Avaz - You are the knife I turn inside myself

18.03.2023. 18:33

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu28DEH2o64

𝒶 𝓁𝑒𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓎𝑜𝓊

I mourned all my loves between the pages of this book. In it, all of them will live forever with my wounded soul between the pages of a softcover book. Here, my soul is exposed as it used to be in front of them. And let lines, commas and periods judge them, don't hate them because without them I would never exude poetry. You who dare to read these poems, I beg you, do not willingly accept my wounds and take them upon you. The pain they bequeathed to me keeps my head up every day. 𝐻𝑒𝓁𝑒𝓃𝒶470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpgttpGk2P

Here you will be able to read quotes and poems from my book of poetry and prose , which finally saw the light of day last year and is currently on the shelves of bookstores as well as in the home libraries of my readers in the Balkans.. I am currently translating the book into English, which means that it will be available in English soon. I hope you enjoy it. I am looking forward to your comments and impressions.470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRn7ITXAFp

Franz Kafka — 'You are the knife I turn inside myself; that is love. That, my dear, is love.'470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrSXUX9Nva

/absence/

you were not aware of how much your presence hurt me even though you were never there.

how the corrosive rain of my pupils ravaged my skin at your every silence in response to all my desperate calls to you.

how much all my waiting for you hurt me, even though I knew you would never come. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfWffWSPJp

wherever my foot stepped, there was a trace of yours.

and you made sure that it remained there forever as a witness that you were alive,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8dyBj4B8t

to vouch as the only valid proof that you live through me.

you followed me consecutively,

and you tirelessly left pieces of yourself behind my bare feet that were looking for you.

which you cut into wholes and wholes into halves.

you were my most present absence.

still, with sworn silence, like a bullet you kill my voice while calling you.

when my silences take away your voice,

you will respond when you no longer have whose voice to hear in return.

my sobs fell silent, swallowed by your loud silence. 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXxKqRcHkkd

and again for the umpteenth time, I took you along as a stowaway.

and now I certainly know,

wherever I go,

at my final destination you will be waiting for me.

/salve/

Cerebral ventricles capitulate to fatigue.

At night I am judged by executioners from the shadows who stalk me.

At dawn demons hold my head upright.

Our symbiosis is deadly,

and I can't kill them in myself,

That would truly be suicide.

n i g h t t i m e 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAkjZPdz7W

The night surrendered to me,

corrosive eyelid rains destroy the skin,

the names of the victims are written on my body

the victims of my internal wars,

I am a woman of principle,

but you should be afraid of them,

Because you only served me pain

and salve with it,

so that your conscience doesn't burn you tomorrow,

but every diagnosis which you bequeathed to me,

burns every spot on my body,

Do you have a salve for that too?

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIY4EzKAsio

/south/

The voices of the underworld are calling my name,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4KkIR584u

The letters echo in the order in which they were born,

Words of prayer infused with your name slide down my lips,

They crawled into me and created an internal disasters,

I can't contain my storms,

I'm begging the winds to carry you south.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0zW3QsEsH

/emptiness/

You told me empty stories,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4khz3hmBa6

Tamed me with a few words and I submited to them,

I kept blank pages for you,

Empty stories and an empty soul,

You filled the pages of my life with words full of pain,

The paper is soaked with tears,

My tears,

It's not worth five bucks,

Let alone one life,

My life,

And you are empty and fleeting,

Taming me and making me the victim of your existence,

my stationed self in your fleeting arms,

I'm just nothingness in the stacked lies of your emptiness,

Short-term absence and long-term presence among the emptiness of tamed words,

Empty stories of sad emotions,

You buried me with your declarations of love.

/coincidence/

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uM3jqCjDX

if by coincidence

you happen to meet me somewhere

only just if you believe in coincidences

meet my eyes, stealthily

like the first time

when our eyes kissed

and turned world into dark blue

look at mine, for just a second longer than the last time

extend my memory of them

and how brown and blue colored the world

be a painter just one more time

let my pupils see the world in dark blue again

your blue and my brown eyes, the world is our canvas.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDUvORC2o4

/autunm/

in autunm i bloomed470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd168Tz630L

by your side

when everything around me withered

i fell in love with you in October

when everything dies in autunm's arms

but i was resurrected by yours.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4DZLzQE9Z

/chapter/

we may not have had470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjI2ZvkqN1f

a happy ending

but we had a story to tell

and i will always return

to the chapter you are in

you may have been the wrong chapter in the book of my life

but you will always be my favorite.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zZ9IMlXgj

/game of scissors/

I lie naked in your arms470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJo2pZMmh5

How much does uncovered skin cost?

How much is what is hidden in it sold for

What is the price?

What consequences does this act cause?

You pay dearly for your actions

With a cheap soul

You live this life in debt

You made incisions in my bosom

My skin is bleeding from your cuts

You take a needle and thread

and you patch me up like a doll

Because that's all I really am

A patched doll

You open wounds as needed and patch them up

I lie helpless in your arms

You pull the strings and I play as you wish

A tangled knot tightens my neck,

game of scissors,

The threads stay behind me and I don't drag them with me

The cross section.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETauqptsAw

/soulmate/

And I just hope,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hltudymUf

when my soulmate comes across me,

that there is anything left of this soul of mine.

/forgiveness/

How many times have you killed me and revived me,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1DauCsjTu

Immortality became my mortal sin,

This is my confession,

if there is anything left to forgive,

I believe in forgiveness.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84YpUSdnk9

/glances/

I only get hidden glances from you470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡab2wG6fnD0

but they are also a part of you

And how can I then convince myself that I don't have you at all.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgimspFyrr

/van gogh/

In desperation, Van Gogh ate yellow paint to find happiness,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXUew5UaBD

he painted the walls of his internal organs yellow,

even though with that act

he poisoned himself ,

in desperation he risked,

desperately wanting to be happy,

same as me,

I digested your lies for a long time,

desperate for them to dissolve into truth,

until I got stomach poisoning

my organs turned black.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PEFco8Fpe

/adriatic/

Italy and the Adriatic Sea470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KqXaMjohx

are grateful for my tears

on increasing salinity

when I was suffocating in the sea of my own tears.

in the seas you will see my reflection.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwWQSmKkmH

/new page/

and every time I turn a new page in the book of my life470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQC6vlLXfu

i would write your name on it first

you turned my every dot into a comma.,

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9Uu86WNI3

/friends/

And all the demons I took with me after I crossed the threshold470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo154m7eo9R

kept my head straight

And they never let me look back.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6RastQdLD

/sale/

I am shamelessly buying your lies470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdSOe4mwFU

Like they are on sale

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPISRRUaI5Q

/hunger strike/

And as long as you feed your ego with those who are just passing by470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6WrgGwKpU

Your soul will remain hungry for the stationed me.

You are on hunger strike but you are full.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa30VayswEb

/Helen of Troy/

Your beauty is worth of all my inner wars,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MY1J2Llpq

It justifies my every bloody battle,

Just as Helen's beauty long ago justified all the Trojan suffering.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1Al5eFmF1

/wish/

You are my secret desire 470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunwVFIz3xK

that I fear will come true

the moment I no longer desire you.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5trb3A9iU

/failure/

There are too many tears in this cup,470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRwmxNl7mc

Sweet wine and salty sin,

You leave a bitter taste on my lips,

The taste of failure,

Wrong lips,

So like a seal on my body,

You leave the date of my judgment,

You accuse me of sin and crime,

You will be the death to me.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUSO8arHi2

/sea of pain/

His eyes were blue like the wild waves of a rough sea that made me want to tame them. There is no doubt that they sensed trouble.

Maybe that was my warning, that a storm was coming, and that these waves would turn into something bigger.470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMfCoBeUsB

Tsunami.

Who will take me with him.

I am just a ship fighting against the current of the waves in his eyes, which kept pulling me back into the past.

You lifted the anchor and made me sail with you into the sea of pain.

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtB5J22obvb

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQFg7Br2R4

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgeLJM1nR7

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvJLHI9aIo

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZi67XfaEd

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XOE5bE9S8

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0MnvmA50Ku

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4gBrVX4nE

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eQvs6rujT

470Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVhqhxsZ5r

ns216.73.216.224da2

介面主題:

字體大小:

行距:

段距:

自動加載下一章