營地裡,狩獵隊的眾人圍著篝火,吃烤肉,跳舞,分享狩獵成功的喜悅。76Please respect copyright.PENANAqpdGSGAua7
六隻野豬,他們烤了裡面最小的一隻。76Please respect copyright.PENANAZBd7gVf8gY
另五隻野豬放血,屠宰,先簡單煙熏,暫時保存,等回村子後再進一步做成肉乾。76Please respect copyright.PENANABn2FPPne3u
這次狩獵,功勞最大的就屬負責判斷時機,發出信號的蕭鐵,以及準頭超好的莫林。76Please respect copyright.PENANAvf88SjJJBP
但蕭鐵最後出了個小糗,楊叔也一直以此敲打他,消磨他的傲氣。76Please respect copyright.PENANAlnElSYqQmu
所以,莫林成了眾人的焦點。76Please respect copyright.PENANAWXHNJFdp6F
他吃到了烤豬裡最好吃、最營養的部分。76Please respect copyright.PENANAegey6Fvalc
楊叔還特意交代,另五隻豬裡有一隻歸莫家所有,讓莫林和他老爹這次冬天不用出門,可以天天吃肉。76Please respect copyright.PENANAYixtXBKmfE
狂歡慶祝之後,眾人沉沉睡下。76Please respect copyright.PENANACTB1lminvu
唯有莫林,臉上的歡笑褪去,輾轉反側,還在思索。76Please respect copyright.PENANAz2gUQQMy3o
“我殘忍嗎……”76Please respect copyright.PENANAspaQosLNE8
狩獵,哪有不傷害生命的,不殺獵物,那還叫什麼狩獵!76Please respect copyright.PENANAHgM4uxheAm
他想了很多。76Please respect copyright.PENANAHFkkTCARuD
像是先前和王卓的戰鬥,他那時候拼命地逃,拼命地尋找生機,根本沒有多餘的思考時間,很多決策都是臨場決定的。76Please respect copyright.PENANAIHffLZAyvm
但現在回想,他毫不遲疑地劃開王卓的脖子,不是挺殘忍的嗎……76Please respect copyright.PENANAXrVL6vv8i2
“我不殺他,他就要殺我,我能怎麼辦……”76Please respect copyright.PENANAHlGNpRUrk8
莫林自我說服一句。76Please respect copyright.PENANAOibDYQbgnW
但才剛說完,腦中又有想法。76Please respect copyright.PENANATX8oD8yQSy
他動手的時候,如此決絕,絲毫沒有憐憫,彷彿殺人是多麼平常的事一樣。76Please respect copyright.PENANA9Tka4lrrDB
如此輕易地殺人,算正常嗎……76Please respect copyright.PENANASfjJ1nnfbj
難道,是因為穿越成了淚妖,影響了他的心智……76Please respect copyright.PENANA1gyQfIj3xL
難不成,他身體裡留下了妖物喜歡吃人的本能……76Please respect copyright.PENANAkscMEMuYGM
他翻了個身,朝向篝火架,上面的烤豬隻剩下一個腦袋,眼珠子睜著,死不瞑目。76Please respect copyright.PENANAzXmAmWGwGw
“大自然就是如此,狼吃羊,也沒見有人責怪狼太殘忍啊……”76Please respect copyright.PENANAg7oxVBoPZC
大陸在早期就是一片蠻荒,環境如此殘酷,先祖們把所有能動的不能動的都吃進肚子裡,才艱難活了下來。76Please respect copyright.PENANApYHqRGUl24
“正是因為殘忍,才能生存。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAfF24vlEmQF
他又說服自己一句。76Please respect copyright.PENANA4pIycJLJ7h
“呼……”76Please respect copyright.PENANA5iDCoAkjv6
莫林躺到了大半夜,還是睡不著,起身出了帳篷,在營地周圍散步。76Please respect copyright.PENANAKupiSUn1Cp
走到了主幹道,這時,他發現前來朝拜仙樹的人群裡,有個熟悉的身影。76Please respect copyright.PENANAZaS7bDopjF
是楊大媽!76Please respect copyright.PENANAPHT7DBwRG9
她牽著母山羊,在朝拜隊伍的保護下,從村子那邊過來了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAQBYj5SeZRs
“阿姨!”莫林上前打招呼,看了看母山羊問道,“山羊賣不出去嗎?”76Please respect copyright.PENANA9fPn3CQmtK
楊大媽笑了笑說:“不是,我本來就沒打算賣,我是特意帶來放生的。”76Please respect copyright.PENANApobrLPX3N1
兩人一羊,隨著人群一同爬上山丘,往仙樹靠近。76Please respect copyright.PENANAj7sfZtOkrW
楊大媽這頭母山羊,是十三、四年前她在草原上抓到的,那時候山羊隻有小小一隻,抱在懷裡就帶回無花村了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAVacNncs10k
後來一直養在院子裡,陸續生了不少小羊羔,提供了不少羊奶。76Please respect copyright.PENANAsnpLzcKtod
就連莫林,剛來無花村的那時候,也喝過這隻母山羊的羊奶。76Please respect copyright.PENANAajAuHIYpvH
“我養了它十幾年,有感情了,打算讓它回歸羊群,享受最後幾年的草原生活。”76Please respect copyright.PENANA42fdB0Touq
楊大媽撫摸著羊頭,解釋道。76Please respect copyright.PENANAF5oqxAwQLF
母山羊已經很老了,如果隨意丟到野外,大概活不了幾天。76Please respect copyright.PENANACqPWogpxnm
只有找到大草原上的羊群,試著讓羊群接納它,依靠羊群的幫助,才能安穩舒適地活下來。76Please respect copyright.PENANArnQLyErm9c
莫林看了眼這只曾經用奶水養育過他的母山羊,心中五味雜陳,問道:“這不是很奇怪嗎?你把它抓走,囚禁十幾年,現在才說放生,這也太……多餘了。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAfGLeGcTWhE
他原本想說太虛偽了,但話到嘴邊覺得無禮,改了口。76Please respect copyright.PENANA9n4qObuaDA
“你覺得不應該放生?”楊大媽沒有表現出生氣,而是反問一句。76Please respect copyright.PENANAqaxNPoPTng
“我……”76Please respect copyright.PENANAPEVWhYqmlq
莫林其實也對母山羊有些感情,因為喝過它的奶水。76Please respect copyright.PENANArwf2Kt3HaJ
但他想起剛剛在帳篷裡,才說服自己“殘忍是必要的”,現在又表現出假惺惺的憐憫。76Please respect copyright.PENANA4RCRnWPf9e
這樣的兩面三刀,讓他覺得不自在。76Please respect copyright.PENANAZTrUKIOV4B
他咬咬牙,說出了違心的話:“我覺得大費周章找羊群收留它,實在沒必要,這只是自欺欺人。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAegadkBkklk
楊大媽沉默片刻,突然說道:“這樣吧,我把它的去路交給你,要放生,還是帶回營地,做成烤羊肉,你來決定。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAx2dQm14ucb
“什麼?”莫林聽到烤羊肉,反應激烈。76Please respect copyright.PENANAVd3beRoC4o
“隨意丟了的話,它也活不了,不如帶回去烤了,至少能吃一頓飽的。”楊大媽笑盈盈看向他。76Please respect copyright.PENANAxChcxqWdQU
莫林沉默下來。76Please respect copyright.PENANAmlBnfnPymt
一旁山羊似乎聽懂了對話,轉頭蹭了蹭他的手。76Please respect copyright.PENANAHjlwLbW6M9
莫林思緒非常混亂,眉毛高高皺起,想了好久,都沒法做出決定。76Please respect copyright.PENANA0qOgrUiMa4
楊大媽看他苦惱的樣子,噗呲一笑,摸了摸他的頭,說道:“小莫林,你為什麼要口是心非?是在害怕別人的眼光嗎?”76Please respect copyright.PENANALa0Qg5aGfv
“我……害怕別人的眼光?”76Please respect copyright.PENANATIDME5IqJh
“你才幾歲,不用想這麼多,問問自己內心的想法,老實說出來就是了。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAZTFkN6i6nr
“我……”76Please respect copyright.PENANAVjLJYoA6Z5
莫林聽著,臉上表情漸漸舒展。76Please respect copyright.PENANAGPo1w696MV
彷彿一道迷霧中亮起火把,他看清楚了。76Please respect copyright.PENANAhyEfpAZFZg
“我在害怕別人的眼光。”76Please respect copyright.PENANA5l8sY5qX9n
他低聲說著,明白了自己的煩惱。76Please respect copyright.PENANAOvngfLRL6d
殺了野豬,別人會說他冷血,放生山羊,別人會說他聖母。76Please respect copyright.PENANAGWKC1c9sQf
他害怕自己的言行被人貼上標籤,然後他就不得不按照這個標籤所說的生活下去。76Please respect copyright.PENANADcrvwVOh7Y
這份恐懼如此隱秘,藏在心底,讓他畏手畏腳,小心翼翼,生怕被旁人抓到把柄,跳出來對他指指點點。76Please respect copyright.PENANAs39aMjztLW
恍惚間,他想起了白天時楊叔所說的話。76Please respect copyright.PENANAOUZ9c3mCnN
“為何而殺,為何不殺。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAUPwLoHmUfl
“這是獵人的宿命,這個問題會糾纏你一生,不要逃避,不要害怕看清真實的自己。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAqw0gr0Pb9g
“沒有對錯,沒有好壞,每個獵人都有自己的答案,甚至同個獵人,在不同的人生階段,面對不同的境況,答案都會改變,沒人有資格說你是對是錯。”76Please respect copyright.PENANAlKKqoHMigP
一瞬間,他覺得自己好蠢,都在煩惱些什麼愚蠢問題。76Please respect copyright.PENANADrAPZ9iPNu
他的初衷是修仙,而修仙講究的是什麼?76Please respect copyright.PENANAVkP7GYvuax
是逍遙!76Please respect copyright.PENANA6dXMxp2ia9
什麼是逍遙?76Please respect copyright.PENANA9v8bPxBbsS
按內心所想行事,問心無愧,就是逍遙!76Please respect copyright.PENANAJDpGdJcKii
不做違心的事,無需顧忌他人的眼光,管別人說他冷血或聖母,這都是他媽的道德綁架!76Please respect copyright.PENANAWaKjIj6XsU
他回想白天時的場景。76Please respect copyright.PENANAwgFS1pZ0IL
狩獵野豬,逼入陷阱,結束它們的生命,吃下野豬肉……76Please respect copyright.PENANAyYBDgyGTQW
這是他的選擇,為了訓練狩獵技巧,為了獲得大人們的肯定,為了吃到好吃的烤豬肉。76Please respect copyright.PENANAv9TFsc4Key
為此,他願意承擔奪走野豬生命的這份重量。76Please respect copyright.PENANAlI5H2T8riH
一想明白,念頭通達,豁然開朗。76Please respect copyright.PENANA8zWH5p0gdk
兩人這時快走到山丘上,周圍都是來朝拜,或是等待參觀仙樹落果的人。76Please respect copyright.PENANA0DXosWWz95
他們牽著母山羊來到麻繩圍欄前。76Please respect copyright.PENANAy7sqXdnX1T
楊大媽又問:“怎麼樣,想好了嗎,要放生,還是吃烤羊肉?”76Please respect copyright.PENANAWu0U4A3ee5
莫林把手放在胸口,捫心自問,答案呼之欲出:“不吃烤羊肉,我想放生。”76Please respect copyright.PENANADcaYXyQJn4
為何而殺,為何不殺,只要聽從內心,就會有答案。76Please respect copyright.PENANAe6QPT8ClJx
“真的不吃?這麼浪費?”楊大媽第二次確認。76Please respect copyright.PENANAUIMNW0O5nn
“不吃,我飽了,不……就算還餓著,如果不是快餓死了,我也不吃。我想讓它回到羊群裡,享受草原生活,多少能報答它給我餵過奶的恩情。”76Please respect copyright.PENANACN92om66eW
莫林說出了真心話。76Please respect copyright.PENANAOcXRn5PIuB
是的,他白天剛奪走兩隻野豬的生命,現在他想放生一隻山羊。76Please respect copyright.PENANApdC4YwAGYz
這很雙標,但又如何。76Please respect copyright.PENANABWbMCimoe9
一視同仁的事交給孔子,兼愛世人的事交給墨子,他只需按心中所想行事,他是修士,逍遙自在的修士!76Please respect copyright.PENANAVhPscSrntX
修士,就當隨心所欲!76Please respect copyright.PENANARxLxanA5fV
話一出口,莫林全身一輕,心情大好。76Please respect copyright.PENANAoWr2nuNJvO
楊大媽也笑了,兩人一邊等待,一邊欣賞仙樹的風貌。76Please respect copyright.PENANAwn2vUxaQnp
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