Dear Mateo,
It has been almost 24 hours since you died from the fire. I thought we would really survive our Death Cast calls together, but then it happened. You were so close, so close to beating the system. It hurts to even think that I wasn't awake with you when it first started.
We met and fell in love all in one night. Most people would say that it was a love that was soon to break after a few days, maybe even hours; but I believe it would have lasted, had you lasted. The journey we went on; when we went skydiving through virtual reality, when I told you how my End Day started, how I talked about Aimee, and all the other things that happened within such a short amount of time. I tend to think about all of the things we didn't get to do. What would it have been like if we went up Mount Everest together, or if we got to sail the seas on a piece of cardboard. What would have happened if we never told each other anything and we just went out and had fun?
Those are some questions that I ponder, but the main one that comes to my mind is-"What would our End Days be like if we hadn't met each other on Last Friend? Would you have stayed home and been miserable that you were going to come to an end? Would I have continued to go after my ex-girlfriend's new boyfriend and beat the shit out of him? When I think about every possible outcome of us not meeting, I'm upset by it. I'm really glad that I found you on Last Friend. Within the short amount of time we had together, you have shown me things that I have never seen, you have made me feel things that I have never felt, and, overall, you have changed my life. Who knew that a random person who I hardly knew could change my life forever, am I right?
I know this seems unlike me, but I have been sobbing since the fire took you away from me. I know I have always seemed like the tough guy, especially since I started my day off by beating up somebody, but even I can cry sometimes. It has only been 24 hours, but I miss you so much. Sometimes, I wake up in the morning, thinking that you are right beside me, but then I remember what happened. I have been restless at night, and I cannot fall asleep with the painful memory.
I miss you Mateo, I wish you were still here, and I love you. I love you so much, and I didn't know that I could love someone so much. I didn't even love Aimee this much. But, somehow, you turned my heart anew and you broke it, all at the same time. I can't be mad at you though, because I love you that much. I'm sorry that I wasn't with you when you died.
-Love, Rufus
P.S. Why haven't I died yet?
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