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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH9YPFL5sZW
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMwBpqUDoe
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH27NqBraO8
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwEs5Jy6gE
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxs9CO4ArS
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7Yi3YIFzO
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGimtjTJkoF
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2zB02Kbuw
One day, I will be killed by myself
180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkPRLvNiAsThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH27NqBraO8
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwEs5Jy6gE
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxs9CO4ArS
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7Yi3YIFzO
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGimtjTJkoF
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2zB02Kbuw
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT3AIR0imo
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKZgEmrrqy
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKQocTwmwY
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN1AcyUrJL
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W26Nu1HBA
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I can answer those ramblings180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeGrww3czz
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Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYruHOYc4YK
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWA6MZO6Gk
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKQocTwmwY
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN1AcyUrJL
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W26Nu1HBA
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQip05iZtW
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I can answer those ramblings180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeGrww3czz
As easy as conducting an experiment180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kDgsj4eO4
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYruHOYc4YK
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWA6MZO6Gk
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMaUmF1XOT
I have already gone crazy and mad180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1OVyDFaEP
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With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdgn9vcnoS
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobmvHaZrFv
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As my author said, I could not live happily ever after180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB63FqU9UAm
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Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lwPg0fypz
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I have already lost it all
180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHtYRk4wAi"This is all my fault"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCh2DVffJ3
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMaUmF1XOT
I have already gone crazy and mad180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1OVyDFaEP
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnRSrNoy9q
"It is alright"180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo143NmheUK
And it became alright for me180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6JoCtAgPX
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdgn9vcnoS
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobmvHaZrFv
Though, does it matter anymore ?180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8KPiGmdoX
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXIho3JC97
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB63FqU9UAm
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Am I the weird one here? 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzI2OSwGG7
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Am I the wrong one here?180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaRdNXvcqx
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Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMmFpOKC3o
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpRjbc3wHy
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Times that are as pure as crystal clear180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJMX2Bv5oV
I was happy before180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3o0DDdyst
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaGV7F5872
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I was happy before180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3o0DDdyst
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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