I was in mourning for several weeks after his funeral.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡhji6Bt4kgE 維尼

Pacing up and down, refusing to eat, to talk, to communicate with anybody.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7QFQ74mla 維尼

I removed all traces of his memory, hoping for it to just fade away - but it never did.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tmGlMJ22T 維尼

A month passed - one long, painful month. I had locked myself in the house for the entire time. Hardly eaten anything. Hardly spoken to anyone. I decided to go outside.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPVa2Qc4gO 維尼

It was January, and out side was bitterly cold. I stepped outside for a brief moment, before escaping back to the confines of the house once more.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLMOkW1NCc 維尼

I dug out the scarf - the one he gave me, the one I had locked away ever since his death - and I wrapped it around my neck, replicating the way he had wrapped it on that fateful day.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmstmYj27K 維尼

It wasn't the same.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkZEHsGZ3x 維尼

The back garden seemed warmer. It was quite small, and at the far end was one lonely bench standing, just there, all alone.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkw3wRYd4b 維尼

I sat on it. It was cold.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡkia3k1oTpl 維尼

I began to cry.And then I stopped.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1zpySOBC9 維尼

I almost felt something next to me. Sort of like... a spirit.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxlvw9amA8 維尼

Antonio.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyAvpH2ntW 維尼

I heard a child's laughter.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLlaYofUhv 維尼

Antonio looked at me with sad eyes, and I realised that he was now with his family.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0kbLKDXCB 維尼

He was happy.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡteQ4xkOqO6 維尼

For the first time in a long time, I felt... content.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUGG7RSm5r 維尼

Antonio was finally truly happy.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrEO5AJiKI 維尼

All this time, he had covered his pain with that gorgeous smile. That wonderful smile.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rfv7dRUNy 維尼

But this time he wasn't hiding the pain anymore.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdVXgZyQL4 維尼

He smiled at me one last time - and through tears, I smiled back.8964 copyright protection602ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyzqASuiht 維尼

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