An Elucidation Diegesis - Could Never Understand

In bold, I write it all out.

All along I feel doubt.

Every night I sit here, I cried,

Looking back on all the times I tried.

None of you can imagine my pain,

It repeats again and again!

I hurt myself without hesitation,

I actually have all the information!

NONE OF YOU WOULD EVEN UNDERSTAND

None of you could fucking comprehend.

You lecture me and tell me “how it is”

That isn’t the theme I willingly miss!

You want people who aren’t ill,

And it doesn’t matter who you have to kill.

If things were just as easy as you cut it out to be,

Then it would’ve fucking HELPED me.

I counter my pain with even more,

To the point my body is sore.

I can only take so much fucking shit,

Before I hit the bottom of this pit.

None of you can understand this,

You are blind to what is amiss.

It makes me so angry that I want to get rid of you,

Your payment is finally due.

Mess with me and I will return the game,

Don’t even try to shift the blame!

Paint me as the goddamn bad guy,

It’s time to say bye.

None of you want to understand my view,

That’s why I withdrew.

I left in the end,

Because I hate when all of you play pretend.

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