『你曾停下腳步,去看看那些平常不曾留意的人事物嗎?』18Please respect copyright.PENANAG9F95E5ftr
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或許近期太過疲累吧,我夢見一年前還同桌的他隨口說過的話。雖然同樣身處朝九晚五的生活,他卻一直懷抱年幼時的夢想,那個有朝能成為作家的夢。18Please respect copyright.PENANAzMZlAsGI13
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他是個不喜歡說話的人,鮮少能在朋友或公司聚會看見他,就算出席也是沉默寡言。但明明是這樣的個性,若一旦談起文字,那種滔滔不絕的能言善道,我想就連天天講課的大學教授都會望之卻步,可也偏偏是這樣的他......卻又常在頂樓,我們單獨喝著咖啡時吐露些堅持執拗過的人才能理解的心事;自嘲說可能這輩子都只能把這個夢想當成一場夢,而能日夜作夢,就是他最大的美夢。18Please respect copyright.PENANAI3V27jH1rn
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可比起在被現實感衝擊的頂樓搖搖欲墜,我還是更喜歡每逢加班空檔有他的時候,小心地不讓他發現我刻意作慢了事情,就只為了能跟他獨處多點時間,然後去樓下幫他買杯熱摩卡的滋味。18Please respect copyright.PENANA0dT0P7ho1j
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這時候的他對我來說,就像夜空裡閃耀的一等星,雖然四周還有太多星星,但一眼我就能認出,無論是他述說源源不絕靈感時的那種興奮;或戴上耳機專注於紙筆的認真;及無名指節上被枝枝耗盡墨水的筆磨去指紋的厚繭;都一筆一畫刻進了那本老舊的文具店筆記本,上頭還有我喜歡的方吉圖案。18Please respect copyright.PENANArSVCKqyJyG
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認真的他跟不符形象的可愛本子,總讓我不禁會心一笑。18Please respect copyright.PENANA2G7nJv2dZL
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......或許也該怪這樣稀鬆平常的日子太過安逸吧,以至於當時的我沒將那句話放心上,依舊每天行色匆匆,還不曾想過熟悉的一切某天可能被時間悄然帶走。18Please respect copyright.PENANAJjNDhKn0MG
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現在想來,那時他講述那些種種的雙眸有多明亮,內心隱藏的沉重可能就有多深,而我卻絲毫未覺。而他口中總是佈滿期許藍圖的夢想,最終也成了我一場沒有結局的夢。18Please respect copyright.PENANAaV657PDJd9
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「......想什麼文青的話啊,真不像我。」喃喃著逞強話語,我用盡一切努力不讓眼裡淚水奪眶。多少次了?對於能侃侃而談這件事,而不起一絲情緒波瀾的日子遙遙無期的那份無奈,嘗試過多少回是早已數不清。18Please respect copyright.PENANAwHq9zNkQFz
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他總是溫柔又細膩,在那份冰冷的沉默和健談的夢想交界線中,感知著世界上每個角落。18Please respect copyright.PENANAyLHGfHhWmk
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『你不覺得很美嗎?我說那些人彼此交握的手。』18Please respect copyright.PENANAEQ8JBLKiK1
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有次夜晚我們去附近的情人橋散步時,他突然看著遠處漆黑一片;僅存漁燈星火的海面說道。那個方向的沿岸坐著一對依偎彼此的小情侶。18Please respect copyright.PENANAapy4TRoQ6C
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『無論什麼性別、什麼身份、什麼領域的人......都會對在意的人釋出專屬於他們的溫柔。即便不是每個都會有美好結局,但我還是覺得那樣的人們很美。』18Please respect copyright.PENANAFKVMbG19pK
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他轉頭又望向陸地上海風吹撫的陸地,人潮並不是很多,寧靜中只有些許不想與外人分享的纖纖細語輕撫而逝。18Please respect copyright.PENANAoSE7e6T2KT
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『不管過著什麼樣的生活,只要我的心跳還能運作的一天,我就想好好寫下這些--就當作了場美夢?』18Please respect copyright.PENANAO6j6mUPrWX
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輕笑著望向我,那雙眼眸多麼明亮如星。那時我一直相信,他總有一天會在某片乾淨的天空翱翔心中那片藍圖,而我依然能在身旁守候。18Please respect copyright.PENANAvhI7tJpW2O
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「......」苦味夾帶咖啡豆品種的酸澀,我長嘆口氣緩和胸中悶塞的思念,但沒有一絲好轉。所有的發生都那麼突然;突然地他就離開了;突然地身邊就空了個位置,很重要的位置。18Please respect copyright.PENANApAha1oQc8U
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獨自一人在租屋處被去探望的我發現倒臥在床邊,桌面上的藥罐被打翻在地散落各處,那時他嘴角旁流淌的冰冷深色就像現在杯中的酸苦,但當下我卻不敢停留一步細嚐那滋味,就怕與那雙關了燈的眼眸對視。18Please respect copyright.PENANAErvUWXnE1g
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死因是突發性心肌梗塞。負責檢驗的法醫這麼跟我還有他的家人說,據說他手裡還死死握著一顆心臟病的藥。18Please respect copyright.PENANAxd0RwWzIPP
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自那時起,我再不敢靠近那棟大樓一步,膽小地連他的喪禮都沒去上香。就怕所有情緒會在某個瞬間無法克制的潰堤;無法克制地讓死去的他背上不必要的污名。18Please respect copyright.PENANAsCrZPLUUFM
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咬緊牙關倒抽了口冬天的涼意,再次被迫回歸現實的我伸手拿起已然冰冷的咖啡,總是只握住杯緣的習慣,讓隔熱的紙杯套順勢滑落桌上,煩躁之餘卻也讓我下意識將視線投向那不曾留意過的角落。18Please respect copyright.PENANAZBLwg57Zb2
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『你曾停下腳步,去看看那些平常不曾留意的人事物嗎?』18Please respect copyright.PENANAhbeH4UePa4
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我頓時怔愣住了。看到的第一眼是無法抑制的憤怒,以為是哪個混蛋竊取並玷汙了專屬於我的溫柔回憶。18Please respect copyright.PENANAG1PKWRbnFw
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『有些人就像過客,即便你再在乎也留不住。而有些人......即便留住了,自己卻不一定有資格開口要他留下,因為預想的結局太過殘酷。』18Please respect copyright.PENANAJJICuaoAx7
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但下秒,我就認出了。認出上頭屬於他筆下的文字;那曾在情人橋旁跟我聊過,他想為某個重要之人所寫的文字;那曾在好幾個深夜刪改無數次,也不願跟我透露隻字半語的文字。18Please respect copyright.PENANAjV2btPfDiZ
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『但我是個自私又膽怯的人,不甘願就此離開,只好用這樣的方式在世界悄然留下足跡,一邊祈禱他不會看見我這篇寫滿自私的作品,一邊卻又希望能成為他心中永遠的歸屬。』18Please respect copyright.PENANAtbnPmh5kUI
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「哈啊......」低垂下頭設法抑制崩潰的時刻到來,我全身劇烈顫抖著將臉面跟那杯冰冷雙雙埋入臂彎想將一切再次溫熱,宛如那天我來不及鼓起勇氣;欠他的離別與懷抱。18Please respect copyright.PENANA6yROI57ZAu
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『我愛你。』18Please respect copyright.PENANALZmolWhHtX
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而在曾無數次被我遺忘於手心的溫柔與回憶中,我彷彿看見了那晚他凝視黑暗中的海面所看見的畫面;那份專屬於我......專屬於我們殘破,但無可取代的幸福。18Please respect copyright.PENANAxUHuI6oeIU
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「我好想你......」18Please respect copyright.PENANA6Yl3mM88dp
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然後握緊終於相牽的雙手,繼續用一生--做這場永遠也做不完的夢。18Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZVpXZkgtr
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