The canteen was a universe of steam and clatter, a symphony of sizzling woks and the percussive click of plastic trays. It was a place of pure function, a stark contrast to the yum cha halls with their lazy Susans and the karaoke boxes with their soundproofed illusions. Here, beneath the harsh fluorescent lights, life was stripped to its essentials: hunger, speed, and the modest balancing of a budget. Darcy and I found a small Formica-topped table in the corner, its surface still sticky from the last occupant’s spilled congee.
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Money was tight. A specific, gnawing kind of tightness that had become a third, uninvited companion since I’d started shouldering my own bills. We’d surveyed the bustling stalls with a critical eye, our silent calculation as tangible as the humidity clinging to the air.
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“Let’s just share one,” I’d finally suggested, pointing to a combo meal of white cut chicken with rice and greens. “It’s more than enough.”
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Darcy, who had once lectured my parents on the gold-ingot perfection of a shrimp dumpling, didn’t flinch at the suggestion. Instead, he seized it and reframed it with his peculiar brand of chivalry. “Good idea,” he said, nodding seriously. “My stomach feels very small today. And yours is probably the same. It’s a waste to order two.”
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I knew it was a lie, a graceful, face-saving lie. He was, in his own clumsy way, trying to spare me the embarrassment of my own financial strain. We paid for the single tray and carried it back to our table like a shared offering.
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The meal was a quiet, focused negotiation. He used his questionable chopstick skills to place the largest, most succulent piece of chicken on my portion of rice. I, in turn, divided the blanched gai lan with surgical precision, ensuring he got the stems he preferred while I took the leafy ends. We didn’t speak much. The act of sharing the single meal was conversation enough. It was a strange and intimate dance, this careful partitioning of a simple dinner, a silent agreement that my struggle was his to share, even if he had to disguise his solidarity as a matter of gastric capacity.
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As we ate, my mind drifted, as it so often did, to the empty space where Bensimon used to be. He would have hated the cacophony of this canteen. He would have found the fluorescent lights unforgiving and the functional food artistically bankrupt. He lived for the refined, the starved soul, the ‘wrong note’ in a Chopin piece that revealed a deeper truth. But Darcy, he lived for this. For the unvarnished, practical reality of a shared meal on a limited budget. He found a kind of art in the transaction itself, in the quiet conspiracy of two people making one portion work.
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We finished the last grains of rice. The gnawing hunger was gone, but a different kind of emptiness remained—the one Bensimon had left behind, a hollow that no amount of canteen food could ever fill. Darcy was watching me, his eyes soft with an understanding that needed no words. He saw the ghost at our table.
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“Wait here,” I said suddenly, the words out of my mouth before the thought had fully formed.
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I stood up and walked back to the roast meat counter, where the pork hung, glistening and golden-brown. The vendor looked at me, his face impassive.
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“Siu yuk,” I said. “Roast pork.”
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“One portion?” he asked, his hand already reaching for a styrofoam box.
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I looked at the glistening, crackling skin, the perfect layers of fat and lean meat. I thought of shared meals and hidden kindnesses. I thought of grief that felt like a flood, and the simple, steadfast presence of someone who brought you ointment for an itch you’d forgotten you had.
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“No,” I said, my voice firmer than it had been in weeks. “Not one portion.” I pointed to two of the finest, largest pieces. “Two. Very big pieces.”
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I paid and carried them back to the table on a small plastic plate. The rich, savoury aroma cut through the canteen’s generic smell of grease and steam. I placed the plate between us.
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Darcy looked at the monumental pieces of pork, then at me, a question in his eyes.
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I didn’t explain that it was an apology for every time I’d compared him to a ghost. I didn’t say it was a thank you for all the face-saving lies about small stomachs. I didn’t try to articulate that this was my way of fighting the flood, of building a small, sturdy dam with a piece of roast pork. He had shared my lack; now, I would share my small, sudden abundance.
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“One piece for each person?” he asked, a slow smile spreading across his face.
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I met his gaze and nodded, picking up my chopsticks. “Yes. Very big pieces.”
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