
「你係咪有好多女性朋友㗎?」Priscilla對我說。538Please respect copyright.PENANALvRyzgYl3A
538Please respect copyright.PENANAbpv2nY5GCX
我:我冇乜女仔friend㗎。538Please respect copyright.PENANAOjYsOBupRj
538Please respect copyright.PENANACdXOL56o63
Priscilla:下?你咁都冇?偽娘唔係應該有好多女性朋友咩?538Please respect copyright.PENANAMeTFjD0Hpm
538Please respect copyright.PENANASrRAUAaiBB
我:幼稚園至到小學初期嗰時會,但而家冇曬呢種緣份lu。538Please respect copyright.PENANAroZqUOvnm4
我:講起上次拍拖,都已經係8年前,嗰個女仔係喺Facebook識。538Please respect copyright.PENANAVTwf7CK7uf
538Please respect copyright.PENANAWeikNS78fF
說著,我又跟Priscilla說起自己的情史。538Please respect copyright.PENANArPSDE0AgRi
538Please respect copyright.PENANAS4hnAZJcsV
在大年初一的早上,我和Priscilla在一家中式餐廳吃點心。538Please respect copyright.PENANASCOvXTDFqW
538Please respect copyright.PENANApEWqisDPfn
我是Andy,又名水神,是本長篇故事的主角。538Please respect copyright.PENANAW1BgIh68SN
538Please respect copyright.PENANAgfQWhl4zLC
這個長篇故事,就要先由我和Priscilla說起。538Please respect copyright.PENANA2dkFYu4ixp
538Please respect copyright.PENANAHzZUpg2bUs
就算沒有看過上一篇故事,看過前言的人,都大概知道我擁有「女裝大佬」我身份。538Please respect copyright.PENANAnaQ6Bu5hvy
538Please respect copyright.PENANAzQa8iJKir6
先報上自己的status和stage,A1,stage最高記錄是 3。538Please respect copyright.PENANAENg3lEFxlg
538Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7fTrylwP1
自從8年前和一個在Facebook認識的女生,談過一個月這麼久的戀愛之後,我就再沒有談過戀愛。538Please respect copyright.PENANAIeSScrDg0h
538Please respect copyright.PENANAF30bpl0FTN
甚至嚴格來講,從成年人的角度看,那只是霧水情緣,算不上是正式戀愛。538Please respect copyright.PENANAPQsh17pwQo
538Please respect copyright.PENANALeSyRbH4N8
為甚麼之後的8年都是單身?雖然我也有宅男的性格,但這不是主要原因。538Please respect copyright.PENANAxfMIGZtbaq
538Please respect copyright.PENANAtXzIHxU8tj
真正的原因,是我沒有把意欲投放到感情生活之上。用比喻說,就像一台電腦進入了休眠模式。538Please respect copyright.PENANAM4HnAuJ0SQ
538Please respect copyright.PENANAaUJZgxa6ZH
第二個主因,是我把「男生對女生存有性幻想」這件事,想成一件不乾淨的事情,然後再建立出「柏拉圖式的男女關係是最純潔」的價值觀;這也同時解釋了,為甚麼我一直只在stage 3 止步不前。538Please respect copyright.PENANAGd5Z6FX3oF
538Please respect copyright.PENANAAQyuwDDCpe
不像主流的宅男,我沒有心儀的網紅、主播、男神或女神。看到女神,我多數都在想:怎樣模仿她的衣著打扮?性方面,我頂多只是戀物。538Please respect copyright.PENANAubuhfqrIxh
538Please respect copyright.PENANAzgduSHHvKH
相信有不少人都會好奇,到底偽娘的感情生活是怎樣?找男生談戀愛?找女生談戀愛?538Please respect copyright.PENANAmvo3WajGj4
538Please respect copyright.PENANARqpG0h37bH
在社會的價值觀規範之下,很多人都會直覺地認為:偽娘就只有找男生談戀愛。538Please respect copyright.PENANANXAuqwvRKU
538Please respect copyright.PENANArvMDpsUEUQ
大錯特錯!偽娘也可以找女生談戀愛。538Please respect copyright.PENANAOdWbY5StpQ
538Please respect copyright.PENANAu0lw7I2UBg
我就是這種人。538Please respect copyright.PENANAClPGvyw1Bs
538Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0wIzplS1h
至於我的性取向,到底是甚麼?538Please respect copyright.PENANACWPINPyKO6
538Please respect copyright.PENANAdFHUcwn4Ub
我曾經回答過異性戀,也回答過無性戀;但無論如何,我就是最傾向找女生談戀愛。538Please respect copyright.PENANAZE74v1afHX
538Please respect copyright.PENANATYKMgwry45
「無性戀」這個字其實被人爭議了很久很久,有人說是的確存在,也有人說它只是個偽命題。538Please respect copyright.PENANAy3byZmYu4o
538Please respect copyright.PENANAowur10AW18
有些觀點認為,人不可能完全沒有「性」,要麼就是「性慾低下症」,不然就是受到後天的環境影響,例如文化、成長背景的影響,所以認為「無性戀」是個偽命題。538Please respect copyright.PENANAmkl44vnPFa
538Please respect copyright.PENANAqOiXs895HX
舉例說,有些人從小時候,所接受的教育,或者是被某些電視劇集所影響(一些低質劇集甚至把「性」和「性侵」劃些等號),讓他覺得:「性」是不乾淨的東西;然後就是令他以後都會抗拒進入性愛關係,形成所謂的「無性戀」。538Please respect copyright.PENANAr0Fs2gHXFL
538Please respect copyright.PENANAiJYHyJRhg4
這頓早茶,以AA制完。538Please respect copyright.PENANAp3uNRzo55Y
538Please respect copyright.PENANAEqDH4eXu2t
我送著Priscilla回家,在路上,「肢體接觸」這四個字像一個鋼造的框架,牢牢地鎖在自己的腦海裡,又是為做而做的接觸;我都是在最近才真正有「肢體接觸」這個概念的。538Please respect copyright.PENANAZI9D5pbBOm
538Please respect copyright.PENANA6359YqGjGv
在過馬路時,我眼睛又是瞄著她的手臀,想了一想,好不容易才敢伸手撓下去。538Please respect copyright.PENANAgz84cazp0c
538Please respect copyright.PENANAPPpo5KeOtk
我:下次再玩啦!538Please respect copyright.PENANAb9YVYgVB40
538Please respect copyright.PENANATU03o9URjX
Priscilla:來一個抱抱吧!538Please respect copyright.PENANA5HEQOH4gTc
538Please respect copyright.PENANAgZ9khp6bFg
在Priscilla家的大廳裡,我和她來了一個擁抱道別。538Please respect copyright.PENANASgo6e6Z24Y
538Please respect copyright.PENANAPvWcW3LgTi
這個擁抱,只能算是一般社交式的擁抱;因為我很清楚地感受到,她只是來了一秒,然後就抽身離開,彷彿不再讓我擁抱多幾秒。538Please respect copyright.PENANAhurlJFBQi6
538Please respect copyright.PENANAcBsyNUoBnh
到底,是真的無性戀,或只是未有把「性」這個靈魂解放出來?538Please respect copyright.PENANAwFsdFAEX33