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課業繁重，人際不順，升上高校之後的日子過得並不能算得上好。但我向來是報喜不報憂的性子，因此即使是夏油傑，我也沒向他吐露半點不快。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49L8oGOeAf
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又是一日放學。我一出校門就看見夏油傑站在樹蔭底下，他自然地拿走我的包，一手牽起我，帶著我走往熟悉的方向。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdMMgAeTm3
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傑。我突然停下腳步，輕聲喊他。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeDfk35Clq
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他回頭看向我，「嗯？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWDwoYtxcv
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盯著夏油傑額上溢出的薄汗，我墊起腳尖用手帕替他擦拭。要不我以後自己走回家吧？我問。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg10qtmWypz
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「怎麼了？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMupH127jJM
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沒什麼，我搖搖頭，「太熱了，捨不得你等。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwZSF3H7iA
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暑夏已至，正是咒靈好發的時節，夏油傑的工作量肯定是只增不減。雖然我天天見他，很難察覺他具體的改變，但也不難看出最近的他正處於極度疲憊的狀態中。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBHdpEcwJ7h
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「還好。」他言簡意賅地回應我。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJXA53YdDb
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騙人，你話都變少了。我說，「連你的瀏海看起來都沒元氣了啦。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfgfZcNWki
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「……」夏油傑看向我的眼神逐漸不善。我連忙告饒討好，語帶撒嬌，「開玩笑的、開玩笑的──原諒我嘛──」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILtOd4Ollz
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經我這麼一插科打諢，氣氛總算有所緩和。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lIPhaelJz
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不過我真的很擔心你，我說。又是苦夏嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJcm5tbm47
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他說對。我對他的回答毫不意外，「那挑一天來我家吧？我們一起吃冰鎮西瓜怎麼樣？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIge3v4CYq
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夏油傑凝視我，他最後伸手輕撫我的髮絲，柔聲說好。我顯而易見地鬆了一口氣，近日的疲乏感似乎隨著他的動作一掃而空。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiq5KJ7y7h
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「除了冰鎮西瓜以外，還想吃什麼？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseWq7JwrRR
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「唔，綠豆湯吧。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYU9Wpmu2C
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「好呀，那蕎麥麵呢？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPVTjr6MHh
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「也要。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsew9awAYqZ
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圍繞在他身邊，我一路叨叨絮絮，像極一隻嘰嘰喳喳的鳥兒；而他背對夕色，看向我的眼神繾綣而溫軟。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVTSJhQJ7q
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我永遠不會忘記這一刻。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0IrueiUdA
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從那之後我開始自己上下學──花費整整一個月的時間，我才終於習慣「沒有夏油傑在身邊」這件事情。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUM3JMMqk1
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但還是難免想念。以前總覺得愛就是無時無刻的陪伴與關注，但在這三十個幾乎見不到他的晝夜裡，我卻突然有了新的看法。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuhffiOHwc
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我開始將注意力擺放在夏油傑以外的人身上。下課時和幾個不錯的同學說說話，一起去逛喜歡的店家，假日偶爾約出去吃飯；放學走在熟悉的小徑上，我察覺到一旁的樹叢終於開了小小的花，是我喜歡的顏色。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd604CbXhF5
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流動的風、落下的雨、搖晃的枝椏、落入耳裡的鈴鐺聲……我的世界變得多采多姿。不再是只有夏油傑，不再滿心滿眼都只有他。我知道我還是喜歡這個人，但我的生活卻因為與愛人的分離變得更美好──而我就會在這些美好的瞬間想起他。想跟他一起坐在虹龍上，看每一場東升西落；想跟他一起手牽著手，走過長長的街道。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsXyBub1Hc
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正因為聚少離多，所以才明白與他相處的每分每秒是多麼珍貴。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJ7IFzn6dR
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「分離使我意識到愛的本質。」我傳給他的簡訊上這樣寫著。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6TP8tRFhe
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愛是彌補彼此的缺陷，是兩個破碎靈魂的相擁。我眼看鏡子裡笑容日漸燦爛的自己，心想自己大概也擁有那種包容一切的力量了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8D6w94pWKN
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「愛的本質？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUPNEkERpD
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「是啊。」我回應他，「我覺得愛是寬容。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFK3Q10S3E
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放你飛翔，做你的歸巢。在你不在身邊的時候將自己活得出色，以最好的姿態迎接你。我想這是愛吧？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS63v1Mnowe
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「……你說的對。」半晌，他回應我。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDlZdB5nV7
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再見到夏油傑的時候已經是過年的事情。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGqHu70uji
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「新年快樂。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtz3vMEEc0O
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站在我家門口，他身影單薄，臉上的微笑仍然好看。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziMAPoVIoz
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很難肯定是不是錯覺，但是幾月不見的夏油傑，我的男友，我的愛人──他似乎變得很陌生。這個認知讓我有些無所適從。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uCxkZe76A
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我看著他，最後只能擠出一個微笑。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIK8XZ18rQb
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「新年快樂，傑。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyYqpUun7O
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──或許關係就是這樣破滅的。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWtKPty4bz
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夏油傑向來很寵我。這點無論是交往前還是交往後都是。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKG1Zr9CAhY
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以前只當是他對於鄰居妹妹的愛護之心而已，又或者是個性使然──畢竟他從小到大都是優等生，名氣響亮到街坊鄰居沒有人不知道他；說白點，「夏油傑」這三個字就是父母們拿來教育小孩的名詞。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg96o3GQxLP
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還記得那時才剛搬家不久，爸爸媽媽出差去了，於是家裡又只剩下我一個。這種事對我而言並不稀奇，反倒是夏油一家得知這件事情之後，便隔三差五地喊我去他們家吃飯。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjq3WvScspG
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我臉皮薄，不大好意思經常打擾他們一家，有時也會推托找些藉口婉拒夏油阿姨的好意。然而姓夏油的大抵都是貼心的性子，在察覺到我的難為情後，他們開始換各種方式明裡暗裡地照顧我。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jBq2QClqf
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而夏油傑就是那道讓我跟他們產生更多交集的橋樑。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bHM7oC68W
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我跟他差不了多少歲，每天一起上下學，夏油傑時常拎著父母特別叮囑要交給我的便當，然後笑眯咪地找各種說詞讓我收下──我覺得其實這對他來說大概算不上什麼難事，因為他很聰明。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxtrSCjsNo
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隨著時間遞進，我們更熟悉一些之後，我也未曾深思這個問題。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncPRxFNnXB
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我只知道他從最初我們認識的那時就對我很好。一直都對我很好。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPDRwW6EnF
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一推開家門就聞到濃濃的血腥氣。我拿著手機有些腳軟，腦袋空白了好幾秒之後只想到要打給夏油傑──轉念一想，他大概還在出任務也說不定，於是改成打報警電話。但就在我準備撥通的時候，夏油傑打過來了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqxyZPf1we
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我連忙接起，不敢大聲說話：「傑……」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZyWSRwxul
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電話那端傳來的聲音聽上去有些失真。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMUjTxG15B
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他對我說：不進來嗎？219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHEI9uBo3G
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室內傳來的聲響與他說話的聲音近乎同步。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5LLdH5KFn
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前方客廳的門被緩緩地、緩緩地推開。是夏油傑，他握著手機的那隻手還舉在耳邊。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoftJ6NWeI
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正在聽電話那頭傳來的，急促的呼吸聲。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUWNcnQAlo
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「……不進來也沒關係，反正你走不掉的。」他用一種令人毛骨悚然的溫柔語氣和話筒另一端的人說話。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOn8qR9Qdk
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惟有那雙棕色的晦暗視線，自始至終都停留在我身上，從未移開。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkrVUc1hXs
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就在此時此刻，我才突然驚覺，或許不僅僅只是如此。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJ7VQILZjo
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我好像從未了解過他。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCXUvULY7v
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我站在玄關處與他對視。側過臉的時候，還能看見一旁鏡子映照出自己蒼白的臉孔和閃爍的目光。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsT3laZb4u
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「是你嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXORnwsWap
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是我──他用一種跟平常無二致的語氣如此回應。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMI3j4dPgzI
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「……我能問問為什麼嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlTveXZLSl
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夏油傑笑了一下。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXiuHvRxHT
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「我為什麼要跟猴子解釋理由？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9qrHOL6fD
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──猴子。聽見這個尖銳而充滿冒犯的詞彙從他嘴裡出來的時候，我略感意外、又好像是意料之中地跟著笑了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxQ2SDvQtg
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我知道夏油傑的性子並不若表面上那樣可親，他實際上是個慣於用上對下角度去看待世界的人；物以類聚，他若不傲慢，怎能跟五條悟處得來。他唯一和五條悟最大的差別便是他懂得偽裝，而且還裝得有模有樣，沒有人不被他那副溫柔的模樣給騙去。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyOOdsCP6N
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我想我也被騙了。擅自以為在他心裡，自己的存在和別人是不一樣的；以為他說過「他總是會保護我」便是一輩子的事情。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nWR2b05kF
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我總是忘了那個「總是」，忘記自己不過是被選擇的那方，而他隨時可以將我踢出他的世界。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2KUOdA2AV
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都說同類相吸，而我們不是同類。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxO304ZBsyp
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但我早該知道的。他那樣的人。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyE4PmA6HG
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攔在身前的手臂強而有力，夏油傑曾經與我十指交扣過的右手此刻正覆在脖頸，原先順暢的呼吸隨著他加重的力道變得困難。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuxGfLhUQ6
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「你要求的。」他說，「明明可以不用這麼死得這麼痛苦。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEeBUtHjD0
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溢出的眼淚模糊視野。看不清倒映在鏡裡的畫面，也說不出隻字片語，連思考都費力，更枉論掙扎。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY7RncBwpo
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就這樣吧。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpIuaqNTVA
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