I'm a horrible person.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0mcLZGuqM
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zrRnFFmeH
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6jd3O1fZi
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPiEer98K8
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPz7VsQd5W
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB77Zgh2YOM
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8s3sedamE
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFfZlee1Tl
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDNE6KOHMO
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCSEGzhyEkX
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFD225cXrd
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1A6oFq8W4s
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNx7eC6nkkp
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfNyc0bkoe
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwBxXHnajv
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOOzLxZmWy
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7YbQ8XZZW
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBR8S0LboN
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWQZ6qrUfV
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqeUajWSEh
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaErX7K8HJ
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyUjcu0uDh
Of being lonely.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV52SulkU4S
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH1FnJog7K
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So I take comfort in my own world.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdHZ6EcLxw
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3cLbpd44f
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg14PKVaXGE
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawXtDVQgWK
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGph4FYGkd
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3cqDERjRV
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgmxA0xNsZ
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0VNi3yF7r
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡti0t6QK7n2
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCValf1mHrF
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytjMzpMEVJ
I shouldn't even have been born.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5npzBHQIXD
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.484Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6FCzu1u7Y
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