ47eHmZD
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黑子垂下雙眼,頓時想生氣也氣不起來了,對方太過單純的回答讓他心生愧疚,「……火神君真是個笨蛋。」29Please respect copyright.PENANACfUXbYSXfk
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「啊?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAA1EJy0Ty1W
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他拉過他的手,「已經包紮好了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAiooY6vPuU9
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「是啊。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA8hZRfaWSOa
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黑 子握住對方的左手,而後緩緩收攏,攥緊彼此的掌心。他望著那塊給白紗布包裹住的位置,蒼白成一片,他想起昨日見著的嚴重傷口,還是不由得鬱悶起來,因此這 麼安安分分的溫存一陣之後,他便朝著紗布的位置不輕不重的捏了一把,而後隨即惹來對方一聲吃痛,得到後果,黑子才又面無表情地轉了回去。29Please respect copyright.PENANAq0hWwo7omf
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「火神君,很疼嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAaVKb9DGPCV
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「你這混帳……當然疼啊!」火神抽回自己的手,絲絲抽刺的疼一時間無法緩和下來,「做什麼啊!」29Please respect copyright.PENANAsoyUOG6kwG
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他先是沉默了一陣,而後才又開口,「……所以不好好保護自己,也是火神君的錯。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAwoM0OMTBZF
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火神一愣,這時才突然發覺對方是在說些什麼。29Please respect copyright.PENANA0Hkd0Q0GpO
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「我明白消防員的工作相當危險,但如果是火神君選擇的工作,我無論如何都會全力支持。」黑子扳直了後背,一臉認真,「前提是注意自己安全的情況之下,我不希望火神君老是受傷,或者是在受傷之後,卻遲鈍得沒有發覺。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAinIcPWdOwi
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「怎麼可能會沒有發覺……!」火神立即想駁回這樣的說法,卻又被黑子的眼神盯得心虛不已,最終只好擺了擺手,選擇認錯,「…呃,好吧,我承認偶爾會沒注意到,但很多都只是小傷口而已。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAROPLBwyIVY
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「左手上頭的那個是大傷口吧?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAx6Omhpn2Sp
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「……是沒錯。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA9dt6NQBHie
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「為了火神君的身體狀況著想,麻煩請你多注意自己,」他眨了眨眼,而後鬆下一直緊聳著的肩膀,重新將臉龐靠進對方的胸前,「又或者為了我著想,請你不要讓我擔心。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAwhitBdhF00
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「看見火神君受傷我也會很難受,所以我希望你不要那麼粗心大意,如果有傷口就得趕緊處理,如果能沒有當然是更好,」黑子作勢掐了一下火神的手,「剛才很疼吧,但我想告訴火神君的是,我也覺得很疼。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA0oPiRTtV89
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那些沒來由的無理取鬧總是擔心自己。29Please respect copyright.PENANAW3HuEhTM64
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「……確定不是覺得好玩才弄我的?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAsWz70xgxef
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「一半一半。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAMfzpYUei36
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他誠實的惡魔毫不迴避的說出自己的想法,只能惹得火神又好氣又好笑。29Please respect copyright.PENANA7ReuqJmysQ
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但多少年下來都是這個樣子。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzArlEGSbNQ
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火神用手臂圈住對方的腰部,接著將卡在懷間的礙事書本抽走,隔著一個東西抱起來總是不太舒服,「你今天話很多啊。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAoEPAGIsIxw
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「……這只是必要的時候。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAnaUWkEDABK
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無 論如何終究是心疼之意超過不滿,二分是給自己受了傷的愚昧做些補償,另外八分則全給了明明並非同一軀體,卻能比他感受更深的這個傢伙。不知道有多少次黑子 曾深深鑲嵌這樣的心思卻沒被自己發覺,儘管對方並非如此脆弱,甚至比起他來說更加堅強,但看著傷及身體的心愛之人,任由誰都得氣惱難受。29Please respect copyright.PENANAhc64CPtdKz
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然而過去有多少次,他現今實在不敢再想。29Please respect copyright.PENANAmsP5wJ0Flw
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「火神君的手上到處都是傷痕,卻都不是我留下的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAvsm36hitlg
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「你這傢伙想在我的手上留下痕跡啊,」打著壞主意的那人不安分地捉起他的手,「剛才不是才說不要讓我受傷的嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAHIblk3Ef13
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「那我在無名指上咬一個洞好了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAY7ICiA6SjW
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「……以後戒指會戴不下的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA0yTzVgUChY
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「那替火神君訂製一個就好了。」黑子低下臉龐,舔了舔他的左手。儘管是這樣暗示性強烈的舉動,但流竄在他們之間的色情意味卻意外鮮少,更多更多的,則是對愛情的忠貞與萬分虔誠。29Please respect copyright.PENANADYVbjK0uke
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好啊,他說。怎麼樣我都願意。29Please respect copyright.PENANAYC5L18H77J
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火神捉過他的手臂,親吻落在左手腕的某一側,期間規律的隱沒跳動在唇間一陣搔癢,如此曖昧的氣息卻也讓彼此紅了臉龐。29Please respect copyright.PENANAIPCymrGPCl
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他說如果上帝能許給我十個火神大我。29Please respect copyright.PENANAA6FdWLyDue
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但最終想了想,還是選擇作罷。黑子握緊了對方的左手,他只願意有那麼一個貨真價實。29Please respect copyright.PENANA31Tx3MqYeb
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啊對不起~(小蘑菇語調29Please respect copyright.PENANAPiPvkZejCh
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長大後的個性超級難抓…!希望沒有太偏TuT29Please respect copyright.PENANAaShoGeELTE
成熟感真難拿捏啊29Please respect copyright.PENANA6QTWzNPKwN
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火神大我的手上總是充滿傷痕。29Please respect copyright.PENANA9rdAnom1wX
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無論是刮傷的,還是留了疤的不規則形狀,任何時候看著總有一 些肉眼能夠見著的傷口,而見不著僅能憑藉神經感受的疼痛又是另外一回事,那些零零星星的血褐色在他寬厚的手掌上駐留不離,像是想死心塌地的纏著,奈何一些 小傷最終還是敗給了年輕力盛的復原能力,而較為嚴重的那些,則光榮地留下驕傲的痕跡。29Please respect copyright.PENANAviIA3nA85A
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很多時候連他自己也不明白是怎麼弄傷的,甚至缺乏痛覺。每當得等碰了水,或是有其他人發覺的時候才會萌生一些隱隱暗暗的疼,但絕不會讓他難受到齜牙咧嘴,會有後者這種情況絕大多數都是被捉弄的,而始作俑者全是同一人。29Please respect copyright.PENANA8eVfXQOaTI
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黑子哲也。29Please respect copyright.PENANA2W4WWYPMST
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若能遇上排休的日子,他們總會一同坐在沙發上頭看電視。偶爾是預錄好的NBA球賽,偶爾是黑子喜歡的沉悶電影,火神與黑子兩人窩在一塊,手臂抵著手臂,就算是不說話也能覺得萬分愉快,從學生時代開始,他們總維持著這樣的相處模式。29Please respect copyright.PENANAlLdhonMDi8
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不 經意的接觸與相近,足以表明某一方的拙於言辭。無論是過了多久,那個面惡心善的傢伙與他仍舊是宛如初見,每日固定的擁抱與親吻是好不容易得來的定則,然而 怎麼樣也不得習慣害臊話語的那個人,卻會在無意識間表達出他的關心與喜愛,惦記著黑子需要什麼、想要什麼,然後極盡可能的供給予他。29Please respect copyright.PENANALC4G8lzFO6
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像是 現在這樣,溫溫順順地撫起他的頭髮。由頭頂一直磨蹭至耳後的細髮,那些不自覺的小動作僅僅只是自然而然的身體反應,儘管多年下來的成長受挫已將他的急躁消 磨得少之又少,但始終存著那分本性的不耐,很多時候黑子總是想著,那個男人怎麼總有那些耐心將他的髮絲一點一點的整理清楚,由髮根到細軟的尾部,對方早已 不知道數過多少遍了,那些明明白白的細線幾乎都要成為手心上頭的掌紋,但還是這麼堅持著不肯放手。29Please respect copyright.PENANAQJmin6ul9t
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然後他便會將火神擱在他頭頂的掌心捉下來瞧。29Please respect copyright.PENANAwfii9aFSCp
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事實上黑子也不知道見過多少遍,這雙厚實大手老早就深深地刻印在他的記憶裡頭。過去因多年碰觸籃球而漸漸生出厚繭,而蒼白的紋路則隱沒於骨節之間,割出一道道歲月的烙痕,這雙堅韌粗糙的手說起來怎麼也不算好看,但他就是特別喜歡。29Please respect copyright.PENANAp4Sxho0Orl
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黑子將他的手掌翻來翻去,起初都是沒什麼變化的,但弄著弄著卻突然間被鬆開了。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzhOkraNGmF
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原先還沉迷在比賽裡頭的火神突然回過神來,他望著那個一動也不動的小傢伙揪著手腕直瞧,像是發現了什麼似的,而後看了又看之後便扔下他的手,與他拉開距離,兩人不再靠在一塊,一左一右的間隔刻意的很。29Please respect copyright.PENANApJqWghFx6Y
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「……你怎麼了?」一瞬間摸不著頭緒的火神搔了搔頭,「黑子?」29Please respect copyright.PENANArfhcqzPbVC
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「沒事,」他面無表情地咕噥一聲,接著便站了起來,「我要先去睡了,火神君慢慢看吧。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAA0ul0iMFm3
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「欸、等等…」火神從後頭扯住了他的手腕,雖然不大明白黑子這是怎麼了,但多少還能辨認對方是在生悶氣。他遲疑地頓了頓,最終還是說出了自己的猜測,「……你生氣了?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAR2UvGKTnzi
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「沒有。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA2iiONbKxUx
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「是什麼原因?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAsGrrzAnPQK
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「就說了不是生氣。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAmHeRbCKIeJ
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「……欸。」分明是生氣了。29Please respect copyright.PENANAk6uvGZLqU0
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「火神君最近又做了什麼危險的事嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAC1eJZ4Epvm
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「啊?沒有吧。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAly5MuNuEaT
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「可是你的手……」黑子轉過身去,停頓了一會之後,決定不再說下去,「…算了,火神君晚安,記得要把電視關掉。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAkFfbjo1bLF
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什麼手?29Please respect copyright.PENANAApySdpF3uD
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還來不及詢問的他愣在原地,就這麼見著黑子轉身走回房間的背影一陣錯愕。29Please respect copyright.PENANAxSqdwy2dKI
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少了一個人的電視節目,就算再怎麼精采,此時此刻也有趣不起來。火神盤起手臂,難得地沉下心思來深思熟慮,但想了又想卻始終不能明白,無所適從的情況之下乾脆將電視關了,他獨自在客廳兜了幾個圈子,轉了又轉,最後還是轉回進房裡頭去。29Please respect copyright.PENANA5cwYn8Bs07
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他與黑子可說是完全相異,卻又極為相似的存在。29Please respect copyright.PENANAL4doMwp1U5
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很多事情總擱在心底不說的是黑子哲也,而沒想這麼多卻也不知道該如何表達的是火神大我。總括一句,就是誰也沒有開口,寧可就這麼過得久了放著淡了,久而久之不再想起這回事,偏偏誰也沒忘,花上心思去猜的事物仰賴領悟,卻總得輪上幾個夏秋才會明白。29Please respect copyright.PENANA2zVbB47aRU
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但經過許多次之後,火神多多少少明瞭起那些不說出口的理由不是任性,而是不令自己感到愧疚的體貼。29Please respect copyright.PENANAbfJSbOK3zF
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雖然。29Please respect copyright.PENANAn9y1Rnb5r8
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「學長……」拿著一疊表單的火神站在資料櫃前頭,有些猶豫地開了口。他與土田在同一個消防單位共事,雖說早已畢業多年,但習慣了的稱呼仍舊改不掉,「…那個,我想問你一個問題……」29Please respect copyright.PENANABE0GUNM8v4
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「哦,好啊,你想問什麼。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAJPe8EOIqRY
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「如果啊…如果……」想要徵詢意見的他,卻又不知道該如何開口,「…兩個人一起坐在沙發上頭看電視,然後其中有一個人突然生起氣來了,是為什麼啊?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAIP8yiGDwYc
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「啊?」沒頭沒尾的描述讓土田完全無法理解,「等等,這兩個人是誰啊,而且沒什麼前因後果的,你說得詳細一點。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAd5UavBJ9dU
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「呃,就是──」29Please respect copyright.PENANALDsnXzMb8m
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「你和黑子嗎?」事實上火神與黑子兩人之間的曖昧關係早已在高中時代徹底敗露,交往後的細節在理子的告知之下也略知一二,而他一瞬間瞧見火神有些慌張的表情,不用多想也知道自己猜對了,「嗯,看電視的時候發生了什麼事嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAjHQQveaCdB
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「沒什麼吧,我只是像平常一樣摸了摸他的頭…」火神頓了頓,「……然後黑子把我的手抓了過去,看一看之後又放開了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAERTcAHwEBC
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「是這樣啊……」雖說土田也覺得黑子的個性不大好捉摸,但事出必有因,照理來說,若沒有什麼特定的理由,應該不會惹得那個冷靜的透明少年生氣,「…火神,你把你的手伸出來我看看。」29Please respect copyright.PENANACuMaC1byte
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「喔好。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAV6oN90PX5g
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火神放下資料,伸出手來給土田檢查。29Please respect copyright.PENANAMRlthSXKTC
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「嗯…好像沒什麼事啊,不過這裡……」土田指著左手手背一側的位置,「…是什麼時候弄傷的啊?這麼大的傷口…」29Please respect copyright.PENANAaGkGzJzROl
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「咦,有嗎?」火神將手背過來一看,果然在左側的位置留了一道歪曲的傷口,已經略為結痂的部位半褐半紅,似乎是靠著自行的癒合能力好了一半,原先沒有發覺前連一點感覺也沒有,但現今看著看著,卻覺得隱隱作疼起來。29Please respect copyright.PENANAdpER2N8RfA
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「你還真是後知後覺啊,居然連自己受傷也不知道,我幫你包紮一下傷口好了……不過這是在哪裡弄傷的?」29Please respect copyright.PENANALprPCCyUPT
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「我也不太清楚……」火神看著土田從遠處提來的醫藥箱一陣發愣,「…大概是上次出任務的時候弄到的吧,橋底下卡了一隻小貓,那附近剛好都是鐵網。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA1eI0dfwQrF
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「該說你神經大條還是…」土田嘆了一口氣,那癒合一半的傷口刺目的很,然而看著看著他便明白了些什麼,「……也難怪黑子要生氣啊,老是這樣讓人操心的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAtO1CxYqS6W
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「什麼?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAw24MdGPczG
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簡單的替他上了藥水,而後纏上紗布包紮,土田的救護經驗豐富,做起這些事來一向得心應手。29Please respect copyright.PENANAJwq3lmQm7i
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「好啦,」基於學長的立場,他還是鼓勵起這多少年來仍舊遲鈍不改的學弟,「你們好好談一下吧,我想應該會沒事的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAHXlcF2Z1pg
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而後消毒藥水的氣味給膠帶全數封起,他瞧不見底下的傷口,卻得以感覺一陣一陣的刺疼。29Please respect copyright.PENANAPs0bPGSQqu
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他踏進家門的時候,客廳的燈是亮著的。29Please respect copyright.PENANAWBaJy64zmj
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一如往常的毫無變化,他的戀人今日還是這樣淡然平靜而缺乏起伏,昨天那個生了悶氣的黑子彷彿是他幻想出來的恐懼產物,現今便因為時效徹底消失無蹤。然而火神小心翼翼地瞥了對方一眼,遲鈍如他終究是找不出任何異樣,最終仍是流於安然無事的氣氛之中。29Please respect copyright.PENANASABRDKfDyL
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但 那或許只是隱沒在寂靜下頭的選擇性放棄,比起又深又長的談話他更害怕什麼也不說,而比起什麼也不說,他更憂慮的是不知不覺給予的傷害。話語說不出表情,表 情顯露不出心情,諸如此類的全是難以理解的言語技巧,然而誰不是一邊追求著直言直語的爽快,又一邊懼怕著並非真實的難受,社會交際如此,更何況相愛者親密 無間。29Please respect copyright.PENANA76yFsguFvZ
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因此他還是將對方圈進懷裡,嘗試性的問了一句是不是不生氣了?29Please respect copyright.PENANAjR6sgXzbZb
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「我沒有生氣,」黑子靠在他的胸膛上頭,慢條斯理地翻起書本,「而且生氣不能隔夜,這樣不好。」29Please respect copyright.PENANACnZyjvjOi5
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那不就是生氣了嗎?火神一陣靜默,而後才將下顎抵上他的頭頂,「那個……呃、抱歉」29Please respect copyright.PENANAPrBdsGVKiV
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「火神君為什麼要道歉?」29Please respect copyright.PENANATIoQL1kbPL
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「土田學長叫我這麼做的……」29Please respect copyright.PENANAZeZ47eHmZD
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黑子垂下雙眼,頓時想生氣也氣不起來了,對方太過單純的回答讓他心生愧疚,「……火神君真是個笨蛋。」29Please respect copyright.PENANACfUXbYSXfk
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「啊?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAA1EJy0Ty1W
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他拉過他的手,「已經包紮好了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAiooY6vPuU9
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「是啊。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA8hZRfaWSOa
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黑 子握住對方的左手,而後緩緩收攏,攥緊彼此的掌心。他望著那塊給白紗布包裹住的位置,蒼白成一片,他想起昨日見著的嚴重傷口,還是不由得鬱悶起來,因此這 麼安安分分的溫存一陣之後,他便朝著紗布的位置不輕不重的捏了一把,而後隨即惹來對方一聲吃痛,得到後果,黑子才又面無表情地轉了回去。29Please respect copyright.PENANAq0hWwo7omf
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「火神君,很疼嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAaVKb9DGPCV
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「你這混帳……當然疼啊!」火神抽回自己的手,絲絲抽刺的疼一時間無法緩和下來,「做什麼啊!」29Please respect copyright.PENANAsoyUOG6kwG
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他先是沉默了一陣,而後才又開口,「……所以不好好保護自己,也是火神君的錯。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAwoM0OMTBZF
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火神一愣,這時才突然發覺對方是在說些什麼。29Please respect copyright.PENANA0Hkd0Q0GpO
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「我明白消防員的工作相當危險,但如果是火神君選擇的工作,我無論如何都會全力支持。」黑子扳直了後背,一臉認真,「前提是注意自己安全的情況之下,我不希望火神君老是受傷,或者是在受傷之後,卻遲鈍得沒有發覺。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAinIcPWdOwi
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「怎麼可能會沒有發覺……!」火神立即想駁回這樣的說法,卻又被黑子的眼神盯得心虛不已,最終只好擺了擺手,選擇認錯,「…呃,好吧,我承認偶爾會沒注意到,但很多都只是小傷口而已。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAROPLBwyIVY
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「左手上頭的那個是大傷口吧?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAx6Omhpn2Sp
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「……是沒錯。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA9dt6NQBHie
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「為了火神君的身體狀況著想,麻煩請你多注意自己,」他眨了眨眼,而後鬆下一直緊聳著的肩膀,重新將臉龐靠進對方的胸前,「又或者為了我著想,請你不要讓我擔心。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAwhitBdhF00
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「看見火神君受傷我也會很難受,所以我希望你不要那麼粗心大意,如果有傷口就得趕緊處理,如果能沒有當然是更好,」黑子作勢掐了一下火神的手,「剛才很疼吧,但我想告訴火神君的是,我也覺得很疼。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA0oPiRTtV89
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那些沒來由的無理取鬧總是擔心自己。29Please respect copyright.PENANAW3HuEhTM64
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「……確定不是覺得好玩才弄我的?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAsWz70xgxef
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「一半一半。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAMfzpYUei36
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他誠實的惡魔毫不迴避的說出自己的想法,只能惹得火神又好氣又好笑。29Please respect copyright.PENANA7ReuqJmysQ
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但多少年下來都是這個樣子。29Please respect copyright.PENANAzArlEGSbNQ
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火神用手臂圈住對方的腰部,接著將卡在懷間的礙事書本抽走,隔著一個東西抱起來總是不太舒服,「你今天話很多啊。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAoEPAGIsIxw
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「……這只是必要的時候。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAnaUWkEDABK
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無 論如何終究是心疼之意超過不滿,二分是給自己受了傷的愚昧做些補償,另外八分則全給了明明並非同一軀體,卻能比他感受更深的這個傢伙。不知道有多少次黑子 曾深深鑲嵌這樣的心思卻沒被自己發覺,儘管對方並非如此脆弱,甚至比起他來說更加堅強,但看著傷及身體的心愛之人,任由誰都得氣惱難受。29Please respect copyright.PENANAhc64CPtdKz
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然而過去有多少次,他現今實在不敢再想。29Please respect copyright.PENANAmsP5wJ0Flw
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「火神君的手上到處都是傷痕,卻都不是我留下的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAvsm36hitlg
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「你這傢伙想在我的手上留下痕跡啊,」打著壞主意的那人不安分地捉起他的手,「剛才不是才說不要讓我受傷的嗎?」29Please respect copyright.PENANAHIblk3Ef13
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「那我在無名指上咬一個洞好了。」29Please respect copyright.PENANAY7ICiA6SjW
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「……以後戒指會戴不下的。」29Please respect copyright.PENANA0yTzVgUChY
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「那替火神君訂製一個就好了。」黑子低下臉龐,舔了舔他的左手。儘管是這樣暗示性強烈的舉動,但流竄在他們之間的色情意味卻意外鮮少,更多更多的,則是對愛情的忠貞與萬分虔誠。29Please respect copyright.PENANADYVbjK0uke
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好啊,他說。怎麼樣我都願意。29Please respect copyright.PENANAYC5L18H77J
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火神捉過他的手臂,親吻落在左手腕的某一側,期間規律的隱沒跳動在唇間一陣搔癢,如此曖昧的氣息卻也讓彼此紅了臉龐。29Please respect copyright.PENANAIPCymrGPCl
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他說如果上帝能許給我十個火神大我。29Please respect copyright.PENANAA6FdWLyDue
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但最終想了想,還是選擇作罷。黑子握緊了對方的左手,他只願意有那麼一個貨真價實。29Please respect copyright.PENANA31Tx3MqYeb
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啊對不起~(小蘑菇語調29Please respect copyright.PENANAPiPvkZejCh
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長大後的個性超級難抓…!希望沒有太偏TuT29Please respect copyright.PENANAaShoGeELTE
成熟感真難拿捏啊29Please respect copyright.PENANA6QTWzNPKwN
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