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去見訓導張的時候還未開始上第一節課,經過一輪審問回到課室時經已是小息。41Please respect copyright.PENANAkyM1lZ5MCv
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「喂,姣雞返嚟啦。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAjLufXWBOli
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「佢俾訓導張審完,一副生人勿近嘅樣。」41Please respect copyright.PENANATK5WL67iCj
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「抵佢死啦!平時咁鐘意姣仔。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA5hZFWR2h9b
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我到今天才知道,原來班上不曾說過話的同學們如此討厭我。41Please respect copyright.PENANAYyyY9O8HPA
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流言被其他八卦取代只是我一廂情願的錯覺。今天大家不再假裝,就在我面前談論當時人。也對,校服都夠膽偷了,還會不敢在我面前說話嗎?我只是有點兒安靜,不是聾子,能夠聽得到你們的說話。可以想想我聽到別人說自己是非時的感受?彷彿把事情搞得越難看,他們越興奮。在他們面前,我不是一個能夠享有基本尊重的人類。我只是一個娛樂大眾的小丑。41Please respect copyright.PENANAwVOqrw1CK3
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同班同學遠離我卻又在遠處談論我,當中包括古榮。他明知道我剛剛見完訓導,也沒有過來跟我搭話或者問候。如果害怕與我交談被同學看到會尷尬,大可以發一個短訊,可是他沒有。這個行為充分體現了我在他心目中的位置,心照不宣。41Please respect copyright.PENANABhpcccEmuF
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我帶著被背叛的憤怒和古榮對上眼神,他閃縮別過臉逃避。眼前的古榮陌生,難以想像他是曾經和我親近過,天天一起吃飯的好朋友。古榮主動邀請落單的我用餐、一起吃過許多頓豬油魯肉飯、在我和Kelvin意見不合之間調解。所謂的回憶只是一場自作多情的綺夢。41Please respect copyright.PENANA5Qllo1aHjT
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脆弱的友誼小船翻側,終於意識到一切好意屬於人情世故客套。就如葉瑞恩你的命運,無法擁有什麼,凡事何必太認真?我祈求自己胡塗,能夠偽裝懵然,一切如常。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9jCWRCbune
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現實是,由察覺真相的一刻開始,剩下的只有唏噓和哀悼——我們的關係回不去了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAah0d7Be5KH
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古榮逃離我眼神的畫面歷歷在目。41Please respect copyright.PENANAiTTdoHUj44
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永遠也回不去。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAU5URdVt7A
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是我天真、不夠城府。他日遇到友善的朋友,請記得建立一道厚厚的牆壁,不要再隨便交出真心信任。唯一慶幸的是我在年輕的時候上了人生寶貴的一課,在劣勢中找到一點自我安慰。41Please respect copyright.PENANAv54YRG8wfy
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我伏在桌子上,閉上眼睛,逃避世界所發生的事。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjG052G9fWX
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彷彿看不見,身邊就什麼事也沒有發生。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlakrskUAmS
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關掉視覺觀感,聽覺被放大加強。41Please respect copyright.PENANALhWnHudqFH
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「佢身材平過洗衫板,咁都好意思出嚟姣仔。」41Please respect copyright.PENANALFTKQVbkid
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「日日黑面死老豆咁嘅樣。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAFlEXLW3o24
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「佢個背囊係街市$50貨色,極Bad Taste。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAdIgMRk5Vns
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他們不瞭解我,也不打算去瞭解我。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvVVsq8j8DT
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這個故事教訓了我,如果你不勉強自己合群,就會落得如此下場。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjIqdtOtXWH
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人類就是如此寂寞的個體。41Please respect copyright.PENANAy9qyngppyz
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我沒有力量獨自面對一切。41Please respect copyright.PENANAg1pM3L48S0
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疲累、被背叛、憤怒、傷心、自信心低落,內心充斥著各種情緒。41Please respect copyright.PENANAnzjt6yMLRB
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我的心情糟糕透頂,無法承受更多。41Please respect copyright.PENANAX8eLCevPcd
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此刻我好希望身邊有人能分擔我的心事,無論是誰也好。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3v1eeplSmR
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我卻無法向任何人尋求協助。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuE4mqOCj2q
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好朋友離我而去。41Please respect copyright.PENANA2ItRJhiReC
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家人不會幫助我,生命唯一的價值是做爸爸的傭人。41Please respect copyright.PENANAu4Z6J7ecXx
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學校的訓導老師更是欺負我的元兇之一。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPF3b0XPXCJ
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別人家的小孩會受到這種對待嗎?41Please respect copyright.PENANAG3hyRm8ZNp
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當訓導張說打電話告訴父母,他們大概能夠洋洋得意地叫訓導打阿,誰怕誰。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWwxXNDgvCl
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搞不好人家的父母是律師、報館記者,可以把訓導張這教畜的職位拿掉。41Please respect copyright.PENANASvWKityExB
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而我只是宇宙一粒微塵,無法改變任何事情,被人隨意輾壓。41Please respect copyright.PENANAk2aXWMQwRq
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人生沒有希望。41Please respect copyright.PENANAHFgCTLC02e
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我用右手手指觸摸著左手的脈搏。41Please respect copyright.PENANADnczk4mFnW
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若我使用𠝹刀在手腕中割一下,鮮血會從傷口中溢出。41Please respect copyright.PENANAu5qJm7ACYt
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若我能感受到皮膚的疼痛,放鬆一點,使能享受傷口的快感。41Please respect copyright.PENANAZuRQAGEBly
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若我能熟習刀片擱在皮膚裡的感覺,再放膽地進入深一點、再深一點。41Please respect copyright.PENANAoCczbpUJad
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很快便能到天堂。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3AqpP5GAL2
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我的一生從來沒有作惡,總不會下地獄吧?41Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6sjXzeB0d
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當我幻想著把𠝹刀在手腕中一割,手腕竟真的感到有點痕癢。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtaF4i0mEEH
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沒法解釋原因,可是這個殘暴的念頭卻能讓我抒解了一點壓力。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvZS3kHOqMX
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我把𠝹刀放在校裙袋裡,讓它成為我安全感的來源。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVOMWQaE4RE
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若有一天有誰傷害我,我也有能力保護自己。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKDokGSJn46
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煎熬地等待分秒過去,下課的鐘聲終於響起。41Please respect copyright.PENANAu0rxlYiVNr
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我以九秒九的速度直奔學校大門。41Please respect copyright.PENANAt7wEIA6UBM
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逃離這個鬼地方。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9Hc3XSeo5A
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無論以何等形式。41Please respect copyright.PENANAu05J2RuRB2
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我終究會離開這個吃人的社會。41Please respect copyright.PENANAPbBGGGan7e
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