"So we'll say goodbye for now," Becky said, her voice gentle and reassuring. "Take care of yourself, okay?"328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2E0c0OUEjA
"Okay, bye."328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMfd9xIIY6
The door lock snapped shut with a “click”.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUT99IUP6k
Once again, I returned to my lonely and desolate world, facing the challenges of today, tomorrow, and the days to come. Alone.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgliV4NG068
At least until I return for another counseling session.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlVd7BKyn6u
There was a time when that "click" would have sent me spiraling deep into anxiety, with cold hands and feet, and trembling all over. The sound was my life preserver, my only support, and I was left mercilessly alone to face this emotional monster called “depression”, devouring all my hopes. Staggering on the verge of collapse, I wanted to knock on the door again, clinging onto the only ray of light as tears streamed down my face.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJT4gN0Q6e
But my remaining sanity and dignity told me that this was something I had to face. Long is the road and cruel is the world.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsMXajvTM8
Becky was my psychotherapist. Since my family underwent a sudden change six months ago, I was gripped by depression. My friends Kevin and Penny recommended her service to me, hoping her expertise would lead me out of this labyrinth of desperation. 328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvykndTrjI1
Every time I met with Becky, she would encourage me to speak freely about my recent situation and problems. After digesting this information, she would pinpoint the key issues and ask me questions, helping me to reflect on my feelings and respond accordingly. As an information technology professional (an "IT person"), before every meeting, I would organize the key points I wanted to discuss and write them down on my phone to ensure efficiency.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5XUX81Td8
In response to her questions, my answers were usually concise and logical.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJTfLYdt1z
However, no matter how efficient and rational I strived to be, my rising emotions would often overwhelm the facade of control. 328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBCrsn4Rd3
Especially when I talked about the past and touched on the deep wounds buried within me, my emotions would break down like a dam bursting. Like today, when Becky instructed me to close my eyes and recall some "images" from the past, recalling the most regretful episode in my life.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64jCanTfQb
I closed my eyes, recalling faces and events that had left a mark in my life. Finally, a person came to the fore: my grandma.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5NIuFDMQF1
Scene after scene of the time we spent together came into focus, the vivid sharpness cut through my heart.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGayg2o21q7
"I remember grandma," I said softly, tears bursting out with endless longing.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvImnCfcaIA
I couldn't stop crying for a full ten minutes, mumbling the same sentence over and over again.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjGiLtMzpG
"I miss her so much, I miss her so much!"328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPuGFjgE3w
She has been gone for over six years. When she developed dementia, she gradually lost her ability to take care of herself and had to move to a nursing home. And she couldn't recognize anyone apart from me. But I was always busy with work and couldn't find the time to visit. Day after day, month after month, I kept procrastinating, until one rare day when I left work early because I wasn't feeling well, I decided to visit her at the nursing home.
On the way, I passed by a Chinese bakery and remembered that she loved Chinese buns, especially the hot and spicy meat ones, so I bought two and shared them with her.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT40OxnzAoH
"They're delicious!" She ate them with relish.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQn5lk7WSE
"Shall I come visit you again next week and bring more meat buns?" I said.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LoLEL4Y2P
"Okay, okay!" Completely satisfied, grandma laughed like a child.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpao6jLH0Q
So I made up my mind to visit her every week, no matter how busy I was, and to buy different types of Chinese buns to share with her, enjoying the simple happiness of being together, strengthening our bond through our taste buds.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYClELI5so
Unfortunately, my plan fell through.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lAVGqzWPo
After that day, I never visited that Chinese bakery again.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyn3NwXZZFO
Grandma's health suddenly deteriorated and she needed emergency treatment at the hospital. A few days later, she passed away.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzG8BII872
The last words she said to me were "Okay, okay."328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEGTO3ySAv
This was probably the first "unforgettable regret" in my life.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BevdKHjGq
“You are sitting on the edge of a rooftop. You are devastated. You are on your own. The choice is yours. You can turn left to get yourself back into life, or you can simply turn right to give in. Unfortunately there is no one that you can look up to for help. You have to make this decision on your own.328Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDie8j1YMlQ
This is DEPRESSION.”
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