東風吹斜雨絲,淡粉色的櫻花花瓣隨風盤旋飄落,鋪於石磚小徑上。男人穿著藕粉色的尖領襯衫,幾乎要被整片同色調的花海吞沒。他低低打著傘,視線貼著傘緣投來。251Please respect copyright.PENANADet9KBki7R
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「嘉鈞哥哥,下雨了。」251Please respect copyright.PENANA5B5HUeUa5G
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男人聲音低沉,身材也相比過往厚實,卻又用往昔的暱稱叫他。251Please respect copyright.PENANAyM2uB6R6xu
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雨霧瀰漫的春。又是這樣的春日。251Please respect copyright.PENANAa3YGzoXvQX
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「吳詠青,你過來。」251Please respect copyright.PENANA65Mt2YXGXH
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唐嘉鈞毫無緣由地害怕。251Please respect copyright.PENANAA8NFyIRoMH
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一片沾著雨水的櫻花花瓣飄落,沾黏在唐嘉鈞的手背上。接著是第二片、第三片⋯⋯花瓣不斷落下,每當他伸手摘取,又有更多濕搭搭地貼著他不放。251Please respect copyright.PENANAUhUnNynXZS
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很快,唐嘉鈞便近乎看不見自己的膚色了。251Please respect copyright.PENANA7qjprwyz5r
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他心中頓感慌張,於是連忙朝吳詠青走近。251Please respect copyright.PENANAaeNotUZBU9
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霎時,一陣狂風吹來,將吳詠青手上的傘吹落。他用傘遮著的上半張臉暴露在唐嘉鈞眼前,光潔飽滿的前額被一道醒目的傷口劃破,鮮紅的血液自裂縫湧出,啪嗒啪嗒地順著臉龐流下。251Please respect copyright.PENANAvX0Bgf5noj
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他抬起雙手,手上濕潤的觸感不是什麼花瓣,而是滿手的血。251Please respect copyright.PENANAVoVM5eabwa
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「靠⋯⋯」251Please respect copyright.PENANAxXXsx5cmR0
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床頭櫃上沒擰緊的保溫瓶傾倒,流出的水滴滴答答地弄濕枕頭,以及唐嘉鈞的頰側與掌心,他被驚醒,遂起身收拾水瓶和散落的安眠藥片。251Please respect copyright.PENANAL34lluOX2X
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恐懼自夢裡蔓生,身旁似乎還纏繞著驅之不散的雨霧。唐嘉鈞坐在床緣,發覺自己的衣服也被浸濕了,是後背的冷汗所致。251Please respect copyright.PENANAlVZZTW1uil
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他拉開窗簾,天色尚未飽和。他放輕腳步走進客廳裡,將電視打開,熟練地一口氣將音量調到最低,避免吵醒他的同居人。251Please respect copyright.PENANAYCxl5dJSzX
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唐嘉鈞,二十八歲,單身,立法委員參選人。他的同居人仍然是兒時的玩伴、他的好朋友吳詠青。251Please respect copyright.PENANAzrp0BVtese
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「新換的安眠藥如何?」251Please respect copyright.PENANAPGyPaTFv5d
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「很好,白天不再想睡了。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAI6Yu1xDiGe
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「那這次就開一樣的喔。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAoDcUDl3jXS
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唐嘉鈞坐在診間的椅子上,眼神不經意投向手錶數次,長期看診的心理醫生注意到他異常的舉止,開口問道:251Please respect copyright.PENANAcJRD7Ac664
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「唐先生今天趕時間嗎?後面還有行程?」251Please respect copyright.PENANAw3dFOWCKsH
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「有,但是不趕,時間很充裕。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAn3DlOjkVZT
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唐嘉鈞默默將雙手擺到桌下,克制著不再去看手錶。251Please respect copyright.PENANAsmHLlNftmT
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「白天不再想睡了,但是經常做夢。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAP5XSOhh3gM
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「做惡夢嗎?」251Please respect copyright.PENANAPTNNyDObpR
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「也不總是惡夢。」但是都關於同一個人——唐嘉鈞沒有說出口。251Please respect copyright.PENANACywRZYiUdk
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「這樣啊,有可能是藥物影響⋯⋯」醫生正思索著要不要再換藥,唐嘉鈞倒是先自己決定了:251Please respect copyright.PENANApbzm5knXUP
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「不是什麼大問題,請您照著上次的開就好了。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAgub7taVKVR
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這房子裡住著兩個睡眠障礙患者,吳詠青是從小就有這老問題,唐嘉鈞則是從參選開始壓力遽增,而開始出現失眠的症狀。251Please respect copyright.PENANANiIwuQHGaL
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根據醫囑,要改善睡眠障礙,必須養成規律的生活作息,規律地每天在同一個時段就寢。251Please respect copyright.PENANAupYfpyTbOQ
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一點了,唐嘉鈞拆封剛拿到的藥袋,卻遲遲不服下安眠藥,只是坐在沙發上心不在焉地看著電視上重播的政論節目。251Please respect copyright.PENANAjHevoSS6aF
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因為吳詠青還沒回家,也不接電話。251Please respect copyright.PENANAABAuJu9iMl
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直到一點半,門鈴響了。251Please respect copyright.PENANAYVkLS3Go4D
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門鈴?吳詠青是忘了帶鑰匙才按門鈴嗎?唐嘉鈞奇怪地想。251Please respect copyright.PENANALzJ5S7GLO5
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「打擾了,唐先生您好。我是吳董的助理洪銘安,我送吳董回來,可以請您幫忙開個門嗎?」對講機裡陌生男人的聲音著急地說道。251Please respect copyright.PENANAtNLFhphBJP
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對講機裡傳來另一個氣急敗壞的聲音。251Please respect copyright.PENANA7MgA8QYVXm
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「唐嘉鈞這時間都睡了,我就跟你說我有鑰匙!」251Please respect copyright.PENANAlRJbXop9EG
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「吳董,這是車鑰匙啊⋯⋯插不進去的⋯⋯」251Please respect copyright.PENANAQJxbydaWbV
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唐嘉鈞急忙開了門,長相老實的陌生男人正聽話地用車鑰匙嘗試打開唐嘉鈞的家門,吳詠青滿臉通紅,站也站不直,只能勾著男人的肩膀,將整個人的重量倚靠於對方,臉則埋在對方肩上。251Please respect copyright.PENANAIY4ADYC6j4
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門一開,唐嘉鈞黑了臉,但是洪銘安卻好像看到救星一般,雙眼發光。251Please respect copyright.PENANAebegBngLfX
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「唐先生⋯⋯」251Please respect copyright.PENANAB5kGGmn49p
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「交給我吧。」251Please respect copyright.PENANA7ycGZsVVHb
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「銘安,我真的想吐⋯⋯」吳詠青還賴在洪銘安身上,睡眼惺忪地揉著眼睛,看到唐嘉鈞,居然變得橫眉豎目:251Please respect copyright.PENANAflJbLCn17K
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「唐嘉鈞,都一點多了為什麼你還沒睡覺?你要學著規律作息啊!」251Please respect copyright.PENANAkaysDSVmxf
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唐嘉鈞的太陽穴猛然一抽,他忍住揍吳詠青一頓的衝動,轉向洪銘安問話。251Please respect copyright.PENANAW6Rmc0CdQb
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「他吐了?」251Please respect copyright.PENANAnNjMQMBh31
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「沒吐,就是一直喊想吐。」251Please respect copyright.PENANATtZdSRTgHN
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洪銘安趕緊抽身,讓唐嘉鈞接手無法獨立站穩的吳詠青。唐嘉鈞雖然有禮貌地向他道謝數次,但眼神完全沒有笑意。251Please respect copyright.PENANAWqQedtD3Ee
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助理小洪好擔心吳董被家暴。251Please respect copyright.PENANAk5SCusuvEA
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事實上,唐嘉鈞並沒有家暴他的竹馬,反而小心地攙扶他坐到沙發上,再脫去他的鞋襪和西裝外套。251Please respect copyright.PENANAGg4l2lItZH
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「我去給你泡蜂蜜水。」251Please respect copyright.PENANA66GYUyqZMM
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「等等,我想吐⋯⋯」251Please respect copyright.PENANA8pY2EpfCiG
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「要不要我幫你催吐?吐出來會舒服一點。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAp05CoSR76B
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「好。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAqVzQaCSdmv
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他倆剛移動到浴室,不必唐嘉鈞幫忙,吳詠青便自己爬到馬桶前,唏哩嘩啦地吐了。251Please respect copyright.PENANApEPkF66LgK
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「應酬需要喝那麼醉?」251Please respect copyright.PENANAIbU0NOIQbE
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吳詠青手腳癱軟,倚靠在浴室冰冷的磁磚上,顯然很不舒服,眼框都紅了一圈,唐嘉鈞於心不忍地將他攬進懷裡。251Please respect copyright.PENANAC7jmDUEZUD
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「需要啊,不然我又不喜歡酒精。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAHUMKKIHjzn
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唐嘉鈞背起癱坐的吳詠青回房,途中腳步踉蹌了一下。251Please respect copyright.PENANAAtFTJMCSIX
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「很重?」251Please respect copyright.PENANA6VSY6YKvAA
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「你雖然很輕,但你肩頭上的擔子太重了。我們吳董真是太了不起了。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAvIFNWjUHmW
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「哪比得上唐候選人呢?」251Please respect copyright.PENANAQdpkFRqoJf
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兩人一如既往地打著嘴砲。251Please respect copyright.PENANAyIKYIeST20
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唐嘉鈞為吳詠青掖好被角,轉暗了檯燈,「好好休息。」251Please respect copyright.PENANADKXDiIzjko
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「唐嘉鈞,小洪要結婚了。」251Please respect copyright.PENANA6iZYqjyQvu
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在唐嘉鈞轉身離開前,吳詠青突然開口了。251Please respect copyright.PENANA6bPodiRi2c
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「你記得雷品承嗎?他最近也要結婚了。」251Please respect copyright.PENANA5XAMOBlnIg
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「喔,記得啊。」251Please respect copyright.PENANASdH9dDvpY8
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唐嘉鈞當然記得雷品承,記得十年前的春日去陽明山賞櫻,記得一個吻落在吳詠青眨動的眼皮——記得他親手拍下,然後吳詠青被迫出櫃,被砸得頭破血流。記得青春期,記得一切始末記得一切震顫,記得日子如何過。251Please respect copyright.PENANAjkPaQlg41J
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因為記得,所以夜夜在夢裡搬演。251Please respect copyright.PENANAyYD9YkRfBo
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「那你呢?你打算幾歲要結婚?」251Please respect copyright.PENANArdFiwq5a8m
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夜夜在唐嘉鈞夢裡出現的男人向他問。251Please respect copyright.PENANA17QLuzOUtq
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「⋯⋯我不知道。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAUaQkYdLmGG
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他真的不知道。251Please respect copyright.PENANAQAA4tOQrQP
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「什麼時候能輪到我結婚呢?」251Please respect copyright.PENANA2jaB0zWEwv
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「同性戀又不能結婚。」251Please respect copyright.PENANADmjab3oaow
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「我知道啊。」251Please respect copyright.PENANABGvCtkuRtu
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喝醉的吳詠青彷彿特別脆弱,聲音已經染上了哭腔。251Please respect copyright.PENANAID3qCuW9OZ
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「我以為小洪也是gay,但他今天跟我請了婚假。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAamvbHV52vC
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說著,吳詠青的臉埋得越來越低,直到嗚咽聲也被埋進被子裡。唐嘉鈞則想起他打開家門,看到吳詠青把臉埋在洪銘安肩膀,像親人的貓咪一樣的蹭著洪銘安。251Please respect copyright.PENANAXTpzutkPup
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「我不想找一個女人假結婚,我想要真的跟男人結婚。我也想要被愛啊。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAJBtfX4S9oj
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吳詠青喜歡洪助理,然後他要結婚了,所以吳詠青才喝得那麼醉?251Please respect copyright.PENANAYYWnmv7R2X
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唐嘉鈞知道自己應該拍拍他的背、溫聲安慰眼前的男人,但手腳卻因發冷而微顫,無法受到支配。251Please respect copyright.PENANALWTmJGvDKN
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他想回答,你的家人愛你,但又清楚吳詠青的家庭狀況太過複雜。251Please respect copyright.PENANAytMk3fYxa4
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於是他說了:「我愛你啊。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAa32TZHOeNh
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「那不一樣啊,唐嘉鈞,那不一樣。」吳詠青的肩頭一抽一抽,「我們是最好的朋友。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAOVzom2elOD
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唐嘉鈞只能乾巴巴地說,「有一天你會被愛,你可以辦婚禮,如果你們想要,你可以收養小孩。如果你收養小孩,我就當乾爸。」251Please respect copyright.PENANAl1JGDzBjyz
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吳詠青還是把自己埋在被子裡,悶悶地又問了一次。251Please respect copyright.PENANAh9es6y6Xer
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「那你呢?你想要幾歲結婚?」251Please respect copyright.PENANAX1Gc879SUC
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「我沒有結婚的對象。等我需要結婚的時候,就結婚吧。」251Please respect copyright.PENANA0XQlITGF39
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唐嘉鈞苦笑,爾後沈默。251Please respect copyright.PENANAAHdOJVlKtd
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半晌,吳詠青的呼吸漸趨平穩,他終於不敵酒意昏沉地失去意識。而直到唐嘉鈞的前襟也被浸濕了,他都沒有發出哭泣的聲音,只是任淚滴無聲地落下。251Please respect copyright.PENANAcRtmO3eQ6y
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順帶一提詠青現在是懷榮金控的子公司「懷榮創投」的董事XD(也有持股)現在兩個人已經28囉
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