I'm a horrible person.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0kxicRjGv
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRDMFkTehF
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uFFE7qEpo
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qmJOnZlMP
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgPZ3kfmk3
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGotaH87z8
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxbIIofLbok
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4TBnmCcNK
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEeb9Wbwf9
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsC3tHECxmq
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7j0KWmrph
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIIh7NJCFx
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sETgtjpbV
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEfkio2VoZ
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRRGMg2bu8
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3lw3uXN8A
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKwNYIFYrU
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16IlwC7ju0
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZtmWbb3wv
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjacPLuX2gJ
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1bd3PZqOg
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt79cjXM4rD
Of being lonely.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTw9Y9upNl
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGW3dvFD9nL
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So I take comfort in my own world.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84O8Gp6jKz
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjenZwgzrGV
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCaTK7k5c1
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPI9L6avt2
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3t7Pu0Y5a
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7QQK9HpnN
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkn7RwWjFnG
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYawGIL1Wlt
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGIb5uD6mp
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7n4YPDBxx
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDCNF6achp
I shouldn't even have been born.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWHJBxiFmj
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHqDatb37O
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