"So we'll say goodbye for now," Becky said, her voice gentle and reassuring. "Take care of yourself, okay?"430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTE7a5RN9e
"Okay, bye."430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN07S7MuXdP
The door lock snapped shut with a “click”.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTZE5PgSEC
Once again, I returned to my lonely and desolate world, facing the challenges of today, tomorrow, and the days to come. Alone.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TWd0wuior
At least until I return for another counseling session.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUGAceVHkY
There was a time when that "click" would have sent me spiraling deep into anxiety, with cold hands and feet, and trembling all over. The sound was my life preserver, my only support, and I was left mercilessly alone to face this emotional monster called “depression”, devouring all my hopes. Staggering on the verge of collapse, I wanted to knock on the door again, clinging onto the only ray of light as tears streamed down my face.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHltu6R1NR
But my remaining sanity and dignity told me that this was something I had to face. Long is the road and cruel is the world.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXjBjUAGAQ
Becky was my psychotherapist. Since my family underwent a sudden change six months ago, I was gripped by depression. My friends Kevin and Penny recommended her service to me, hoping her expertise would lead me out of this labyrinth of desperation. 430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCheAufzfT
Every time I met with Becky, she would encourage me to speak freely about my recent situation and problems. After digesting this information, she would pinpoint the key issues and ask me questions, helping me to reflect on my feelings and respond accordingly. As an information technology professional (an "IT person"), before every meeting, I would organize the key points I wanted to discuss and write them down on my phone to ensure efficiency.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcp8bicNnlB
In response to her questions, my answers were usually concise and logical.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXi1tai9eN
However, no matter how efficient and rational I strived to be, my rising emotions would often overwhelm the facade of control. 430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQIadTt6iK
Especially when I talked about the past and touched on the deep wounds buried within me, my emotions would break down like a dam bursting. Like today, when Becky instructed me to close my eyes and recall some "images" from the past, recalling the most regretful episode in my life.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqOj68GGzx
I closed my eyes, recalling faces and events that had left a mark in my life. Finally, a person came to the fore: my grandma.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufMqbC9bb6
Scene after scene of the time we spent together came into focus, the vivid sharpness cut through my heart.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGv6f31DSG
"I remember grandma," I said softly, tears bursting out with endless longing.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7B6NYgX6Oh
I couldn't stop crying for a full ten minutes, mumbling the same sentence over and over again.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgrgv9P00v
"I miss her so much, I miss her so much!"430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRjVhuDgCJ
She has been gone for over six years. When she developed dementia, she gradually lost her ability to take care of herself and had to move to a nursing home. And she couldn't recognize anyone apart from me. But I was always busy with work and couldn't find the time to visit. Day after day, month after month, I kept procrastinating, until one rare day when I left work early because I wasn't feeling well, I decided to visit her at the nursing home.
On the way, I passed by a Chinese bakery and remembered that she loved Chinese buns, especially the hot and spicy meat ones, so I bought two and shared them with her.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6Ww2sBfSB
"They're delicious!" She ate them with relish.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazKPy6EsFU
"Shall I come visit you again next week and bring more meat buns?" I said.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmR5NGNGHo
"Okay, okay!" Completely satisfied, grandma laughed like a child.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWy3gYf3du
So I made up my mind to visit her every week, no matter how busy I was, and to buy different types of Chinese buns to share with her, enjoying the simple happiness of being together, strengthening our bond through our taste buds.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmjuxcEACW
Unfortunately, my plan fell through.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRShj4cBwtL
After that day, I never visited that Chinese bakery again.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpIUjH9SFl
Grandma's health suddenly deteriorated and she needed emergency treatment at the hospital. A few days later, she passed away.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrif1nbKIkD
The last words she said to me were "Okay, okay."430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63dRo4so7D
This was probably the first "unforgettable regret" in my life.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGKk384fSu
“You are sitting on the edge of a rooftop. You are devastated. You are on your own. The choice is yours. You can turn left to get yourself back into life, or you can simply turn right to give in. Unfortunately there is no one that you can look up to for help. You have to make this decision on your own.430Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHUXhubiLU
This is DEPRESSION.”
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