I'm a horrible person.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo6rBX2yKdf
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwwki44Ovb
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfbydIREJq
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJHfjdJNRi
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgcXkThDfa
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VSPcO2Er2
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDWvYwoDR9
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkX9O1abWPX
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyfLxVCrte
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMfKzL6A40
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWps8LkUS0p
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAkB2V3YHz
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJAo8phEdo
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgjrHQAp0B
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTihK0Q4R7Z
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cwS3uNImS
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53GJmyvyD5
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JWQiaMCdn
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZeJ5VOSUo
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7Lw9ORGRb
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApLhypGrIy
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGhYA51n4E
Of being lonely.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CY4jfKJ4B
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNEBUFABQa
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So I take comfort in my own world.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yosbLIWWf
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe15wVmNFr0
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtfGAZnKBx
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgOaLqjjUG
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoVXYovbbb
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡav8NQTPme4
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlT4Yb8Zx4
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zUfwLw7VR
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGWJIiBCrD
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnf5D5xTzI
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdbjQN3v0s
I shouldn't even have been born.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDVXeD5Eh9
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.523Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDJca9y05H
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