Prologue324Please respect copyright.PENANALbD9rrrDJP
Heat burned her eyes, making them tear in defense, in despair.324Please respect copyright.PENANAZTNXkjJEny
Hating what was happening to them and before them.324Please respect copyright.PENANAcALLKh1Zja
The light was so bright, so hot.324Please respect copyright.PENANA8tKccyPD5q
Screams reached her ears, so high in volume and ferocity it almost made her eardrums bleed.324Please respect copyright.PENANAmSwhyfuH6j
Slowly realization hit her, screams?324Please respect copyright.PENANAuRgiiAFReW
no, just one. One scream, Hers 324Please respect copyright.PENANAlBIe180Gk5
In despair, she jolted upright on her bed.324Please respect copyright.PENANAFKRvpagXOl
Her breathing was still shallow and irregular as cold sweat poured down her sun-kissed skin.324Please respect copyright.PENANAViVy3n3bfm
Oh, how she hated going down memory lane. The guilt that rode along with it.324Please respect copyright.PENANAMg873IrIpr
Making her stomach twist in all different sorts of knots she didn't know how to untie.324Please respect copyright.PENANAWj0fBCW67B
She took a couple of deep breaths, steadying herself, before slowly standing up.324Please respect copyright.PENANArvcMWRtIJe
Daring a quick glance at the clock an exhausted sigh escaped her lips.324Please respect copyright.PENANARyUAnEpK4Z
It was 3 o'clock, freaking 3 o'clock in the morning!324Please respect copyright.PENANA0RXD0vC4uS
She sighed again. Well, at least she slept for a whole four hours this time.324Please respect copyright.PENANAjK67fTF1pX
In the ten years, since the insomnia started, she became an expert in power naps.324Please respect copyright.PENANAbtftcHX3Pd
She had to, to survive. As soon as her legs could carry her she made her way to the living room.324Please respect copyright.PENANAuhQP1w56Cu
As usual, she stayed in a hotel room, the hotel changing weakly sometimes daily when it was necessary.324Please respect copyright.PENANAEa4iOKOZsM
Traveling from country to country to chase the best and hardest competitions to improve her skills on track.324Please respect copyright.PENANAsPKCcChYDN
The only thing in her life she actually, sort of, cared about. Running, endurance, pushing herself beyond her limits made her brains stop going places she didn't want it to go. Stopping the memories, the guilt.324Please respect copyright.PENANATrqnqx866G
It was the only place where she was able to find peace of mind, for a little while at least.324Please respect copyright.PENANAeDp5H5od00
And she needed it more and more every day.324Please respect copyright.PENANAceYLkfx4nr
Having lost everything in her past, at the age of twelve, the track was also the only place she dared to let have any meaning to her. The rest of her life, her surroundings?324Please respect copyright.PENANAeJ05k9M6ls
Hell no!324Please respect copyright.PENANAOYr8UbvNA3
Shielding her heart meant she would nothing, nothing! have any meaning to her.324Please respect copyright.PENANAAmYUsc1pfk
That way it wouldn't hurt as much as you lost it. And after ten years of practice, she mastered the skill.324Please respect copyright.PENANAhIQq7DMdp2
Her heart was surrounded by a thick, impenetrable wall some would say, and she heard it more than once behind her back, as she walked through the halls of the college, that she seemed like a robot.324Please respect copyright.PENANAQQQ7RlRYCh
Unresponsive, unsympathetic to anything around her.324Please respect copyright.PENANAzaWEVYp46n
If she spoke more than twenty fully formed sentences in a day, not counting interviews and media, it was a lot and people found her silence, her preference for solitude simply. Well, unsettling.324Please respect copyright.PENANA4rkpSMCRr2
They didn't understand, would never be able to understand how it felt to have nothing. Nobody to care about you, to listen to you, to comfort you.324Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6x2Nj1egJ
So why would she bother trying to explain?324Please respect copyright.PENANAfZexV56eF1
They didn't care, not really. And they couldn't help her, or ease the pain she was now accustomed to.324Please respect copyright.PENANApwoQuDY6G4
They could however use her words for a couple of minutes of fame. Causing a sensation if the media ever found out the truth about what happened that night. That she lied. That she remembered everything.324Please respect copyright.PENANAqSv4JNwKgl
Everything!324Please respect copyright.PENANAW8PEeDXcn6
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After taking a shower her discomfort from the nightmare finally resided to the back of her mind.324Please respect copyright.PENANAE4aQNZct14
She was still on edge, was familiar with the feeling by now, and knew the only way to get rid of it was to run. Deplete her energy. There was a time she didn't know when to stop.324Please respect copyright.PENANA8nYLhiJFeo
More keen on punishing herself, for her involvement in past events, than making sure she would actually survive the run. More than once it had resulted in blackouts, cardiac arrest, and eventually involuntary hospitalization.324Please respect copyright.PENANAeNJsXFTDxq
Yeah, she was a mental case and many psychiatrists had tried to peek inside her brain, the turmoil of emotions raging inside of her.324Please respect copyright.PENANASe3fn3hUyS
Of course, as the scared little kid she used to be, she resisted every single one of them. Making her time there only worse.324Please respect copyright.PENANAthfiI4ZE1R
It all changed when Jonah, a junior high school coach and a total douche-bag, took it upon himself to teach her how to safely push her limits. How to become better and faster without causing major damage to herself.324Please respect copyright.PENANAn1UwlKPM4T
She despised the guy and was pretty sure the feeling was mutual. However, she couldn't deny what he had done for her. Pulling her out of a downward spiral, a dark place she never wished to go back to.324Please respect copyright.PENANAykY2BDe5ag
He gave her the outlet she needed to survive, to cope.324Please respect copyright.PENANANPEbpDAGSI
For that, she was thankful to him, and still was, but it didn't take long for their fragile cooperation to come to an abrupt end.324Please respect copyright.PENANAOFscgCV3Fd
He was a douche-bag after all.324Please respect copyright.PENANAUnQhuJaTys
He'd mistaken her silence for consent and started showing up at the most inappropriate times, the worst and the final blow to their teamwork, was showing up while she was showering.324Please respect copyright.PENANAncWvhB4sin
Without thinking twice she left, after kicking him in the groin that is, and never encountered him again.324Please respect copyright.PENANAvCRQUL0wVS
Lucas, who was her coach these days, was a totally different person. Calm, loyal to a fault and a devoted family man.324Please respect copyright.PENANAhB1qCTTbbj
She liked that he didn't hover, as long as she ate three meals a day and performed as expected, that is.324Please respect copyright.PENANAw4Dp7X7iuM
Recently though he did seem to notice the change within her.324Please respect copyright.PENANAthdi9ZYDI5
That he didn't hover obviously didn't mean he would let her suffer in silence.324Please respect copyright.PENANAf4j5SjHcd6
After yesterday's competition, he waited outside her dressing room. Guiding her to his office as soon as she tried to leave. They didn't speak, as was usual for them when it was just the two of them outside a working environment.324Please respect copyright.PENANAMohbcmIqyB
But his expression had said enough, tension radiated from his normally stoic face and his small lips were pressed into a thin line, all signs that she was not going to like what was going to happen when he opened that door.324Please respect copyright.PENANAM8TlTozXVu