I'm a horrible person.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYBnYdxxR2
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlsUH974wU
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE84eWupmb
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr7wf61JR5a
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS4OHeW9sE
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAZjmJT7jq
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLQLEt6Eb7
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs544wGREY0
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbdhvoT14K
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMlgqsDKvc
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPmBLLzkmO
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwOUakh1dK
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBbjzh3KIW
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTr9Um9tc44
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60slkvZsYM
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUedslGQYe
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiDqDJblOK
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobCoOGQQUr
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhijoTwnM8E
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncwU6mxQtK
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6r1z3tWrn
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRGYRIRaG3
Of being lonely.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyqhoXrtEx
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtp9rXyoci
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So I take comfort in my own world.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqg1WSykCj
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSiB63awae
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSDG4zyHKY
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzlZ01JL36
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdNhGYR5KH
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrPhRJj3A4
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliPdvRnzVq
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzFI6NeiPm
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1ayuCsPkU
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMX4zQTQUZQ
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7cshbVOhs
I shouldn't even have been born.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPBnIvBHVS
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.526Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqqgQ3ih1f
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