I'm a horrible person.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OmpUAmPAu
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp210FwDZa0
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdG1qMLt8a
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaw5awmdHze
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0u52UoUTzO
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoWbD1uO8j
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXgoDVenCF
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVQi223pPx
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7muXRHQzhP
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnWZ1xT7a2
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsxsZsofMM
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPU6J77Jry8
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmzOnQVifC
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQCeRt6Uoq
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi2Y222s0n
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDM0vexfbF
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IxKIAXnqh
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xe01Ek8Vn
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIc2DZ1K52
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyPf3NOTqm
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcgJpyfmhv
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡes7qo0JMSe
Of being lonely.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzUQEW7RfZ
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTScGCcRYA
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So I take comfort in my own world.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFbcPDta9u
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnfbp713Hg
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAryJGBEXRY
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8myKmfLQ2z
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEpLJyCDfg
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzd7TfoeUhb
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaiXO6uGYJ
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hgGgmensn
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mj31QsjcR
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFS4839uHX
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsddgZdVpkr
I shouldn't even have been born.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFatXOeLTUQ
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.478Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlvBhjP0Tn
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