
八月十八日,天氣時晴時陰時雷雨427Please respect copyright.PENANADn0rQJwPPq
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爸爸跟媽媽之間果然還是不對勁。427Please respect copyright.PENANAHBnQB5tuen
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有時候覺得「家」這種東西隨著自己成長,是不是就像靜靜看著一罐牛奶在冰箱裡被遺忘、逐漸變質腐壞;然後最終丟棄的過程。427Please respect copyright.PENANAi4Z2xQopH3
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真的有能幸福一輩子的家嗎?427Please respect copyright.PENANAIMwbmbi8dr
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廚餘桶裡到今早已經沒有了昨天蔥蛋燒餅的影子,不知道爸爸做早餐時有沒有看見。但就算看見了……大概也只會繼續維持原樣吧。427Please respect copyright.PENANAs9x81s1O9T
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結婚……為什麼大人們會結婚呢?結婚又是為了什麼?之前同班的朋友上學期因為家裡父母離婚而被迫休學了,也不知道是因為搬家還什麼原因,總之就沒有機會再聯絡過。427Please respect copyright.PENANANR0HLqzE6p
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而就在放暑假前,從班導口中得知了朋友自殺的消息。據說是從住處公寓的頂樓跳了下去,當場死亡。427Please respect copyright.PENANAxVKe6fx2L5
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那時聽到我感覺很震驚,父母吵架跟他又沒有關係;不懂他為什麼要這樣想不開……可現在好像稍微能理解了。427Please respect copyright.PENANAq9pAyjWC1J
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只是有件事我依然不明白,為什麼明明屬於大人之間的爭吵……最後死的卻是小孩呢?427Please respect copyright.PENANAvSbjCcjzuQ
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爸爸有陪我去朋友的葬禮,在像鋼琴一樣只有黑白色的花朵與布料佈置中,我看見朋友父母依然沒有停止相互指責、埋怨。427Please respect copyright.PENANAjFpbKNrnvh
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該放置遺照的相框裡一片空白。聽說是朋友自殺前把自己所有、包括跟父母拍的所有照片通通都燒了,只留下一封寫著「對不起,我不該出生在這世上」的潦草遺書。427Please respect copyright.PENANAvKJRQ2hMgW
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我一直以為那句話離我和弟弟很遠、很遠。427Please respect copyright.PENANArOQLazQW8P
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簡單和秋英阿姨還有媽媽問過早之後,我依然選擇把早餐拿回房間和弟弟一起吃。雖然昨天對媽媽說了那些,可出乎意料的是她在爸爸去上班後也沒有對我說什麼。427Please respect copyright.PENANAdFXxl4towl
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爸爸說媽媽口中的托兒所是秋英阿姨朋友開的……那麼直接去問她或許最快能得到答案,但我不敢這麼做。因為每次只要細想她讓媽媽說這個謊的目的、媽媽還真的願意照做的理由……就感覺頭皮發麻。427Please respect copyright.PENANAREMnbaFBKn
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看著桌上已經維持關機狀態好幾天的手機,趁著弟弟坐在地上玩拚圖的空檔,我再次按下了開機鍵。427Please respect copyright.PENANAN3e76YIEGl
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畢竟繼續這樣逃避下去不是辦法……萬一真的出什麼事要聯絡爸爸也必須用到手機才行。427Please respect copyright.PENANAMU49ewkpvI
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才剛過待機畫面,攝影機錄像傳來的通知就開始接連跳出,數量比我想像中還要多,過了好會通知聲才慢慢停下,而最後一部傳來的時間是今天凌晨六點左右。427Please respect copyright.PENANAHL6ORPBbBk
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當下我沒想太多就開始一一看著那些影片打發時間,本來還下意識有些害怕地把手機放遠,結果一直看到傍晚爸爸回來也沒有發現任何不對的地方。427Please respect copyright.PENANATAYm5dQF6y
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要不是確定先前那幾段詭異的錄像仍儲存備份在資料夾中,我甚至都快懷疑自己是不是真的做了場近半個月的惡夢。427Please respect copyright.PENANA0wOK9imXdW
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晚上爸爸到家,廚房沒多久便傳出熟悉的海鮮煎餅還有炸雞香味,我隔著門板一邊戴著耳機、一邊聽外頭三人隨口聊著他們大學時候的事情,聽說爸爸最初跟媽媽是透過系上聯誼認識的,後來媽媽才又間接認識秋英阿姨,雖然各自不同科系但感情一直很不錯。427Please respect copyright.PENANA0L7dOFOWBP
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這是小時候阿姨跟我聊天時提到的。她有時候還會給我看他們那時候的照片,有的甚至還有拍到奶奶。427Please respect copyright.PENANAPMJ8wdhH8h
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等錄像差不多都播放結束後我才將手機關起放回平常塞日記本的小抽屜裡,剛好也聽見爸爸叫我跟弟弟出去吃飯的喊聲,接著度過了頭一個五個人一起好好吃飯、沒有發生任何奇怪事情的晚餐時光。427Please respect copyright.PENANABbjzYKYJ7s
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不過……為什麼攝影機會有電?