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一個星期之後,三年級在學校的禮堂前拍了畢業合照。47Please respect copyright.PENANAq4OWHBhD2g
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同一天內,也是紀念冊的個人照與團體照的拍攝。依照班級排序,高三生們換上整齊的冬季制服裝束,在鏡頭前留下了青澀的痕跡,年輕無瑕的臉龐上頭,稚氣未脫,即使已長出些許成人樣貌的眉眼,但一舒展開來,仍是少不了少年少女們特有的神情與氛圍。47Please respect copyright.PENANAoDtsqmiG4F
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他們聚在一塊,用手機、相機留下紀念合影,各式各樣的組合,平時就是一群的、或是從未熟悉過的,都因為將要離別的氣氛而拉近距離。47Please respect copyright.PENANAidkW1aXadC
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難得參與班級的徐亦桓,不意外的被女孩子們給包圍住了。自從拍完個人照之後,他就從未閒下來過,不停地穿梭在不同的女孩之間,兩人合照的、三人合照的、多人合照的,無論如何他都是得強迫性的參與其中,連續這麼配合下來,他的臉都給笑僵了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAzr9LornMx8
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好不容易消化完一群人之後,又還有另一群,甚至連其他班的都來湊上一腳,徐亦桓第一次痛恨起自己這吃香的臉蛋。47Please respect copyright.PENANAWUlY3UnJdm
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等到他逃回自己的屋頂時,早已經過了中午的時段,累得不行的徐亦桓扯鬆了自己的領帶,準備好好地睡上一覺時,鐵門外頭竟又傳來了打擾的聲音。47Please respect copyright.PENANA9FZNOzpJnB
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「終於輪到我了啊。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAXAKkBJ0RnJ
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他坐了起來。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIzP3ZhV3r5
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今天的他,不知道擺出了多少愚蠢的姿勢與虛假的神情,就為了讓那群膚淺的女孩們開心。然而現在的他,並沒有什麼特別的模樣或是不同的表情,只是平平淡淡的面向鏡頭,卻是最真實的徐亦桓。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEfgjR9y9bh
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按下快門──47Please respect copyright.PENANAXmq5A3hcqq
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這是他與他留下的第一張、也或許是最後一張合影。47Please respect copyright.PENANAhCE71dHkgE
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不知道已經多久,沒有這麼緊張過──47Please respect copyright.PENANATxXKVFvWUY
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僅只是站在社團辦公室的白板前頭,屋內人聲嘈雜,他都覺得自己的雙腳不止的顫抖。學弟妹們的雙手從未停過,木門也是開開掩掩的,人群竄動而忙碌著,雷季倫自己也是,手上還握著剪到一半的名牌裝飾,印製整疊的黃色傳單混亂的散落在桌面上,他的松鼠耳朵缺了一角。47Please respect copyright.PENANALPSXQmnAqm
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「喂,小倫!你的松鼠剪錯了──」47Please respect copyright.PENANAsLQqwJpi74
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「啊!」雷季倫低頭一看,才發覺自己的剪刀不聽使喚的剪下了棕色的紙片,「對不起對不起!有沒有替換的啊,我沒注意就剪下去了,超白癡的…」47Please respect copyright.PENANA8lm2xYfJOG
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「大家──」活動策畫幹部從外頭大力的打開了門,「熱舞社的表演時間快結束囉,下一個就輪到我們吉他社,快點準備準備!」47Please respect copyright.PENANAgQIVgH3eL6
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「欸───!」室內一陣譁然,顯然大家都因為這個消息而頓時手忙腳亂了起來,踢翻了箱子的、弄倒了樂器的,一時間碰撞的聲響此起彼落著。47Please respect copyright.PENANA1BEYXiTIWL
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真的很緊張啊……雷季倫稍稍移動了一下腳步,來到社辦的外頭,關上大門,才些微隔絕了吵鬧的氣息,但也只是一條走廊的靜謐,隔著玻璃窗口,下頭的熱鬧聲響非凡,這個時段的校慶園遊會,正巧湧入了最多的人潮。47Please respect copyright.PENANAxRYorQz2m3
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從 這裡能瞧見不遠處的舞台,主持人的嗓音和節奏音樂藉由巨大的音響播放出來,傳遍了整座校園,雷季倫還記得一年級剛加入吉他社的時候,第一年校慶,他也是在 如此的手忙腳亂中度過,雖說也是緊張不已,但是作為一份新人的期待,看著學長姊們踏上那座窄小卻又寬闊的表演舞台,那時的自己,也期望著總有一天能夠像他 們一樣,在眾人的面前,彈唱出自己的作品,以及那股喜愛音樂的熱情。47Please respect copyright.PENANANQKuZIVuct
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如今,這遙不可及的理想就要實現了,怎麼想都覺得不可思議。47Please respect copyright.PENANAVAdFMWan7O
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已經……過了三年了啊。47Please respect copyright.PENANAj0mqmh9vVo
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雷季倫歛下眼神,不大專心地注視著樓下熙來攘往的人群,他一個一個數著,那些流動的人們就如同他過往的記憶,發生了那麼多事,許多他以為從不會有過的、他以為從不可能的,竟一一地起了變化,無論是好,或者是壞,這三年……47Please respect copyright.PENANAsCa85IzDbr
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「副社長,你的松鼠。」47Please respect copyright.PENANArndbNtvWho
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隔著一片玻璃的臨窗,伸來了一隻寬大的手,食指與拇指的指尖捏著棕色小松鼠的耳朵。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIVJv5vduLu
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他側過身體,發現另一頭站著熟悉的身影。47Please respect copyright.PENANAuFosl6iSYu
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「……謝啦。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAVDNj0nEkgg
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「耳朵剪壞了是聽不見的,待會要是聽不見吉他的聲音可是很糟糕的一件事。」抱著手臂,李茗律半是玩笑半是認真的說著,「我是企鵝啊,好險企鵝沒有明顯的耳朵。」47Please respect copyright.PENANALNJDYH1e5G
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「什麼啊,」他被對方的話語給逗笑了,「辦公室裡頭混亂成一片耶,沒事吧。」47Please respect copyright.PENANArbyD74kd52
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「沒事沒事,全是一年級那幾個傢伙在搗亂啦!明明不用上場的,倒是二年級除了準備自己的表演之外還得分心去顧那些小鬼,真是辛苦啊,」沒有與他靠近,仍是隔著一扇窗子,但這樣的對話方式反而讓彼此覺得沒有隔絕,「好懷念啊,讓我想起以前的時候。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAp7qKnGyS9X
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「兩年前我們也都是小鬼吧,我記得我們還一起搬裡頭那張長桌。」雷季倫又笑了幾聲,「瑀晴學姊明明自己很緊張,還在那邊裝模作樣的使喚我們。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAKMyj7VSMul
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「……好久沒聽見她的名字了,瑀晴也畢業兩年了啊。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAzsyapNyv7y
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「是啊。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAEmNWbXWmfU
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「我還記得我們那個時候看到她在台上表演的模樣,羨慕得要命呢,」他的語氣充滿了懷念,彷彿掉進了回憶的漩渦之中,「平時那副壞心眼的樣子,一到了台上就認真起來了,從來沒看過她那麼帥氣又溫柔的一面……啊,除了歡送的時候啦,哭得超慘。」47Please respect copyright.PENANACalAq3rUOD
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「還說什麼要我們把吉他社的精神發揚光大,那個時候她超用力地拍著我的肩膀,快痛死了,哈哈!」雷季倫抬起臉龐,「……現在,我們真的要做到了。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAmeyjH70tLE
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對方無意的沉默了,但他並不是特別在意,竟也覺得這是一個需要噤聲的時刻。47Please respect copyright.PENANAyusBGYq8Vi
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「……是不是很緊張。」並非詢問,這是一個肯定的語氣。47Please respect copyright.PENANAKKfFXOywR9
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「嗯。」雷季倫倒也沒有否認,反而覺得講出來還比較輕鬆,「真的、很緊張啊,坐在考場裡頭考試的時候,還不比這個來得緊張……手腳都不受控制了,我沒要它們顫抖,但它們卻不聽我的話。」47Please respect copyright.PENANArAK4zffzdH
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「我也很緊張啊…」他嘆了一口長氣,而後不再將臉龐透出窗外,而是轉身背靠著牆,「……但只能說加油了,我們同心協力的話,表演一定能順利完成的。」47Please respect copyright.PENANASAjddPWR59
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「……當然的啊,我們是最厲害的吉他社!」伸出了掌心,他們談話許久,雷季倫第一次回過臉龐來面對著李茗律的視線,他微微地笑了,「擊掌!」47Please respect copyright.PENANA8NOaO7WQby
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這是以前便常有的習慣,考試的時候、挨罵的時候、準備教訓學弟妹的時候,二年級上台演出前,他們也曾這麼做過。47Please respect copyright.PENANAc7xEYZO6Y1
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"啪"地一聲清脆的,迴響在空蕩的走廊上頭。47Please respect copyright.PENANAGMidagdu5n
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「太痛了,你打得太大力,」他佯裝抱怨似的笑道,「時間不多了,進去拿你的吉他吧,順便把我的拿出來,別拿錯了,那個有企鵝的。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAF1g4FJ9Cb9
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「我知道,那個看不出耳朵的企鵝的,」從李茗律那裡遞過來的名牌,他緊緊地握在手心當中,「不要待會出糗了的是你啊!」47Please respect copyright.PENANAhjiPaHelKc
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他身後的李茗律大笑了幾聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANAvnl9ASN9B9
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「……季倫,」握上辦公室門把的瞬間,雷季倫聽見身後輕聲地喚,「我希望,我們就像這個樣子,普通的聊著天,然後……」47Please respect copyright.PENANAgmZigExvSI
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雷季倫頓了頓,卻沒有回過臉龐,但仍是笑出了聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANA87yCQD2Uzx
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「我明白的,我已經不記得了。」他柔聲回應。47Please respect copyright.PENANAxWPB1utvyY
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沒想到是這樣的感受,儘管周遭再怎麼的人聲沸騰,在他耳裡卻如同僅有畫面的萬籟俱寂。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEywMrYxHax
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倒數第二場演唱結束了,壓軸,輪到了他。47Please respect copyright.PENANAz4c4oJhgTW
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雷季倫捉著吉他,一步一步地踏上通往舞台的階梯,台下的呼喊與尖叫、主持人的鼓譟聲他都聽不見,剎那之間,整個世界彷彿只有他與他正緊握著的吉他是真實的,繃緊的琴弦幾乎就要劃破他的指尖,而擱置在制服口袋前頭的撥片,也無法靜止的躁動著。47Please respect copyright.PENANAnNe9ZiVSgI
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他在手心上頭畫了幾個人字,然後讓自己吞下去。47Please respect copyright.PENANA2FpJYSTNP6
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不知道是不是心理作用,這樣的做法竟讓雷季倫覺得消除了些許的緊張,雙腳也不抖得這麼厲害了,他佯裝從容不迫的向前走去,但僵硬的肢體卻出賣了自己,還沒完全走到舞台的中心,便被台下給大喊住了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAF7Rz9oRnLV
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「喂,季倫,搞什麼啊!」是自己班上的那些傢伙,一個一個揚著自己熟悉的笑臉,站在最前頭的胖子,那個一直待他為兄弟的哥們開口,「別緊張啦!靠,平時在那邊囂張的雷季倫咧?」47Please respect copyright.PENANAUX0w07u6vC
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……我哪有囂張啊,他不禁笑出了聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANAflbLXn551k
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「……等一下啦!」雷季倫回嘴,也因如此,台下的一票觀眾全笑了,連帶著他那些可惡的要命的同班同學們也是。47Please respect copyright.PENANAbaQwx8jyd6
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待他走到麥克風架的椅子前時,拜他那些好朋友們所賜,整個人已經輕鬆了不少,雷季倫坐上預先準備好的高腳椅,此時卻發現眼前的麥克風比他高出了許多,他有些不好意思地調低架子的角度,此時又惹笑了下頭的人們。47Please respect copyright.PENANAL1IJSNV7rd
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「嗨,大家好,我…我是吉他社的副社長雷季倫,」一手握著吉他,另一手則靦腆地搔著頭,在舞台上該說什麼雖已經演練了千萬遍,但仍是比不上實際上場的衝擊感,「那個,自我介紹一下,我……有點笨又沒女人緣,而且還有點矮…剛剛大家就發現了,哈哈。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAblxoedRvAb
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他環視了一圈台下,班上的同學們、吉他社的學弟妹、李茗律、以及眾多的學校同學以及路人們,一雙雙的眼睛直瞧著他。47Please respect copyright.PENANAHVUjMYS6sP
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「雖然我是壓軸啦,但我的歌聲並沒有特別好聽,大家不要太期待…但這麼說也不對,還是期待一下好了!」他從前口袋中掏出了撥片,「今天要演唱的曲子是一首慢歌,是一首合作曲,由我填詞、而另一個人作曲。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAPzVSLAVgxd
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還是……沒有來啊。47Please respect copyright.PENANAlFtrHBjn9X
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「這首歌呢,我自己很喜歡,所以希望大家也會喜歡,這是獻給……」47Please respect copyright.PENANAcC1eWmu0PP
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雷季倫微微地笑了起來,無數的片段畫面,在他的腦海中閃爍而過。47Please respect copyright.PENANA39KqYhi3w0
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──已經,三年了啊。47Please respect copyright.PENANA1GrlIz9ngB
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「……對我而言,很重要的一個人。」47Please respect copyright.PENANA4WcluolyHp
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按著琴弦,他刷出第一個音。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIaa8dSMcmy
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今夜的月亮這麼亮,照得我整夜都不能睡──47Please respect copyright.PENANAqDApaqaYJm
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永遠不會遺忘,自己曾彈奏過無數遍的曲子,就因為,是他所做的。然而,填詞的那一晚,也是自己以為再也不可能有所改變,也許將會這麼終結的那一日。47Please respect copyright.PENANAAh3IqYw5gR
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在你的心裡面,是不是還有我的存在47Please respect copyright.PENANAwz0JWaBNPZ
永遠都在等,有時候也會不甘願47Please respect copyright.PENANAqUkBUWXxzx
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……三年來。47Please respect copyright.PENANAc94K5fWMEL
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我不管多少時間多少眼淚多少失望來忍耐47Please respect copyright.PENANAvSUAiAJAha
我不管你何時會回來47Please respect copyright.PENANA13uoXXw7dS
其實我也不明白 為什麼為什麼傻傻地等待47Please respect copyright.PENANA5wNlWhZeoy
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你是我……47Please respect copyright.PENANA0DsYaOIsyR
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他不知道自己是什麼時候,彈完了最後一個音,停下彈奏的手許久許久之後,雷季倫才意識到台下一片歡騰,全是給他的鼓舞掌聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANAqSb2GkCG9b
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校慶期間的教室走廊是空蕩的,大樓與大樓之間連結的空橋,恰巧能傾斜地瞧見舞台的一舉一動,以及清晰地聽見,任何的傳達聲響。47Please respect copyright.PENANAG7WjA0BuXB
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徐亦桓半倚在牆柱上頭,一直以來,他都不喜歡擁擠的人群,而是選擇享受單獨欣賞的寧靜,這裡什麼都能聽見,不遠處走廊上頭傳來的奔跑聲、洗手臺水龍頭未關緊的滴答拍擊、路人的低聲耳語以及喧鬧的吼叫。47Please respect copyright.PENANA5toeLHkEOh
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連帶著過分溫柔的嗓音。47Please respect copyright.PENANAhIp6kgExhm
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他的校慶已經結束了。徐亦桓雙手插著口袋,緩步向外走去,一路上,他都輕哼著那首從前無以名狀的曲調,如今,它有了屬於它的內容與名字。47Please respect copyright.PENANAR8nqsNDjeD
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「……傻瓜。」垂低眉眼,最終,他只道出了這句話。47Please respect copyright.PENANAcLIqJdJACu
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……是我唯一的愛。47Please respect copyright.PENANAZYm84W8jXd
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這裡借用了蘇打綠「無眠」的歌詞。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEKZ9sQv55Q
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其實很久之前就已經想好了這篇故事內容,而聽到無眠則是後來的事47Please respect copyright.PENANAoGV86VrwIF
在聽到無眠之後,覺得這首歌的內容簡直近乎貼近他們兩人之間的關係47Please respect copyright.PENANARNUgHboyqj
而後便成了這篇篇名的由來47Please respect copyright.PENANAr3gF8ISw3u
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「無眠」有分為台語版與國語版47Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4DIhrsLf7
在我的心裡是台語版的內容比較適合這個故事,所以就直接將台語的部分翻譯過來了47Please respect copyright.PENANApBlq9U1Lw8
但實際上還是得聽到歌曲才有那種韻味存在47Please respect copyright.PENANA2cxCuHVjKu
有機會的話可以去找這首歌來聽聽看,便會更加明白其中的意思。47Please respect copyright.PENANAgKIou4cNXk
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謝謝。47Please respect copyright.PENANANPQCzjMka4
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33.47Please respect copyright.PENANAoLJOG1dtNS
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一個星期之後,三年級在學校的禮堂前拍了畢業合照。47Please respect copyright.PENANAq4OWHBhD2g
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同一天內,也是紀念冊的個人照與團體照的拍攝。依照班級排序,高三生們換上整齊的冬季制服裝束,在鏡頭前留下了青澀的痕跡,年輕無瑕的臉龐上頭,稚氣未脫,即使已長出些許成人樣貌的眉眼,但一舒展開來,仍是少不了少年少女們特有的神情與氛圍。47Please respect copyright.PENANAoDtsqmiG4F
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他們聚在一塊,用手機、相機留下紀念合影,各式各樣的組合,平時就是一群的、或是從未熟悉過的,都因為將要離別的氣氛而拉近距離。47Please respect copyright.PENANAidkW1aXadC
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難得參與班級的徐亦桓,不意外的被女孩子們給包圍住了。自從拍完個人照之後,他就從未閒下來過,不停地穿梭在不同的女孩之間,兩人合照的、三人合照的、多人合照的,無論如何他都是得強迫性的參與其中,連續這麼配合下來,他的臉都給笑僵了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAzr9LornMx8
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好不容易消化完一群人之後,又還有另一群,甚至連其他班的都來湊上一腳,徐亦桓第一次痛恨起自己這吃香的臉蛋。47Please respect copyright.PENANAWUlY3UnJdm
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等到他逃回自己的屋頂時,早已經過了中午的時段,累得不行的徐亦桓扯鬆了自己的領帶,準備好好地睡上一覺時,鐵門外頭竟又傳來了打擾的聲音。47Please respect copyright.PENANA9FZNOzpJnB
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「終於輪到我了啊。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAXAKkBJ0RnJ
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他坐了起來。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIzP3ZhV3r5
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今天的他,不知道擺出了多少愚蠢的姿勢與虛假的神情,就為了讓那群膚淺的女孩們開心。然而現在的他,並沒有什麼特別的模樣或是不同的表情,只是平平淡淡的面向鏡頭,卻是最真實的徐亦桓。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEfgjR9y9bh
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按下快門──47Please respect copyright.PENANAXmq5A3hcqq
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這是他與他留下的第一張、也或許是最後一張合影。47Please respect copyright.PENANAhCE71dHkgE
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不知道已經多久,沒有這麼緊張過──47Please respect copyright.PENANATxXKVFvWUY
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僅只是站在社團辦公室的白板前頭,屋內人聲嘈雜,他都覺得自己的雙腳不止的顫抖。學弟妹們的雙手從未停過,木門也是開開掩掩的,人群竄動而忙碌著,雷季倫自己也是,手上還握著剪到一半的名牌裝飾,印製整疊的黃色傳單混亂的散落在桌面上,他的松鼠耳朵缺了一角。47Please respect copyright.PENANALPSXQmnAqm
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「喂,小倫!你的松鼠剪錯了──」47Please respect copyright.PENANAsLQqwJpi74
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「啊!」雷季倫低頭一看,才發覺自己的剪刀不聽使喚的剪下了棕色的紙片,「對不起對不起!有沒有替換的啊,我沒注意就剪下去了,超白癡的…」47Please respect copyright.PENANA8lm2xYfJOG
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「大家──」活動策畫幹部從外頭大力的打開了門,「熱舞社的表演時間快結束囉,下一個就輪到我們吉他社,快點準備準備!」47Please respect copyright.PENANAgQIVgH3eL6
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「欸───!」室內一陣譁然,顯然大家都因為這個消息而頓時手忙腳亂了起來,踢翻了箱子的、弄倒了樂器的,一時間碰撞的聲響此起彼落著。47Please respect copyright.PENANA1BEYXiTIWL
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真的很緊張啊……雷季倫稍稍移動了一下腳步,來到社辦的外頭,關上大門,才些微隔絕了吵鬧的氣息,但也只是一條走廊的靜謐,隔著玻璃窗口,下頭的熱鬧聲響非凡,這個時段的校慶園遊會,正巧湧入了最多的人潮。47Please respect copyright.PENANAxRYorQz2m3
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從 這裡能瞧見不遠處的舞台,主持人的嗓音和節奏音樂藉由巨大的音響播放出來,傳遍了整座校園,雷季倫還記得一年級剛加入吉他社的時候,第一年校慶,他也是在 如此的手忙腳亂中度過,雖說也是緊張不已,但是作為一份新人的期待,看著學長姊們踏上那座窄小卻又寬闊的表演舞台,那時的自己,也期望著總有一天能夠像他 們一樣,在眾人的面前,彈唱出自己的作品,以及那股喜愛音樂的熱情。47Please respect copyright.PENANANQKuZIVuct
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如今,這遙不可及的理想就要實現了,怎麼想都覺得不可思議。47Please respect copyright.PENANAVAdFMWan7O
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已經……過了三年了啊。47Please respect copyright.PENANAj0mqmh9vVo
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雷季倫歛下眼神,不大專心地注視著樓下熙來攘往的人群,他一個一個數著,那些流動的人們就如同他過往的記憶,發生了那麼多事,許多他以為從不會有過的、他以為從不可能的,竟一一地起了變化,無論是好,或者是壞,這三年……47Please respect copyright.PENANAsCa85IzDbr
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「副社長,你的松鼠。」47Please respect copyright.PENANArndbNtvWho
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隔著一片玻璃的臨窗,伸來了一隻寬大的手,食指與拇指的指尖捏著棕色小松鼠的耳朵。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIVJv5vduLu
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他側過身體,發現另一頭站著熟悉的身影。47Please respect copyright.PENANAuFosl6iSYu
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「……謝啦。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAVDNj0nEkgg
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「耳朵剪壞了是聽不見的,待會要是聽不見吉他的聲音可是很糟糕的一件事。」抱著手臂,李茗律半是玩笑半是認真的說著,「我是企鵝啊,好險企鵝沒有明顯的耳朵。」47Please respect copyright.PENANALNJDYH1e5G
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「什麼啊,」他被對方的話語給逗笑了,「辦公室裡頭混亂成一片耶,沒事吧。」47Please respect copyright.PENANArbyD74kd52
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「沒事沒事,全是一年級那幾個傢伙在搗亂啦!明明不用上場的,倒是二年級除了準備自己的表演之外還得分心去顧那些小鬼,真是辛苦啊,」沒有與他靠近,仍是隔著一扇窗子,但這樣的對話方式反而讓彼此覺得沒有隔絕,「好懷念啊,讓我想起以前的時候。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAp7qKnGyS9X
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「兩年前我們也都是小鬼吧,我記得我們還一起搬裡頭那張長桌。」雷季倫又笑了幾聲,「瑀晴學姊明明自己很緊張,還在那邊裝模作樣的使喚我們。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAKMyj7VSMul
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「……好久沒聽見她的名字了,瑀晴也畢業兩年了啊。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAzsyapNyv7y
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「是啊。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAEmNWbXWmfU
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「我還記得我們那個時候看到她在台上表演的模樣,羨慕得要命呢,」他的語氣充滿了懷念,彷彿掉進了回憶的漩渦之中,「平時那副壞心眼的樣子,一到了台上就認真起來了,從來沒看過她那麼帥氣又溫柔的一面……啊,除了歡送的時候啦,哭得超慘。」47Please respect copyright.PENANACalAq3rUOD
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「還說什麼要我們把吉他社的精神發揚光大,那個時候她超用力地拍著我的肩膀,快痛死了,哈哈!」雷季倫抬起臉龐,「……現在,我們真的要做到了。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAmeyjH70tLE
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對方無意的沉默了,但他並不是特別在意,竟也覺得這是一個需要噤聲的時刻。47Please respect copyright.PENANAyusBGYq8Vi
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「……是不是很緊張。」並非詢問,這是一個肯定的語氣。47Please respect copyright.PENANAKKfFXOywR9
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「嗯。」雷季倫倒也沒有否認,反而覺得講出來還比較輕鬆,「真的、很緊張啊,坐在考場裡頭考試的時候,還不比這個來得緊張……手腳都不受控制了,我沒要它們顫抖,但它們卻不聽我的話。」47Please respect copyright.PENANArAK4zffzdH
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「我也很緊張啊…」他嘆了一口長氣,而後不再將臉龐透出窗外,而是轉身背靠著牆,「……但只能說加油了,我們同心協力的話,表演一定能順利完成的。」47Please respect copyright.PENANASAjddPWR59
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「……當然的啊,我們是最厲害的吉他社!」伸出了掌心,他們談話許久,雷季倫第一次回過臉龐來面對著李茗律的視線,他微微地笑了,「擊掌!」47Please respect copyright.PENANA8NOaO7WQby
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這是以前便常有的習慣,考試的時候、挨罵的時候、準備教訓學弟妹的時候,二年級上台演出前,他們也曾這麼做過。47Please respect copyright.PENANAc7xEYZO6Y1
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"啪"地一聲清脆的,迴響在空蕩的走廊上頭。47Please respect copyright.PENANAGMidagdu5n
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「太痛了,你打得太大力,」他佯裝抱怨似的笑道,「時間不多了,進去拿你的吉他吧,順便把我的拿出來,別拿錯了,那個有企鵝的。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAF1g4FJ9Cb9
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「我知道,那個看不出耳朵的企鵝的,」從李茗律那裡遞過來的名牌,他緊緊地握在手心當中,「不要待會出糗了的是你啊!」47Please respect copyright.PENANAhjiPaHelKc
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他身後的李茗律大笑了幾聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANAvnl9ASN9B9
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「……季倫,」握上辦公室門把的瞬間,雷季倫聽見身後輕聲地喚,「我希望,我們就像這個樣子,普通的聊著天,然後……」47Please respect copyright.PENANAgmZigExvSI
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雷季倫頓了頓,卻沒有回過臉龐,但仍是笑出了聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANA87yCQD2Uzx
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「我明白的,我已經不記得了。」他柔聲回應。47Please respect copyright.PENANAxWPB1utvyY
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沒想到是這樣的感受,儘管周遭再怎麼的人聲沸騰,在他耳裡卻如同僅有畫面的萬籟俱寂。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEywMrYxHax
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倒數第二場演唱結束了,壓軸,輪到了他。47Please respect copyright.PENANAz4c4oJhgTW
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雷季倫捉著吉他,一步一步地踏上通往舞台的階梯,台下的呼喊與尖叫、主持人的鼓譟聲他都聽不見,剎那之間,整個世界彷彿只有他與他正緊握著的吉他是真實的,繃緊的琴弦幾乎就要劃破他的指尖,而擱置在制服口袋前頭的撥片,也無法靜止的躁動著。47Please respect copyright.PENANAnNe9ZiVSgI
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他在手心上頭畫了幾個人字,然後讓自己吞下去。47Please respect copyright.PENANA2FpJYSTNP6
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不知道是不是心理作用,這樣的做法竟讓雷季倫覺得消除了些許的緊張,雙腳也不抖得這麼厲害了,他佯裝從容不迫的向前走去,但僵硬的肢體卻出賣了自己,還沒完全走到舞台的中心,便被台下給大喊住了。47Please respect copyright.PENANAF7Rz9oRnLV
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「喂,季倫,搞什麼啊!」是自己班上的那些傢伙,一個一個揚著自己熟悉的笑臉,站在最前頭的胖子,那個一直待他為兄弟的哥們開口,「別緊張啦!靠,平時在那邊囂張的雷季倫咧?」47Please respect copyright.PENANAUX0w07u6vC
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……我哪有囂張啊,他不禁笑出了聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANAflbLXn551k
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「……等一下啦!」雷季倫回嘴,也因如此,台下的一票觀眾全笑了,連帶著他那些可惡的要命的同班同學們也是。47Please respect copyright.PENANAbaQwx8jyd6
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待他走到麥克風架的椅子前時,拜他那些好朋友們所賜,整個人已經輕鬆了不少,雷季倫坐上預先準備好的高腳椅,此時卻發現眼前的麥克風比他高出了許多,他有些不好意思地調低架子的角度,此時又惹笑了下頭的人們。47Please respect copyright.PENANAL1IJSNV7rd
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「嗨,大家好,我…我是吉他社的副社長雷季倫,」一手握著吉他,另一手則靦腆地搔著頭,在舞台上該說什麼雖已經演練了千萬遍,但仍是比不上實際上場的衝擊感,「那個,自我介紹一下,我……有點笨又沒女人緣,而且還有點矮…剛剛大家就發現了,哈哈。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAblxoedRvAb
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他環視了一圈台下,班上的同學們、吉他社的學弟妹、李茗律、以及眾多的學校同學以及路人們,一雙雙的眼睛直瞧著他。47Please respect copyright.PENANAHVUjMYS6sP
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「雖然我是壓軸啦,但我的歌聲並沒有特別好聽,大家不要太期待…但這麼說也不對,還是期待一下好了!」他從前口袋中掏出了撥片,「今天要演唱的曲子是一首慢歌,是一首合作曲,由我填詞、而另一個人作曲。」47Please respect copyright.PENANAPzVSLAVgxd
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還是……沒有來啊。47Please respect copyright.PENANAlFtrHBjn9X
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「這首歌呢,我自己很喜歡,所以希望大家也會喜歡,這是獻給……」47Please respect copyright.PENANAcC1eWmu0PP
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雷季倫微微地笑了起來,無數的片段畫面,在他的腦海中閃爍而過。47Please respect copyright.PENANA39KqYhi3w0
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──已經,三年了啊。47Please respect copyright.PENANA1GrlIz9ngB
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「……對我而言,很重要的一個人。」47Please respect copyright.PENANA4WcluolyHp
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按著琴弦,他刷出第一個音。47Please respect copyright.PENANAIaa8dSMcmy
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今夜的月亮這麼亮,照得我整夜都不能睡──47Please respect copyright.PENANAqDApaqaYJm
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永遠不會遺忘,自己曾彈奏過無數遍的曲子,就因為,是他所做的。然而,填詞的那一晚,也是自己以為再也不可能有所改變,也許將會這麼終結的那一日。47Please respect copyright.PENANAAh3IqYw5gR
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在你的心裡面,是不是還有我的存在47Please respect copyright.PENANAwz0JWaBNPZ
永遠都在等,有時候也會不甘願47Please respect copyright.PENANAqUkBUWXxzx
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……三年來。47Please respect copyright.PENANAc94K5fWMEL
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我不管多少時間多少眼淚多少失望來忍耐47Please respect copyright.PENANAvSUAiAJAha
我不管你何時會回來47Please respect copyright.PENANA13uoXXw7dS
其實我也不明白 為什麼為什麼傻傻地等待47Please respect copyright.PENANA5wNlWhZeoy
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你是我……47Please respect copyright.PENANA0DsYaOIsyR
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他不知道自己是什麼時候,彈完了最後一個音,停下彈奏的手許久許久之後,雷季倫才意識到台下一片歡騰,全是給他的鼓舞掌聲。47Please respect copyright.PENANAqSb2GkCG9b
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校慶期間的教室走廊是空蕩的,大樓與大樓之間連結的空橋,恰巧能傾斜地瞧見舞台的一舉一動,以及清晰地聽見,任何的傳達聲響。47Please respect copyright.PENANAG7WjA0BuXB
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徐亦桓半倚在牆柱上頭,一直以來,他都不喜歡擁擠的人群,而是選擇享受單獨欣賞的寧靜,這裡什麼都能聽見,不遠處走廊上頭傳來的奔跑聲、洗手臺水龍頭未關緊的滴答拍擊、路人的低聲耳語以及喧鬧的吼叫。47Please respect copyright.PENANA5toeLHkEOh
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連帶著過分溫柔的嗓音。47Please respect copyright.PENANAhIp6kgExhm
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他的校慶已經結束了。徐亦桓雙手插著口袋,緩步向外走去,一路上,他都輕哼著那首從前無以名狀的曲調,如今,它有了屬於它的內容與名字。47Please respect copyright.PENANAR8nqsNDjeD
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「……傻瓜。」垂低眉眼,最終,他只道出了這句話。47Please respect copyright.PENANAcLIqJdJACu
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……是我唯一的愛。47Please respect copyright.PENANAZYm84W8jXd
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這裡借用了蘇打綠「無眠」的歌詞。47Please respect copyright.PENANAEKZ9sQv55Q
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其實很久之前就已經想好了這篇故事內容,而聽到無眠則是後來的事47Please respect copyright.PENANAoGV86VrwIF
在聽到無眠之後,覺得這首歌的內容簡直近乎貼近他們兩人之間的關係47Please respect copyright.PENANARNUgHboyqj
而後便成了這篇篇名的由來47Please respect copyright.PENANAr3gF8ISw3u
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「無眠」有分為台語版與國語版47Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4DIhrsLf7
在我的心裡是台語版的內容比較適合這個故事,所以就直接將台語的部分翻譯過來了47Please respect copyright.PENANApBlq9U1Lw8
但實際上還是得聽到歌曲才有那種韻味存在47Please respect copyright.PENANA2cxCuHVjKu
有機會的話可以去找這首歌來聽聽看,便會更加明白其中的意思。47Please respect copyright.PENANAgKIou4cNXk
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謝謝。47Please respect copyright.PENANANPQCzjMka4