「又...又會咁突然?」我同老豆一樣,隻手不自覺咁微震。就算以前想像過千萬次同阿媽重逢嘅場景,都冇將而家呢個放落其中之一。119Please respect copyright.PENANAHMCQdwlkO4
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「係囉,又會咁啱係個腦,你話個天幾大整蠱。」老豆答。119Please respect copyright.PENANAknUd6J64P8
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我走入病房,床上面有個女人帶住冷帽,貌似好精神咁凝望住我同老豆,但臉色嘅蒼白已經顯現出佢嘅衰弱。119Please respect copyright.PENANACpi9cRbvvv
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原來佢就係我阿媽,我其實一早唔記得佢係咩樣,大概係街上面撞倒都唔會認得果隻。原來佢好靚,係一種純淨無害嘅靚,大概同阿南係同一種美。難怪會有兩個男人為佢爭風吃醋,甚至令輸者難以忘懷。119Please respect copyright.PENANACrPb4cP3LB
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「珊,呢個就係阿正。」老豆向阿媽介紹我,要向阿媽介紹自己親生仔,總感覺有啲奇怪。119Please respect copyright.PENANAMajDOdFyAV
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「正...李卓正。咁大個咁高喇。」佢向我微笑。119Please respect copyright.PENANAbm9FCEkFID
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我點點頭,唔知應該以咩反應去應對。119Please respect copyright.PENANA2Oq2YWqwPq
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「阿媽。」幾經掙扎,我都係叫咗佢一聲。一聽到我咁嗌佢,佢徘徊喺眼圈嘅眼淚已經不停咁流落嚟。或者佢都估唔到,我會咁不計前嫌咁叫佢。
可能因為呢句「阿媽」,同喺街邊同一個陌生人講句「唔該」一樣咁普通,係冇攜帶任何感情或者想法。119Please respect copyright.PENANAJTsyRf9Edp
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但呢一刻,可能係十幾年嚟,第一次嘅「一家團聚」。119Please respect copyright.PENANAliUqyYwv2X
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頭先講過,我曾經幻想過呢一刻會係點。會係好溫馨咁大家攬住對方?定係一家人去唔同嘅地方玩?總之都係一啲好美好嘅畫面。但由細個開始已經好盼望嘅「一家團聚」,到真係發生嘅呢一刻,我竟然一啲開心嘅感覺都冇。119Please respect copyright.PENANADVwIbDzjFH
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阿媽不斷喺到同我講返我細個啲嘢,令我感覺到佢希望透過我哋之間稀少嘅回憶嚟同我拉近距離。可惜,佢越係講得生動,就越令我覺得討厭。119Please respect copyright.PENANAgYECHWOAUj
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而家即係算點?喺最後嘅日子先嚟玩溫情?原來自己口中嘅唔介意,只係以為以後唔會再見先做到嘅豁達,一旦再見,果種鬱結又會重新走出嚟。119Please respect copyright.PENANAwEis9FBR55
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但礙於佢係病人,我亦冇當場發難,只有將一口口嘅怨氣監生吞落肚。119Please respect copyright.PENANApgamfnSB9V
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而呢個團聚嘅時間亦都只有短短十分鐘,阿媽嘅「現任」已經出現,即使見到我哋一家,仍然若無其事咁走入嚟,終止我哋相隔十幾年嘅重聚,就好似當年一個唔該,就走入嚟破壞我屋企,搶走阿媽,得返我同老豆相依為命。
「老豆,我返屋企先,阿媽,你好好休息。」喺呢個就嚟窒息嘅空間,我耗盡我最後一絲嘅寬容,令場面唔會以尷尬作結。119Please respect copyright.PENANAm9rTAxjx0U
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「正。」阿媽叫住咗我。119Please respect copyright.PENANAoeNIsOwuag
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「手術果日,你會唔會嚟支持我?」119Please respect copyright.PENANAuIzXCZA0sa
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「或者啦。」我答完之後就走咗,原諒我真係放唔低。119Please respect copyright.PENANAuNSnDMDnR9
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返到屋企樓下,發現阿月一個人喺大堂到瞓著咗。119Please respect copyright.PENANAT6BXU9bCfr
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「喂。」我拍一拍佢,佢先迷迷糊糊咁醒。119Please respect copyright.PENANA1fvFgeoyFh
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「咁大冷氣你又唔著衫,一陣冷親。」我講。119Please respect copyright.PENANAwv7HQKnkOL
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「你...冇嘢啊嘛?」一見到我,佢就問。119Please respect copyright.PENANA4fEG0PMNOa
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「咩嘢?」119Please respect copyright.PENANApYmDvr7VJY
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「我見你咁趕咁走咗,又冇覆Whatsapp,所以怕你有咩事。」佢答。
其實上天對我都唔差,失去阿南,又將阿月帶到我身邊。119Please respect copyright.PENANAtjZHHdCQpK
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「白痴,上嚟瞓啦。」我摸一摸佢個頭。119Please respect copyright.PENANAfEiblOuKyj
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上到屋企,佢反而好精神咁拉我到梳化,佢屈起膝咁坐上梳化,唔覺意揚起校裙,俾我睇倒佢黑色嘅喱士底褲。119Please respect copyright.PENANAWMFGx84FJP
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「坐好啲啦,走曬光。」我講。119Please respect copyright.PENANA40apyCKJrt
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「你唔望咪得囉。」佢不負責任咁講,但仍然安份地轉換返個坐姿。119Please respect copyright.PENANAVidIPKRA9Z
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「點解你永遠都咁包拗頸?」119Please respect copyright.PENANAabT4vIAbpW
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「自己覺得啱就要堅持啦,只係好似自己覺得啱嘅嘢往往都有人覺得錯姐。」119Please respect copyright.PENANAmsjJMF7Lxi
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「走光都啱?」119Please respect copyright.PENANAj55BvPUKTI
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「走光邊有話啱定錯㗎,我覺得啱嘅係,喺鐘意嘅人面前就係可以比較隨性啲。」佢已經唔會掩飾對我嘅感覺。119Please respect copyright.PENANAk8eytuNX2H