I'm a horrible person.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZI14Z0CqlB
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQacQ3CdW0
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVViLxQYD0G
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaL4F0OaKo
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZH5WIP5L2
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6W1nupaEx
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbabycUioK7
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DdFGavtdu
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKod1Nob3kb
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE9lFNmvfs
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnDnXSpIzK
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsBoqsKTF1
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRk7CLFjLY
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbUxs9W2wc
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY4gENgacC
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOEPOXK2jE
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NwWmwhoCr
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEawEdDi6aU
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqopNFqaAs
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztaybzITXY
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTLIWGttRp
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlXTuVyy4h
Of being lonely.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6iFk7VM2M
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzCAUsY541
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So I take comfort in my own world.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0JBATaP6p
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yCevfdboA
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOZ0yFre3E
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyvTwdRyCK
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpK0osQQox
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NQYSgnRhZ
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirQPuiFvVb
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprHqTpTicq
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlhEADqULv
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMb8tBQToyR
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIwTBwetpf
I shouldn't even have been born.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHvHCkD0h1
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.165Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYORFLX9Nuu
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