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和喜歡Kelvin的女生進行了一場不愉快的對話後，我便到了學校門口會合Kelvin：「行得。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqN8HclOjA
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「咁耐嘅？」他問。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39Ex1RylYW
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXOe5hDkG8
「嗯。」想要放鬆心情的我說：「不如今日去掃街，肚餓想食啲嘢。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaL6HXueZD
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRF1UvuErR
「好阿。」Kelvin和我並肩而行。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMef8nL5PQR
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxr42czRIM
這不是我第一次和Kelvin單獨放學，可是我的心情竟然緊張起來。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXuudriB2X
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4zeETQHJ6
自從被同學懷疑我和Kelvin、古榮的關係後，我的心便不再單純。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgg1LNUZUqn
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1tqRaDX4m
我開始思考，難道我對他們抱有愛情的感覺而沒有察覺？到底怎樣才算是愛情的喜歡？138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IcgsCLTKw
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66xU14dk3C
我仔細打量Kelvin的側臉。他有一顆性感喉核、單眼皮、微卷頭髮、手臂有因為勤力做運動而得來的小肌肉、永遠不願穿得整齊的校服。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBSMA54vu3
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我第一次有這種想法——每天見面的Kelvin外型其實不錯，能夠和他去掃街真幸運。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYeYr1FEua
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo42CSZyzcJ
人的想法很微妙，明明沒有事情發生過，我跟Kelvin本來就會相約一起放學和掃街，只因為幾句說話便能扭轉一個人的想法。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzGqoWEjz6
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRtZKFZl9a
想法塑造習慣，習慣就是生活。一個人的想法非常重要，光用腦袋便能改變自己對世界的觀感。難怪校長時常訓話，學生必需留意自己說話的用詞。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQ1nf3DlqD
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爸爸吸毒後會有這種感覺嗎？生活過於苦悶無新意，對身邊本來平平無奇的東西，從無到有，誕生了快感。就像吃完精神鴉片，內心一陣飄飄然。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlI46EoJ5Ge
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmG8HXvVhG
「喂。」Kelvin打斷我的發情，還伸手摸摸我的額頭：「你係咪唔舒服？塊面咁紅嘅？」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAsGB9J3bK
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKn8bHtwHYx
「咳咳⋯」我因為吞了一半的口水，嚇得狂咳。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfyPrgr1I4
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWW5OcqXoT
Kelvin拍拍我的背：「洗唔洗早啲返屋企休息？」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyA52K2Ei9
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0S3o9MYvsx
「唔洗。我吞口水唔小心瀆親姐。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdub1jkyfLD
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRHlExJpNq
「咁蠢嘅人都有，你陣間食燒賣小心啲。」說話一啖砂糖一啖屎是Kelvin的特色。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BaMgjRVbP
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88aDn5RifF
我站在Kelvin旁，一邊吃撈麵，一邊等待著我的芋圓鮮奶茶。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGmCkzgmMK
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuViayQ41A
腦中是各式各樣的幻想。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXlNIfhsgiQ
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJui0t7pEN
如果我跟Kelvin談戀愛，會一直感受到這種飄飄然嗎？138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1g8ojrbJ7
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldLHEefn5S
如果會，戀愛似乎不錯。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsjv8vfDUT
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUCpcZ8HOp
「琴日睇新聞好爆阿，韓流巨星宣佈退出樂壇。」Kelvin說。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1dxpeB1R0R
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvD9pCINtx
「係咩？我無留意。」我通常聽本地音樂，對外國音樂不熟悉。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5kOZBvKMs
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwELMVqaq3S
「原來佢做龜公，開間酒吧做毒竇，仲有堆明星朋友喺Group share落藥迷姦嘅片段，好痴線。」Kelvin說。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGdpwhJq6g
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6R1kPQQG7T
「咁癲？佢好似都幾紅。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7fu5ND6eI
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy69o3xU6Ra
「真係無樣睇。好彩你唔迷呢啲韓星。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGTpaTDca3
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJnP8xBFgm
「點解咁講？」我問。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9uohiueCz
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav1nHSCxdy
「鐘意埋啲衣冠禽獸就傷心囉。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfifBfdQIv9
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5Y78fE0wL
「我問你一條問題阿。如果你識人吸毒，仲會唔會同佢做朋友？」Kelvin的話題讓想起我的爸爸。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQBzozz9bJ
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPH1QdrgJQW
「唔會，我唔會接受。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19QT3Jf0kz
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCx7iVbZdQ
「如果係你朋友嘅屋企人吸毒呢？」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBk4P2fV9Q
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lgF1HipFm
「咁就難講。」Kelvin說：「佢出入屋企品流複雜。我會盡最大努力幫佢，等佢唔好誤入歧途。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjf6d2THsL
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgOc8JhCpZ
我從來沒有嘗試幫助爸爸，鼓勵他離開黑社會：「屋企人吸毒，唔係朋友本人吸毒，唔代表會誤入歧途嘅。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWnMGnME9R
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6fUhEzAmf
想來爸爸也是身不由己賺錢還債，以他的能力除了保安、洗碗也沒有工作適合他，沒有站在他的立場勸喻也是種偽善。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnPvvTz0GG
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIl86x85Dn
「係好容易呀！如果你老竇喺房食冰隊草，你喺廳都會聞到啦，毒品喺你眼前，又會心郁郁想試。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYahU17zOwu
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZYo3fZfcO
「你唔係好鐘意幫人㗎咩？」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHDsohjOXZ
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2vWXomdLA
「阿婆行動不便，點可以相提並論！吸毒對我嚟講無咩討論空間！你話我歧視都係咁講，同賭錢一樣，無人拎住支槍迫佢，累己累人。幫過對方拒絕就算，連朋友都唔會做。留返俾專業嘅機構幫手。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXBJ1HQ9tM
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKG5X5fEoVc
Kelvin的說話打破了我和他戀愛的幻想。跟正義的Kelvin坦白父親有吸毒習慣絕對是一件自掘墳墓的事。他會討厭我的家庭，管東管西，而需要倚賴父親生存的我在成年前也無法解決家庭背景的問題。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiToudtB1t
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DWhpqf6uL
他無意的批評讓我內心不舒服。我是受害者，也很討厭自己的家庭阿！可是家庭的影響一直都在，它就像一道封印在身上除不掉的詛咒。無論是自己、抑或他人，同樣避之則吉。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKUVTT3ZuD
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkz9NjBzg5
我寧願沒有開口詢問，沉醉在五分鐘前的粉紅色泡泡裡。我忘記了我和Kelvin是對難以找到共識卻常常一起的朋友。現在的我失去了幻想，變得更自卑了。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXN8YXs9wta
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUnhssTA4I
我和Kelvin的關係並不穩固，他會隨時離棄我。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtxbHJGm5p
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVpLnAxZin
婚姻的承諾都能推翻，更何況是乳臭未乾的戀愛。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdv3uM8fS5Q
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffAqBngmk5
「點解人係群體動物？點解人要互相來往？」我喃喃自語：「係自私，係計算？兩個人，一定係有利益先會走埋一齊。世界上根本冇無私嘅愛。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTq2UUExE06
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTh6CjbMhwq
「咁功利，一齊開心唔得咩？」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Sv9Qsmhex
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「開心都係一種利益。可能對方人緣好，帶自己去認識朋友；可能係對方博學多才，學業上幫到自己；可能係自己孤單，想有人陪伴自己。總之就係因為利益開始，互相需要，到咗某一日，唔再幫到大家，就自然分開。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFhWdXoj8Q
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我為未發生的事情擔憂。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwIDAfXF6U
138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZgcmicAJa
面對關係看得見的分岔，倒數著珍愛的關係終會消逝，無力感擴散。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmToyG8HEyr
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「你今日做咩事咁多愁善感？」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuphwitNr1
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「無呀。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8roN6lXO1
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「我知啦，思春期！中二病！」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd10TU8rgDe
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「唔知呀！你話係就係啦。」138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLbhuU1iaH
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人生就是各種徒勞無功的零碎。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZ29DSBXEH
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難過。138Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTdcpHVkOZH
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