I'm a horrible person.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQYgsweESA
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrYqtdfZX8
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCwwSdGxps
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDclNXRirZp
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlIkOfmhoM
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyOjoEN277
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzF8FVQ3EJ
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJfwE9u9xZ
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WJEwKHMJy
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijqckXtBGS
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡup5hBJyknV
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplEDD45g68
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TI4FlgFvG
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yHnmCogGZ
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6ovKm8LA9
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpLdhgOtA8Q
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X0Sww6yL0
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9TIV9aJqD
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkdCPpbEON
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouRCuk4DJp
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidiItuZAV0
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrGyNKof5D
Of being lonely.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnv7i7AsG1u
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCE6DxcnNy
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So I take comfort in my own world.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gXlFrexPR
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuudDx9Xym
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVmupCPfDQ
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmUCRcXYAI
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3LvxZr1752
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOXzmZZH40
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIGkX2R1Xw
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvW4zgPM84Y
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAD1pmtIdDr
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0SdJ0c4bn9
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwLuzKv0VL
I shouldn't even have been born.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdsRUvPhPp
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.449Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLAwt9JlLT
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