沒什麼比不熟練的擁抱,更令人尷尬的了。455Please respect copyright.PENANA6flV73LxeF
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柳思堇上次主動擁抱的記憶,大概是父母頭七那天,自己對著哭得比雨勢還大的弟弟,獻出了冰冷的擁抱。455Please respect copyright.PENANAz7r3lRo7GU
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她聽過一種說法,擁抱是身為個體的人類,最能感受彼此的方法。貼緊彼此後,左右同時感覺到心臟的跳動,唯有那時,人才是平衡而完整的。455Please respect copyright.PENANAV0n5wA9iqr
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但那時的她沒有任何感覺,心跳反而隨著窗外的雨聲拍打,更加破碎了。也從那刻起,柳思堇自行驗證了一個道理——擁抱並不會帶來什麼,是毫無意義的行為。455Please respect copyright.PENANAuZl5pHVAa4
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即使如此,在一片寂寥中看見熟悉的身影時,失去的能力竟死灰復燃,再次做出反常的行為。455Please respect copyright.PENANAJolaqJcHuk
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將上身的重量,逐步朝懷中薄弱的身板施加,髮絲的香氣與潮濕的青草味夾伴而來,柳思堇刻意將臉貼近些,進一步汲取這些味道。455Please respect copyright.PENANAmdv5DCMja9
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夏日、蟬鳴、悶熱無風。肌膚、心跳、胸口起伏。455Please respect copyright.PENANAVVDnEyPX94
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看似羅曼蒂克的畫面,彆扭卻充分顯現在雙手上。455Please respect copyright.PENANAfKBYKiatDE
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胳膊像是斷了線的人偶,聞風不動地掛巫祈海胸前,動作滑稽。455Please respect copyright.PENANA2KIBZlFL6L
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她忍不住暗自吐槽,如果能更果斷抱住,就會更帥氣一點吧?跟口袋小說的霸道總裁一樣,光這招就能輕易擄獲他人的心。455Please respect copyright.PENANAT3V1LaTtGB
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「⋯⋯不安心呢。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAsTkp2fDxdK
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只可惜,巫祈海並非膚淺的女人,而柳思堇的世界,更不是一本俗套的情愛小說。455Please respect copyright.PENANAakLg3H1V2X
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意想不到的回答,柳思堇渾身一顫,「啊?」455Please respect copyright.PENANADECphvg4WT
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巫祈海反手一抓,緊扣胸前的手,深深一按,「再用力一點。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAyG7EL7YQec
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⋯⋯原來她口中的「碰」,是這麼激烈的嗎?455Please respect copyright.PENANAXisvVz0UWA
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命令一出,氣氛瞬間變調,柳思堇像輸入指令的機器人般,嘗試圈起僵硬的胳膊,「呃⋯⋯這樣?」455Please respect copyright.PENANAvPGwH01yPd
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「再用力。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAVZdyQi3nbq
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「這樣?」455Please respect copyright.PENANAAEyaZrj8mg
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「⋯⋯妳真的不會抱人呢。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAzCgeEhLBoV
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似乎是沒興致繼續調教,巫祈海逕自起身,直接脫離懷抱,朝前方的遊樂設施走去。455Please respect copyright.PENANAT4rZmeeUyF
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哈,這是被拒絕了嗎⋯⋯455Please respect copyright.PENANA65naFiDCxW
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柳思堇摸摸鼻子,同時也鬆一口氣,畢竟從兩人接觸開始,心律就一直居高不下。趕緊調適呼吸後,她也邁開腳步,走近眼前的城堡造型溜滑梯,才發現巫祈海早正往上攀爬,動作流暢又迅速。455Please respect copyright.PENANAcArkTPPK6P
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見眼前的人莫名開始玩耍,柳思堇皺起眉頭出聲,「所以,這樣就好了嗎?」455Please respect copyright.PENANA9GX0kOTTjH
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巫祈海沒有停止動作,站到上方的高台,冷冷一瞥,「嗯,妳可以回去了。」455Please respect copyright.PENANACPv5LnAMoL
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完全搞不懂每日一見的用意。455Please respect copyright.PENANAdSn82yIQzZ
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依照柳思堇的性格,肯定懶得爭辯,就這麼拍拍屁股回家了。但白時杰所言確實產生了餘韻,在前往車途中,她早已鐵了心腸,要是沒能問出心中的疑惑,絕不罷休。455Please respect copyright.PENANAIir56rRXBO
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於是,柳思堇深吸一口氣,提高音量大喊,「學姐我——」455Please respect copyright.PENANAgZpVc3U3HS
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「快回去吧,很晚了。」巫祈海再次無情打斷,同時投以勸退眼神,「明天還要去阿嬤家吧?」455Please respect copyright.PENANASdX3WOpPqw
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⋯⋯她怎麼會知道?455Please respect copyright.PENANAO0zJBshhgZ
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柳思堇十分確信,除了曾傳過大海的照片以外,從未向她提起這回事。455Please respect copyright.PENANA3OS8WFOEsc
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神經敏感處被狠很戳中,再次有股裸露的毛骨悚然,搭配夏日晚上的濕黏感,詭異又燥熱。455Please respect copyright.PENANAez7PiqXukV
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不能就這樣打道回府,太遜了。455Please respect copyright.PENANAzrWqyhV9kx
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絲毫未退,柳思堇再次開口叫喚,「學姐。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAImkEfaSp46
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這回巫祈海直接不理會,趴在高台的欄杆處,抬頭仰望漆黑的夜空。455Please respect copyright.PENANAIWoj6elrZR
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柳思堇停頓了半晌,先清了嗓後,精明地修正,「顏值迷倒眾生的神仙學姐。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAx5AoQpfhUQ
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巫祈海的視線立刻拉了回來,她輕點頭表示批准,「請說。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAVBwv56JHeG
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——靠,真不要臉。455Please respect copyright.PENANAUvi6RVLroS
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壓抑想吐槽的心,柳思堇接續,「我有一些問題想釐清。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAsUu4U9q80R
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巫祈海冷靜地抽出手機,藍光在昏暗中亮起,「三十分鐘內結束。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAePTZf4uOsA
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「啊?為什——」455Please respect copyright.PENANA6oGC5Aa5Wy
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手指在螢幕上輕點後,巫祈海將手機反轉,讓對方能清楚看見畫面。455Please respect copyright.PENANAWgCYieyV8w
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「計時開始。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAzd17dGjblU
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看著秒秒流逝的倒數畫面,柳思堇感覺自己猶如抱著一顆定時炸彈,如果隨便提問,就會被對方強行爆破,敗興而歸。455Please respect copyright.PENANAet4b8WgVy1
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但,一瞬間有太多問題湧上,她不曉得該從何開始梳理。455Please respect copyright.PENANAZmXsIpjo0z
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打從一開始,就是為了利益靠近我的嗎?455Please respect copyright.PENANAjDZXX2AUdI
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白時杰說的都是真的嗎?455Please respect copyright.PENANAQZXpUPJ0b7
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對我⋯⋯說謊了嗎?455Please respect copyright.PENANAV9iv9dc8q3
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假使開口就是陰謀論,可能會引來不悅。供出白時杰的說詞,也可能來到懸崖邊緣。455Please respect copyright.PENANAu7bZZgQ8dx
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「剩二十五分鐘。」455Please respect copyright.PENANA89dIsYi7gM
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所謂時間就是金錢,她可不想做賠本生意。柳思堇最終放棄掙扎,神情疲憊,聲音也變得虛弱,「⋯⋯學姐,我們是真的夥伴吧?」455Please respect copyright.PENANAHxUJ46tdy8
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還真是一點都不帥氣的問法。455Please respect copyright.PENANAdjw9lSepjx
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但也算是直接表達了,自己對於這段關係的疑慮。455Please respect copyright.PENANAqKOYXZAcen
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「沒錯。」巫祈海仍然面無表情,趴在高台的欄杆上,像傲視江山的君主,「我收服妳了。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAtjZQiSBjK6
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——啥?什麼時候?455Please respect copyright.PENANAtzZRXQgenG
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為了寶貴的時間,柳思堇不想多辯,近一步提問,「如果是的話,還能再更深入了解吧?」455Please respect copyright.PENANAry4KGmJzrH
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巫祈海微微瞇起眼,「妳想了解什麼?」455Please respect copyright.PENANAkecuDbveFz
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「哈,說得好像我講了,妳就會告訴我一樣⋯⋯」早看穿對方看似有求必應,實質閉口不談的語法,柳思堇忍不住碎念,「目前為止,不都是只透露想讓我看見的一面嗎⋯⋯」455Please respect copyright.PENANACmXIMV1vXR
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與其說是埋怨,在靜謐的空間中,更像直接對擴音器高喊的公告。455Please respect copyright.PENANAUl65yTxlR3
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巫祈海陷入沉默,肯定是聽得一清二楚。柳思堇自覺不妙,有股下一秒就要崩局的預感。455Please respect copyright.PENANAMzgw96s04O
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可一切風平浪靜,巫祈海更丟出了另一個提案,「那來玩個遊戲吧。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAADpxdVWyiY
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「⋯⋯什麼遊戲?」455Please respect copyright.PENANAIOA6wwcDrz
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「輪流說出三個關於自己的秘密,而且絕不能說謊。」巫祈海伸出手,指溜滑梯下面的狹窄空間,冷冷一笑,「違反規則的人,今晚就睡在這裡。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAtxQ833HE6E
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——地獄版真心話大冒險?455Please respect copyright.PENANAlogUcrbX7i
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她完全不想參與,可又好奇巫祈海的回答。同時在腦中探尋,究竟什麼是屬於自己的秘密。455Please respect copyright.PENANAWgu8LiE0MK
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說得了花吐症的話,會被認為是騙人的吧⋯⋯455Please respect copyright.PENANAu2aJ3wlaCS
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於是,柳思堇直接拋出無傷大雅的秘密,「我小時候,曾經撕走我弟漫畫的其中幾頁,但沒跟他講。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAX8havlEJx0
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準確來說,是BL漫畫中最為激烈的幾頁。至於最後放到哪去了,她可以很不負責任地說,完全不記得。455Please respect copyright.PENANAwJa3wZQa9o
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輪到巫祈海的回合,她沒有任何遲疑,迅速地給出第二個答案,「我沒和白時杰交往,更沒有任何好感,他只為了利益接近我。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAsqAWCAFyUV
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「呃,我⋯⋯其實聽得見花說話的聲音。」頓時慌亂,柳思堇不自覺抖出另一個事實,同時指向對角的小花圃,「像那邊的花,正在說里長的八卦,我集中精神就能聽到。」455Please respect copyright.PENANArBdq1tCEWn
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此話一出,向來和善的酢漿花精靈罕見動怒了。455Please respect copyright.PENANAhn3ffs3RYu
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『小鬼!妳這是侵犯隱私權!說里長八卦有犯法嗎!』455Please respect copyright.PENANAxyro3gSRGx
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「我不是巫家的直系血親。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAWSkX1tfYR4
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巫祈海冷靜說出的第二個秘密,蓋過了遠方的騷動。455Please respect copyright.PENANAxGBqFxjnYA
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她低垂視線,平淡地彷彿是在描述外人的過往,「所以,在家族體系中,一直遭人詬病。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAqI9NR8BTFN
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⋯⋯怎麼回事?455Please respect copyright.PENANAeXWwAVewmD
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第二個秘密,確實讓她愣了。至今聽見的傳聞中,巫祈海都是身世顯赫的名門大小姐,絕非虛假的名份。455Please respect copyright.PENANAvToNQMbsMy
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柳思堇腦中猛然浮現一個畫面,從墓地回來的車程中,當自己半夢半醒時,一片模糊中看見巫祈海的神情。哪怕再不清晰,也能察覺,那是從未見過的情緒。455Please respect copyright.PENANAd0nEk9BxrR
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比起真相帶來的衝擊,更刺痛柳思堇的,是對於孤軍奮戰的心疼。455Please respect copyright.PENANAgQ2GiXDnu3
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——她到底在背負些什麼?455Please respect copyright.PENANAs3NiSzQi0p
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剛才也是,一個人坐在鞦韆上的時候,又在想什麼呢?455Please respect copyright.PENANA1w8SmfbM4u
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「第三個。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAnv2WCauW8H
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眼看計時器倒數十五分鐘,柳思堇腦子一熱,「我——」455Please respect copyright.PENANArVJogI1Q1X
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「妳喜歡巫祈海?」455Please respect copyright.PENANA8LZbVBgNxP
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懸在心裡的質問,使她猛然踩了煞車。455Please respect copyright.PENANAem7QkhoCLj
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連自己都搞不懂的,又算什麼秘密啊⋯⋯455Please respect copyright.PENANAKX3mK9WT0a
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暴露自我的不安,與想要了解對方的渴望產生衝突,在體內產生一股動力,正把自己往前推。455Please respect copyright.PENANApSwSa1hjqa
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「我其實⋯⋯」壓抑胃裡翻騰的酸意,柳思堇低下頭,徬徨的指節緊揪衣襬,「喜歡⋯⋯」455Please respect copyright.PENANAinNb727oHS
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她深吸一口氣,感覺毛孔都在顫抖。455Please respect copyright.PENANA0qIEYZjUOS
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最終真正打破寂靜的,並非回答,而是一陣響亮的碰撞聲。柳思堇餘光一瞥,能感覺巫祈海從上方溜了下來,最後因不明原因,停在下方不動。455Please respect copyright.PENANA1mR1N6b2Pd
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柳思堇睜大眼,立刻捕捉到她白皙的指尖上,正緩慢溢出鮮血。455Please respect copyright.PENANASzruf0ZAp3
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於是,她立刻衝上前,彎身打算攙扶,「學姐!妳沒——」455Please respect copyright.PENANAx6tZXKenLb
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哐!455Please respect copyright.PENANADsavAopKG3
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下個瞬間,一陣天旋地轉,柳思堇感覺自己被巫祈海一手拽過,重心不穩,雙手反射性撐起身體,最終變成趴臥姿勢,更因角度使然,幾乎是讓巫祈海整張臉貼在胸口。455Please respect copyright.PENANA7Cing2BJ4o
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在如此憋屈的處境下,懷中的巫祈海出聲了,「所以,妳喜歡什麼?」455Please respect copyright.PENANAprlfwSY7ca
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柳思堇感覺自己一腳踩入了陷阱,也從肌膚的寒顫上,意識到一個最為根本的問題。455Please respect copyright.PENANA3jMEQzWPJq
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⋯⋯竟然在害怕啊。455Please respect copyright.PENANAKa11oYVYXw
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時近七月底,距離當初答覆的期限,確實只剩不到一個月了。嘗試與真相碰撞的後果,就是可能兩敗俱傷。455Please respect copyright.PENANAaO0rhaVRUV
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明明不喜歡擁抱,也不覺得需要擁抱,卻在動搖的時刻,希望藉由不像樣的肢體接觸,渴望從對方身上得到些什麼。455Please respect copyright.PENANAlCxs0LKCwt
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兩隻刺蝟擁抱的話,會因為張揚的刺而傷害彼此嗎?455Please respect copyright.PENANAR6avyPkBDR
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我們的關係,會因為這個回答,迎來終結嗎?455Please respect copyright.PENANAbXV8lTfYUd
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不安的人,正是自己。455Please respect copyright.PENANAsanKtSDr8c
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「沒事的。」看穿了這份忐忑,巫祈海伸出雙手,用力環住柳思堇的腰際,「無論說什麼,我都不會遠離妳。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAiElDLcj7hw
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如此簡單的動作,卻大幅減少了心中的亂流。柳思堇初次理解,擁抱或許是有意義的,是類似止痛劑般的存在。455Please respect copyright.PENANA7MVkudU58e
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一直以來,在來不及感到疼痛前,自己就預備了所有止痛的方法,強行隔絕一切,深怕被人再次揭開瘡疤。455Please respect copyright.PENANAWAXy5TjyVG
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但在這個人面前,確實有股無論揭示多深刻的傷痕,都能被接受的安穩感。455Please respect copyright.PENANAs6ELdkxtsy
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「⋯⋯喜歡⋯⋯」於是,柳思堇小心翼翼動著身體,拉開兩人的距離,閉上雙眼,用氣音回答,「⋯⋯女⋯⋯女生⋯⋯」455Please respect copyright.PENANA25DYsOJ1Q0
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最終,比起無法曖昧的答案,還是選擇了篤定的答案。455Please respect copyright.PENANANUhRwjnMqC
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腦袋頓時熱得發脹,像殼裡鑽入成千上百隻蚊蚋,擠得水泄不通。柳思堇不敢睜眼,深怕看見對方任何一丁點嫌棄的反應。455Please respect copyright.PENANAZqrofiO51n
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而下一秒,溫熱的觸感在肌膚上劃開來。455Please respect copyright.PENANAjqYsLXXMkG
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「嗯,那換我了。」455Please respect copyright.PENANAYxCWRlaRdo
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巫祈海抬起頭,用還沾著血的指尖,輕碰柳思堇泛紅的臉頰。455Please respect copyright.PENANAsEPgoPwuiU
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「柳思堇。」455Please respect copyright.PENANANUwE6M0600
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紫灰色眼眸炯然地眨著,彷彿是黑暗中唯一的光源。455Please respect copyright.PENANAhMIATZxbEg
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「早在很久以前,我就認識妳了。」
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