I think I have been suffering from insomnia since the day I got to know about Phoebus being Bella’s boyfriend. It was indeed a difficult night to spend alone thinking about both the men who have asked me out but still I felt it would be better to go with Amor than to go with Phoebus since I am almost at the end of my way to get over him. That would be good for all of us, me, Bella and Phoebus. If they continue their relationship for a longer time and ever have plans to have a baby, i will definitely be a good aunt who regrets stepping back but anything for Bella. She is the most important person in my life.
I will always choose Bella before any boy, even if it is Phoebus himself.
Amor seems to be a learned dancer which I am definitely not. What if he rejects me after knowing that? How will I tell him?730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBUOOSXM8W
I stood in front of the mirror and made myself understand that he has not asked me to dance with him yet in the language that I know. He should not know that I was that curious about knowing what he said to me last time. I might keep a copy with me and write all the words he says in Spanish, obviously the spellings won't be correct since I never paid attention in the class when they used to teach us Spanish in high school. I realised that if I ever paid attention in that class, I would be communicating to Amor in Spanish only.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOrcbaYDDP
I went to college, seeing Amor standing outside the college, looking again and again at his watch. I think he was waiting for someone. I tried acting like I didn't see him but he stopped me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nOKUrpj97
“You remember you wanted to do something as an apology for your behaviour that other day?”
I wish I could say no but my expression changed as if he could understand that I was lying.
“Yes, sir.” I said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4RGqTMNry
“No sir. I have told you a lot of times. At least not outside the college.” He said and I nodded.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdPtoykxxX
“I said something in Spanish and I think you did not understand.”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlj2ztB7L0U
I wish I could tell him that I already knew.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA49nN4WV3T
“It means dance with me. So, daphne I don't know why I am feeling weird but let me put it straight. Will you dance with me?” He continued after a pause, “You do not have the pressure of accepting my proposal. I will be waiting. It's just a small family function where I need you to act like my girlfriend and dance with me. Just for a few hours. Think about it.” He left after saying that.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCoOp6A82s
He left me in deep thought. It's not just a dance but also to act like his girlfriend in front of his family. I really don't know how to dance. What if I made a bad impression on them?730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u53bg0rhT
I really needed time to think. I sorted things a few minutes ago and again it came back to the time when I started thinking about whom to choose.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuH7Vc6gFUB
All day I kept thinking about it. I do not remember anything that happened in the class or with me after entering college.
I went to Amor.
“I will come with you.” I said. I can do anything.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5F4irtjVf
His face brightened.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvRhJotiy3
“Thank you, Daphne. It means a lot to me. The party is this weekend.” He said with a wide smile.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3V7BFMBvbl
I nodded once and went back towards my home.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGmv3hiAbK
I did accept his proposal but I need to ask for permission from my parents too. What will I tell them?730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0HzLelHE5
I kept practising the things I needed to tell my parents.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuZKHfdQPf
“I need to act like a girlfriend of my professor just for an event.” I murmured.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMO3kbmxzl
No, this does not sound good. I need something that will make them accept it instantly. Maybe I can use Phoebus. My mother likes him but what if he comes to my home. I can't even tell him about the dance thing, he might feel bad. I can go to dance with him too someday. It's just an act. I can tell them that I have a party for a successful project in college or a birthday party for one of my friends, Bella doesn’t know.
At dinner time, I cleared my throat before speaking and gulped.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiK3zYdfsF
“Hi, my dear family.” I said with a smile.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZZzfj4Fuj
“Hi baby.” said my parents.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQXRP7CzNh
“What do you need?” Arena said. I looked at her with anger.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXUBFGNRMo
“Obviously, you never speak this politely until you need something. Speak out.” She said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaXOTazics
“Arena, why do you think like that? Sometimes it's good to greet family unlike you.” My mother said.
I felt sad for my mother thinking like that, well she was right though.
“It is, I know but I know her too.” Arena said instantly.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzyVZjvS5a
“You think you know me but this time you are wrong so just shut up.” I said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2QmeANvn6
“Why do you all need to fight at the time of dining? Eat your food.” Father said, half mouth filled with food.
He doesn't like to talk while eating.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhH3c5e2YR
I could not directly ask for permission just because of Arena.
As we were about to end our dinner, I tried to ask them.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlOTW5oC8G
“I had to ask something.”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXA1vf0yNEU
“See i knew it. I told you.” Arena popped.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnDXd4tcpB
“Shut up!” I continued, “There is a birthday party for a successful project of one of my friends. ”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw1pme4T3r
“What?” Mother asked.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERJ2SWoXi2
I realised I mixed up things.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxIRvC7KnC
“I mean, I need to go to a birthday party of one of my friends this weekend. I needed your permission.” I said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0R5KeLvg7l
“Sure you can go.” my father said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQrVPQTXA3
“Is Bella going there too?” Mom asked.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2HuwmwB7k
“No. Actually you know her. She is socially weird so that girl doesn’t like her thus she won't be there and also don't tell her about it. She doesn't know. She might feel bad.” I said in one flow.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQwpoWXAlq
Everyone was satisfied with my reason.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmvTNTgjiS
“What about Phoebus? He is going to be there, right?” Mom asked.
“I..uh- I don’t know about his bonding with her. Maybe or maybe not.” I said in a bit of shock because I was not ready for that question.
He should not be there, obviously he won’t be there, it's a family gathering.
I took all my shimmer dresses out, there was none left in the cupboard. Shimmer dresses made me look highlighted but I do not need to be in the spotlight. It's just an act so I should not wear something like that.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc06KIvmXfh
My mother entered, seeing all the mess on the bed.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGi7xnvEvv
“Can’t find something to wear?” She asked.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7fu2po86p
“Uh..no. I neither want to wear something that will make people stare at me nor something very dull. It's a small gathering but with high profile people.” I told her, sitting tired on the bed.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtpKnRUvuT
“It’s fine, dear. We have bought enough clothes for you that you haven’t worn in years. Use them. I am not going to throw them out unless you use them and they rot.” she said with her arms crossed.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6F4R5WtjBM
I know she was not sarcastic. I do not wear most of my clothes because I do not go to parties like others but i can't fight with her due to this.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcYDDDjllr
“Yes, mom. I am checking them out. What do you think about this black dress?” I asked, standing in front of the mirror. I loved that dress.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBMoBFCJ28
“I would definitely like to sell your black dresses. Don’t you have any other?”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8r5HlBd9I
Yes mom, I do. I do not understand her sometimes, it's irritating.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdJTO49SNF
I took out my dark blue net gown. This was the most simple and beautiful dress I ever had. The sleeves falling from the shoulder, simply designed with blue threads. I love it!
“You can. You have never worn this. Wear it.” She said and left.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0BRnfyaOA
Who will let her know that the gown was bought by her for the wedding of my uncle a few years back which never took place and then I never got to wear it because we never went to such kind of parties.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6TJH6xfD4
Oh dear mother of mine!730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1dDUDdhOn
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I was as nervous about the party as I was happy for the weekend. The day had come. I really acted weird that day. My parents were amazed too. They said it was just a birthday party, not my wedding. Who will tell them the truth?
I got ready and planned to meet Amor behind the school. It definitely looked weird that I was walking in a gown that evening. I somehow increased my speed and reached the place he was waiting. For me. No one does.
He was wearing a white suit and the same shade of shirt as my gown, ironic.
“Hermosa!” he said without blinking for a few minutes, looking at me. Again a different language and I guess he has said that before too.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6i7eCqGV2
“Huh? I am sorry but, frankly, you need to understand the language you say, I do not understand at all. I am from America and you may be from Spain like you speak Spanish most of the time.” I said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7rHYKZ4XH
“You want to know what I said?” He asked, bending a little towards me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0FRqgQ2mH
“Yes. I want to.” I said looking at him.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UeEiIW9c3
“I said that you look beautiful, a lot. Today.” He said, looking at me, still bending towards me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM7htp1gnw
I gawked a while and in a slow voice asked about him saying the same word the day he went to buy formals for me. He nodded. I blinked and stepped back.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvFU1h8EZW
“Do I have to know something about your family too? You can teach me something in Spanish, that might help.” I said, clearing my throat.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAIQKEvA11
“Well I can teach you Spanish a bit in the remaining minutes but my family knows English well. Let's get in the car first.” he opened the car door for me and I sat. I took a deep breath before he could enter the car.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDRkflf1Rd
He taught me a few basic words in Spanish. I hope I can say them clearly when the time comes. We reached the place. It was huge and amazing, I never thought to visit such a place in my life. He was definitely rich.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtgFiKPIst
“You didn’t tell me about your family. I should know about your family. They might doubt me if I don't.” I said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZAQaaF8NP
“Sure. I’ll tell you.” He said, getting out of the car.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusVNcZezJn
Strange.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBCXXmsD0Y
He opened the door for me and held my hand unlike the last time when I refused to take his help getting out of the car.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifoHQUs4yV
“I lost my parents years ago. I went to Spain. I came back when my grandfather died, a few months back. I shifted here and joined the college as a professor.” he said while we entered the huge marvellous hall.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEO9xHOWof
“I am sorry that I mentioned your family.” I said with an apologetic look.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtyYaxePyX
“It’s totally fine. You should know.” he said with a smile.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCenpOHJfm
He introduced me to a few of his family members and I greeted them in Spanish but they replied to me in English. I could not believe myself. They looked at me as if they didn’t know the language I spoke, maybe I said it wrong.
I was really enjoying the party. It was an amazing change for once in a while. He stood beside me the whole party.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡooOHdhNfaL
One of his aunts came and asked, “Where is he?”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIx0hxGxO6s
“Who?” He asked.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UfLJk36nS
“Your brother, idiot. Did you forget about him?” She said fiercely.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViNA63hMqm
“Oh, how would I know? You know us very well.”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDR9GvA5GG
“I don't know what to do about you both. Why are you boring her by standing? Go dance. The floor is yours. Enjoy!” She said rubbing my back.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9sm3bS6pX
He stood in front of me and asked me to dance with him in Spanish. This time even if I didn’t know the meaning, I could understand the actions.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhoKL1ExRZ
“Amor. I had to tell you something.” I hesitated.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6b2URENlbY
“What?” he asked, concerned.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAwmDLtqwI
“I don’t know how to dance. I am sorry for not telling you about it earlier.” I said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkyLNMbGiJ
He laughed and grabbed my hand with both of his palms and said, “Just follow me. Everything will be fine.”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9CyejaoiU
We went to the dance floor. He told me to lose myself as much as possible. He made me feel comfortable and I was dancing like a pro. He was right. Again!730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAVwhgt6FT
“You have a brother?” I asked him while dancing with his hands on my waist and mine on his shoulders.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgURpuJqsP
“Yes. A younger brother.”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4DEh2yIZ1
“That’s nice. He stays with you?”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCZ00NR81R
“Yeah but we are not on good terms. He doesn’t like me and that goes both ways. We are used to it. I do not interfere with his life and he does the same.” He said, looking away.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKrWOUnBLB
I nodded slightly and continued to dance.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58Fopu1JPe
We were really enjoying the dance until I saw him.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lo6iSD3Sa
“Phoebus!” I shockingly said, pushing Amor back.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJu7y3xJhN
Phoebus was there. Looking at me. He was far but I could see the pain in his eyes. I stepped towards him but Amor stopped me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYp78usgs5
“What are you doing?” he asked.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfY3LJPaBx
“Amor, I saw Phoebus. He’s here.” I said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSgowiKXYi
“Yes, he is my brother. He has to be here.” He said.
“He’s your brother? Is this a joke?” I frowned.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZ4horQ1Yx
“You are saying as if it’s a big deal.” He said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBH1Ay3oNhq
“Amor, do you understand what you are saying right now? He is your brother and you didn’t tell me about this earlier. Why?” I shouted.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kOsgvB0cq
Everyone was looking at us.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNPwtuY493
“What are you doing Daphne? Everyone is looking at us.” he said, coming near me.
I pushed him back.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBtVIzpmXn
“I don’t care.” I said and ran from that hall, following Phoebus.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYUBlBa2yo
The pain I saw in his eyes was not explainable. He might be sad because I didn’t tell him about me coming with Amor or maybe because I didn’t reply to him about his dance proposal but went with Amor instead. I don’t know but all I know was I had hurt him. I ran in the heels just to find him.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPgjN21r66
Sequence of questions kept running in my mind.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNsZ4QHnST
How can Phoebus be the brother of Amor? They are related this close yet no one let others know about it, why?730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPT0LIkikAe
He was sitting, facing down near the footpath, in the dark just like he did in the park the other day. He was hurt about something then too.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iJaB8XB1U
I went near him.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhR3VGHlqEe
“Phoebus, I am sorry. I know I have hurt you. I didn't know he was your brother. Sorry.” I hugged him as he started sobbing.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ChQJiC5QO
The man who always made me smile in any form was crying because of me that day.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReKTMG5qtd
“I am sorry.” I cupped his face, wiping his tears.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09gz3vXMZh
“Why him?” He asked and I had no answer to that question.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuYuvUPWoe
“His name is not even Amor.” He said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZycOA2i0LZ
I asked his real name.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggMsH6HWef
He said, “Ares. His name is Ares. He had to run far from home because he was involved in drug peddling. He ran to Spain and years after he found out that I shifted here so even he came back to the country. All I wanted was to start a simple peaceful life but I can’t just because of him Daphne.”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2nDDwA1QX
Ares? The boy who made my sister’s life miserable? The man due to whom we had to leave our home?730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuWBJ7wnVL
“But you said you were from Delaware, right? You are from there then- then how…how?” I held both of his shoulders, showering the questions altogether at him.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsJuBZPs8W
“Yes, we are from Delaware. Our father worked in New Jersey, we lived there. After my parents’ death, I found Ares was involved in drug peddling. I complained about it to the police. He and others involved in it were arrested. I heard Ares ran to Spain after some days. I lived in Delaware with my grandfather until he died a few months back. I wanted to start a new life so I came here but he came back in my life, bringing all the terrors I had in the past. Since then he has wanted to hurt me.” he cried holding me tight.
Phoebus is the brother of someone who has messed up with my sister’s life, my family’s life.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBvgSqETY5
He continued, “Don’t you understand all he did was just to hurt me. He is using you.”730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1vZHHde4g
I was blanked. Whatever he was saying was incomprehensible to me.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Pr9vTEuj7
“Why me?” I asked him.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLhSmfgecK
“Because I love you. I love you.” He said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNy47oPlQW
Everything stopped for me at that moment. I didn’t know the way to process the thing I have been waiting to hear for months. He loves me?730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfp03jQBsbP
“What the hell Phoebus? You are the boyfriend of my best friend. Did you get that? Stop saying such things.” I pushed him back.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaWFTbfxle
“Daphne, listen to me. I fell in love with you at first sight.” He said.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TUEoAUfhd
“Stop it, I said. You are Bella’s boyfriend.” I kept walking back.730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsDZiBnl6jc
He said, "I could have but I found you...you, Daphne" my name from his mouth felt as soft as Bruno Mars's Just the Way You Are.
Bunch of personalities inside my head except the one I showed on my face screamed buss! I kept looking at his lips while he kept saying something until I felt warmth on my face. He was close, so so close. One could cross the ocean and travel through the forest through his eyes or could be stuck there forever if they wanted to. And I want to. Fuck! He's driving me crazy. I... I can't do this with Bella.
I pushed him back but my foot twisted and I was about to fall. I felt a force against gravity and I was surrounded with warmth, his arms. He squeezed me into his arms as if he was scared of me getting hurt.
“I can’t promise to never hurt you but I can’t let others hurt you too. I know the reason behind your denial. We’ll get out of this situation. We will. Once you know the truth.” I could feel his hot breath as he whispered into my ear.
Wait. We? Truth? What is the truth?
I looked into his eyes with a question, was he going to ditch on my friend with me? Oh god, no he can’t!
I pushed him back and ran without saying a word.
More than us, us? me and him, I was scared of losing Bella. She is my childhood friend with same ambition and more than our family gathering gossips, I am used to her stupid unstoppable talks.
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Dear Diary,730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu664pNm6Yk
I hope you don’t but,730Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBup82iMLf
do you feel whatever I am doing is wrong?
and then Add to home screen.