No Plagiarism!msaFqZusAFH9ZdNF0Yd7posted on PENANA 『3月X日 星期四 天氣晴(突然降溫了,有點涼)8964 copyright protection78PENANAn27jhSrerU 維尼
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祈願:8964 copyright protection78PENANAIdBGkl3gUi 維尼
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今天我又記憶斷片了……8964 copyright protection78PENANAQTOaaaC6wb 維尼
上次這樣是多久以前的事了?8964 copyright protection78PENANA532ktuWYYz 維尼
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那時候我人還在工作中,發生了一些事然後我就不記得了,不過這次時間很短,等我醒過來就發現我們店長已經把事情處理好了。8964 copyright protection78PENANA2Q3e6H3v3a 維尼
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以往發生的時候你都在我身邊,這是第一次你不在,我才知道……原來我是可以不需要你的……8964 copyright protection78PENANAbS3WslUlbJ 維尼
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我才知道……』8964 copyright protection78PENANAdHZiuC91hE 維尼
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淡安然寫字的手顫抖著,字體歪斜不清,但無所謂,因為這是寫給自己看的。8964 copyright protection78PENANAgBWNnEIYpL 維尼
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寫日記的習慣是他從小就開始了,所有生活大小事、當時的心情、想法都會紀錄下來,他是個喜歡回想、貪戀回憶的人。8964 copyright protection78PENANAGS7FwKby3w 維尼
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但從什麼時候開始,他的日記變成了就像專屬寫給祈願的書信呢?8964 copyright protection78PENANA7kgj1eG3kq 維尼
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淡安然翻動著書頁,每一天每一頁的內容都像在告訴祈願自己的一切。8964 copyright protection78PENANAhrAYiHd1aP 維尼
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真煩人啊……原來自己廢話那麼多。8964 copyright protection78PENANA9ZywFlIcut 維尼
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熟悉的手機鈴聲突然響起,淡安然瞬間繃緊了神經,頭部像被牢牢束縛住讓他開始漲痛,他雙手按住了太陽穴,待稍稍忍過疼痛後才接起電話。8964 copyright protection78PENANA9GplXa07gq 維尼
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「淡安然,祈願明天就回去了吧?想好怎麼面對他了嗎?」對方聲音有點回音,但聽得出來四周非常安靜。8964 copyright protection78PENANAcUR0cY5025 維尼
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「……」淡安然沒有回應。8964 copyright protection78PENANA5EpmoVn579 維尼
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像是對峙一般,對方也沒說話,這種感覺讓淡安然頭皮發麻,脖子上還起了大大小小的雞皮疙瘩。8964 copyright protection78PENANAixrBWonjGx 維尼
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對方輕輕嘆了一聲就掛了。8964 copyright protection78PENANAJ2FcA1geIE 維尼
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淡安然將手機關機,明天他排休,他什麼事都不想做也不想去想,現在只想好好睡一覺。8964 copyright protection78PENANAFaDRvtO5VO 維尼
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「……」祈願被揮開的手還舉在半空中,他一臉錯愕,「你剛說什麼?」8964 copyright protection78PENANAuu1A6jlKkP 維尼
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我直視著他的目光,儘管我看不清他的面孔,儘管我已淚流滿面哭得抽搐發抖,我依然一字一句清晰的說出口:「我說……我們分手……」8964 copyright protection78PENANAXNDvxQETSN 維尼
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他就這麼靜靜看著我不說話。8964 copyright protection78PENANAR5sT2UVgEt 維尼
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時間一直流逝,四周一片靜謐,我感覺空氣似乎凝結讓我喘不過氣,他起身走了出去,再進來時手上端了杯溫水。8964 copyright protection78PENANASC1QcNiqjM 維尼
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他將水遞到我嘴邊,「你先喝點水。」8964 copyright protection78PENANARGmRJTHwI2 維尼
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沒有接過杯子我直接就著水杯喝水,等喝下後才發現自己又習慣性的接受他的寵溺。8964 copyright protection78PENANA2IGvD8Esmu 維尼
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我搖了搖頭示意不想喝了。8964 copyright protection78PENANAuVchMjaUov 維尼
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放下水杯他伸手摸了摸我的頭,「然然,我不會跟你分手的,你是知道的對吧?」8964 copyright protection78PENANAjb2jYriQq9 維尼
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我低下頭不說話,任由他細長的手指輕柔揉捏著我的後頸。8964 copyright protection78PENANAkTNieGAdp3 維尼
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明明剛醒來卻又開始感到疲倦,他的手像是有魔力般,我停止了哭泣,眼皮也開始變得沈重,他把我放倒在床上輕輕撫著我的臉頰,他似乎在說什麼,我卻一句都聽不清楚。8964 copyright protection78PENANANg52PqouF1 維尼
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沈睡前的記憶只有他將手覆在我雙眼上,在我額頭上落下一吻,還有那句:「睡吧……我的然然……」8964 copyright protection78PENANAKIWSwYWavp 維尼
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晚上九點,趙榮海陪著老婆哄完樂樂入睡後便獨自走進書房。8964 copyright protection78PENANAWe5ceBAnmJ 維尼
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趙榮海打開電燈後關上門,他站在門前望了一圈房內,他其實很少進這間書房,畢竟裡面的藏書與專業書本他已經不會再去翻閱。8964 copyright protection78PENANAr5slCTWQUj 維尼
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嚴格來說,是書中的知識他不太會也不太願意應用在生活上。8964 copyright protection78PENANAF3gS5QWvSW 維尼
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但知識是累積的,曾經花了幾年透過文字、言語與經驗得到的資訊已深深刻印在自己的腦海裡,雖然隨著時間淡忘,但也隨著經歷將這些習得的知識帶入到生活中。8964 copyright protection78PENANAoGgOMSK0xb 維尼
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這種「學以致用」真他媽該死!趙榮海抓了抓頭露出苦笑。8964 copyright protection78PENANABxbm1iWCFm 維尼
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他呼了口氣緩步往前走去,幾乎沒有停頓選擇便直接從一整面滿是藏書的書架上取下幾本書。8964 copyright protection78PENANAbNa6JF3CLe 維尼
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他坐在了書桌前打開檯燈,幾本書攤在了桌面上,看了看書封上的書名,趙榮海閉上眼像是回想著什麼,睜開眼他開始翻閱內容。8964 copyright protection78PENANAKP55VF62Qv 維尼
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隨著書本的翻動瀏覽,趙榮海的眉頭逐漸深鎖,直到他蓋上了最後一本書。8964 copyright protection78PENANA6WPyrDVZ2j 維尼
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趙榮海放鬆自己癱坐在椅子上閉著眼像是休憩,手指卻在桌面上規律的輕點著,這次他不再猶豫拿出手機撥出了電話。8964 copyright protection78PENANAMd00erw4H6 維尼
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「您的電話將轉接到語音信箱……」8964 copyright protection78PENANA5mJJuWcGmf 維尼
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哦?竟然沒接電話?趙榮海挑眉帶著一抹意味深長的嗤笑,他非常意外。8964 copyright protection78PENANA5jx1DjyjaR 維尼
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趙榮海也不急,他沒有再次撥出電話而是設置了計時器放空自己靜靜等待;在舒適的環境下等待,至少可以抵銷掉內心那些因為不確定的等待所帶來的不適。8964 copyright protection78PENANAERenpBzHDe 維尼
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他為自己設置了一個等待線,他堅信這個等待會帶給他一個非常滿意的回饋。8964 copyright protection78PENANAmKxU1YX4f7 維尼
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電話鈴聲響起,趙榮海沒有直接接起,不讓對方覺得你有迫切需要找他的理由,雖然對祈願來說這種作法沒什麼用,但時間點很重要。8964 copyright protection78PENANAiySrtE2VFK 維尼
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「哥……怎麼給我打電話了?安然有事?」祈願微微喘著氣,聽得出來是抽空才回撥的電話。8964 copyright protection78PENANAGU2KCTFYRO 維尼
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「五分二十三秒,希望你給我的回饋價值至少等值,小祈。」8964 copyright protection78PENANA5PYdcVJXLf 維尼
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趙榮海嘴角揚起,當你的懷疑得到應驗並且肯定,那種感覺真的是難以言喻的滿足。8964 copyright protection78PENANAkYh7aciDMr 維尼
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「……」祈願順了順呼吸沒有回應。8964 copyright protection78PENANAqEvwAuxdSR 維尼
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跟祈願說話很輕鬆卻也很累人,要先「重置腦容量」才能進行對話。8964 copyright protection78PENANAFgj0v500xK 維尼
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趙榮海聽到祈願低低的笑了。8964 copyright protection78PENANAKsNMNyjmuP 維尼
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「現在那裡時間晚上九點三十七分,你剛哄完樂樂睡覺,周圍非常安靜……所以你在書房,你處於一個舒適放鬆的環境,五分二十三秒的等待不足以讓你感到焦慮,我想……這個回饋會超過你的等待線。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAyNeEpQ6scZ 維尼
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「相對的……你該給予我等值的反饋。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAvchEZRYR4j 維尼
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看吧!真該死的學以致用。8964 copyright protection78PENANAHazO285fyM 維尼
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「哈哈哈——」趙榮海回以笑聲。8964 copyright protection78PENANA3EN0tnuOTf 維尼
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「祈願——車來了,快點。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAV1uOMhzklI 維尼
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趙榮海正準備開口時卻被一陣女聲打斷。8964 copyright protection78PENANA9zKlhBTBT0 維尼
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「哥……我先回飯店,晚點……」祈願突然止了聲,接下來彼此該做什麼事都心知肚明。8964 copyright protection78PENANAnxq7cnNh11 維尼
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趙榮海撥電話挑的時間其實非常準確且完美,只是今天祈願剛好有不得不參加的餐敘。8964 copyright protection78PENANAAaPx76Dgde 維尼
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被突然打斷讓趙榮海有些不悅,但他並未表現出來,「行吧!不過的確是有關你家小可愛的事,既然你有事要忙……那就有時間再說。」8964 copyright protection78PENANACUhncxESIc 維尼
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趙榮海沒有等祈願回應就掛了電話,他知道自己這麼做是感情用事了,但這麼做反而能讓自己跟祈願之後的對話更加順利、輕鬆。8964 copyright protection78PENANATJIn3abs3R 維尼
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對,就是輕鬆,跟祈願若是因為生活鎖事的聊天很自在,但如果是有目的性的對話,五分鐘會讓人像經歷了五十分鐘般煎熬。8964 copyright protection78PENANAg5gyOY2bCh 維尼
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身心俱疲、傷身燒腦。8964 copyright protection78PENANALfxj7cJf5n 維尼
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簡單來說,跟祈願的對話總會演變成心理戰,沒有唇槍舌戰但卻往往落得疲憊不堪。8964 copyright protection78PENANAUnHdh5eNb2 維尼
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所以趙榮海從不主動撥電話給祈願,何必讓自己經歷這種像是拷問般的晤談?8964 copyright protection78PENANAkhtrsIMmwg 維尼
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趙榮海起身伸了伸懶腰,將書本一一歸位後關燈離開,他現在需要老婆的溫柔體貼來安慰緩和自己的情緒。8964 copyright protection78PENANAtWgSsPICgY 維尼
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【明天我回國,一早的班機,把時間留給我。】8964 copyright protection78PENANATETbYm37qh 維尼
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趙榮海上班時不意外的接到短訊,他料想的到祈願此刻的心情,【在家等你,直接過來吧。】8964 copyright protection78PENANAgYT6earfME 維尼
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淡安然是被窗外鳥叫聲喚醒的,他用力撐起身看向床頭的時鐘,上午七點三十分,他足足睡了九個小時,明明睡得還算安穩,但身體卻感到非常疲累。8964 copyright protection78PENANA03INDvhx4X 維尼
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他甩了甩頭,頭似乎還漲痛著,這種感覺讓他噁心反胃,他乾嘔了一下便起身洗漱。8964 copyright protection78PENANAuCQexKxDqF 維尼
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淡安然站在客廳環顧四周,總覺得哪裡不對勁卻又說不上來,他似乎有事非做不可,而且是迫切的……8964 copyright protection78PENANAkOWcl2fpuz 維尼
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走回房間他才發現不一樣的地方。8964 copyright protection78PENANA8xArqDNPlm 維尼
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太乾淨了!8964 copyright protection78PENANAOw7mtOnTDw 維尼
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雖然是臨時搬進這個「家」,但他的物品本就不多,書桌是他唯一放置個人物品的地方,而此時書桌上一片淨空,就像……他從來不曾居住過一樣。8964 copyright protection78PENANA0Z0edf7eoI 維尼
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房間角落放置了一個行李箱,他歪著頭看了一會兒……8964 copyright protection78PENANABLngwJExSw 維尼
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是啊……今天我要搬出去了。8964 copyright protection78PENANAxfreEolbxF 維尼
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上午十點半,趙榮海從客廳起身應門。8964 copyright protection78PENANAUzAr8oYpQh 維尼
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祈願站在門口,左手拉著行李箱,右手提著行李袋,他一身剪裁合身的灰西裝,鋥亮的皮鞋,雖然領帶拿了下來,領口也敞開著,舒適休閒但更顯得他成熟自信。8964 copyright protection78PENANA7heyuP4rPK 維尼
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趙榮海朝他上下掃了一眼,「喲!還挺正式。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAgTD5jiuIDo 維尼
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祈願捋了捋垂落額前的頭髮,他一臉疲憊無奈的苦笑,一邊脫鞋進門一邊說著:「一早的送機裡有重要人物,不得不打扮一下。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAHkDMyg3MKS 維尼
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祈願舒坦放鬆的坐在沙發上,他閉著眼捏了捏眉間開口:「真是打擾了,嫂子今天上班?」8964 copyright protection78PENANAgx5EKOb3q9 維尼
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趙榮海泡了杯美式推到他面前,「你確定要這麼見外?」8964 copyright protection78PENANAASeQ0SD8EN 維尼
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祈願喝了口咖啡挑眉看向趙榮海。8964 copyright protection78PENANAUcpwELqzUU 維尼
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只見趙榮海斂起笑容手上夾著張紙晃了晃說道:「因為接下來我可不會跟你客氣了。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAuxk9AUYA40 維尼
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