No Plagiarism!WAEehV4fXmDDv5lg1dvnposted on PENANA --以下是多年前的心情紀錄--8964 copyright protection146PENANAn67dQEuqtN 維尼
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雖然不是什麼大事,可是我也忍很久了,就是昨天我奶奶又吐血進加護病房,到這個地步我真的不想...或者說不敢去探望(當然昨天還是在面見時間趕去了),8964 copyright protection146PENANAFNxEE0bCuY 維尼
血和穢物從身體裡散發出來的味道,本人也很痛苦。8964 copyright protection146PENANA7TsaCJ8wwK 維尼
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有時候我也會覺得,不斷呼喚病人讓她看見我們,安慰的到底是哪一方?8964 copyright protection146PENANAzd4GVVqEEW 維尼
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所以我一直想要一個人靜靜的消失在世界上,8964 copyright protection146PENANA4DDDPSSH3r 維尼
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我想我也是會逃避吧!8964 copyright protection146PENANAQm6uLVlhW4 維尼
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我變得很常去看外婆,但確會刻意避開距離更近的爺爺奶奶,8964 copyright protection146PENANAKoxAvXIipb 維尼
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想寫些什麼讓自己分心,可是也煩到不想寫了。8964 copyright protection146PENANAIxMUVyr7Ag 維尼
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可是我是不想把這種情緒和我寫作關係上的讀者關聯上,8964 copyright protection146PENANA2HTWMAZNKt 維尼
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所以這篇我要加密。8964 copyright protection146PENANAj9Cv2O7yJZ 維尼
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在貓板又看到一篇虐貓兇手討論,我只看了下面幾篇 因為知道全部看完心情會更不爽。8964 copyright protection146PENANAoh7rXwNCJ8 維尼
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我從來不覺得自己是正常人,我覺得自己比正常人要弱一點。8964 copyright protection146PENANAhLnnoX3xiq 維尼
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可是我知道自己天生就要做某些事情的,也許有人看到我堅持寫作會覺得,夢想的確是有給我回饋了,可是可能很少人會注意到,為了專心一志,我放棄的不只是現實的安全感(雖然說現在想折腰也未必有機會讓你折),還有另外的夢想,那就是繪畫,我還是偶爾會畫一下,但已經不像過去那樣放在第一位了。8964 copyright protection146PENANA6IfdLWnmag 維尼
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所以寫作這件事對我來說有不同的意義,就是因為那是我放下一個夢想都要追求的另一個夢想。8964 copyright protection146PENANAOMeMxRFgH0 維尼
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然而這也會帶來另一種痛苦。8964 copyright protection146PENANA4K57gNVOU1 維尼
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但我還是覺得,這些是理所當然要背負的東西。8964 copyright protection146PENANAhYPfywR0tE 維尼
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我不想放下,也不能分擔給別人。8964 copyright protection146PENANAaLV3cm0Y7w 維尼
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雖然佛洛伊德寫了很多偏激的學說。8964 copyright protection146PENANArMA0D4DJug 維尼
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不過只有兩個字他說得不錯,昇華。8964 copyright protection146PENANAA38r12CHkG 維尼
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事過境遷,爺爺奶奶已經都不在的現在,我決定把這篇心情紀錄不引人注意地放進來,為的是要求自己不忘記對方還活著的時候最後的記憶,即使不完全是美好的,卻是真實的一部分。8964 copyright protection146PENANA90Zw1eHfpn 維尼
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我很不容易適應失去的剝奪感,有研究指出正常人適應親人死亡的時間是七個月,但我即使花兩倍的時間還是覺得恐慌,往往會壓到回憶的底層,所以我用文字留下紀錄,僅此而已。8964 copyright protection146PENANAyh1iWn1gwe 維尼
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可考日期:2013年11月23日8964 copyright protection146PENANA1l0zMCedxp 維尼
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