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去見訓導張的時候還未開始上第一節課,經過一輪審問回到課室時經已是小息。35Please respect copyright.PENANAWeW6jFoAh7
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「喂,姣雞返嚟啦。」35Please respect copyright.PENANAc2Q7mW6v6w
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「佢俾訓導張審完,一副生人勿近嘅樣。」35Please respect copyright.PENANAvboNDVSri5
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「抵佢死啦!平時咁鐘意姣仔。」35Please respect copyright.PENANAZFInqaSPW0
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我到今天才知道,原來班上不曾說過話的同學們如此討厭我。35Please respect copyright.PENANAyIcpv4CWMh
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流言被其他八卦取代只是我一廂情願的錯覺。今天大家不再假裝,就在我面前談論當時人。也對,校服都夠膽偷了,還會不敢在我面前說話嗎?我只是有點兒安靜,不是聾子,能夠聽得到你們的說話。可以想想我聽到別人說自己是非時的感受?彷彿把事情搞得越難看,他們越興奮。在他們面前,我不是一個能夠享有基本尊重的人類。我只是一個娛樂大眾的小丑。35Please respect copyright.PENANAUizxXntxna
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同班同學遠離我卻又在遠處談論我,當中包括古榮。他明知道我剛剛見完訓導,也沒有過來跟我搭話或者問候。如果害怕與我交談被同學看到會尷尬,大可以發一個短訊,可是他沒有。這個行為充分體現了我在他心目中的位置,心照不宣。35Please respect copyright.PENANA7ArlJmoMMd
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我帶著被背叛的憤怒和古榮對上眼神,他閃縮別過臉逃避。眼前的古榮陌生,難以想像他是曾經和我親近過,天天一起吃飯的好朋友。古榮主動邀請落單的我用餐、一起吃過許多頓豬油魯肉飯、在我和Kelvin意見不合之間調解。所謂的回憶只是一場自作多情的綺夢。35Please respect copyright.PENANAIeZ9zp1dFt
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脆弱的友誼小船翻側,終於意識到一切好意屬於人情世故客套。就如葉瑞恩你的命運,無法擁有什麼,凡事何必太認真?我祈求自己胡塗,能夠偽裝懵然,一切如常。35Please respect copyright.PENANAf5iyNHcWjH
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現實是,由察覺真相的一刻開始,剩下的只有唏噓和哀悼——我們的關係回不去了。35Please respect copyright.PENANAo849GC7VEv
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古榮逃離我眼神的畫面歷歷在目。35Please respect copyright.PENANA5nELZpcuMe
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永遠也回不去。35Please respect copyright.PENANAtnLw7PJJFk
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是我天真、不夠城府。他日遇到友善的朋友,請記得建立一道厚厚的牆壁,不要再隨便交出真心信任。唯一慶幸的是我在年輕的時候上了人生寶貴的一課,在劣勢中找到一點自我安慰。35Please respect copyright.PENANAF8D2x59DQ1
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我伏在桌子上,閉上眼睛,逃避世界所發生的事。35Please respect copyright.PENANAhxrEoWhSx3
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彷彿看不見,身邊就什麼事也沒有發生。35Please respect copyright.PENANALy9HPZtQ1b
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關掉視覺觀感,聽覺被放大加強。35Please respect copyright.PENANAHxLJhCGib1
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「佢身材平過洗衫板,咁都好意思出嚟姣仔。」35Please respect copyright.PENANAaHpUX2p7tH
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「日日黑面死老豆咁嘅樣。」35Please respect copyright.PENANAmZXepQhE8T
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「佢個背囊係街市$50貨色,極Bad Taste。」35Please respect copyright.PENANAu498LZdbeW
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他們不瞭解我,也不打算去瞭解我。35Please respect copyright.PENANAKXbDpuSQqH
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這個故事教訓了我,如果你不勉強自己合群,就會落得如此下場。35Please respect copyright.PENANAHHVIJEWcGI
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人類就是如此寂寞的個體。35Please respect copyright.PENANAIUitBek6Bm
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我沒有力量獨自面對一切。35Please respect copyright.PENANAFIRweRkU3P
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疲累、被背叛、憤怒、傷心、自信心低落,內心充斥著各種情緒。35Please respect copyright.PENANAbVTRVJvvS6
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我的心情糟糕透頂,無法承受更多。35Please respect copyright.PENANAVQ54IL8bIs
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此刻我好希望身邊有人能分擔我的心事,無論是誰也好。35Please respect copyright.PENANAYzONs6Zkh1
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我卻無法向任何人尋求協助。35Please respect copyright.PENANALJ3CiPoZsh
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好朋友離我而去。35Please respect copyright.PENANAVDd2jU7z9X
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家人不會幫助我,生命唯一的價值是做爸爸的傭人。35Please respect copyright.PENANAoIDpIzEwbt
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學校的訓導老師更是欺負我的元兇之一。35Please respect copyright.PENANA0uMHvOBDrW
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別人家的小孩會受到這種對待嗎?35Please respect copyright.PENANAx0FLUkFuXZ
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當訓導張說打電話告訴父母,他們大概能夠洋洋得意地叫訓導打阿,誰怕誰。35Please respect copyright.PENANAlsIAiRSBpT
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搞不好人家的父母是律師、報館記者,可以把訓導張這教畜的職位拿掉。35Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7hpgMB2BK
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而我只是宇宙一粒微塵,無法改變任何事情,被人隨意輾壓。35Please respect copyright.PENANA18kapRPCdO
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人生沒有希望。35Please respect copyright.PENANAwu8DSBttqb
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我用右手手指觸摸著左手的脈搏。35Please respect copyright.PENANA35lVTEaoJY
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若我使用𠝹刀在手腕中割一下,鮮血會從傷口中溢出。35Please respect copyright.PENANA6c2DpIMBaO
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若我能感受到皮膚的疼痛,放鬆一點,使能享受傷口的快感。35Please respect copyright.PENANAmr5PVhGETU
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若我能熟習刀片擱在皮膚裡的感覺,再放膽地進入深一點、再深一點。35Please respect copyright.PENANA36LMWx6u9v
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很快便能到天堂。35Please respect copyright.PENANALmQXJXLwPS
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我的一生從來沒有作惡,總不會下地獄吧?35Please respect copyright.PENANAeftZkEbVLb
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當我幻想著把𠝹刀在手腕中一割,手腕竟真的感到有點痕癢。35Please respect copyright.PENANATSup5CkfBh
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沒法解釋原因,可是這個殘暴的念頭卻能讓我抒解了一點壓力。35Please respect copyright.PENANAL1mbGBvn2L
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我把𠝹刀放在校裙袋裡,讓它成為我安全感的來源。35Please respect copyright.PENANAcq74MssytO
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若有一天有誰傷害我,我也有能力保護自己。35Please respect copyright.PENANAwqhoOYpDF7
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煎熬地等待分秒過去,下課的鐘聲終於響起。35Please respect copyright.PENANAKcMi4qgpmZ
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我以九秒九的速度直奔學校大門。35Please respect copyright.PENANACp79k91Ic8
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逃離這個鬼地方。35Please respect copyright.PENANAzsgrs1Kz2x
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無論以何等形式。35Please respect copyright.PENANAGjUDFCLr5c
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我終究會離開這個吃人的社會。35Please respect copyright.PENANABDu6LyyvWh
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【十八、精神漫遊】
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