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"I don't remember myself being this pathetic before...610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6LIXW5aTK
I have no motivation left to try, I don't have any patience left in me...610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxp1kh3eXkM
I feel like I'm becoming more and more useless each day.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYOHClu9Dz
And I know that i don't even try, but I get so anxious when I think about exams..."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyccshpp835
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"I'm scared of being left behind... forever."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagEOQ0wA3e
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"I'm scared that I might give up on myself."
Have I already given up on myself?
"It's rough, it's lonely... and I don't see a way out."
"Time waits for no one."
"I don't have the willpower to change, and I'm a master at justifying myself." 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkPUDTR93q
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But...610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFff4nU8My1
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"We all have our ups and downs. We're human. It's incredibly hard to be consistent, since we're not machines (ISTJs go brrrr though). As long as we think, we'll keep on making excuses for ourselves... and that's normal. Everyone does it. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvYCKmoRE2
At the end of the day, you're worrying and thinking about your own future. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsytHY9tFWM
A person who thinks about changes, and is willing to change...610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sp9OV9sLN
Is absolutely not pathetic.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipZRpYTJBW
You're not garbage."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuv0rwjL3NX
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"Being strong enough to get up and fight every day is a special talent. You never know, there might be someone very close to you doing it... just for you."
I know I don't work very hard, but I hate being told that more than almost everything. I hate it when my parents remind me that I've done nothing. I hate it when they tell me to do work. Stupid, isn't it?
I once told my parents that I would continue to feel inferior, worthless and unsuccessful if I don't make a decent salary in a few years. You know what they said?610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWI1nNlmwFO
"It's okay. You don't need to make money. You can live under our our roof forever."610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPzC1OGl2W
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I don't want that though. Despite everything, I want to live by my own efforts. I'm a mess, yet I don't want anyone's help. I mean, I can ask for help when I need it, but...610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qwxA0tYu5
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Sorry, mum. Nothing's working out for you huh?610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOtSuZAQXt
You wasted all your money on all the sports, instruments, tutoring lessons on your son. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MjIb3alSj
Your son didn’t meet all your expectations.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPubiXYfv9E
Your son doesn't want to get married.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dfHgGZBe9
Your son might just end up a broke loser on the street.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRGYSLsTeY
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You know, you paid thousands of dollars for my overnight contact lenses, only for me to be too lazy to wear it.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡei8ark6z1U
You paid another thousand for me to do that Duke of Edinburgh challenge, though I never submitted my report and ended up never getting the certification. I still never told you... to this day.
Sorry, dad. 610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNODJ6ribEA
I know I said I'd pay you back for everything you've given to me, but I don't know if I can.
I might just be the worthless child you tried so hard to prevent me being.
Hahaha.
I'm sorry, I'm just a coward, so I just want to run away. Take the easy way out.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3QSQYHGUb
I'm scared of failing, so.
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But today, too, I'm still alive. So even though I've accomplished nothing, even when it looks like there's no escape, I'll keep going. I have to keep going. I'll finish my degree. If I get a full-time job, so be it. If I don't, then that's fine. I might regret it. But at the end of the day, I'm alive. No matter how afraid I am for tomorrow, I'll have to face it. The main thing keeping me unhappy... is me.
Thanks for loving me. I'm sorry I can't love you back as of now, or maybe for a long time to come. But maybe one day, I will.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIvzWDP079
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Sincerely,610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhKnzeqVLP
Your son Charlie.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgl1BaxROH
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P.S. Screw you sis /j.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcGjftLOgS
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... And on a whim, I sent a voice message containing all of this to my parents (it's 3am right now, but my parents are on vacation elsewhere). Saying it out loud is really something, huh.610Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTaeh16bGT
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My mother just sent me back a hug emoji and "goodnight" as it was the last word of my voice message as well. Not going to lie, I think that's the best thing she's ever said or texted. I wonder if she'll write a long paragraph or send a long voice message back later.
and then Add to home screen.