沒什麼比不熟練的擁抱,更令人尷尬的了。449Please respect copyright.PENANAYIgRYy93H0
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柳思堇上次主動擁抱的記憶,大概是父母頭七那天,自己對著哭得比雨勢還大的弟弟,獻出了冰冷的擁抱。449Please respect copyright.PENANAkAGjMT4umx
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她聽過一種說法,擁抱是身為個體的人類,最能感受彼此的方法。貼緊彼此後,左右同時感覺到心臟的跳動,唯有那時,人才是平衡而完整的。449Please respect copyright.PENANAaPPl30m2zu
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但那時的她沒有任何感覺,心跳反而隨著窗外的雨聲拍打,更加破碎了。也從那刻起,柳思堇自行驗證了一個道理——擁抱並不會帶來什麼,是毫無意義的行為。449Please respect copyright.PENANAHv2c6gRz6c
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即使如此,在一片寂寥中看見熟悉的身影時,失去的能力竟死灰復燃,再次做出反常的行為。449Please respect copyright.PENANA7vpDigBI7a
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將上身的重量,逐步朝懷中薄弱的身板施加,髮絲的香氣與潮濕的青草味夾伴而來,柳思堇刻意將臉貼近些,進一步汲取這些味道。449Please respect copyright.PENANAEbpJLrKRGs
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夏日、蟬鳴、悶熱無風。肌膚、心跳、胸口起伏。449Please respect copyright.PENANAaHaxrtDsCW
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看似羅曼蒂克的畫面,彆扭卻充分顯現在雙手上。449Please respect copyright.PENANA223Hh2p6rQ
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胳膊像是斷了線的人偶,聞風不動地掛巫祈海胸前,動作滑稽。449Please respect copyright.PENANACeg8EFdrbq
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她忍不住暗自吐槽,如果能更果斷抱住,就會更帥氣一點吧?跟口袋小說的霸道總裁一樣,光這招就能輕易擄獲他人的心。449Please respect copyright.PENANAKAIx0bXYtE
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「⋯⋯不安心呢。」449Please respect copyright.PENANA0fkYXWoOl1
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只可惜,巫祈海並非膚淺的女人,而柳思堇的世界,更不是一本俗套的情愛小說。449Please respect copyright.PENANAD5HbYT7RO5
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意想不到的回答,柳思堇渾身一顫,「啊?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAhEYszjo6l8
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巫祈海反手一抓,緊扣胸前的手,深深一按,「再用力一點。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAuo0dg2O4Ba
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⋯⋯原來她口中的「碰」,是這麼激烈的嗎?449Please respect copyright.PENANAna3zJdJBij
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命令一出,氣氛瞬間變調,柳思堇像輸入指令的機器人般,嘗試圈起僵硬的胳膊,「呃⋯⋯這樣?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAH7D0CRoF8y
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「再用力。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAzyhcve5uNE
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「這樣?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAEQABR8Yvdn
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「⋯⋯妳真的不會抱人呢。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAaGcfuP4n7s
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似乎是沒興致繼續調教,巫祈海逕自起身,直接脫離懷抱,朝前方的遊樂設施走去。449Please respect copyright.PENANArdpBLVXMsa
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哈,這是被拒絕了嗎⋯⋯449Please respect copyright.PENANAPpcPxK4xEU
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柳思堇摸摸鼻子,同時也鬆一口氣,畢竟從兩人接觸開始,心律就一直居高不下。趕緊調適呼吸後,她也邁開腳步,走近眼前的城堡造型溜滑梯,才發現巫祈海早正往上攀爬,動作流暢又迅速。449Please respect copyright.PENANA7vOHwBB7Fc
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見眼前的人莫名開始玩耍,柳思堇皺起眉頭出聲,「所以,這樣就好了嗎?」449Please respect copyright.PENANApbCRtyBmda
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巫祈海沒有停止動作,站到上方的高台,冷冷一瞥,「嗯,妳可以回去了。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAj9XVfZvESV
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⋯⋯?449Please respect copyright.PENANAKeMNhrlLcE
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完全搞不懂每日一見的用意。449Please respect copyright.PENANA6Kl64swVE0
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依照柳思堇的性格,肯定懶得爭辯,就這麼拍拍屁股回家了。但白時杰所言確實產生了餘韻,在前往車途中,她早已鐵了心腸,要是沒能問出心中的疑惑,絕不罷休。449Please respect copyright.PENANAf5g8afgZHD
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於是,柳思堇深吸一口氣,提高音量大喊,「學姐我——」449Please respect copyright.PENANANTCc8DWqmT
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「快回去吧,很晚了。」巫祈海再次無情打斷,同時投以勸退眼神,「明天還要去阿嬤家吧?」449Please respect copyright.PENANA2ahJAaqyAS
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⋯⋯她怎麼會知道?449Please respect copyright.PENANAYOLIZRTvJo
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柳思堇十分確信,除了曾傳過大海的照片以外,從未向她提起這回事。449Please respect copyright.PENANA2iqwF5w4rc
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神經敏感處被狠很戳中,再次有股裸露的毛骨悚然,搭配夏日晚上的濕黏感,詭異又燥熱。449Please respect copyright.PENANA82dad0aSVa
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不能就這樣打道回府,太遜了。449Please respect copyright.PENANAIDZcyHv5P0
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絲毫未退,柳思堇再次開口叫喚,「學姐。」449Please respect copyright.PENANApY8DU7FOPW
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這回巫祈海直接不理會,趴在高台的欄杆處,抬頭仰望漆黑的夜空。449Please respect copyright.PENANALa3xAfwfAM
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柳思堇停頓了半晌,先清了嗓後,精明地修正,「顏值迷倒眾生的神仙學姐。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAgi8eUXnSsO
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巫祈海的視線立刻拉了回來,她輕點頭表示批准,「請說。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAinh7VE7rTH
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——靠,真不要臉。449Please respect copyright.PENANAgeb02UiHZs
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壓抑想吐槽的心,柳思堇接續,「我有一些問題想釐清。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAxCDthaxibn
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巫祈海冷靜地抽出手機,藍光在昏暗中亮起,「三十分鐘內結束。」449Please respect copyright.PENANANg77yYAIIw
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「啊?為什——」449Please respect copyright.PENANAZvgDPyjGR0
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手指在螢幕上輕點後,巫祈海將手機反轉,讓對方能清楚看見畫面。449Please respect copyright.PENANAh8GAonPqJQ
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「計時開始。」449Please respect copyright.PENANARzxUQiZfq1
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看著秒秒流逝的倒數畫面,柳思堇感覺自己猶如抱著一顆定時炸彈,如果隨便提問,就會被對方強行爆破,敗興而歸。449Please respect copyright.PENANAByV7paTa6V
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但,一瞬間有太多問題湧上,她不曉得該從何開始梳理。449Please respect copyright.PENANARTmVwqI78y
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打從一開始,就是為了利益靠近我的嗎?449Please respect copyright.PENANA8qUfzNE4xj
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白時杰說的都是真的嗎?449Please respect copyright.PENANAKuEKOKeGVI
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對我⋯⋯說謊了嗎?449Please respect copyright.PENANApCClzlbhvb
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假使開口就是陰謀論,可能會引來不悅。供出白時杰的說詞,也可能來到懸崖邊緣。449Please respect copyright.PENANA1d0Ih1tn0M
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「剩二十五分鐘。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAciwMwwKRNv
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所謂時間就是金錢,她可不想做賠本生意。柳思堇最終放棄掙扎,神情疲憊,聲音也變得虛弱,「⋯⋯學姐,我們是真的夥伴吧?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAYov03fWYzt
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還真是一點都不帥氣的問法。449Please respect copyright.PENANAYCtwow1h1R
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但也算是直接表達了,自己對於這段關係的疑慮。449Please respect copyright.PENANAHUW6Liu6Uo
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「沒錯。」巫祈海仍然面無表情,趴在高台的欄杆上,像傲視江山的君主,「我收服妳了。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAaTHtFafkD6
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——啥?什麼時候?449Please respect copyright.PENANAH4vODDhrhn
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為了寶貴的時間,柳思堇不想多辯,近一步提問,「如果是的話,還能再更深入了解吧?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAOVKfsFPSa7
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巫祈海微微瞇起眼,「妳想了解什麼?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAkNoi4eKzmi
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「哈,說得好像我講了,妳就會告訴我一樣⋯⋯」早看穿對方看似有求必應,實質閉口不談的語法,柳思堇忍不住碎念,「目前為止,不都是只透露想讓我看見的一面嗎⋯⋯」449Please respect copyright.PENANA9dK2snSDGf
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與其說是埋怨,在靜謐的空間中,更像直接對擴音器高喊的公告。449Please respect copyright.PENANAvK2K9jqyZT
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巫祈海陷入沉默,肯定是聽得一清二楚。柳思堇自覺不妙,有股下一秒就要崩局的預感。449Please respect copyright.PENANAXHhh7UKqxP
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可一切風平浪靜,巫祈海更丟出了另一個提案,「那來玩個遊戲吧。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAg8szUhf67r
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「⋯⋯什麼遊戲?」449Please respect copyright.PENANABr6mkjroIO
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「輪流說出三個關於自己的秘密,而且絕不能說謊。」巫祈海伸出手,指溜滑梯下面的狹窄空間,冷冷一笑,「違反規則的人,今晚就睡在這裡。」449Please respect copyright.PENANA4WPuTcnDnS
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——地獄版真心話大冒險?449Please respect copyright.PENANAxgU0kN5OIJ
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她完全不想參與,可又好奇巫祈海的回答。同時在腦中探尋,究竟什麼是屬於自己的秘密。449Please respect copyright.PENANAiR8DniuGnM
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說得了花吐症的話,會被認為是騙人的吧⋯⋯449Please respect copyright.PENANApG8SPhiMQg
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於是,柳思堇直接拋出無傷大雅的秘密,「我小時候,曾經撕走我弟漫畫的其中幾頁,但沒跟他講。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAdinDlh3Ucg
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準確來說,是BL漫畫中最為激烈的幾頁。至於最後放到哪去了,她可以很不負責任地說,完全不記得。449Please respect copyright.PENANAJk6uOcDRYR
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輪到巫祈海的回合,她沒有任何遲疑,迅速地給出第二個答案,「我沒和白時杰交往,更沒有任何好感,他只為了利益接近我。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAXXimnR0VbQ
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「呃,我⋯⋯其實聽得見花說話的聲音。」頓時慌亂,柳思堇不自覺抖出另一個事實,同時指向對角的小花圃,「像那邊的花,正在說里長的八卦,我集中精神就能聽到。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAIujh6Jehlq
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此話一出,向來和善的酢漿花精靈罕見動怒了。449Please respect copyright.PENANAa2jhdrvLPx
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『小鬼!妳這是侵犯隱私權!說里長八卦有犯法嗎!』449Please respect copyright.PENANAUuhXD4Wgci
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「我不是巫家的直系血親。」449Please respect copyright.PENANA8ofNqhEpkP
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巫祈海冷靜說出的第二個秘密,蓋過了遠方的騷動。449Please respect copyright.PENANA1ImbQsX2Ly
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她低垂視線,平淡地彷彿是在描述外人的過往,「所以,在家族體系中,一直遭人詬病。」449Please respect copyright.PENANA8lNa7FQSUw
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⋯⋯怎麼回事?449Please respect copyright.PENANAoab26XGDSR
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第二個秘密,確實讓她愣了。至今聽見的傳聞中,巫祈海都是身世顯赫的名門大小姐,絕非虛假的名份。449Please respect copyright.PENANANQMsRDsBCa
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柳思堇腦中猛然浮現一個畫面,從墓地回來的車程中,當自己半夢半醒時,一片模糊中看見巫祈海的神情。哪怕再不清晰,也能察覺,那是從未見過的情緒。449Please respect copyright.PENANA2HaztnwwxZ
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比起真相帶來的衝擊,更刺痛柳思堇的,是對於孤軍奮戰的心疼。449Please respect copyright.PENANAP3M0LUWydv
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——她到底在背負些什麼?449Please respect copyright.PENANAFzZZGWad5A
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剛才也是,一個人坐在鞦韆上的時候,又在想什麼呢?449Please respect copyright.PENANAynIOWPFLGX
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「第三個。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAVnfQ6jb5BV
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眼看計時器倒數十五分鐘,柳思堇腦子一熱,「我——」449Please respect copyright.PENANAraM9G2yh68
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「妳喜歡巫祈海?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAFKMRCCT9Hm
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懸在心裡的質問,使她猛然踩了煞車。449Please respect copyright.PENANAvoLU1Xnp6j
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連自己都搞不懂的,又算什麼秘密啊⋯⋯449Please respect copyright.PENANAQq0RSqejbm
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暴露自我的不安,與想要了解對方的渴望產生衝突,在體內產生一股動力,正把自己往前推。449Please respect copyright.PENANAdl2hv4zaQc
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「我其實⋯⋯」壓抑胃裡翻騰的酸意,柳思堇低下頭,徬徨的指節緊揪衣襬,「喜歡⋯⋯」449Please respect copyright.PENANAmqjTcvtfs8
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她深吸一口氣,感覺毛孔都在顫抖。449Please respect copyright.PENANA0tPfLWxfTu
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最終真正打破寂靜的,並非回答,而是一陣響亮的碰撞聲。柳思堇餘光一瞥,能感覺巫祈海從上方溜了下來,最後因不明原因,停在下方不動。449Please respect copyright.PENANATGhT9NuSSG
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柳思堇睜大眼,立刻捕捉到她白皙的指尖上,正緩慢溢出鮮血。449Please respect copyright.PENANAheqT95tFkF
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於是,她立刻衝上前,彎身打算攙扶,「學姐!妳沒——」449Please respect copyright.PENANAwMLtWp8sM2
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哐!449Please respect copyright.PENANAmI4Ddaoy7B
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下個瞬間,一陣天旋地轉,柳思堇感覺自己被巫祈海一手拽過,重心不穩,雙手反射性撐起身體,最終變成趴臥姿勢,更因角度使然,幾乎是讓巫祈海整張臉貼在胸口。449Please respect copyright.PENANAaM3zFgZ9gv
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在如此憋屈的處境下,懷中的巫祈海出聲了,「所以,妳喜歡什麼?」449Please respect copyright.PENANAfqRA8CbKFA
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柳思堇感覺自己一腳踩入了陷阱,也從肌膚的寒顫上,意識到一個最為根本的問題。449Please respect copyright.PENANAGF0SzaHRga
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⋯⋯竟然在害怕啊。449Please respect copyright.PENANAo1L9YNlxI1
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時近七月底,距離當初答覆的期限,確實只剩不到一個月了。嘗試與真相碰撞的後果,就是可能兩敗俱傷。449Please respect copyright.PENANAIKrQfn7kOi
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明明不喜歡擁抱,也不覺得需要擁抱,卻在動搖的時刻,希望藉由不像樣的肢體接觸,渴望從對方身上得到些什麼。449Please respect copyright.PENANAlnyO0W00tq
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兩隻刺蝟擁抱的話,會因為張揚的刺而傷害彼此嗎?449Please respect copyright.PENANAJVH8oDRr6f
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我們的關係,會因為這個回答,迎來終結嗎?449Please respect copyright.PENANAa79SUp1lGX
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不安的人,正是自己。449Please respect copyright.PENANAQXqjfRX27M
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「沒事的。」看穿了這份忐忑,巫祈海伸出雙手,用力環住柳思堇的腰際,「無論說什麼,我都不會遠離妳。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAAGZks1Z82o
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如此簡單的動作,卻大幅減少了心中的亂流。柳思堇初次理解,擁抱或許是有意義的,是類似止痛劑般的存在。449Please respect copyright.PENANA6oZILnfFxQ
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一直以來,在來不及感到疼痛前,自己就預備了所有止痛的方法,強行隔絕一切,深怕被人再次揭開瘡疤。449Please respect copyright.PENANA6CqiEzO5Bz
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但在這個人面前,確實有股無論揭示多深刻的傷痕,都能被接受的安穩感。449Please respect copyright.PENANAPM5J2HwS4l
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「⋯⋯喜歡⋯⋯」於是,柳思堇小心翼翼動著身體,拉開兩人的距離,閉上雙眼,用氣音回答,「⋯⋯女⋯⋯女生⋯⋯」449Please respect copyright.PENANApJiERJfTrx
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最終,比起無法曖昧的答案,還是選擇了篤定的答案。449Please respect copyright.PENANADuP3fBGnDJ
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腦袋頓時熱得發脹,像殼裡鑽入成千上百隻蚊蚋,擠得水泄不通。柳思堇不敢睜眼,深怕看見對方任何一丁點嫌棄的反應。449Please respect copyright.PENANAUujuoEk6e0
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而下一秒,溫熱的觸感在肌膚上劃開來。449Please respect copyright.PENANA66EFUwiqQI
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「嗯,那換我了。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAXa2kzUG2DX
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巫祈海抬起頭,用還沾著血的指尖,輕碰柳思堇泛紅的臉頰。449Please respect copyright.PENANAFcjskCzKwb
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「柳思堇。」449Please respect copyright.PENANAiM3bnaax2g
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紫灰色眼眸炯然地眨著,彷彿是黑暗中唯一的光源。449Please respect copyright.PENANAg9PATDtlF4
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「早在很久以前,我就認識妳了。」
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