I'm a horrible person.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3ttpx9Gkj
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31fCokJdWF
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGaQRe0UdX
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCM66cphAv4
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgQAvQPUhr
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8dXVHVH6Gh
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Db5OLKH2w
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgckw29FB5
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NjsTXNkBq
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdse1rmbADx
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowP1ceGIhi
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRInOMZANcS
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIU3RdSiZy
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUj0YOW2NZR
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0843ZPpWL
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUS6XD5vNZ
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS6Ap4k1SJ
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVkWKDC4Yy
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLMImzBhWS
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWNKGApB1i
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmnvOJuslx
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyrq9TuOZz
Of being lonely.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxYyiZ0S4O
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjLxNZf9bQ
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So I take comfort in my own world.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQiiRP4HjY
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOULDgLxZx
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqz9paSYHF
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQasiW8ECr3
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkW1Khfc7Tc
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnNK5tVjzx
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ454zaxiqwb
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB29FyoEY0v
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEGAdfRWQub
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIFYrOiqSi
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dZTT3PTAZ
I shouldn't even have been born.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1qQXn6w2B
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxODX7BhKYD
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