I'm a horrible person.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y947Ira8M
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBAaphwmEG
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlctb5SeUPd
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhvBidFPwR
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkE9StfDSTO
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmKg8sShMS
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6yIKJl6eX
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5sLRIC5fr
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobaSdyj4VA
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAiITBkjHw
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntnmKPgaP6
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeRAPoclZH
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBVQbnytlS
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKCa6yVA92
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN3rIZ25os
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgkRugvRfI
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjUHZFeUYK
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZOnlIh2Zt
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjrcHSuLliy
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YsD7vyKN4
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfn4B524R4
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxeSbe2YYJ
Of being lonely.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXjJL8F7qP
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtt22WfKcX
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So I take comfort in my own world.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpShUlg5qCj
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgEysBXL6K
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeixVMesDjQ
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOsBM8qcNip
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sbNEzDacg
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuPnrVlK1x
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡda9g8CbpGW
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9dzb8UqHu
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BiIlOEut5
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLPevlYIg2
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPbMiMYivy
I shouldn't even have been born.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrct6vzKKnR
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.485Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEddElrtQrY
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